Zhang Minglang paused, quickly turned around, he hugged me fiercely, his chin rested on my shoulder, his neck against mine, he was still warm, but he trembled all over, he said, "Chen Sansan, you can't leave me." , the latest chapter access: ШШШ.79xs.СоМ

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I felt like I was under a bottomless iceberg.

The cold is to the bone.

His reaction told me that he had a big secret to keep from me.

And this secret may ruin our greasy, crooked, peaceful and stable lives during this period of time.

I know that I am 'quite pitiful', I used to be cowardly enough to want to be confused to the end, so that I can carry out the illusion of happiness that has been good for all this time, but now I finally understand that illusion is illusion, just like Haishi Tower, surrounded by the love of many people, but when it should disappear, it will still disappear unceremoniously without a trace.

And people are cowardly to a certain extent, and they are brave once, and it is estimated that they will not hesitate to destroy everything regardless of their bodies.

So I bit my lip and asked him word by word: "Tell me, don't hide it from me again." ”

Zhang Minglang hugged me stiffly and said stiffly: "Don't say it." ”

I gritted my teeth, and finally squeezed out a few words from between my teeth: "Zhang Minglang, do you know who found someone to do that to me three years ago." ”

He was silent, like a lifeless log, but his arms were strong enough to hold me, refusing to let go.

I was finally so annoyed that I slapped him desperately, and as I struggled, I said, "You know what? Don't think I'm happy right now, but I've been very nervous these days, and I feel that one day you don't love me so much, you're going to dislike me, you're going to see the scars on my body again, you're going to keep minding, and then you're going to be patient, and finally we're going to exhaust that little bit of affection in this patience. ”

"So Zhang Minglang, I've been in a trance a lot lately, I think it's a dream, I'm afraid that if I wake up, there will be nothing. The more I'm afraid of losing you, the more I hate the scum who slashed at me. I'm not stupid, think about the year I came to Shenzhen, I worked in a coffee shop in a regular manner, I didn't offend anyone, someone sent me a text message to let me out, that person knows you, and knows where we went that night, even a hotel room number is clear and clear, so this person, either the person who hates you very much, hates you so much that he wants to attack me as a 'woman'. Either it's someone close to you, who may be afraid that you will be ruined by me, so he has to 'force' me to leave in such a way that violates humanity....."

Before I finished speaking, Zhang Minglang suddenly let out a low whimper.

Then, I heard him say, "Chen Sansan, forgive me, don't leave me." ”

This sentence, like thunder, was stuffed into my heart by his own hands, and I felt that before I could pull the lead, my heart had been blown into a bloody 'flesh' blur.

With a trembling voice, I said with difficulty, "You have to tell me first what I should forgive you." If you don't say it, then I never know what I have to forgive you. And according to my 'sexual' personality, it is impossible to have sand in my eyes, and I have to 'knead' the sand and hurt all the way. ”

Zhang Minglang was still silent, confronting me, not knowing what he was holding onto.

I was still so uncute, and I finally said again: "Just now, I met the man who texted me out that night, and Lin Qicheng told me that it was your uncle." ”

Zhang Minglang's arms were still shaking, his fingers were cold, his tears fell down my neck and into my clothes, and the cold liquid stretched downward, stabbing me painfully.

Then I heard him say, "My mother asked my uncle to do it." ”

These few simple words almost broke my heart.

I relaxed and didn't have the strength to struggle anymore, but continued to ask weakly: "What about the 300,000?" ”

Zhang Minglang was stunned again, and finally said in a dumb voice: "A few days before the graduation ceremony, I told my mother about us, I said I wanted to take you back, and my mother told me, maybe you are greedy for money to talk to me." My mom said help me to see if you were sincere to me, and if I didn't let her try, she wouldn't agree to us, and I finally couldn't beat my mom, so I agreed. ”

At that moment, my heart was like a glass in his hand, and he gently slammed it to the ground, crisp and broken, dull and terrifying, shattering to the ground.

"She just started telling me that I would give her the room number, and she would find someone to text you to get the money, and if you do go, then I'm going to break up with you. If you didn't go, she relaxed the request and kept us together. ”

"At that time, I had never been out of society, I think you can trust, don't say 300,000, give you 3 million and you won't leave me. So I went to sleep with peace of mind. But then I woke up in the morning and I didn't see you again. ”

"After my mom was in a car accident, my uncle said to me, you took the money and ran away. I didn't believe it, so he showed me the receipt with your fingerprint, and I hesitated, combined with the text message you gave me, I believed it. ”

I'm where I am today.

