Chapter 68: I don't owe you
shouted, "Young Master Wen Yi." ”
"All of you stand down." Kurosaki let out a shout, and the three of them immediately retreated. Kurosaki Wenyi reached out to touch the door, but was stopped by Yi Pan'er.
"No......" Yi Pan'er grabbed his hand and refused softly, "I can do it by myself." ”
If this is something that has to be faced, if this is someone who has to be faced.
"I'm just outside." Kurosaki said with a message.
"Yes." Yi Pan'er answered, took a deep breath and pushed the door open.
Emperor Superstar: Where is buried
Yi Pan'er pushed open the door and walked in silently.
There was silence in the large room. Yi Pan'er suddenly found that her heart seemed to stop beating, and she only knew that she was going to meet with the Fujiwara ladies again. But in another capacity, an identity that even she never thought of, it turned out to be her sister.
Yi Pan'er emptied and did not fully admit it, nor did she fully come back to her senses.
But I don't know what's wrong, and suddenly I want to see her.
And the thought is so strong.
Yi Pan'er walked slowly to the bedroom, she seemed to feel that she was sleeping in the bedroom, only separated by a door. Yi Eye Bag held the doorknob and turned, revealing a crack in the door. Through this gap, Yi Pan'er, who was standing outside the bedroom, saw a thin person sleeping on the big bed, with her back to her.
Yi Yan'er stood outside the door for a long time, and after a while, she stepped forward and walked to the bedside.
She finally walked over to the edge of the bed and looked down at her.
In his sleep, Fujiwara Kasuga is as quiet as a doll in a fairy tale. She had an innocent sleeping face, her long eyelashes curled and curled, but the shadows under her eyelids were too thick to make her look haggard and tired. Yi Pan'er stood on the edge of the bed in a daze, and found that a burst of emotion flowed in her heart.
While receiving treatment in Italy, I heard about her from Dr. Xiaoyu and Dr. Loumus.
Fujiwara Kasuga, she is a person who can be summoned by death at any time.
No one knows how long she will live, maybe the next second she will never wake up.
With muscle weakness and sepsis, she had no chance of surviving.
Yi Pan'er thought about the past again, and wondered why she treated herself like this. If she knew...... If she knew she was hers...... How could she. What about Mom. Where did mom go again. She was in a trance. And Fujiwara Haruhi turned over at this time, and Yi Pan'er was startled.
Fujiwara Kasuga didn't wake up, but opened his eyes slightly.
She has always slept lightly, and she will not sleep soundly.
Fujiwara Kasuga saw a figure standing on the edge of the bed, and she chuckled in her heart, opened her eyes in horror, and glared at the man. Her vision blurred for a while, but gradually it became clearer, and she saw her clearly. Fujiwara Kasuga was obviously taken aback, and he was stunned all of a sudden, and even forgot to speak.
She just looked at her like this, at her who suddenly appeared in front of her.
Suddenly, Fujiwara Kasuga came back to his senses and shouted, "Get out of here!" I don't care about you! ”
In her ears was her hysterical shout, Yi Pan'er looked at her calmly and asked softly, "What about her?" ”
"I don't know what Ren Ran said! Get the hell out of here! Fujiwara Haruhi urged her to get out of the way, but the panic in her eyes betrayed her uneasiness. Seeing that she didn't leave, Fujiwara Kasuga suddenly lifted the quilt, stood up openly, and raised his hand to slap her.
Yi Pan'er froze in place, not dodging.
Her hand was about to touch hers in a moment when it suddenly stopped.
Fujiwara Kasuga seemed to think of something, his fingers moved slightly, his eyes were indignant and panicked, and finally clenched his fists, gritted his teeth and roared, "Get out!" I don't want to see you! ”
"I want the Science and Technology Commission to be there." Yi Pan'er asked stubbornly.
A flash of depth flashed in Fujiwara Kasuhi's eyes, and he suddenly stopped growling. Her chest was heaving, and she was restraining her emotions. It was a long time before she turned her head away and said in a trembling voice, "Dead." It's dead. ”
He's dead......
When Yi Pan'er asked, she had already guessed this result.
Yes, from the day she met Fujiwara Kasuga, she was alone. Where did her relatives come from. And she should be dead. But, but why, why didn't she even see the last side. So all that is left is the sporadic memories of that night, the last moment.
Her face had long since been blurred, and there was not even a trace of it.
Not a single photo has been left.
Yi Pan'er clenched her fists weakly, choked up and asked, "Then where is she buried?" ”
Fujiwara Kasuhi's eyes tightened, and he turned back to glare at her again in anger. She was so unwilling, so unwilling, "You are not qualified to know!" ”
Yi Pan'er looked at her in a daze, and the suppressed grief and indignation couldn't help but erupt, "Why do you say that I am not qualified!" If it weren't for your father, would she have left me! If it weren't for your father's despicable means, would she have left me and my father behind! You're the least qualified! You're the least qualified! ”
"They love each other with all their hearts!" Fujiwara Kasuga roared back, her eyes red incredibly, "The person she loves is not your father, the person she loves is my father." They love each other with all their hearts. ”
If you don't really love each other, then how can you spend your life like that and give birth to a child for him.
I didn't understand it before, but I have to admit it now.
Her mother, the man she loves. Not the dad she loved dearly.
Yi Pan'er's eyes were full of tears, and she said in a trembling voice, "She is my mother." ”
Fujiwara Kasuga stubbornly gritted his teeth, "She's not!" She's not your mom! She is Mrs. Fujiwara, the wife of Yasushi Fujiwara, and the mother of Kasuga Fujiwara! ”
"She's Su Lan, she's my mother." Yi Pan'er stared at her, as if she saw another self, and as if she saw her mother's shadow. It seems to be something that exists. That vague but clear feeling suddenly made her heart ache and depression, and she was about to lose her breath.
