Xu Jinghe had a slightly thick makeup, wearing a very sexy and revealing tight short skirt, which was almost like two people before, especially holding a man with a face full of flesh and looking very old, Su Nian was shocked.

She hadn't seen Xu Jinghe since she returned to Jincheng, and she had expected that Xu Jinghe and Ye Shucheng would probably not have a good life after they broke up, but she didn't expect to fall to this point.

When Xu Jinghe saw her, her face suddenly turned pale.

His expression changed and changed in an instant.

Xu Jinghe was embarrassed and embarrassed, and quickly bowed his head with a weak heart.

“eve。” A call interrupted her thoughts, she withdrew her gaze, and saw that He Fan had already come over with Mianmian with a plate, so she stopped looking at Xu Jinghe.

After all, there are already people who have no relationship.

And Xu Jinghe's gaze turned back to Su Nian, just staring at Su Nian, the man next to her was on the phone, she saw the man next to Su Nian, who looked polite and white, behaved well, dressed brightly, and smiled gently at Su Nian.

There was also a little girl beside them, who looked very cute and smiled very sweetly, and Su Nian was the same.

Xu Jinghe clenched his fists, his nails were deeply embedded in his palms, something gushed in his chest, and his anger was overwhelming.

Su Nian's happiness is an excellent mockery of her.

Why did she fall to this, she had the opportunity to live the life she wanted, her career and love were already in her pocket, but because of Su Nian's appearance, everything was ruined.

She hated Ye Shucheng, because he gave her heaven, and also made her finally fall into hell, painful, just after being driven out of Jinghe jewelry by Ye Shucheng for a period of time, she suffered from severe depression, at that time wanted to escape from this world was crazy, and even tried to cut her wrists, and was finally found by Xu Cheng and sent to the hospital, only to survive.

However, compared to Ye Shucheng, she hated Su Nian even more.

If there was no Su Nian, Ye Shucheng would not abandon her at all, he would not hate her, she was once the treasure in Ye Shucheng's palm, and overnight, her life was turned upside down because of Su Nian.

Those things that she thought were firmly in the palm of her hand were all taken away by Su Nian.

She used to be most afraid of knowing that they were together, it would make her a joke, but now that they are not together, she is not very happy, Ye Shucheng is still disdainful and disgusted with her, and what about Su Nian......

She looked at Su Nian, and the anger in her heart was surging.

Why do you want her to see Su Nian's happiness, even if there is no Ye Shucheng, there is such an excellent man with lovely children, and what about her?

She has nothing, she makes a living by laughing at night, and has been struggling for money in a near-marginal area, reduced to a situation that is even more unbearable than before she met Ye Shucheng.

Su Nian talked and laughed with the man, and occasionally smiled at the child, and didn't look at her, that smile was very dazzling to her, and she felt that Su Nian was laughing at her.

She glanced at the man she was following beside her, she didn't say anything, she was full of swear words when she made a phone call, and her behavior was not elegant at all, she had to commit herself to this kind of person for money, she herself was disgusting, Su Nian saw it, she must have laughed at her in her heart, she felt that Su Nian must be very happy to see her down-and-out, as long as she thought of this, her heart hurt badly.

She couldn't wait to tear Su Nian apart, but she was helpless, she could only watch.

After the man next to her finished the phone call and beckoned her to go, she followed abruptly, feeling like a dog.

This night, as before, she was tossed for a long time by this fat man who was extremely disgusting to the extreme, and she was weak and weeping on the bed in the hotel, and at two o'clock in the morning, the man threw the money to her to take a bath, and she was like a dead person, facing the ceiling on her back, for a while, and she didn't know what she was crazy about, so she got up and put on her clothes, took the money, and went out, and ran home.

She and Xu Cheng live in a house in an urban village, a single room with two curtains through the curtain, dark and damp without daylight, and the environment is as desperate as her life.

Xu Jinghe had already fallen asleep, and he heard a sound, Xu Jinghe opened the door angrily, came in and turned on the light, and threw the bag in his hand on the bed.

Xu Cheng woke up in an instant, quickly got up, saw the tears on Xu Jinghe's face, and was anxious: "Jinghe, what's wrong with you?" ”

"What else can I do?!" Xu Jinghe shouted, "What do you think I look like now, I'm a fucking prostitute!" ”

Although Ye Shucheng did not let her go to prison a few years ago, he deliberately made it difficult for her, and proposed a high amount of compensation in the process of out-of-court mediation and mediation in the name of stealing pictures.

