The music of the old melody, the chaotic dreams, the slight pain in my brain from time to time, this sleep was very bad, and I don't know when it started, the door continued to sound from the outside, and finally woke me up in a state of confusion......

I sat up and listened carefully, it seemed to be Liu Manrong's voice outside the door?

Could it be that drinking too much alcohol creates a delusion?

I smiled bitterly, gently patted my head with my hand, walked over and opened the door, a familiar fragrant breeze came to my face, and I saw Liu Manrong staring at me with a slightly nervous face and said, are you okay, you don't answer so many calls?

"Huh!? Something? I was a little confused and muttered to her, did you call me?

Liu Manrong glared at me with very angry eyes, bit her lip and let go, and then sighed helplessly and said, "You...... It's really hard to take you, don't you know that I'm going crazy, I thought you were angry! ”

Angry, why? I looked at Liu Manrong strangely and muttered.

Liu Manrong pulled me back to the house, and while making tea in a bad mood, she smiled bitterly at me and said, I was about to go to bed after taking a shower when I found out that you had sent me a video, and asked Yaoyao if she first admitted it, and then told me that she said something strange to you...... Then I gave you back the video and you didn't answer, and you didn't answer the phone, I thought you were angry, you're good, this person is drunk, and drunk?

I looked at Liu Manrong with a smile, reached out to touch her warm and jade-like half of her side face, and smiled bitterly: "You are so good-looking, it would be nice if this was true." ”

Liu Manrong glared at me strangely and asked, Yang Ming, what nonsense are you talking about, am I not really inflated, you are really drunk, come on...... Take a sip of tea.

I withdrew my hand that caressed her face, picked up the teacup, looked at Liu Manrong with a bitter face and said, I'm sorry, I may not be able to do what you want, I think I'm such a failure, I can't do anything, what a waste.

"What are you talking about, Yang Ming?" Liu Manrong glared at me angrily and reprimanded in an angry tone, "Good and decent, why are you suddenly depressed?" Is it because of Yaoyao's few words that you really retreated, then I really look down on you! ”

I shook my head, stared at her and said, "I saw Liang Xiaoru today...... I suddenly felt that I was too bad, I had hurt her, her youth, emotions and future had all been ruined by me, and Dingding...... I'm sorry for him............"

Liu Manrong calmed down, her face was a little scary, and suddenly she picked up a cup of tea and took a small peck from herself, and then stared at me with her delicate eyes and said with a wry smile, It seems that you went downstairs and left to see her, right?

I nodded, thinking that Liu Manrong had seen this scene from upstairs, otherwise how could she drink alone?

Liu Manrong was silent for a moment, smiled bitterly and said, didn't you say that you wanted to start over? If you really blame yourself like this, why didn't you understand these truths before, and now? What do you want?

I hugged my head in pain and said, it is because I don't know what to do that I feel sorry, sorry for her and sorry for you!

Liu Manrong stared at me and sneered and said, You mean, you can't forget her, right?

I shook my head and said, I can't let go, not that I can't forget!

"Does it make a difference?" Liu Manrong asked with a frown.

"Of course......" I looked at Liu Manrong and said very seriously, "I can't let go of the damage I caused to her but can't make up for it, not the kind of unforgettable for her lingering feelings, maybe it's hard for you to understand, but this is all I really do!" ”

Liu Manrong's face was full of doubts and asked, then why do you want to tell me that you are sorry, is it just because you can't let go of her, not because you still have her in your heart?

I shook my head and said with certainty: "The woman I love now is you, I just think it's hard for me to let go of Liang Xiaoru in my life, if I love you at the same time and can't let go of another woman and Dingding in my heart, I'm sorry for you, and Yaoyao is right, I'm too different from you, maybe it's like you left at the beginning...... One day, you may find out that I am not the Yang Ming you want, and you will leave again! ”

"You're so unconfident?" Liu Manrong looked at me and asked.

"Yes......" I replied truthfully, with a wry smile on my lips, "I'm afraid I'll disappoint you again!" ”

"So what?"

I shook my head, not knowing what to say.

On TV, the "Five Hundred Miles" of the drunken folk song is still playing on a loop, with a slightly melancholy melody and sad mood, Liu Manrong suddenly picked up the remote control and turned off the TV, then came over and squatted in front of me, picked up my hand and put it on her heart, and said with a serious face: "Do you feel it......"

I asked blankly, what?

"Heartbeat!" Liu Manrong squeezed out a smile and said, "Yang Ming, do you know that a person does not live for a heartbeat, but for the truth...... Do you know what reality is? You just feel that you are miserable, you can't help it, you are at a loss! But what do you think about life like without us? ”

Her tone gradually increased, and with a hint of choking, she said to me, do you know how my life abroad is, do you know how I feel when I know when you get married and have children in China, do you know how uncomfortable it is when I make enough money but don't want to live alone in an empty house?

She shook her head, tears flowed out, but she still looked at me with a smile on her face and said, you don't know, you are selfish, you always think that your feelings are the most important in the world, your thoughts are the most important, you take every decision for granted, you think that what you see is all the facts of the world, what you see is what you think.................. But do you know how many better men I have rejected in order to keep you in my heart?

"You know what?" Liu Manrong asked me, tears bursting into her eyes.

I was very distressed and held her face, looking overwhelmed, this is not a weight I can bear, and I don't know how to repay her affection, after all, I don't have any real feelings about those things, some just understand and feel after watching a movie.

However, for such an infatuated woman, my existence seems too small, and my feelings seem to be thinner in front of her feelings, don't they?

I opened my mouth and just wanted to say sorry, but Liu Manrong stretched out her hand to block my mouth and shook her head, and said to me with tears on her face, Yang Ming, I don't want to hear you say sorry to me, okay, if you really still love me, and you still have the courage, then you don't have to be cowardly, okay, I hope you can be like an upright man, like the previous you to work hard, okay, I'm not the kind of woman who cares about material, what I Liu Manrong lacks is not money, it's a man who can conquer me, you know?

These words were so domineering that I couldn't cry or laugh, and my drunkenness also woke up most of the time at this time, and all those tangled, dazed, and suppressed emotions suddenly disappeared, and I asked myself, do I really dare not even be an upright man?

No!

What am I afraid of?

Just when I was making up my mind and my self-confidence came back, Liu Manrong got up and stood in front of me, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, smiled at me and said, you don't like gambling anymore, do you? Then let me accompany you to bet on the last one, and I have no regrets if I lose!

I was stunned at what she meant, but I saw her fingers slowly move to the buttons of her clothes, and then gently pick open two buttons............

Without waiting for me to say anything, Liu Manrong blushed and pulled my hand over, opened her mouth lightly and said to me, come on, be my man again, if it really proves me wrong, I will choose someone else to marry!

Nani?!

I felt like I was hit by five thunders, I had the feeling of blood rushing, but I also had the nervousness of being at a loss!

However, Liu Manrong couldn't help but make me stunned, she seemed to have become the woman with a strong aura in the workplace, and she didn't wait for me to answer before making a choice, but just like the best goddess I need to look up to, she ............ directly Sit up!