I licked my dry lips, he quickly helped me up, took another pillow and leaned behind me, I looked at him and asked, "How is the child?" ”

This premature birth without warning, I can't make any preparations, and even now, I don't know what the name of the child is, and I haven't discussed this issue with Fu Yeqing before.

"The child is fine, he is a daughter, six pounds and six taels, and now she is in the incubator." He kept holding my hand, the warmth from the palm of his hand reached the bottom of his heart, he got up and put his forehead against my head, the tip of his nose against the tip of his nose, slowly closed his eyes, and the familiar breath was on his face: "An An, thank you for having you in this life." ”

I didn't rush to see the child, I bent the corners of my mouth, closed my eyes and enjoyed the moment of peace with him.

Fu Yeqing gave the child a name, a single name and a glass character.

Fu Li, I don't know if this means separation, or if I look forward to not leaving.

Jiayin learned that I was born prematurely, so she dragged Wang Dongjun with her just after noon.

"Why did you suddenly give birth prematurely, it really scared me, fortunately the mother and daughter are safe, by the way, how do you feel? What about my goddaughter? ”

I smiled and said, "It's good, the kid is in the incubator." ”

Jiayin breathed a sigh of relief, when the woman spoke, Wang Dongjun and Fu Yeqing also went out, Jiayin glanced at Fu Yeqing who went out, and wondered: "How do I feel that Fu Yeqing seems to be wrong, I didn't see him smile as soon as I came in, with a straight face, what, because you were unhappy because you gave birth to a daughter?" Isn't it good that this son and daughter have all of them? ”

I explained, "He was very happy when he heard that it was his daughter, probably because he was tired from the night's vigil. ”

Jiayin was not suspicious, and after accompanying me for a while, she muttered that she was going to see the child, but she didn't let me go with me, and I found a nurse to accompany her, so I let her go.

During the three days in the hospital, Fu Yeqing has always been with him, and sometimes when he is too busy, sometimes Wang Lin brings food over, and Jiajia heard that she has a younger sister, and she happily muttered that she wanted to see it.

I took Jiajia to the nursery to see, through the glass, Xiaoli closed her eyes and fell asleep quietly in the incubator, her little hands, her little feet, her little face was still a little yellow, looking at her immature face, her eyebrows and eyes were more like me, and the corners of her mouth that were sometimes pulled by the sleeping Xiaoli looked like Fu Yeqing, and the little Xiaoli, looking at it, suddenly had an urge to cry.

Jiajia pointed to Xiao Li in the glass and said happily: "Mom, I will have a sister in the future, but my sister is so ugly." ”

The urge to cry turned into a smile when I heard Jiajia say this: "When my sister grows up, she will be beautiful, and Jiajia will protect her sister well in the future, you know?" ”

Jiajia clenched her little fist and nodded heavily, and said like an oath: "Well, I will definitely protect my sister and not let people bully my sister." ”

I rubbed Jiajia's head and hugged him in my arms, Fu Yeqing came over at some point, holding me with his long arms.

At that time, I was happy and sad.

The people I love and the people who love me are here, in the incubator is my daughter, I leaned on Fu Yeqing's arms, hugged Jiajia, through the glass, the shadows of our family were reflected on it, the happiest is nothing more than this, the saddest is nothing more than that.

The smile on my face was not forced, but it was broken when I looked happy.

The child still has to stay in the incubator for a while, I can go back first, but I can't help it, going back means I don't look at Xiaoli anymore.

What supported me to leave ruthlessly was hatred, I abandoned Fu Yeqing, abandoned Jiajia, but now, once I leave, those who support me, whether it is love or hate, have disappeared, and there is nothing.

The people I love, but I can't always be with them, and I can't see my children grow up.

It's not that I didn't think about taking the child away, I don't think Fu Yeqing will stop me, leaving him, I have nothing, but what if I take him away?

Some things are intangible, and they can't be given up or taken away.

Fu Yao'er came to see me in the hospital, she came alone, and she didn't, because she brought Jiang Xiuqin's words, she stood in front of the glass window with me and looked at Xiaoli, and said beside me: "Sister An'an, my mother asked you to leave when Xiaoli was full moon." ”

When Fu Yao'er said this, her own voice choked up in the middle of the conversation, but I looked at my Xiaoli and smiled: "I know." ”

Fu Yeqing had asked me to go with him to get the certificate more than once, but I refused, now I want to come, it's okay, it's troublesome to leave again, some things, one time is enough.

"Leave? Where to go? Chu An, what's going on? "As soon as I finished speaking, Jiayin came and heard our words.

For the thing to leave, I have been hiding from Jiayin, when Simu called me to congratulate me on giving birth to Xiaoli, I didn't say that I was leaving, Simu's shoulder, I can selfishly rely on it once, there must not be a second time, even if I know, as long as I turn back and don't give Simu any return, he still guards me wholeheartedly and gives me the most stable life, I must not do that.

I think that if I had gone back in time, I would not have chosen that way the first time, and if not, Simu might have her own happiness and her own family now.

