If there is, it must be feelings, right?

I looked at Liang Xiaoru who was crying silently in front of me, and suddenly felt that there was no distance between me and her between high school students and adults, I could understand her pain and her emotions, and even I vaguely understood what love means to people?

Love means how sweet it is when it comes, and how painful it will be when it is parted.

Liang Xiaoru is very painful, although I am not as painful as her, but looking at her so painful, I still feel very bitter and helpless!

If a person is not suffering to the extreme, how can he ask "can you start over with her, why can't you start over with me" to put the posture low into the dust?

Maybe the Liang Xiaoru I knew and saw before was all wrong, she was not the person I thought, nor the Liang Xiaoru I knew, and it was only now that I vaguely understood that Liang Xiaoru's character and her person really belonged to her, she was weak, more weak than Liu Manrong.

She is traditional, more traditional than Liu Manrong.

I used to think that Liu Manrong was the most suitable woman to be a wife.

But if compared to such a weak and traditional woman with the same beautiful face, who is the one who is really the most suitable person to be a wife?

Is this an option?

Or is it that my inner feelings for Liu Manrong were not firm enough from the beginning?

I looked at Liang Xiaoru with pity, and made what I thought was the right move, I hugged her, and for the first time I didn't have any crooked thoughts, I held a beautiful woman in my arms, with a slight force, hoping that she could feel the warmth and kindness on my body.

However, Liang Xiaoru seemed to cry even harder, she was trembling in my arms, and I could feel her tears running down my heart, leaving a piece of warmth.

Maybe it's a few minutes, or maybe half an hour has passed, this time is very long and very slow, Liang Xiaoru slowly quieted down in my arms, and I also became quiet, I have not had the experience of holding a woman in such a quiet state of mind, so I feel that some strange feelings permeate the bottom of my heart......

She was almost still in my arms, I didn't know her before, but now it suddenly seemed that she was less of a mature young woman, but more of a weak and helpless girl, and she showed her quiet and weak side to the fullest, and I felt it—I believed that she meant it, but I didn't feel the slightest discomfort or discomfort.

It wasn't until this silence was broken by her slight movement that I slightly loosened the arm I hugged her, the arm relaxed, the warmth would naturally decrease, and I felt the alienation of warmth, Liang Xiaoru finally raised her face slowly, and then opened my chest with her hand, and slowly withdrew from my embrace......

At the same time that she lost my arms, I also felt the warmth of my arms gradually leaving, and the coolness was better than before hugging her!

Liang Xiaoru looked up at me, and said to me with strange and complicated eyes, it's really strange, I really feel your strangeness to me, and I feel that you have become different, but when you hugged me just now, it reminded me of the caution and nervousness you were when you hugged me for the first time!

I smiled wryly, I was already nervous.

"So what are you nervous about?" Liang Xiaoru stared at me and asked with burning eyes.

I looked away, not knowing what to answer her.

Her eyes were gloomy, she sighed a little resentfully, stared at me with a bitter face and said, I really regret it, how good it would have been if I hadn't met you in the first place?

First, it's better not to want to see each other, so that you don't fall in love...... The first sentence of the Ten Commandments poem flashed in my mind, staring at Liang Xiaoru with a sad expression, I could feel how deep her love for Yang Ming was, and how bitter and entangled she was now.

It's been a long time, she didn't wait for my answer, and finally sighed again and said, what do you want me to do now, is that all, what about Dingding, how should I say it to him? When he grows up in the future, will he be able to accept these stories?

I looked at Liang Xiaoru guiltily and said, "I don't know what to do, if there is a way, I hope Dingding will not be hurt for the rest of his life...... But you know, there is often no way to do things in this world, and many times there is only one option to start over! ”

To start again, I am explaining to myself and to her.

She looked at me, suddenly smiled inexplicably and said to me, do you remember that I made a contract with you for half a year? It was just a glimmer of hope in my despair, but now I feel that the promise is more like a predestined one!

I looked at her quizzically.

She smiled and said, "It's only been a short time now, and it's still a long time before the half-year appointment...... Since you said that you are not that Yang Ming, you have forgotten everything, you can't remember...... Then I'll wait for you for half a year, wait for you to remember, and wait for you to change back to the Yang Ming I want to see! If............ If you don't come back within half a year, and you can't remember it again, then I'll accept my fate, and I'll take Dingding out of the city to a new place to choose a new beginning, okay? ”

May I...... Of course.

