I took back the hand that was placed on the edge of the tombstone, glanced at the tombstone next to me again, and said in a wistful tone: "Simu, it's not that I don't know what you mean, my parents are trying to maintain an illusion of marriage, making me think that they are very happy and loving, I have the best parents and happy families, those past are too beautiful, so once the illusion of beauty is debunked and the ugliness is revealed, I am stunned, confused, struggling on the edge of pain, again and again, every time I take a step back, there is a pair of invisible hands pushing me forward, Constantly approaching the abyss......"

"An An, you are suffering because you have been putting yourself on the edge of the abyss, when you are staring at the abyss, the abyss is also staring at you, you are trying to close your eyes now, remember the happy things, try it, is it still painful?"

Simu's voice was as warm as the wind of a mountain stream, blowing softly into my heart, slowly, warmly, the blood was warm, I slowly closed my eyes, and I could even feel the breeze chasing in the mountain stream.

I remember the good things, magnify the joy, and the sadness gradually becomes a microcosm, into a small black dot, without hindrance.

The heart is like injecting thousands of beams of sunshine, warm.

It's not pain, even if the wind and the earth are surging, the cold wind blows on the face, and the hair flutters, it's sweet.

I slowly opened my eyes, and a smile appeared on the corner of my mouth: "Simu, did you go to France this time to study psychology, and you understand people's hearts so well." ”

"I don't understand other people's hearts, but we've known each other for so many years, how can we not know your thoughts." Simu smiled and said: "An An, your biggest enemy is yourself, I said this not to make you not care about the grievances and grievances between your uncle and aunt, but to let you learn to look at things from different angles, their original intention is to make you happy, you are their daughter, the continuation of life, no one will blame you, you don't have to blame yourself, remember what you promised me when you left with Fu Yeqing?" ”

How not to remember, I promised Simu to be happy.

I turned my head to look at Simu, lowered my eyes and said: "I used to watch too many romance idol dramas, and I always felt that happiness came easily, and I would be happy every day with a smile, but when it was really implemented in my life, it turned out that happiness was simple and rare, Simu, I promised it too happily at the beginning, and now I regret it a little, can I do it again?" ”

I said the last words in a joking tone, Simu said half-jokingly and half-seriously: "An An, do you mean to give up Fu Yeqing?" If yes, then I really can't ask for it. ”

We looked at each other and smiled, in Simu, I didn't find the taste of a lover, but he was my irreplaceable confidant, male girlfriend, thinking that I had thought about keeping a distance from Simu, I think that was the stupidest thing, Simu will not ask me for anything, it has always been just my mediocre self-disturbance.

I raised my lips and smiled: "I almost fell into your trap again, but I want to know, Simu, if it were you, how would you choose, how would you do it?" Fu Yeqing took Fu Yao'er to the hospital to see Jiang Xiuqin last night, both of them didn't return overnight, I have been worried since I knew that they were going to the hospital, and now it seems that what I had a premonition happened after all, do you know? Fu Yeqing is like an invisible cloud in the sky, even if he says that he is always by my side, I feel that I can't catch it...... In the past, Chu An would never be so unconfident. ”

Nowadays, I suffer from gains and losses, and my old problems have not changed.

When you find that the people around you have changed one by one, or approach with a purpose, the feeling is very unpleasant and gloomy.

I once thought that even if I couldn't be commensurate with Lin Xi immediately, I never thought that she would do that kind of thing with Shen Yingrong, she always knew that my mother hurt my dad, but she was able to keep her mouth shut so far, I really admire it.

Simu suddenly grabbed my shoulder, put me facing him, looked at me with deep eyes and said, "Even if Fu Yao'er knows, so what?" This matter has nothing to do with you, how old were you when the Fu family had an accident? What's more, when you were still sick at that time, as a parent taking money to save your child's life, is this to be condemned? There are thousands of things in this world, there is nothing fair to speak of, and I can't judge right and wrong, An An, guilt can be had, but I can't let this pessimism cover my own heart, I don't care about others, as long as you are happy and happy, if Fu Yeqing can't do this, An An, no matter what, I will take you away, because I love you, I have learned to be perfect, so that you do not hesitate to choose happiness, if I find that my fulfillment makes you more painful, why don't I give you this happiness myself? ”

Simu's feelings for me have never been let go, maybe I can't let go of them in this life, it will transform into any kind of feelings with the passage of time in the future, but it will not disappear.