Fu Yao'er and I looked at Jiayin who suddenly appeared in surprise, she hurriedly walked up and asked again, "Chu'an, where are you going?" Do you still imagine saying goodbye back then? Just because of a Jiang Xiuqin, what is she? What about Fu Yeqing? What does he mean? Does he want his mother to have a wife and children? ”

Faced with Jiayin's questions one by one, for a while, I didn't know how to answer, seeing that I was silent, Jiayin looked at Fu Yao'er and said indignantly: "It's your mother's meaning to want Chu'an to leave, isn't it?" I'll just ask, what is Jiang Xiuqin? Your Fu family is really gone, An's parents are gone, and there is no mother's family, so it's easy to bully, right? If any of you let Chu An go, I, Yang Jiayin, will be the first to disagree, so I'll call Fu Yeqing now and ask him what he means. ”

Fu Yao'er explained: "Sister Jiayin, my brother doesn't want to be separated from Sister An An, but he is also in a dilemma, my mother threatens her life, what can he do?" ”

Jiayin said angrily: "He's a big man who can't even solve this kind of thing, what kind of man is he, there's no way, then I'll call and ask." ”

Jiayin really took out her mobile phone as she spoke, and I hurriedly stopped: "Jiayin, don't call, don't use it." ”

Jiayin could already figure out Fu Yeqing's meaning from my words, she looked at it for a while, and said with hatred: "Chu'an, look at it, this is the daughter you worked so hard to give birth to, are you really willing to want her?" I don't believe in any bullshit grievances, that's the business of the elders, what do you care? If this Jiang Xiuqin had stopped it again, hadn't she jumped off the building and not fallen to her death? Fu Yeqing can't do it, you can't move it, then I'll push her now, everyone will be relieved if she dies. ”

Jiang Xiuqin has been lying in the hospital for more than ten years, and the expectations and hatred in Fu Yeqing's heart have also been fermented for more than ten years, and the hatred can be offset with love, but how can that expectation, the expectation of his mother, be abandoned, even if Jiang Xiuqin wakes up very disappointed, it is also his mother.

Jiang Xiuqin can be regarded as a person who has died once, so in order to force Fu Yeqing, she can really choose to die a second time.

I grabbed Jiayin: "Jiayin, don't go, stay here with me for a while." ”

The anger and hatred in Jiayin's eyes are not steel, and I see that I am not free enough, I can't be like Jiayin, I can do whatever I want.

In this love, I already feel tired, I don't care about Jiang Xiuqin's life and death, what I care about is Fu Yeqing, if as long as I leave, I can avoid the loss of a human life, I will choose to take this road.

Fu Yao'er saw that Jiayin was here with me, so she stayed for a while and left, Jiayin exhaled helplessly, and poked my head with her hand: "Why are you so stupid, this Jiang Xiuqin is so scourge, God just doesn't have long eyes, why didn't she fall to death back then, and she was quiet when she died." ”

Jiayin was also angry before saying this.

I smiled indifferently: "Although I think so with you, but God doesn't think the same as us, Jiang Xiuqin is not only alive, but also fine, but what do you want me to do?" How about Fu Yeqing? Deal with a Jiang Xiuqin who has no legs and no eyes? Did it really drive her to death? ”

Although Jiang Xiuqin is very hateful, I can still think of the horror in my heart when I first saw Jiang Xiuqin, if there is no human skin, it is completely like a disabled person with dry bones, no eyes and legs.

What Jiang Xiuqin has experienced, we don't understand, I will hate what she did to me, she also has the right to hate what the first family did to her, and even transfer this to me, even if I can't think about it from her point of view, go to see, but Jiang Xiuqin is hateful, why not pity?

When I didn't know that I was Chu Licheng's daughter, Jiang Xiuqin could treat me as a daughter-in-law, and after knowing that, she could treat me as an enemy, and I should have no complaints.

If Jiang Xiuqin was all wrong, how could Fu Yeqing let Jiang Xiuqin go, but Jiang Xiuqin targeted me, just because of this identity, I have the blood of my first family in my body, and this cannot be changed.

How to judge right and wrong in this grievance? How do you choose?

There really is no one right answer, and it is possible for ten people to have eleven answers.

Xiaoli has to stay in the hospital for more than half a month, I don't want to be discharged, I just want to accompany me in the hospital, but how could Fu Yeqing let me mess around, I don't even want my own body, I stayed in the hospital for a few days and then took it back, everything in my confinement was done by Fu Yeqing himself.

I wash clothes and cook, cook me confinement meals every day, and sometimes I am so hungry that I eat four or five times a day.

When I got home, I started to breastfeed, Xiaoli was in the hospital again, and when I couldn't sleep at night, I was extremely depressed, and I couldn't see anything very unpleasant, and I wanted to get angry.

Fu Yeqing taught himself massage techniques to dredge me, so that he felt much better, but the mood was still low, and I felt a little precursor to postpartum depression.

Lying in his arms, sometimes thinking that things are not going well, my brain is hot, I will open my mouth and bite his chest to relieve his breath, he does not say that it hurts, only patted me gently along the back, and said in my ear with the lowest decibels: "I will not let you leave, believe me." ”