Liang Xiaoru stared at me suspiciously and asked, Yang Ming, what's the matter, are you really indifferent to this point, have you even forgotten about your own son?

I stared at her with a bitter look on her face, you have lived with me for the longest time, don't you think that there is any difference between me now and the me you were familiar with before?

Liang Xiaoru stared at me with wide eyes and puzzled, and said in confusion for a while: "What do you mean by this, do you want to say that you are different now than before, so those things in the past are not important to you?" ”

I smiled bitterly and shook my head, thinking that Liang Xiaoru really couldn't guess it, and she couldn't see the strange feeling on my body that was different from before, wasn't my change so obvious to her, did she just see me as a ruthless person?

I thought about it for a long time, and suddenly I felt an urge to tell her everything, at least let her know what kind of person I was, what happened to me, and since she was the innocent and hurt person, then she had the right to know.

I stood in front of Liang Xiaoru, looking at her beautiful side face and the mature charm she exuded, and the abrupt thing that happened when I first saw her suddenly came to my mind, she was still as heartwarming and fascinated as when I first saw her!

I only saw her mature side, but I didn't appreciate her youth at that time and the beauty of the story Su Xia told, if I didn't tell her, then whatever happened in the future would be too cruel for her.

"Do you remember what happened the day you left home with Dingding?" I asked her suddenly.

Liang Xiaoru stared at me in astonishment, her eyes were a little unnaturally avoided, and she sneered in a complicated tone, how could I not remember, you almost did a scumbag act in front of Ding Ding that day, what? Why are you talking to me about this all of a sudden?

I asked with a wry smile, are you really not surprised that there is any difference between me that day and me when I was usual?

Liang Xiaoru looked back at me, suddenly frowned, as if thinking about the scene that happened, and then looked at me strangely and said, It's a little different, but your difference didn't start from that day, isn't it incomprehensible for a bad gambler to do any hateful behavior?

I shook my head, and when I decided to say it, I seemed much clearer and more relaxed.

Looking at Liang Xiaoru's beautiful face, I smiled and said, "Actually, if you really say it, you may not believe me, but I still have to tell you............ I was actually sleeping in high school class before I woke up in the conference room that day, but when I woke up, I thought everything was a dream, including the phone call Dingding gave me, and what I said to you...... I thought it was just a dream, a dream! ”

Liang Xiaoru's delicate eyes gradually widened, she looked at me with a shocked look on her face, opened her mouth and said, Yang Ming, you ...... What the hell are you talking about?

I smiled wryly and said, I said I thought it was a dream, I was just a high school student before I woke up, I don't know what happened between 16 and 22 years, I woke up and encountered all these things, these bad things!

I laughed at myself helplessly, and continued: "That day I actually just regarded you as a beautiful woman in a dream, I didn't know that you were the real you, and I didn't know that Ding Ding was the real Ding Ding, until later I found out that I wasn't dreaming, all this bullshit life turned out to be real!" ”

"What the hell are you talking about?" The more Liang Xiaoru listened, the more surprised she became, and her expression looked very puzzled!

I sighed, thinking that it was still like this, even if I really said what happened to me, others would not believe it, even the pillow person who had lived with Yang Ming for so long didn't understand what I was talking about, what about others?

I suddenly thought of Liu Manrong again, she felt something different in me, but she probably didn't think that the facts I said would be the truth, right?

Who believes such a thing?

I'm dejected!

Many things in life may not be what others will understand if they say it, just like I am telling the biggest secret to the people who used to be closest to her, but she still feels unbelievable, if she doesn't believe it, what is the use of more explanations and telling?

Whatever, right? I just have to tell the truth, believe it or not, don't I?

At this time, the shocked look on Liang Xiaoru's face suddenly turned into a complicated look of worry and stared at me: "Yang Ming, don't scare me, you can't be mentally disturbed by too much pressure, right?" ”

I shook my head weakly, looked at her with a smile and said, forget it, since you don't believe me, I can't help it, but the fact is what I said, I don't remember everything that happened between 16 and 22 years, or it can be said that I am not the same person as that rotten gambler Yang Ming, you and I ...... You and him...... Alas, in short, in 18 years, you and I met, fell in love, and met and separated, during which I didn't know anything.