At that time, she and Xu Chengguang thought, but there must be no criminal record, the criminal record will follow people's lives, even if they leave the city one day, it will still follow her in the future, making her future road more difficult, so Xu Cheng took a risk and borrowed loan sharks to lose the money.

Although they have been working hard to make money to repay the money, but the interest of the loan shark has risen too fast, she can't find any high-paying jobs to make money to pay off the debt, the original design can not be done without a certificate, and she is asked to do something like a supermarket cashier, she dislikes the treatment is too low, and finally broke the jar and broke it, and was pulled by someone to accompany the wine by chance.

In fact, at first, it was really just a drink, but where to say the things in the night club, and then many things were out of their control, no one in the club covered her, one night she was taken by a nouveau riche and had to take it away, at first she insisted on not going, but later, people threw her 100,000 yuan in one go.

If before, when she was still by Ye Shucheng's side, she could have disdained it, but everything was different, she was moved by 100,000 yuan, and even the sisters around her said that she was lucky, and told her that since she was in debt, she should hurry up and seize the opportunity to make money.

She also struggled and hesitated in her heart, but in the end she still compromised with reality.

Xu Cheng was also angry when she first found out, and said that she didn't know her self-respect, but she scolded back, if it wasn't for Xu Cheng's debts, she and Su Nian would not have been kidnapped, and Ye Shucheng would not have penetrated her lies, how could she be abandoned?

Not only that, Xu Cheng has too many loopholes in stealing pictures, otherwise she would not be implicated, because she was fined for stealing pictures, she also asked Xu Cheng if he had the ability to earn enough money to pay off his debts, Xu Cheng was embarrassed and couldn't answer, so he could only remain silent and watch her fall.

Xu Cheng has aged rapidly in the past few years, and now he is gray, an incompetent father, still lame, and now he can only pedal a tricycle to pull goods for people every day, and he is still struggling to do hard work at an age, wanting to make up for Xu Jinghe, but he can't find a way to make money.

Such a depressing, desperate, and marginalized life, the father and daughter have been like this for a few years.

Regarding the matter of selling her body, Xu Jinghe still thought at that time that the light would pass as soon as she closed her eyes, and as long as she paid off her debts, she could get rid of the influence of the past, and it was not too late to start from scratch.

The debt was finally paid off at the end of last year, but she has become accustomed to this kind of life, people are greedy, she wants to buy a better house for herself and leave here, she needs a lot of money, normal work does not make money so fast, she has to think of other ways, now she can only hope to find a rich owner, so as to save her from this miserable life.

But today, when she saw Su Nian, she felt that she was a big joke.

Her efforts are too funny, Su Nian doesn't have to do anything, there are good men who are willing to spoil and give everything that she can't hope for, this kind of difference makes the hatred, disgust, and jealousy that have been precipitated in her heart begin to ferment.

Xu Cheng didn't know at all, "What's wrong with you...... If you don't want to do it, don't do it, we can take our time to buy a house, I'm also making money......"

"How long do you expect to make money?" Her voice was even poignant at night, tears kept flowing out, she raised her hand, and pointed her finger at the tip of Xu Cheng's nose, "What has my life been harmed by you, can you see?" If it weren't for you, my mother wouldn't have died, and I wouldn't have deceived Ye Shucheng by any means, I was finally able to live a decent life, Su Nian came out to make trouble again, and you, think about it, what did you do for me? You caused me and Su Nian to be kidnapped, ruined my life, and asked you to steal a picture, your broken leg makes people suspect at once on the surveillance, what else can you do?! ”

Xu Cheng's face suddenly turned pale, Xu Jinghe's accusation made him unable to refute, and his lips trembled when he almost wanted to speak.

"I ......"

Xu Jinghe cried, "What did I do wrong, why should I be your daughter?" ”

Xu Cheng's heart hurt when he said this, his face was dark, and he couldn't speak.

Xu Jinghe cried and scolded for a long time this night, and Xu Chengcheng kept standing in place and listening, unable to raise his head.

As a man, he was a failure, and as a father, he was also a failure.

Xu Jinghe's words made him feel that his whole life was a failure.

