Originally, I was wondering why I was talking to Ling Lingling about this, but when I heard her say this, I looked at her quickly and strangely, and I couldn't understand the meaning of her words for a while.

Anyway, she blackmailed too fast, right? This meal hasn't even come up yet, and it's already scheduled for the next meal?

I guess I saw something in my eyes. Ling Lingling said softly with a rare smile on his face

"I'm not joking with you, it's already cheap for you to owe me another meal, otherwise it would have been without me... Maybe your life before was completely different from what it is now."

Ling Lingling's words made my already dizzy head even more chaotic, and I stared at her, my eyes full of doubts.

After a while, I moved my mouth and asked weakly

"What do you mean, why don't I understand?" ”

As soon as the words fell, Ling Lingling put down her hand and sat up straight, she paused for a moment before speaking again

"Because. I used to be a broadcaster at this school... The girl you like has a chance to go on the radio because I'm not going to the radio anymore. Then you hear the voice and get acquainted with you again. So to say .."

"You should thank me, if I hadn't stopped broadcasting, maybe you wouldn't have heard her voice, wouldn't have met her, and wouldn't have had any intersection with her, for such a reason, you can't owe me another meal, right?"

As soon as Ling Lingling finished speaking, I was stunned.

It took almost half a minute for me to come back to my senses, look at her in surprise and ask

"What do you mean. You used to be a school announcer too? ”

Ling Ling Ling nodded at me, indicating that this was what he meant.

The moment she finished nodding, the waiter took all the things she had just ordered and put down a bottle of liquor.

After the waiter left, Ling Lingling spoke again

"Later, I didn't come to school for a while, so I stopped broadcasting, and it's really weird that you can like people just by listening to your voice."

At this point, I was completely immersed in surprise, and I didn't notice her later words that were a little ridiculous, and I looked at her and asked in disbelief

"You're a broadcaster?" So why.. You stopped broadcasting later? Why haven't you been to school in a while? ”

It was so strange to say, and I suddenly remembered that Wang Jiaci once told me the reason why she became a broadcaster. And said that the previous broadcaster didn't know why she didn't broadcast anymore, so she just ran to broadcast, if what Ling Lingling said was true, that means that the person Wang Jiaci said was Ling Lingling? And it's true that if it weren't for Ling Lingling's stop broadcasting, Wang Jiaci wouldn't be a broadcaster, and I wouldn't have heard her voice?

Thinking of this, I looked at Ling Lingling seriously, only to see that she seemed to be stopped by my question, and after a while, she unscrewed the liquor on the side, shook her head and said

"I asked you to invite me to dinner because I wanted to hear your complaints, maybe you would feel better, but I didn't ask you questions." So.. There are some things you still don't know."

I could tell that Ling Lingling didn't want to say this, and the spirit that had just recovered a little bit was relaxed again.

It's true that what she said is very right, and there are some things that I still don't know, right?

If I didn't know anything, I would think that Wang Jiaci was studying abroad.

If I didn't know anything, I would have kept fantasizing about the day when I would meet her again.

But now I know everything.

Knowing her struggles, knowing what she has always wanted, even her whole life, to let me know.

Thinking of this, the sour feeling spread in my body again, I lowered my head and was silent for a while, but I still raised my head, looked at Ling Lingling in front of me and said slowly

"I know why she left me... I see.."

Perhaps sensing something wrong in my tone, Ling Lingling's hand stopped, and his gaze moved to mine.

I took a deep breath under her gaze and muttered quietly

"She's sick, she's been sick since before I knew her, and I didn't even notice it once... The doctor said she wouldn't live to be 20 years old, and I now realize that she had a lot of wrong behaviors when she was with me, and it must have been her health that was getting worse and worse before she left me. I don't know where she went, I don't know if she went to school or went to treatment, I don't want to believe that she was sick at all, but in my heart... I actually began to believe it.. I.."

I couldn't go on with the rest of the words, and then I lowered my head, only to feel the suffocating feeling start to eat at me again.

And Ling Lingling was obviously stunned by my words, she frowned, and the expression on her face became a little sad with me.

It didn't take long for her voice to sound, very soft

"That's it, so.. You're just crying like that."

After that, she and I fell silent, the hot pot in the middle of the table was already boiling, and the water was gurgling and boiling.

After a while, Ling Lingling seemed to sigh and spoke again

"Are you still crying?" We can go out and find a place where no one is there and make you cry a little longer."

Ling Lingling's words made me raise my head, I shook my head, and said with a little choked up

"Can't cry, tears... Probably a streamer.. And.. Even if you cry, nothing will change.."

When I said this, I couldn't tell if I was laughing at myself or what, Ling Lingling heard me say this and was quiet for a while, then he reached out and poured some liquor into my cup, and then said

"Since you also know that being sad won't change anything, why don't you want to open a point?" ”

I reached out and rubbed my eyes, whispering

"How can you think about it, such a thing, how can you think about it.."

Ling Lingling may have been a little flustered by my news, and she stared at me as if she didn't know how to continue to comfort me.

But it didn't take long for her to sigh and ask

"Then what do you think now? Where did you hear about it, can you be sure? ”

I looked at her when I heard her ask this, not knowing whether I should nod or shake my head.

It was a long time before I spoke of the Blood.

"It was her former teacher who told me that I am now.. I just want to see her, I have a lot to say to her, even if it's just to talk to her on the phone and listen to her voice..."

"But... It's been a long time since I've heard from her, and I don't even know how she's doing.."

As soon as these words came out, my eyes became hollow, and every sentence seemed to remind myself that Wang Jiaci had been away from my life for so long.

There is no more world of her voice, no more world of seeing her.

This cruel reality made me feel tired from the depths of my heart, and I suddenly understood why Wang Jiaci would say to me when I was on the roof that day, "Let's kill ourselves together." In that case.

My ears suddenly rang with the words she said to me, "Even if I really want to die, I am reluctant to let Xiao Xiaoming accompany me."

I don't know how determined Wang Jiaci was to leave me, but I clearly recall that day when she said, "I want to live, of course I want to live." The sorrow hidden in his eyes.

The most painful person is not me, it's Wang Jiaci, right?

I endured everything alone, and I had to pretend to be calm and leave me.

The person who can act better than me is actually her, right?

At this time, the buzzing sound began to sound in my head again, and the sound made my consciousness blur and my heart became agitated.

And Ling Lingling, who was on the other side, seemed to fall into a memory after seeing me finish speaking, and didn't interrupt me after all.

But just as she stared at me for a moment, she said in a hesitant tone as if she had thought of something

"Actually, I have a solution... Maybe you'll be able to see her.."

Ling Lingling's words made me come back to my senses suddenly, I looked at her, my voice trembled, and I asked in disbelief

"What did you say?" You have a way.. Let me see her? ”

Seeing my nervous appearance, Ling Lingling was still a little hesitant, she nodded first, and then shook her head and said

"I'm not sure it's going to work, but... You can try.."