Liang Xiaoru covered her mouth, stared at me with a frightened expression, and took a few steps back until she confirmed that there were pedestrians around her, and the street lamp was next to her, she took another step forward, stared at me a little timidly, and said, "You're not joking with me, are you saying that you forgot everything that happened in the past six years?"

I smiled wryly and nodded, wondering if she would think I'm a ghost now?

Liang Xiaoru stared at me, carefully watching from head to toe, and after a long time, she took two steps closer to me, stared at my face with a confused face, and muttered, "When you say that, I think it's a little different...... At least I'm very strange, the gambling addiction that you haven't been able to quit for a few years seems to have quit suddenly, I thought it was the divorce and Liu Manrong's reason......"

"It's not!" I shook my head and said, "You filed for divorce with me that day, my self-esteem was certainly hit, and the encounter with Liu Manrong and her help to me certainly had an impact on me, but if I am really a bad gambler, I can change so completely overnight, do you believe that there are such people in the world?" The only explanation is that I don't know how to gamble at all, and in my memory, I don't have a gambling addiction, so I don't need to quit gambling. ”

Liang Xiaoru's eyes widened, staring at me with an unbelievable expression, her mouth opened wide, and she couldn't digest what I said for a long time.

I think since I've already said it, let's just say more, anyway, there may only be one chance like this, and I don't necessarily have to tell everyone about this kind of unbelievable thing. So I told her all the confusion when I woke up and the pressure and anger of the adult world, I told her how I got over this time, how I slowly developed feelings with Liu Manrong, and why did I tell her all this...... I said it all briefly, until I saw her eyes reddening and tears pouring out of her eyes.

I wondered why I cried all of a sudden.

At this time, she cried more and more sadly, crying more and more aggrieved, and finally trembling her shoulders collapsed, holding herself and squatting on the ground and crying sadly...... I watched her suddenly cry, and suddenly squatted down, I could feel her sadness, but I couldn't understand it, and I didn't know what to do.

So I stood next to me and waited for a long time, she stopped crying, slowly choked and raised her face to look at me, her shoulders were still trembling slightly, I looked at the pale face full of despair and sadness, I felt very distressed, but I don't know why she is like this, did I say something wrong?

Liang Xiaoru looked at me, suddenly bit her lip and shook her head vigorously and cried to me: "No, although I don't know if you are lying to me, or if something really happened to you to make you strange...... But all those things that happened are true, I have known you for four years, and there are words made of tiles on the building opposite the radio and television, and Ding Ding...... These are all real, can you deny it if you dream, forget, or don't know? ”

Liang Xiaoru wiped her tears, looked at me with stubborn eyes and said, I can accept your depravity and ruthlessness, but I can't accept your denial of what happened, that was my four years of time and youth, that is not a person's life, and mine!

She cried and shouted at me.

I suddenly understood what her sadness was, she was sad because I was denying her youth and what had happened, and it occurred to me that the story I told me might be the biggest hurt and the most unfair for her, right?

Liu Manrong and I have at least separated in the past few years.

But what about me and Liang Xiaoru? In those four years, she has all her devotion to love, the bitterness and sweetness of four years of life, the peak, and the joys and sorrows, even if it is said to be a breakup, it may just be a kind of sadness that everyone will experience, but if the other party forgets and denies the time of these four years, doesn't it mean that she is the only one who remembers the time of those four years, bears it alone, and suffers alone?

I suddenly understood many things, and I also understood Liang Xiaoru's mood.

Seeing her crying, I was very sad to reach over, wanting to hug her and comfort her, but I didn't dare to do it, in what capacity should I do this?

Liang Xiaoru wiped the tears on her face, sobbed at me with red eyes and said, Yang Ming, since you can start over with Liu Manrong, why can't you start over with me? Why do you only give me pain? Why............

She whimpered in pain, unable to sob.

I thought to myself, yes...... Why?

If I can start over with Liu Manrong without giving her a chance, wouldn't her life be too bitter? If it's just two people separated, at least her hatred can make the other party feel uncomfortable and feel guilty.

But when she is not wrong, I can easily choose another way to live, start over with other women, but forget everything in the past, leaving her with a memory and a child that only one person believes, is there anything more painful for a woman in this world?

I thought I would make her feel relieved about me by telling my secret, but now I feel that telling my secret has made it harder for me and her......

Is there anything in this world that can make a man mature in a day?

Have it?