The two of them didn't rest all night, Xu Jinghe was tired of crying, so he talked about a lot of things, with resentment, talking about Ye Shucheng and Su Nian.

said that Ye Shucheng was still in a high position and did not look at her properly, saying how happy Su Nian was now, with good men and such lovely children, she also heard Su Nian say what studio she had, and she said how much Su Nian and Ye Shucheng looked down on her.

She said that she knows that this world is so cruel to losers, and even the living space has been squeezed to such a narrow level, even if she wants to live a personal life now, she may never have a chance again, she is just a dirty and cheap young lady, and her life is over.

Xu Cheng didn't say a word, and let these words, like sharp blades, stab them again and again.

……

After the second date with He Fan, before entering the door, Su Nian was called by Yu Kun to be interrogated.

Su Nian pulled Mianmian over and blocked him directly in front of him, "Ask Mianmian." ”

Yu Kun asked Mianmian: "What does Mianmian think of Uncle He?" ”

The little girl seemed to be in a good mood, "I think it's okay, but I still need to observe." ”

Yu Kun was amused, Su Nian also laughed, Yu Kun saw her reaction, it should be good, so he said: "Then enter the observation period, and you will have more contact in the future to understand further." ”

Su Nian was stunned for a moment, then pursed his lips and nodded slightly.

She feels okay about He Fan, He Fan is not annoying, and his behavior is also very good at controlling proportions, and the most important thing is that Mianmian likes it.

For her, it is enough to like Mianmian, and she is willing to give it a try.

So, in the following days, her contact with He Fan gradually increased, occasionally meeting, often chatting online, or making phone calls, which can be regarded as entering the dating stage.

She actually doesn't have that kind of love throbbing, this relationship is more like a task for her, compared to her, Mianmian and Yu Kun are very excited about it.

The days seem to be a little dull, occasionally she will think of Ye Shucheng when she calms down, almost half a month since the last meeting, Ye Shucheng has not tried to contact her again, and has not even appeared in front of her and Mianmian, what she has been worried about has not happened, but this also makes her more uneasy.

And Yu Kun was relieved and comforted her, "Maybe he already knew that you were with He Fan, so he retreated?" ”

She just smiled and nodded reluctantly, "Maybe." ”

Yu Kun is well-intentioned, she can't pour cold water, but in her eyes, Ye Shucheng is not a person who gives up on children so easily, so this kind of quietness is even more weird.

After a series of intensive preparations, she and He Zeng's studio finally completed all the registration work, relying on the little contacts He Zeng had accumulated in the industry, but it was off to a good start, and soon there were some small orders.

The initial stage was the most difficult, because there were not many people hired and the workload was also large, so she and He Zeng bore the brunt of it and began to work overtime every day.

Yu Kunna's villa is very far away from the studio, and it takes more than an hour on the road when she encounters a traffic jam, so she sometimes simply makes a phone call and does not go home, so she sleeps in the studio.

He Fan would occasionally go to the studio to see her, and would tell her not to work too hard, but she still listened.

For design, she and He Zeng seem to have infinite enthusiasm and motivation, and often sit in front of the computer for a day, and they don't even feel tired.

The excessive workload makes it difficult for He Fan to ask her sometimes, so he can only come to the studio to see her, and occasionally complain about a word or two, but on the whole, he is relatively supportive of her work, and Mianmian is not so empathetic, complaining all the time.

After Yu Kun went to the studio to see it once, he came back and thought about it for two days, so he simply bought a house for Su Nian near the studio, which was not big, it was a boutique apartment.

On the day he took Su Nian to see it, Su Nian was extremely surprised, "Why did you suddenly buy me a house?" ”

Yu Kun smiled and glanced at Meng Yiping who was standing behind him, "It was Xiao Meng who mentioned that you said before that you wanted to have your own house, so I thought, you have found a partner here, and it is more convenient to have your own place to live." ”

Su Nian's face was hot, "Dad...... Where else is this......"

Yu Kun added, "And the studio is not a place to rest, you can't relax after a tiring day, it's a ten-minute walk from your studio, you can walk to work in the future, don't worry about traffic jams, have a good rest at night, take Mianmian here on the weekend, you also have time to spend more time with the children, your birthday is coming, this is a birthday gift from your father." ”

Su Nian was a little moved, pursed his lips, for a few seconds, and said in a low voice: "Thank you, Dad." ”

I have to say that Yu Kun thought very carefully.