I was silent for a long time, thinking about Simu's words, and then looked up to meet his warm eyes and said: "I know, maybe the weather is too depressing today, you see, the negative emotions are out, but don't worry, it's okay now, you're right, what my parents want is my happiness, if I have been immersed in their grievances, that's not what they want to see." ”

I turned around and looked at the pictures on the tombstones, and they kept smiling at me.

Simu stayed with me in the cemetery for a while, and seeing that it was going to rain, he said, "An'an, go back first." ”

"Hmm." I closed my eyes and said to the two tombstones: Dad, Mom, don't worry, I will be happy.

There is Simu, I don't have to take a taxi, when the car drove into the city, it was already lunch time, Simu proposed to go to Youranju to eat together, I thought of meeting Zheng Meihui yesterday, and quickly shook my head: "Forget it, I can not go to this leisurely house in the future, so as not to run into Zheng Meihui again, I don't agree with her." ”

You don't need to be too thorough to understand what I mean, and said: "Well, I have a French friend who heard that a French restaurant has opened in Rongcheng, why don't we go and have a show today and reminisce about the days in France." ”

"It's okay, I haven't eaten French food for a long time, and I really want to, when I first went to France, I missed the specialties of Rongcheng every day, but then I got used to it, and when I returned to Rongcheng, I often missed the days in France."

Simu turned the car around at the traffic light in front of us, and it took about twenty minutes to arrive at the French restaurant he was talking about, but it was a bit unfortunate that we went in and just found a seat, but we saw that the third table next to us was sitting at Yao Lime.

Across from her sat a man, apparently here to meet with a client.

As soon as we sat down Yao Qinglime, we saw it, it should be said that we saw Simu, and I was a little transparent in front of her.

Simu just glanced at her lightly and then took his gaze back, beckoning to the waiter, this kind of indifference is like meeting a person he just knows, his eyes subconsciously look over, and his relationship with his friend is far behind.

Seeing Simu's attitude, I probably understood the reason.

I know what I like, I don't need to ask me to know something, Yao Qinglime looked at us, and was a little inattentive to the customer, and his eyes glanced over to this side several times.

Simu must have felt that Yao Qinglime had been looking at us, but he never looked back, and while he was waiting for the food, I asked: "Simu, last time I heard Sicheng say that Yao Qinglime helped him go back, did you ask Yao Qinglime about this matter?" What did she say? ”

"She didn't admit it." Simu said lightly: "When I turned around, I reaffirmed to Sicheng that although he was drunk that night, whoever brought him into the room could still know, he always thought it was his room, and he only thought it was a dream." ”

Facing the woman he likes, thinking that this is a dream, how can he hold it, this slap doesn't make a sound, even if Fu Yao'er is drunk, it should be reacted and conscious, but what happened that night did happen, what happened Fu Yao'er must be difficult to say, but Fu Yao'er should still have a response.

Not admitted, but that doesn't mean it's not true.

Si Mu can ignore Yao Lime so much, which means that Si Mu has confirmed that Yao Lime has made a little trick in the middle.

Fu Yao'er's longing is so obvious, Yao Qing'er also likes to think about it, in the face of Yao Qing'er, Fu Yao'er is a little cabbage, she is not an opponent at all, and a little action can make Fu Yao'er out.

I suddenly didn't know what to say, glanced at Yao Qingling, I didn't look at it again, and said abruptly: "If there is no such thing, Fu Yao'er estimates that it is still possible to talk to Sicheng, in this way, Fu Yao'er will not be willing to Sicheng, no matter how this happened, it has become a fact after all." ”

"Maybe time can make this matter fade, and their matter is unknown, I think Sicheng is full of confidence, maybe there will be a different ending."

