Outside the window, the summer rain continued, and her son was watching cartoons dancing in the living room, silent in the joy of children, but Liang Xiaoru's face was full of complicated loneliness, she glanced at her son through the hidden door, suddenly sighed, and then turned around and sat on the edge of the bed, opened the drawer of the bedside table, and took out a diary from it.

Opened...... Title page.

2018.6.14……

The weather was fine.

Today, I applied for a job in radio and television, and met a group of migrant workers, one of whom was a very young migrant worker who ran over to give me a flower in the coaxing of a group of middle-aged migrant workers, I met a lot of people who wanted to send me flowers, but it was strange that this was the only flower I couldn't refuse!

Smiley.

He gave me a gardenia, and asked me, can you meet me here tomorrow?

Out of politeness, I nodded.

He ran away with a smile on his face, I guess he must have made a bet with the group of migrant workers just now, right?

2018.6.15……

The weather was fine.

The weather is really hot, but the radio and television came to the phone and said that I was going to the interview today, so I could only go to the radio and television again in the hot weather, just outside the gate of the radio and television, I actually saw that the young migrant worker who gave me gardenias yesterday was sitting on the side of the road under the sun eating a box lunch, the light vegetables in the box lunch made me can't help but stop, a strange sense of shame rose in my heart, I silently put away the parasol in my hand, and then planned to walk past him.

He stopped me and asked me with a serious face, if I chase you, is there a 1 in 10,000 hope that it will succeed?

I was stunned for a moment, and he took advantage of the gap to stand up and give me another gardenia.

Looking at the sincere smile that appeared on his tanned face, I couldn't bear to hurt him, and reciprocated with a smile and said hopeful.

He laughed and ran away again.

I passed the interview for radio and television, which made me very happy.

2018.6.16。

The weather was fine.

Today is really a good day, in the morning radio and television called to say that I was hired, let me go to the personnel department to report first, because two days later is the Dragon Boat Festival, all the affairs of the personnel department will be postponed.

I changed into a very beautiful new set of clothes, and just as I was about to enter the gate of the radio and television station, there was a commotion under a construction building opposite, as if it meant that a migrant worker had fallen from a height and died, and I was so frightened that I didn't dare to see the scene.

But after stepping into the radio and television station, I suddenly thought of the young migrant worker, who ............

OK.

When I finished reporting from the personnel department to taking the information before entering the job, he actually took a gardenia and waited for me in the lobby, I was in a good mood and took the initiative to reach out to him to ask for the gardenia, but he suddenly grabbed my hand and ran towards the elevator, I was frightened!

On a hot day, he was taken to the top of the highest building of radio and television, I glared at him angrily, pushed him away and scolded him for being neurotic, but after scolding, I regretted it a little, will this hurt his self-esteem?

He didn't get angry, but told me with a serious face that his name was Yang Ming, hoping that I could remember his name, and that I would definitely come here again tomorrow, and that he would give me a surprise.

Surprise? Hehe.

When I went back, I told Su Xia about this interesting thing, and then to celebrate my appointment to radio and television, Su Xia and I got drunk in the dormitory.

2018.6.17。

Weather rain.

Today is Sunday, and it is Father's Day again, when I heard Su Xia call my father to chat, I was a little lost, after the call, Su Xia invited me to go to her house tomorrow to celebrate the Dragon Boat Festival together, and the reasons I found were all vetoed by her, so I had no choice but to agree.

Su Xia's parents are really good people, they treat me like a daughter, especially Su Xia's mother's cooking skills are really good, I eat a little too much.

When I went back, Su Xia suddenly told me with some sadness that her mother arranged a foreign object for her to contact, but she said that she didn't like it at all, and she wanted the kind of love that she could pursue and grasp.

Suddenly, inexplicably, I thought of the young migrant worker...... There are gardenias in the water bottle on the table.

I seem to have forgotten...... He asked me to go to the rooftop of the radio and television today?

Forget it, leave him alone!

This night, Su Xia and I both slept late.

2018.6.18。

During the Dragon Boat Festival, my mother called me from my hometown and told me that I would get motion sickness and never go back, it would be better to rest for a few days, I knew that she must also want me to go back, so I could only tell her the good news that I was hired by radio and television, and hoped that she could be happier.

Lunch and dinner were eaten at Su Xia's parents, her mother seemed to inadvertently ask me if I had a partner during the banquet, and after getting my answer, she actually said that she wanted to introduce me to a rich person, I was so frightened that I quickly refused, in fact, I am the same as Su Xia, right?