Yu Kun was laughing, and when the phone rang, she went to answer the phone, Su Nian looked around at the house, this house is very well decorated, fully furnished, and can cook, no one doesn't like the new house, the more she looks at it, the happier she is.

Meng Yiping remembered something and followed her footsteps, "Originally, the house that Mr. Yu looked at was bigger than this one, and it was a duplex. ”

She was stunned and looked at Meng Yiping, "Is it necessary to be so big?" I think that's good. ”

Meng Yiping tugged at the corners of his lips, "He said, if you buy one with not so good conditions, maybe you won't be so busy when the studio stabilizes in the future, and you will go back to live, and then give you better conditions, I'm afraid I won't go back even if I go back." ”

After speaking, Meng Yiping turned around and left, Su Nian was stunned for a while before he understood, and he was a little stunned in his heart.

Yu Kun didn't look for a companion later, and he has been missing Su Keying, but over the years, he has not been lonely.

But even so, in order to support her, he bought her a house.

She glanced at the house and thought in her heart that this house could only be used as a temporary foothold, but she must not forget to go home often.

I think so, but as soon as I work too much, I can't help her, often get off work at ten o'clock in the evening, and get tired when I get out of work after work, and I have to drive thousands of miles back to the villa, she is really tired, so she is always lazy to return to this small house, and make plans in a daze in bed.

When the studio is stable, you must compensate Yu Kun and Mianmian well, and accompany them more, by the way, there are ......

He Fan.

She has turned down He Fan's three consecutive invitations, He Fan is not impatient or annoyed, it is really a rare good temper, and she came to the studio to see her when she was free, she felt that such a man was also rare, if it was Ye Shucheng, she would probably have started to look at her face a long time ago......

She slapped her head.

How to think of him again.

……

Saturday cloudy, Su Nian went to the early education institution to pick up Mianmian, the road traffic jam was ten minutes late, got out of the car from the parking lot trotting to the elevator, the elevator received a call from He Fan, He Fan said that he also wanted to pick up Mianmian, she responded casually a few words, went upstairs and passed the front desk, the little girl at the front desk laughed.

"Miss Su, you don't have to worry, Daddy Mianmian is already here."

She was stunned, her face turned pale instantly, her mind was dazed, and she went to the classroom.

She knew that Ye Shucheng would not give up, she had known it for a long time!

When I got to the door, I raised my eyes and saw that the other people in the classroom had finished, and there was only Mianmian left, and-

Yeshu City.

Mianmian sat on a small stool and looked up at Ye Shucheng, and Ye Shucheng also looked down at Mianmian.

She didn't care about looking at his expression, she almost rushed over, and suddenly blocked between the two of them, looking at Ye Shucheng, "What are you doing here?" ”

Her posture was wary, and his pupils shrunk, darkened, and said, "I have no ill will. ”

"Don't bother Mianmian, she doesn't like you either!"

Su Nian's voice was raised, and Mianmian behind him was startled, and he involuntarily shrank.

Ye Shucheng's brows furrowed, "Su Nian, you scared the child." ”

"You're scared of her," she gritted her teeth, "you can't reach her without me knowing, you ...... like that"

She was so angry that she couldn't go on.

Her mind was empty, her hands were shaking, and she was afraid.

At the beginning, Ye Shucheng could do whatever it took to put her under house arrest for the sake of the child, if he wanted the child now, how could she fight?

She couldn't let him take Mianmian away.

Ye Shucheng's face was very heavy, but his gaze swept over her trembling shoulders, and a touch of pain crossed his eyes, "I just came to see her." ”

Su Nian clenched his fists, "I said she wasn't your ......"

"Su Nian," he interrupted her in a deeper tone, repeating, "I won't hurt you, a child like you will be afraid." ”

She was stunned for a few seconds, then suddenly grabbed his hand and looked at his palm, "Did you take her hair?" You can't ......."

He didn't speak, but his heart grew colder, and he let her look at his palm, and went through all his pockets.

She didn't turn it out of anything, so she retreated, and for a while, no one spoke.

She also knew that she had lost her temper.

Mianmian carefully got up to take her hand, "Mom......"

