I'm starting to have nightmares again.

Those dreams that seemed to disappear seemed to be rooted in my bones overnight, as soon as I fell asleep, it quickly ran to intrude, in the gray 'mist' 'mist' 'mist', I struggled, screamed, and when I raised my head, I saw Zhang Minglang holding Su Xiaomi's waist and looking indifferently not far away, and then a child came over and called his father.

These dreams were so scary that I woke up all at once, feeling that I was in a cold sweat, and I reached out and 'touched' my forehead, which was terrifyingly hot.

I felt thirsty again, 'groped' and turned on the light to get up, and opened the bedroom door in a daze and walked out, wanting to go to the refrigerator to find some water to drink, but I heard Zhang Minglang talking on the phone in a low voice on the balcony.

He spoke so quietly that I couldn't hear what he was saying, and I could only see his side face in the middle of the night in the moonlight, still as handsome as before, but it didn't seem to be able to touch me half a point like before.

I just stuck to the wall, holding the cold mineral water, unscrewing the lid and drinking it constantly, and constantly looking at him, I felt thirsty and tired to the extreme.

Suddenly, a gust of wind blew, and I shivered, my throat moved, and I coughed uncontrollably several times in a row.

Zhang Minglang, who had been talking on the phone, seemed to have just been pulled back by my cough, he hung up the phone, obviously rushing over in a hurry, but his tone was very indifferent: "What's wrong?" ”

I looked at his face, under the vast night 'color', it seemed to have some urgent care, but the lightness in his tone seemed a little abnormal, as if something had been divided.

Retracting my gaze, I whispered, "It's okay, I'm thirsty, come out to drink water, and now go back to sleep." ”

Zhang Minglang suddenly stretched out his hand to 'touch' my face, and when he touched it, he exclaimed: "Chen Sansan, why is your face so hot?" ”

I snorted.

I already knew, not only was my face hot, but I also felt top-heavy, probably because not long ago, I jumped into a small pool, and then on the way back Xie Cunhui turned on the big air conditioner, and finally I came back and felt too cold to take a hot bath, hot and cold 'alternately', a cold is a very simple thing.

Once a person is sick, he is even more fragile than before, and I am still afraid of his coldness, and I don't want the little warmth that I need to get when I am sick, so I took off his hand, and I said, "It's okay, maybe it's hot, sleep, good night." ”

However, he had to turn on the lamp and turn over the cabinet to find me cold 'medicine', to boil me hot water, and let me take the 'medicine' before I could go to sleep.

I was so tired that I didn't chirp anymore, but obediently swallowed the 'medicine', and then climbed onto the 'bed' and lay down.

As soon as I lay down, a cool 'wool' towel covered my head.

In my heart, there were so many emotions 'intersecting' together, and it seemed that the fluid that represented fragility was also rolling back and forth in my eyes, so I closed my eyes tightly, and I was pretending to be trying hard to sleep.

With his eyes closed, his consciousness was still there, and he felt that there was darkness in front of him, and if there was a little moisture in such darkness, it would seem very subtle.

Then, my hand was grabbed and rubbed back and forth, and the people around me sighed slightly and said, "Why don't you know how to take care of yourself so much, how can I rest assured." ”

Even if it was a subtle word, I heard something different.

Does that mean that you Zhang Minglang are going to abandon me, you are still so unforgettable, you are still afraid that I don't know how to take care of myself, you still love me, but you still have a thousand reasons to leave me, right?

Then, I hastened to comfort myself that it was just wishful thinking on my part.

The more I thought about it, the heavier it became, and I really fell asleep in a daze.

When I woke up the next day, the floor was mopped, clean as new, my clothes were washed and dried, the kittens were fed, and there was a note on the dining table, and he said, "I went to work and boiled white porridge for you, in the pot." I checked your temperature just now, and the fever has subsided, if you are still uncomfortable, call me. ”

It was a very simple note, and it began to smell a little fireworks, and I grabbed it in my hand as if I had grasped a treasure that I couldn't afford to lose.

In a daze, the phone suddenly rang sharply.

I picked it up and looked at it, and it was an unfamiliar number.

I pressed one at random, and I said, "Hello." ”

Zhang Bailing's voice came from the other end.

It is estimated that his old coughing problem has been committed again, and he began to cough before he could speak, so that I couldn't help but feel that he just called me to cough.

But I was in a bad mood, and I wasn't in the mood to complain, but waited patiently there, waiting for what he wanted to say.

He finally suppressed those coughs and asked me in a cold voice, "Come to the house to find me." ”

When I thought that he had reached out and slapped me a few days ago, when I thought that he knew that Fu Wanying had done something to me, but he easily treated it as if nothing had happened, and when I thought that he was so ruthless to my children and his grandson, I couldn't be polite to him.

