The last word of Lu Rongan's name is An Ziyan's surname, and people in the circle often ridicule An Ziyan, saying that it can be seen from his name that he is properly following Lu Rongan's life.

An Ziyan used to be a disbeliever in fate, but after knowing Lu Rongan, he believed it.

That was a long time ago, at that time, there were many contacts between the Lu family and the An family because of the business relationship, and it was natural that An Ziyan and Lu Rongan would know each other.

Unlike many vulgar love stories that linger and have no guesses, An Ziyan doesn't remember this beginning, and he doesn't remember any fateful encounter, because he was too young at that time, and he has the impression that since he can remember, Lu Rongan has occupied a place in his life, and he has been robbing his toys since he was a few years old.

Lu Rongan was a girl with a brain and a lot of rudeness, and at that time, little An Ziyan always wondered what was wrong with her life, and there would be such an inextricable shadow as Lu Rongan - he said "can't get rid of" because his parents always told him at that time to take care of Lu Rongan as a sister.

An Ziyan was still a good baby at that time, she listened to her parents very much, and she was also very attentive to Lu Rongan, from kindergarten to junior high school, the two of them went to school together, but Lu Rongan annoyed him, her rebellious heart developed relatively early, and she always felt that An Ziyan was the eyeliner sent by her parents to keep an eye on, and she tried all kinds of ways to get rid of him every day.

In order to get rid of An Ziyan, she even tried to go out of the school without going through the main entrance after school, but she was always caught by An Ziyan, and then sent home like a prisoner by An Ziyan.

At that time, the Lu family and the An family lived in the same villa area, and the An family sent a car, and the two children were taken back, and the adults were also worried.

An Ziyan also annoyed Lu Rongan, from childhood to adulthood, she lived every day like she was going to escape from prison, when she was a child, she climbed over the wall like a monkey, and when she grew up, she didn't get much better, and ran away from home as soon as she quarreled with her parents, he hated this kind of behavior, and he arrested Lu Rongan back to Lu's house again and again, so that he became more and more numb later.

Later, not only was he numb, but he began to realize that Lu Rongan was a little in the way.

Because at the age when everyone else started to fall in love, he was still behind Lu Rongan's ass like a nanny every day, and went to and from school with her every day.

At that age, the gossip instinct of children is not lower than that of adults, and a lot of people ridicule him and Lu Rongan as a couple, which makes him reflect bitterly, when he was in early love with a person who only looked at his face and grades, he was a person who had both face and grades and did not have bad grades, and there was no peach blossom for a long time, whether it was because Lu Rongan was in his way.

Until one day in the third year of junior high school, Lu Rongan gave him a love letter.

Love letters, what antiques, hypocritical pink envelopes, on the way out of school, the sun was setting, the two of them were waiting for the driver to pick up the car, Lu Rongan took out the letter from his schoolbag and gave it to him, and his tone was casual as if he was giving him some snacks, "Oh, for you." ”

His heart beat faster in an instant and he was short of breath, the reason was that it was the first love letter he received in his life, what he never expected was that it would come from Lu Rongan, he didn't treat Lu Rongan as a girl before, and the moment he took the letter, he suddenly realized that Lu Rongan was also a girl, and he had those careful thoughts of girls.

He looked at Lu Rongan, who had grown up, in the afterglow of the evening sunset.

It's a little bad to grow up together, two people are moving at the same speed, they can't notice that the other party is advancing, and he doesn't know when Lu Rongan grew up.

The former baby fat has retired, a plain little face, a pair of watery eyes, she gave the letter and stuffed the earphones into her ears to listen to songs, a little summer hot wind swept by, brushed her short hair, leaked out of her ears.

How many people said that Lu Rongan looked as good as a cartoon doll, but he didn't see it at all.

It wasn't until he took the letter that he thought in a trance that Lu Rongan was not bad.