She glanced down, and the little girl was a little timid.

She bit her lip, feeling terrible.

Why did they come to this point, she had to be like a thief, guarding against her child's biological father.

If she could, she also wanted to choose an easier path, such as letting go of the past and being together as a family, however......

What Ye Shucheng said and did four years ago was a nightmare for her for many years, and it was not so easy to erase it, she had no confidence in him, not at all.

The thought of being with him made her feel terrified.

Her face turned pale for a long time, then she turned her head to look at Ye Shucheng and asked, "What are you doing here?" ”

He was silent for two seconds, "I heard that you are with He Fan." ”

She was silent, while he continued: "I've heard about the studio, too...... Congratulations. ”

Her expression was still wary and guarded, and he smiled self-deprecatingly, "I've thought about it for a long time......"

He stopped again and stumbled to speak: "You said that I don't know how to love others, I have been counting on it, you come and tell me." ”

He looked down at Mianmian, the little girl didn't understand very well, she was holding Su Nian's leg and looked up at him.

He smiled and looked back.

"It's a pity that I didn't understand until the end, when I couldn't see you."

He took a deep breath and stared into her eyes, "I'm not going to do an appraisal." ”

She was stunned, thinking that she had misheard, and looked hesitant.

"Now that you've made it so clear, I won't doubt her anymore that she's my child." He tugged at the corners of his mouth, as if he wanted to laugh, but he tried hard for a while and failed, and finally gave up, his face looked desolate, "Actually, if you think about it carefully, even if it is my child, who has been with you for so long, I must still want to continue to follow you, and you hate me and don't want to see me, you will have a hard time doing it, if you compete for the child, it will be too ...... for you and the child."

His eyes drooped, "Maybe you're right, I'm not worthy." ”

Her heart twitched hard.

"The kids are cute." He looked up, seemed to smile, raised his hand to cover half of his face, tried his best to suppress his emotions, and exhaled, "I've been like this for the rest of my life, I hope you and the child can be happy." ”

After a pause, he said, "Really, I hope you can be happy." ”

Even if he is alone, in hell, it doesn't matter.

He had forgotten how long he had struggled.

No one knows how difficult it was for him to make this decision.

He could almost decide that Mianmian was his child, he wanted Mianmian, he wanted to be crazy, he was too lonely, and he would rather be lacking than overwhelmed, he couldn't accept other women, and he couldn't accept other women to give him children, he wanted his and Su Nian's children.

There is a child with his and Su Nian's blood flowing on his body, and the intimacy and bond contained in the blood relationship is the most beautiful thing in the world, and for him, it is a miracle.

But after going around and around, in the end, he found that between him and her, he returned to the issue of children.

She rejects him too much, it is impossible for him to have more contact with Mianmian, and find a way to take away the child, what will be the result?

She may disappear again, she will hate him even more, and the child will not be happy, and the child will lose his mother, how cruel.

Then he is repeating what he has already done, for his own selfish desires, making her and the child sad.

If someone has to be unlucky, he'd rather be him.

He had been in the dark for too long, he had forgotten what the light source looked like, he was used to the dark, but she was different from children, they should have hope, they should live with vitality, they should be happy.

In the end, all he could do for them was to let go.

The tender voice suddenly sounded, "Uncle, don't cry......"

He was stunned for a moment, moved his hand away, and half-squatted down to look at Mianmian, "...... Uncle didn't cry. ”

He was smiling, but his eyes were red.

Mianmian raised her hand and touched the corner of his eye, "Mom didn't mean to yell at you, you learn from me, be obedient, and Mom won't yell at you." ”

He burst out laughing.

He should be obedient, and if he had been obedient earlier, maybe it wouldn't have ended like this.

He stroked his hair, "Then you should be more obedient and take care of your mother." ”

The little girl nodded seriously.

Su Nian looked at this scene, the tip of his nose was astringent, and tears were rolling in his eyes.

He took a deep breath, got up, and glanced at Su Nian deeply, "You take care of yourself in the future, I'm paying attention to the affairs of the studio, don't toss too much, don't always work overtime, I have the resources here to extradite to you, you and He Zeng don't have to worry about business." ”

Her face was still pale, and she raised her hand to quickly wipe the corners of her eyes, "I don't need you ......"