So I also said in a cold tone: "Something said on the phone." ”

It is estimated that he thinks that I, Zhang Bailing, am so good, why don't you send me a knee to be polite to me, Zhang Bailing's tone is even more unpleasant, and he said coldly: "I'll say it again, come to the house to find me." ”

I laughed sarcastically and didn't answer.

Zhang Bailing suddenly became angry, and said to the phone: "Chen Sansan, if you still care a little bit about Zhang Minglang and don't want to ruin him, come to me!" ”

I finally relented, didn't even drink the porridge, changed my clothes, ran downstairs and took a taxi, and went straight to the Rose Coast.

This is the first time I have stepped into this seemingly extravagant place with Zhang Minglang.

Forgive me, as I walked in slowly, I suddenly felt a little cold, and I stared at the staircase that went upstairs, where I had lost my child not long ago.

Things in this world are like this, revisiting the old land, sometimes it is so easy to involve those memories that you don't want to remember, it is like a naughty bird, active and fluttering in the heart.

Finally, I withdrew my gaze in this empty and unhumane place, and went directly to the study to find him as Zhang Bailing said.

Without waiting for his instructions, I sat down directly on the sofa, poured myself a glass of water, took a sip, and put it down slowly.

Zhang Bailing put out half of the cigarette he had smoked in the ashtray and said lightly: "You guys should get a divorce." ”

I was stunned, looking at him without saying a word, waiting for his next sentence.

Zhang Bailing chuckled a little contemptuously, slowly took a checkbook from the coffee table and threw it to me, and said lightly: "Fill it out yourself." ”

Hehe, I can't bear to say that tyrant's tone.

I didn't touch the check, but tilted my face and said in a lighter tone, "You give me as much as I want?" ”

Zhang Bailing squinted at me with disdain, and said lightly: "Of course not, I will also consider whether you are worth so much." ”

I laughed again, stood up and said, "If you call me over next time and let me break up with Zhang Minglang, don't look for me again about this, I don't have time to 'waste' money with you." If you have the ability, let your son take the initiative to leave me. ”

Zhang Bailing also stood up, and for the first time, he didn't make me so angry that he died, but said very firmly: "I called you here today for the sake of my fellow villagers and for the sake of your children, so I wanted to give you money." It's okay if you don't take it, I dare to guarantee that you won't get any benefit at all, and it will be over between you and Minglang. ”

I groaned, turned around and left.

Before opening the 'door', Zhang Bailing snorted coldly and said slowly: "If you really like my son, you should focus on his future future, he married you, a 'woman' with no background, no culture, and no connotation, it was a ruin from the beginning." You don't have any self-knowledge, and you don't know how to weigh yourself, whether you can reach his height. I used to think about agreeing to you and forget it, but you are still so naïve when you marry into such a family, you can't even keep your own children, you say, are you useless. It just so happened that Xiaomi, she and Minglang have a son, I am very optimistic about her work ability, she can be a good helper in the future, her family background is also good, in short, eighteen degrees better than you, why can't you fulfill it? What's more, you're tired of living like this. ”

I groaned, my throat dry.

Finally, without saying anything more, I opened the 'door' and walked out, and slammed the 'door' for him.

His last sentence: "I'll give you time to think about it, and call me when you've thought about it." ”

I was locked behind me.

A little lost my soul, I stumbled, on the one hand, I was annoyed that Zhang Bailing wanted to use money to pass me away, and on the other hand, I actually felt that he was right.

Or I didn't deserve it from the beginning.

I originally thought that the general match of love only needs to follow the fit of the heart, and there is no need to care about whether a person is perfect or not, whether the work ability is strong or not, whether the family environment is good or not, and there is no need to calculate whether to be the right person.

But I have never felt that Zhang Bailing was right as I am today.

I still don't deserve it, I'm a little tired.

I'm just looking for someone, after the days of ordinary firewood, rice, oil and salt, I will give him a child, he can still take me and the child to press the road after work, I will also make food for them, and I will wait for him to come home in a panic on a rainy day, afraid that he will have trouble on the road, afraid that he will have an accident. Just lived this life sweetly, peacefully and panickedly.

In fact, we who have experienced a lot of sinister life, who is not pursuing such a simple and ordinary life without 'twists' and turns?

However, I forgot that I yearn for an ordinary and simple life, so I have to find an ordinary person.

And I, the fault is that I am either in love with someone I shouldn't be in love.

He wasn't ordinary in the first place, he wasn't as ordinary as me.

Behind me, there is the cruel truth of the adoptive family who are abusive all day long, and who know life prematurely in poverty.

And behind him, it is piled up with money, and no matter how much 'fog' is removed, you can't see the luxurious and complex rich family of family affection.

The only thing we have in common is, in fact, that we are all a little unlucky to have such a home.

Thinking back to Zhang Minglang's abnormality in the past two days, sadness came to his heart like this, I think he may also be tired, he thinks he has to let go when he walks here, right?

I stumbled along, trying to figure it out, and then, in a flash, someone jumped out and dragged me upstairs.

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