After Liang Xiaoru finished saying this, she turned around and left, I looked at her lonely back with some astonishment, and felt that human feelings are really a very cruel weapon, it can give a person infinite light and hope, but it can also instantly make a person's heart like a dead ash falling into an ice cave!

But fortunately, tonight finally told the secret that pressed in my heart, although it was not the kind of relief I imagined, but after exhaling, I still felt a lot more relaxed, at least I don't need to hide such a secret from everyone in this world anymore!

Su Xia knows half of it, Liang Xiaoru knows everything, whether they believe it or not, I finally took this step.

Watching Liang Xiaoru's back completely disappear from sight, I breathed a sigh of relief.

When I returned to Liu Manrong's house, the aroma was still lingering, I lifted the lid on the table, the food was still hot, and there was even a bowl of bone broth............ Liu Manrong didn't even eat a mouthful of food!

Looking back at a goblet filled with red wine on the cabinet, there was a trace of bright red in it, it seemed that she was drinking alone?

She must be a little disappointed, I thought to myself, right?

I took out my mobile phone and sent a video to Liu Manrong, and it took a long time to connect, but what appeared in the video was Yaoyao's cold face, and I saw her scolding at me with a frosty face: "Sister Manrong went to take a bath, why are you bastard angry with Sister Manrong, she was half drunk when she came back?" ”

I smiled wryly and said I didn't, and then asked her, did Manrong drink so much?

Yaoyao scolded coldly with a cold look in her eyes: "I smelled the smell of wine on my body as soon as I opened the door, and I went to the bathroom to take a bath without even saying a word to me, and it hasn't come out yet, how much do you say she drank?" ”

I opened the wine cabinet and looked for it, and saw that there was an open bottle of red wine that was almost two-thirds missing, and I couldn't help but smile bitterly and said, then let her have a good rest, I hung up.

"Wait!" Yaoyao suddenly called out to me, looked at me coldly and said, "I advise you to stay away from Manrong, she is a person who admits death and is very stubborn, I can't change her opinion of you, but I hope you can be self-aware, you and Manrong are not worthy at all, no matter how hard you try, you are not worthy...... Got it? ”

This tone again? I smiled helplessly, I would definitely be angry in the for tat before, but now I can't afford to have such emotions, I just looked at Yaoyao lightly and said, "How do you know if you are worthy or not?" Am I born with the word loser tattooed on my face? Have you forgotten that you've already lost to me once before on a bet? ”

Yaoyao sneered and said, men should be magnificent, they can't always grasp a little thing in the past, right? Although you don't have the word loser tattooed on your face, but human life is long, you have been married, had children and divorced, but you are still a poor person with nothing, do you think you still have hope?

I sneered and asked, why am I hopeless?

Yaoyao shook her head lightly and sighed: "Maybe you think that you will succeed as long as you work hard now, but this world is realistic, you have lost the youngest years you once had, and your foundation and connections have not laid a foundation, with your blind efforts now, don't you think that your future achievements are very limited?" But Sister Manrong is different, she is already much higher than you now, as long as she continues to work hard, her future achievements will still be the height you can't reach, and you will never be the same match! ”

I feel very speechless for Yaoyao, who is also my best friend next to her, Su Xia next to Liang Xiaoru at least once believed that love is real without boundaries, but Yaoyao next to Liu Manrong never felt that love was boundless, she divided love into high and low, and in her cognition, I will always be just a loser!

I didn't want to argue with her about this, so I said directly: "I don't need you to tell me about my affairs, and besides, I'm tolerant enough that I didn't ask you to ask me to move in with you, and if you say something like this to me next time, I'll just call you an idiot!" ”

After saying that, I cut off the call directly, and after putting down the phone, I sat on the sofa a little weakly, and suddenly I wanted to get drunk, maybe I would sleep better, and I should forget a lot of troubles after waking up, right?

Thinking of this, I got up and went to the wine cabinet again and took out the bottle of wine that Liu Manrong hadn't drunk, and directly poured a full glass with the wine glass she used, and then took a sip......

The wine bottle was soon empty, I lay on the sofa and picked up the remote control and turned on the TV, and an old foreign song "if/you/miss/the/train/im/on........................" floated out of the TV.

Maybe it's because there are too many scenes intertwined with what happened during the day, and I had a long, complicated, sad and tiring dream, in which I and Liang Xiaoru's life were lived, and those ups and downs were like fragments, flashing in front of my eyes..................