At that time, An Ziyan still looked very well-behaved, but in fact, he was bad, and many ideas were stuffed in his bones, as an honor student, he mixed with the boys in the class every day who didn't learn and didn't know how to learn, secretly smoked in the toilet, and then listened to others exchange a little bit of the experience of watching movies that adolescent boys would inevitably exchange, and by the way, he commented on a handful of girls in the class, and then talked about a little dirty thing about young men and women on campus, how obscene and obscene the topic was.

But when he looked down at the letter, he didn't have the slightest obscene thoughts, he was very happy, and even felt that the letter in his hand was very holy, and then he couldn't figure out why he felt like that, in comparison, Lu Rongan seemed very indifferent, not abnormal at all.

In those days, she escaped several times to no avail, and it was when she was angry with him, she walked with him every day, but basically didn't talk to him, always wore headphones, and looked like she didn't like to deal with people.

An Ziyan guessed that she might have felt embarrassed, so she covered it up by listening to songs, and he was also very cooperative, he didn't open the envelope in front of her, and on the way back, he was in the car, looking out the window and smirking.

This kind of smirking lasted until he got home, and after he sent Lu Rong'an, he couldn't wait to go home and go upstairs, quickly closed the door and took out the letter, opened it, and read it.

At first glance he was stupid.

He finally knew why Lu Rongan was so calm when he gave the letter.

There was not a word on the envelope, but there were a bunch of long words on the letterhead, and not a single word was in Lu Rongan's handwriting.

He only looked at the beginning and jumped directly to the end, and then he saw that the signature read: Yao Fei in the fifth class of junior high school.

The fifth class of the second junior high school is Lu Rongan's class.

Yao Fei, the girl who wrote a love letter and signed it as if she was answering the questionnaire, he couldn't remember who it was.

He no longer had the heart to read the letter, and threw it aside with some annoyance.

White was excited.

He didn't reply, and Lu Rongan didn't ask.

Fortunately, Lu Rongan had an awkward relationship with him, and every time it was two or three days later, Lu Rongan came to ask him to help with his homework with a shy face.

An Ziyan is a little famous in school, his family conditions are good, and he is good-looking, the key is that at that age when heroes are not judged by wealth and nobility, but success or failure is determined by grades, his academic performance is also outstanding, so Lu Rongan always asks him to help with homework.

He also helped to do it, he helped her do the questions, and she was next to her, asking casually: "Why didn't you reply to Yao Fei?" ”

He was stunned for a moment before he remembered this matter, he didn't want to be fine, and when he thought about it, the anger rushed in his chest, and he didn't look up: "I don't know, what are you going back?" ”

She blinked, and said very kindly and understandingly: "I can introduce you to each other, she is our class flower, and she is very good-looking!" ”

"I'm not interested," he said. ”

Of course, he couldn't say it, when he received the letter, he thought it was written by her, and he was stupid for a long time, but now he looks back and thinks about it, his thoughts and emotions are really weird, even if the letter is written by her, what is there to be happy about? She's such a stupid girl, rude, and nervous, and she likes her, how unlucky it is.

But Lu Rongan couldn't help it, "Yao Fei is my friend, she asked me to help her, you have to give me a little face, you can reply to the letter?" Write Braille without losing meat! ”

An Ziyan dropped his pen, "Don't write it, write it yourself." ”

After saying that, he was about to get up, and Lu Rongan quickly weighed it in his heart.

Friendship is precious, homework is more expensive, An Ziyan doesn't write, she has to write it herself, with her head doesn't know when to write, so she hurriedly hugged his arm very doggedly, "I was wrong, I was wrong, Lord An should not be like me!" ”

An Ziyan didn't move, she tilted her head, he could smell a little bit of orange blossom in her hair, his body stiffened, because her heart was soft next to his arm.

In fact, Lu Rongan's development is not good, and when he touches it, he knows that it is actually very small, but it is so small, which also makes him, who has never touched any girl, feel ape and shortness of breath.