I shook my head and said: "Simu, you don't know Fu Yao'er, or you don't understand women, in Fu Yao'er's mind, I have already determined that Sicheng is a strong ......" Realizing that these three words were not easy to say, I skipped and said: "She decided in her heart, even if she is whitewashed, this is a stain on her feelings, even if she can't find a satisfactory man to spend her life with, she will not settle." ”

will not be a rapist, even if she may fall in love with Huo Sicheng later, it is doomed to tragedy.

"No matter what the outcome is, this matter has come to an end at this time, after this incident, Sicheng is a lot more honest, and he has suddenly become a lot more mature."

The waiter brought the dishes one by one, Yao Lime seemed to be about to end, she had already gotten up and was saying the last words to the customer, and after a while the customer left, Yao Lime couldn't wait to come over, smiling and greeting: "Senior brother, I didn't expect you to come here to eat, just discussed the lawsuit with the parties, and didn't come to say hello immediately, senior brother won't mind, right?" ”

In my impression, this Yao Lime has always been cold and businesslike, but I didn't expect to be able to smile so gently.

There was only Simu in her words, and she also looked at Simu in her eyes, and I was truly transparent.

Simu didn't look up, directly ignored Yao Qinglime, calmly sandwiched a chopstick dish for me, and said, "An An, eat more, does this French cuisine have the taste of the past?" ”

I knew that Simu did it on purpose, and cooperated with him to say: "There is a hint of French romance, yes, I will come here next time to eat." ”

Yao Qingling's face was very embarrassed, and she couldn't hold it back, but she tried to keep her composure: "Senior brother, are you still angry with me?" Do you really think I did that on purpose? Senior brother, didn't you know me on the first day, do you think I'm that kind of person? Why don't you believe me? ”

Hearing this, Si Mu turned cold, put down his chopsticks, looked up at Yao Lime and said with a faint expression: "I also want to know, why did you become that kind of person, Lime, I didn't know you on the first day, but now, you let me get to know you again." ”

The last sentence was very heavy, and Yao Qinglime's face was as gray as ash: "Senior brother, I ......"

Simu interrupted indifferently: "Miss Yao, it's my meal time. ”

A sentence of Miss Yao, as alienated as a stranger, Yao Qingling's face was pale, because the distance was a little close, she could feel her body trembling, such a strong woman could make the opposing defense lawyer speechless in the courtroom, but at the moment she was just a woman who was hurt by love.

She forced herself to compose herself, tried to pull out a smile that was more ugly than crying, and said, "That...... Then I won't disturb my brother's meal. ”

When the words fell, she fled like a deserter.

I came to my senses, it was all gone, I looked at Simu and asked, "Isn't this too serious?" She's a woman after all. ”

"I never treated her like a woman." Simu picked up the chopsticks again and said, "And in this matter, it has nothing to do with gender, I have never been right about things and not people." ”

I debunked Simu: "Liar. ”

Simu calmly added: "Exceptional for you." ”

I smiled and said, "I'm going to frame this sentence, it's something you gave me this year, my friend, I'll cherish it for the rest of my life." ”

Simu doesn't mind if I misinterpret the meaning of his words, in fact, it is not a misinterpretation, no matter what our relationship is, the same applies to it.

We didn't want to change our mood because of Yao Lime for this meal, so we cleaned up our mood and tasted the dishes, and after eating, Simu sent me back, he sent me to the door, watched me go in and left.

At this point in time, I thought that Fu Yeqing must be in the company, but I didn't expect that since he was at home, I had just stepped into the living room, and the nanny said, "Madam, Mr. said that you will go to the study to find him when you come back." ”

Den?

Fu Yeqing is so formal, what is he doing?

"Got it." I went up a flight of steps and then went back and asked, "Is Yao'er back?" ”

"Nope."

Since Fu Yao'er didn't come back, I thought thoughtfully for a while, covered my stomach and went upstairs, Jiajia took a nap, Jiajia was going to kindergarten today, I didn't send him there, I went to the room to see Jiajia I went to the study, Fu Yeqing stood in front of the window, the curtains were opened, and he looked out from where he was standing, just to see the situation at the door.

In other words, he saw Simu send me back just now, for this, I was not weak at all, knocked on the door, Fu Yeqing turned around, extinguished the cigarette in his hand, and asked me in a light tone: "Went to the cemetery?" ”