After all, I was too cheap, obviously I 'forced' him to confess at first, but when he confessed, I finally lost control, reached out and covered my ears, and muttered with tears in my eyes: "Please, don't say it, enough is enough." ”

After that, I pushed him away, ran into the bedroom as fast as I could, hurriedly packed my suitcase, I couldn't control my thinking at all, I just numbly rummaged through my clothes from the closet, and I didn't put them in the suitcase, but threw them all on the ground, I felt like I didn't want to stay here for a second, I felt like I had to run away, I felt like it was all enough.

Zhang Minglang suddenly rushed up, hugged me tightly from behind and said, "Chen Sansan, you promised not to leave me, you have to count what you say." ”

I paused, broke free from him, turned my head, stared at him and said coldly: "Three years ago, you said that you would protect me well, but did you do it?" ”

"Not only did you not do it, but you became an accomplice, and you became an accomplice to your mother to find someone to spoil me. Zhang Minglang: Do you know? I've had nightmares over the years, I've dreamed of those scum scum, slashing knives at me, I've dreamed of them grabbing me, I've dreamed of crying so much, I still feel dirty, I don't think I'm worthy of you. ”

"And then, I confess, you acted very mindful at first, and then you didn't mind, I think you were cowardly for me to that point, I feel distressed, I pity, I feel that I owe you something, I will be doubly good to you in the future, but now you fucking tell me that you are an accomplice! Zhang Minglang, you are an accomplice! I'm so miserable, thanks to you! “

I pointed my finger at his heart and said coldly.

Then, when his face became darker and his eyes were more and more overwhelmed with sadness, I said, "Zhang Minglang, between us, it's over." ”

I was incoherent, but I knew very well that we might be doomed.

Some people can scold me for being hypocritical, some people can scold me for being dead, or they can scold me for being more serious after so long things have passed, but I know clearly and clearly that I am sad or he was not so naïve and became an accomplice, pushing me into the abyss of a darker and more cage, and making me so dilapidated but still pure and white. Spring' became a peach that was determined to rot when there was a gap, and made me so cowardly and cautious that I was so miserable and miserable, that he was determined to hide all this and be doubly good to me, so good that I was so good that compared to the cruel brand he gave me, my heart was like being thrown into the furnace and burned, and I was so painful that I had no strength to shed tears.

But I was glad that I still had the strength to escape, I walked to the 'door', and trembled my fingers to press the familiar and unfamiliar password, I thought about how helpless I was in those two months of that year, which you could not predict, and I thought countless times about how I could not die in such a filthy self, and I wondered if someone would love him more than I would later love if I died.

And at this time, this accomplice man, this man I loved deeply but couldn't, this man who I had been staggered for three years in the name of my too dirty, he was accompanied by other red faces around him.

All of this is really enough.

I was like this, running down in the middle of the night, the cold wind of the mangrove forest was coming, the smell of the sea was still slightly fishy, I thought I could still cry, I thought I still had tears, but no.

My eyes were like the dry desert earth, so thirsty that I could no longer let out a wail, I could not find an oasis, and I never wanted to die more than today.

Then I was grabbed by my hand from behind.

I heard Zhang Minglang's pleading, and he said, "Chen Sansan, can't you go?" ”

But Zhang Minglang, I can't find a reason to stay.

So I tried to break free like a madman, so I didn't go to the road where people would laugh when they were seen, I shook my head, my hair was thrown all over by me, I felt like I had to find a place to hide and cry slowly, I felt that I didn't want this man to touch me again.

So, I finally shook off his hand, and I fell uncontrollably to the ground because of habit.

The moment I fell, the world was spinning, and under me was the cold cement floor, and in front of me was the lonely and vast stars in the winter of Shenzhen.

They winked at me, and I couldn't tell if they were staring at me from afar, and like me, their hearts were broken like ashes at this moment.

And Zhang Minglang, you are still like those stars, flickering and flickering, which is a beauty that I can't touch.

And I was wrong, I only knew that the stars were beautiful, and I didn't know that the stars that were far away and dazzling, just like the earth, were composed of all kinds of minerals, and they were beautiful and dirty after the corruption of the times.

The back of my head hurt from the ground, and I even wanted to hit it hard again, knocking out the warm liquid and letting it quickly entangle with my hair.

I was so tired that I didn't want to go anymore, and I was even crazy about sleeping here for a long time.

Then I was in a dizziness, and I heard Zhang Minglang constantly calling my name, and I didn't want to answer him, so I closed my eyes and mouth, and fell asleep.

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