There is a kind of restlessness in the body of an adolescent boy, and this restlessness in An Ziyan's body almost reached a critical point at this moment, he shook off Lu Rongan, with great strength, Lu Rongan was caught off guard and took a few steps back before standing firmly, dumbfounded, "What are you doing?" ”

An Ziyan looked at her and asked, "Do you do the same to others?" ”

"Which one?"

"That's ......it," he frowned, his cheeks hot and unnatural, "just like that." ”

She still had unfinished homework in her head, and smiled pleasantly, "Where can I be, and not everyone will help me with my homework." ”

The corners of An Ziyan's eyes twitched a little, he finally found something special about him in her heart, it was actually the fact that he was writing homework, he was very frustrated in his heart, but he couldn't bear to say anything more when he saw her dog-legged appearance, and finally pouted: "Remember, don't let others write your homework." ”

She sneered, "Definitely, where are others as good as you write, and you can learn my words so similarly!" ”

He didn't bother to pay attention to her and went back to his homework.

When he went home that night, An Ziyan had a very unspeakable and indescribable dream, for the first time, he was very embarrassed to wash the sheets secretly after getting up, while scolding himself in his heart.

Dreaming of who is not good, dreaming of Lu Rongan, is still an indifferent Lu Rongan......

This dream caused him to dare not look at Lu Rongan in the next few days, her eyes were ignorant and innocent, he felt that he was as dirty as those boys in the class, he was afraid that if he looked at her more, his dirty and obscene thoughts would be seen by her.

Lu Rongan didn't realize it, every day she still asked him to help do this and that, playing together, she was already very dependent on him, grabbing his hand when she was in a hurry, holding his arm These movements were the same as before, every time he met her eyes, he scolded himself in his heart for being a beast.

Lu Rongan is a fool who lacks heart, but despite this, he feels holy, as if his thoughts about her are a kind of blasphemy.

Human nature is really bad, taboos will make people even more unable to extricate themselves, a lot of early love is because adults don't let early love, and when it's time to fall in love, he lost interest, he found that he also fell into a strange circle, obviously he felt that he shouldn't have that kind of messy thoughts about Lu Rongan, but he just couldn't control himself.

He had the same dream, thinking of her relief, and each time it was over, he was filled with guilt.

Everyone else knows that An Ziyan has a good brain and looks like a clean top student, but no one knows what dirty thoughts he has in his heart.

Every time he smokes in the toilet with the boys in the same class, those messy topics are nothing more than the girls in the same class and Japanese actresses, he listens to them on the side, rarely expresses his opinions, and some people ridicule him for being sullen, so he laughs and smokes and doesn't speak, which is a tacit acquiescence.

He himself doesn't think he is a good thing, the good child is an illusion, and his rebellious factor is about to move, but he has not released it for a long time, all because he still has an oil bottle Lu Rongan to take care of.

But this illusion broke on the eve of the graduation exam of the third year of junior high school, and the reason was that he had a fight.

Unprecedented, for the first time.

In the bathroom of the school, while smoking, a boy in the same class suddenly asked if Lu Rongan was his little girlfriend.

He looked disgusted and said how could it be? He didn't want that kind of small bean sprouts that didn't grow big.

When he said this, his heart was very weak.

He felt that he really didn't like Lu Rongan, he wasn't quiet enough, he wasn't beautiful enough, he liked to look mature and generous, Lu Rongan was just a little girl, he just had a little inexplicable desire for her, boys of this age are like this, that's not any emotion.

The boy seemed to be relieved, and talked about Lu Rongan with confidence, and said a little unscrupulously that he had paid attention to the color of Lu Rongan's underwear through the T-shirt, saying that Lu Rongan had a good figure, although he did not belong to the plump type, but he seemed to be quite good among girls of the same age, and said that he had some thoughts about Lu Rongan......

An Ziyan's blood surged to the top of his head, the cigarette in his hand was lost, his brain was blank when he swung his fist, and he didn't know what he was doing.