Su Xia had to stay with her parents at night, and I had to go back to the dormitory alone after dinner.

Walking halfway past Radio and Television, I suddenly remembered where the young migrant worker would spend the Dragon Boat Festival?

He didn't show up for the appointment yesterday, so he shouldn't hate me, right?

With strange thoughts, I stepped onto the rooftop..................

The smell of wine on the rooftop, he actually brought his own dinner to spend the Dragon Boat Festival on the rooftop, and when he saw me coming, he said that he had waited here for two nights, and I felt a little guilty, but I was also afraid of what he would do to me if he drank too much, and then he turned on the flashlight and asked me to look at the other side.

Yang Ming - Love - Liang Xiaoru.

I was blown away and thought it was incredible! No one has ever done such a romantic thing to me, but why does he know my name?

I asked him.

He told me that he had found out about it from a friend of the radio and television station, and then he told me a story on the rooftop, saying that he had just fallen out of love, and one of his colleagues had fallen to death the day before yesterday, and he felt that life was very confused and had no future, but he wanted to try to find hope in life.

Out of kindness, I persuaded him!

But...... He kissed me all of a sudden, and it was my first kiss!

I slapped him in the face.

But he pulled me to the wall, pointed to the lights of thousands of homes in Jiangcheng and said that as long as I dare to gamble with him once, he will light a lamp for me among these thousands of lights!

At that moment, it was strange that I actually believed his words.

Syllable!

Suddenly, a teardrop on the paper woke up Liang Xiaoru's thoughts, she wiped the corner of her eyes and glanced at her son who was still playing outside the door, and suddenly felt that the reality was so powerless.

Thinking of the radio and television rooftop that day and Yang Ming, a young man who was confused but bent on finding hope at that time, Liang Xiaoru couldn't help but feel sad.

At the same time, I listened to Su Xia on radio and television counting my past and sins in a sad voice, as well as the love story between me and Liang Xiaoru, she knew me but didn't know, from my hatred of Liu Manrong to the whole process of my chasing Liang Xiaoru, she told me as clearly as a person who experienced it.

Yang Ming...... I just want to ask you, have you done so much in the past, and all of them are false? Su Xia wiped her red eyes and asked me with a cold face.

I was speechless in the wind and rain, probably unable to digest the story Su Xia told me, and I felt very dazed for a while, and subconsciously muttered, shouldn't it?

Why should?

I think Liang Xiaoru did give up the good future of radio and television for Yang Ming, a construction worker, at that time, right? She chose a young man who was poor but wanted to work hard, and chose a real love with attraction in front of her.

However, I failed her.

Why?

I quickly understood why!

All the causes and consequences are implicated, and the only reason that can explain my later mistakes is that I have never been better than the women next to me, whether it is Liu Manrong before going abroad or Liang Xiaoru on the rooftop that night, they are better than me, but I am a person who does not admit defeat in my heart, which explains why I will finally embark on the adventure of gambling one day on the road of no return, right?

Su Xia stared at me in astonishment, and sneered, If it wasn't false at the beginning, then why can you be so ruthless now? Do you really think Xiaoru has let go of the past? Do you really think she'll be able to start over? Do you know how much courage it takes for a woman to separate her legs and entrust herself to a man?

I lowered my head, not knowing what to do.

If the Yang Ming in that story is me, and the Yang Ming in Liu Manrong's story is also me, then what should I do now?

Liu Manrong didn't hesitate to look back and wait for me, and Liang Xiaoru has my son, she and I have such an unforgettable and unforgettable pure past, if she can't let go, then wouldn't I have become the negative person who broke off the love resolution?

I feel like my IQ isn't enough.

Su Xia stared at me and said with burning eyes, if you are still a man, then you don't want to make women sad!

I stared at her and asked stupidly, what do you want me to do?

Su Xia was stunned for a moment, and then sneered and said, Do you need to say it, you start again, Xiaoru and Dingding are waiting for you.

Resume............ Go to Nima's restart!

Isn't it enough for Lao Tzu to start over? Wake up and start anew! and Liu Manrong is starting again! Now I have to start over with Liang Xiaoru again!? How much sin did I have to do to get into the pain I am now?

I held my head and squatted down weakly.

If I don't have any money, I can start earning it again.

But if it hurts the hearts of two women, how do I start over?

Choosing Liu Manrong or Liang Xiaoru will cause indelible damage to another person, and I will carry this evil for the rest of my life, how should I choose and start again?

I really don't know............ It occurred to me that it would be nice to have the best of both worlds.