Fujiwara Kasuga willfully covered her ears and yelled like venting, but she didn't know if she hated her or hated herself, "She's not she, she's not!" She's my mom alone! She's not Su Lan! She never mentioned you, never! She doesn't remember you at all! ”
"She only loves me, she only loves me alone!" She clutched her ears tightly and muttered to herself, as if she were comforting herself.
Don't ask me to tell you that she has always missed you.
I don't remember the day of the first year, she would buy a cake and sing happy birthday. And not her birthday.
Emperor Superstar: The Fulfillment of Love
Fujiwara Kasuga closed his eyes and stared at the floor, but tears fell one by one.
She forgot, and her mother was secretly crying. Secretly took out a picture of a little girl and cried. She forgot how many times her mother had called her wrong name when she held her. She forgot that when her mother looked at her, she would show sad eyes. She forgot that before her mother left, the person she wanted to see the most was not her.
Forgot too many things.
Forget to the end, only resentment remains. Full of resentment that can't be vented.
She didn't even know who to vent to, and only regarded the person who had occupied her mother's heart for a long time as the object of her venting. So she obstructed it in every possible way, wanting her to experience the same pain.
Why, she didn't feel the slightest happiness. Didn't feel it at all.
Yi Pan'er looked at Fujiwara Haruhi who was muttering to herself, and the whole person was suddenly stunned. She opened her mouth to say her name, and tears finally fell, "Spring...... Spring ......"
Whose face was blurred in front of her eyes, glowing with mist, made her heart sour.
"Mom, Pan'er likes spring and the sun the most."
"Why? You little fool!"
"Because spring is the most beautiful, it's warm when there is sun, Pan'er hates winter the most, it's so cold, and my mother will get sick."
"Spring? And the sun? So...... Kindness...... That's spring......
"Spring? Spring spring, Mom, Pan'er loves spring!"
She has never forgotten her, she has never forgotten herself. Not a day was forgotten. So I gave her the name "Haruhi", and whenever she called her "Haruhi", did she think of herself. Thinking that she also has a daughter, separated by a coast, separated by a country, I have always missed her.
Yi Pan'er thought of her father again.
Why didn't he tell her the truth of the matter, why didn't he tell her, it wasn't that he betrayed his mother, but that his mother betrayed him. In the chaotic thoughts, Yi Pan'er suddenly realized and understood at once. The tears fell more quickly, completely obscuring his vision. Because, because of too much love.
Loving someone doesn't have to be possessive. It can also be fulfillment.
Her father fulfilled her mother's love in this way and became her happiness, taking all the faults and responsibilities by himself, and never said a word. She was kept in her bones, and she hated her father like that, thinking that everything was because of him.
Actually, it's not.
In fact, the person who really betrayed was her mother, the mother she had always loved deeply.
No, it can't be said to be a betrayal. She is nothing more than pursuing her own happiness.
"Spring ......" Yi Pan'er closed her eyes and burst into tears.
She whispered a deep cry, which made Fujiwara Kasuhi's whole body seem to be violently impacted, and she suddenly lost her center of gravity and fell to the ground. Yi Pan'er was stunned and hurriedly wanted to run to her. Fujiwara Kasuga was powerless to move, but he resisted so stubbornly, "Don't come...... I don't need you to help me ......."
She least needs her mercy.
"Go away!" Fujiwara Kasuga is prostrate on the ground like a wounded hedgehog.
Yi Pan'er wanted to help her, but she didn't dare to step forward, she hurriedly turned around and shouted, "Wen Yi!" Come on in! ”
Kurosaki heard the shouting and immediately pushed the door open and rushed in. He rushed into the bedroom and saw Fujiwara Haruhi who fell to the ground, and also saw Yi Pan'er on the side. Both of them had red eyes, tears in their eyes. Kurosaki Wenyi hurriedly walked over to the two and reached out to pick up Fujiwara Karuga.
Fujiwara Kasuga had no strength anymore, and the sudden stimulation made her feel uncomfortable breathing.
"Kasuga?" Kurosaki Wenyi saw her pale little face and immediately laid her flat on the bed. He hurriedly took out the oxygen concentrator and put it over her face. Fujiwara Kasuga calmed down at this time, and his painful expression was no longer so solemn.
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The trail in the back garden of the Night Gokan.
After Fujiwara Kasuhi's condition stabilized, Kurosaki Wenyi and Yi Paner slowly walked in the pavilion at sunset. The sunset shone brightly, and Kurosaki's handsome face felt so calm. His hand was around her, letting her lean on his arms, so that she would not be left adrift again.
However, she was so insecure.
"I blamed Dad." Yi Pan'er said suddenly, so stunned.
Kurosaki's memory didn't recover, but he seemed to know something in the sporadic way. He stopped, and his tall body stood in front of her, as if he wanted to shield her from the wind and rain, "Pan'er." You don't know, and you can't be blamed for that. With his hands on her shoulders, he said with such certainty that she could not be doubted.
"You?" Yi Pan'er looked at him in a daze, not surprised, "Have you recovered your memory?" ”
If there is no recovery, why would such a thing be said.
Kurosaki looked at her without blinking, and said in a deep voice, "No." ”
Yi Pan'er dimmed her light in an instant, and Kurosaki Wenyi took her into his arms and comforted her fragile heart, "Listen, no matter if I have my memories or have recovered my memory, no matter who I am, I love you and will not change." ”
Yi Pan'er couldn't help but be moved and bitter,