In fact, where is he qualified to teach others, his thoughts about Lu Rongan are equally disgusting.

An Ziyan, an honor student in the first grade, hit someone, this incident caused an uproar in the school, and the teachers were quite sad, and the incident happened to be on the eve of the entrance examination, and An Ziyan's parents were naturally called to the school.

Because of the fight, by the way, even everyone secretly smoked in the toilet was discovered by the teacher, the boy was beaten with a blue nose and swollen face, An Ziyan didn't fall well, his cheeks were swollen, and the last two people were ordered to write a review, and the rebellious factor that had been suppressed for a long time broke out in an all-round way, An Ziyan looked like he would rather die than give in, and refused to write, no one could ask the reason for everyone, and he insisted that he was right.

Because of this review, he was beaten again at home.

This time it was beaten, the An family had family rules, at that time An Ziyan's grandfather was still a spirited little old man, he beat people with a whip very neatly, like a spinning top, again and again, An Ziyan was not hit by the boys in the same class, and was finally beaten into the hospital by his grandfather.

But until he was knocked out, he didn't let go, he just refused to write a review.

Lu Rongan went to the hospital to see him and asked him why he was fighting, he was injured on his back, lying on the bed with an irritable face, "What do you ask about men?" ”

Lu Rongan pursed his lips disdainfully, "What about a man......"

After a pause, he said, "You take care of your injuries, I hope you get better soon." ”

He was a little moved, and before he could speak, he heard her continue, "Otherwise, no one will help me with my homework......"

An Ziyan didn't want to speak, and buried his face in the pillow, "You get out of here." ”

Lu Rongan asked: "I'll listen to you and get out, will you still write my homework for me in the future?" ”

He thought for a few seconds, and finally said awkwardly, "If you get out, you can write it yourself later." ”

She sighed, "You're such a duplicitous man." ”

At that time, the family was angry with An Ziyan, no one was willing to accompany him, and asked a caretaker, what did he think, it was better to call Lu Rongan than to call a caretaker, so in the days when he served Lu Rongan for a long time, because of his injury, he rarely enjoyed the days of being served by Lu Rongan for a few days.

Fighting and not writing a review, An Ziyan was deducted by the school on the eve of the entrance examination, and then was injured to take the high school entrance examination, which led to his promotion to high school, and the teacher still didn't like him.

The studies in high school were even busier, and An Ziyan still relied on his cleverness to support him, but soon, a big incident happened in the An family, which turned his originally smooth life upside down.

An Ziyan's father cheated.

The family has been turned upside down for a long time, the parents are quarreling every day, and when they are bad, they will fight, and the third party is almost brought into the house.

At that time, the old man was still the pillar of the family, as soon as he fell, the world was in chaos, no one paid attention to the third party or anything, the whole family seemed to be shaking in the wind and rain, An Ziyan was running around the hospital and school during that time, his grades plummeted, and he began to skip classes and leave early frequently, and he no longer went to school with Lu Rongan.

The Lu family moved during that time, before Lu Rongan moved away, he went to find An Ziyan once, and blocked An Ziyan's way at the door of the classroom, at that time Lu Rongan felt a little uncomfortable, An Ziyan had some ruffians on her body, which was completely different from before, and she would not comfort people, so she couldn't say a word for a long time.

An Ziyan twisted his eyebrows, a little impatient, "Looking for me?" ”

She said awkwardly, "You...... Don't be too bad. ”

He stared at her for a few seconds, and finally tugged at the corners of his mouth, "What's the use of me being uncomfortable with this kind of thing?" Anyway, those adults won't listen to me, and they won't change just because I'm uncomfortable. ”

An Ziyan's expression was already broken, Lu Rongan bit his lip for a few seconds, "You...... You don't want to do that, can you? ”

An Ziyan didn't speak, and looked away.

Lu Rongan's voice came faintly again, "You're like this, I'm afraid." ”

At that time, Lu Rongan was really afraid, she had relied on An Ziyan for too long, and she was used to An Ziyan always being behind her, quiet, harmless, and tolerant.

When she saw his sharp appearance covered in thorns, she panicked and worried that he was really going to change.

An Ziyan's heart suddenly softened.

At that time, he was full of anger, his mind was full of boredom and disgust with the world, he was tormented by his own powerlessness for a long time, however, the moment he heard that sentence, his heart softened.

How could he make her afraid?

She asked him, "Will I be able to find you in the future?" ”

He turned around and smiled, a little helpless: "What, you still want me to write your homework?" ”

"No...... she was anxious, "I don't need you to write it to me in the future, I have discussed it with my family, there is no hope for me to be a scumbag and go to university, after I go to high school, I want to be a special student, learn art, so that the homework in cultural classes will be much easier, and there will not be so much homework, I ...... I'm not here for you to do your homework, aren't we friends? ”

An Ziyan was also refreshing, "It's not just about doing homework, you are welcome at any time." ”

The result of this sentence is that after Lu Rongan went to high school, he followed him like a fart all day long, he skipped class and she also skipped class, Lu Rongan was naturally resistant to learning, and it was extremely painful for her to go to class, so An Ziyan took her to the Internet café to the park to read comics in the bookstore.

Skipping class and going over the wall must no longer call the driver to pick him up, An Ziyan even secretly bought a bicycle and walked around the streets and alleys of Rong'an every day.

Lu Rongan likes to paint, they stayed in the park for an afternoon, she took a drawing board to paint, and pulled him over to use when she needed a model.

Lu Rong'an's painting is actually not very good, the characters are deformed, An Ziyan looked at him as she painted him, and what came to his mind was the misplaced facial features in Picasso's "Crying Woman", and he felt that he was going to become a crying man.

At that time, Lu Rongan would also be hit, his paintings were denied by the teacher, and he was often very discouraged, An Ziyan would cheer her up every time he saw her depressed, saying that Van Gogh was not favored back then, who would have thought that later the paintings would be priceless?

She said depressedly: "But Van Gogh was never affirmed when he was alive, he was poor all his life, and finally died miserably, people died, what is the use of painting being valuable?" I don't want to be so miserable, I don't want my painting to be liked only when I'm dead. ”

An Ziyan pouted, "Anyway, you can't be poor, you still have your parents to raise you, what are you afraid of?" Take a step back and say, now that someone likes your paintings, your paintings will definitely be sold in the future, rest assured. ”

She blinked closer, "Who likes my paintings?" ”

He hesitated for a moment and pointed to the tip of his nose, "...... I. ”

What he said was very contrary to his will, and her paintings were the same as Picasso's paintings, and he couldn't understand them either.

But he still comforted her, "You paint well, and when I work and make money by myself in the future, I will definitely buy your paintings." ”

Lu Rongan's eyes were wet, and he was very moved, "You are so good." ”

He couldn't help but be a little proud, "You just found out ......"

Her eyes drooped, "Sometimes I feel that I am good for nothing, nothing is good, and the only lucky thing is to have you." ”

An Ziyan was stunned for a moment, and his heart jumped suddenly.

The two of them were still sitting on the lawn of the park, the sunshine, the grass, the spring afternoon, An Ziyan's heart was throbbing strongly for a while, this situation is too suitable for confession, but wait, which one is he accusing? He didn't like her again!

He felt that even if he wanted to confess, she would say it first.

Young love is always very calculating, who is tempted first, who says first, who does more for whom, An Ziyan has a calculation in his heart, no matter how he thinks about it, he feels that she depends on him like this, she should like him, he can wait, although she is not the type he likes, but if she says it, then he can reluctantly accept it.

Sure enough, Lu Rongan quickly raised his head again, his bright eyes lit up, and he opened his mouth, "An Ziyan, I ......"