"I know," he said, "just if I'm wishful thinking, just make it up, and if there's anything that can be used for me, call me." ”

As soon as the words fell, he realized that everything that needed to be said seemed to be finished.

He was silent for a few seconds, then turned back again, "Anything that can use me...... It's okay, and the child can come to me for anything. ”

Eyes moved down, Mianmian still looked up at him.

He pulled out a hard laugh, "Mianmian...... Good bye. ”

Mianmian raised her hand and waved, "Goodbye, uncle." ”

Su Nian's whole person was like a piece of wood, Ye Shucheng had already left, and she was in a trance, standing in place, her eyes became warm again.

Mianmian tugged at the corners of her clothes, "Mom, what's wrong with you, do you want to cry too?" ”

She shook her head and bent over to look at Mianmian, "What did that uncle and mother say to you before she came?" ”

Mianmian thought for a while, "I don't understand what I said, so I said I'm sorry for me, and I said I'm sorry for you, I don't know him, why does he say I'm sorry for me?" Did he do anything bad? ”

Her lips moved, her throat felt like a ball of cotton was stuffed, and she couldn't make a sound.

Mianmian said: "He looks very sad and lonely, I think he is a little pitiful, Mom, he doesn't seem to be so bad." ”

Su Nian nodded, "Yes...... He's not a bad guy either, he's just ......"

"Just what?"

She didn't want to say anything, so she got up, "It's nothing, let's go, your Uncle He also came today, saying that he would wait for you in the square downstairs." ”

Mianmian cheered all at once.

The two of them went downstairs to the square in front of the building, and sure enough, when they saw He Fan, Mianmian happily ran over and greeted He Fan.

Already very familiar, He Fan suddenly picked up Mianmian, raised it high, looked at Mianmian and giggled, looked down at Su Nian walking over slowly, he smiled: "You guys came down earlier than I thought, I thought I wouldn't be able to catch up." ”

After a pause, his smile faded a little, "Did you see Mr. Ye?" I just saw him coming out of the building. ”

Su Nian bit her lip and lowered her head slightly, "Well, I saw it." ”

"He didn't do anything to you and Mianmian, did he?"

He held Mianmian in his arms, and Mianmian's hand hooked his neck.

Su Nian shook his head, "No." ”

"Really?"

"Really."

"That's good," he said with one free hand, pinching Mianmian's fat cheek, "Mianmian, will you take you to eat Häagen-Dazs?" ”

"Okay, okay!" The little girl smiled even brighter, and she had completely forgotten about it.

Forget about the sad, lonely man in the empty classroom.

"Let's go." He Fan said, hugging Mianmian and turning around.

Su Nian was stunned in place, and He Fan turned around and shouted when she saw this, and she kept up with him.

"Why are you stunned?" He Fan is disgusted.

Su Nian smiled embarrassedly, "I'm a little tired." ”

"I know you're tired," he nodded, "busy man, you need to be with Mianmian today," he paused, adding, "and me." ”

Su Nian shook his head helplessly, "I know." ”

As they walked forward, He Fan's gaze swept over the temporary stop on the side of the road not far away, a car that had been parked for a few minutes.

The visor blocked the inside, but he knew that it was Ye Shucheng's car.

A few minutes ago –

Su Nian and Mianmian hadn't come down yet, he was waiting there, and Ye Shucheng came directly in front of him.

Ye Shucheng just said three sentences, and there was no room for him to speak.

"You're good to her."

"She suffered a lot."

"And ...... Be good to the child, or I won't let you go. ”

The last sentence was almost threatening, and he didn't have time to react, Ye Shucheng had already turned around and left.

He retracted his thoughts, and he hugged him tightly, like a coquette: "I want to watch "Minions", my classmates have watched it, let's go see if it's okay ......"

And so they walked away.

In the car, Ye Shucheng was lying on the steering wheel, through the window glass, and his eyes followed the two figures.

Mianmian seems to like He Fan very much.

The three of them, talking and laughing, look at it, they are a very happy family.

It's really alive, so beautiful, unattainable, this is the miracle he has been missing for a long time, and the reason why a miracle is called a miracle is because it never happened to him.

The square was full of people, and they gradually merged into the flow of people, and his eyes hurt when he saw it, and he was reluctant to blink, but he still lost his back.

The eyes will also protest, become hot and swollen, and the vision will become foggy.

He lowered his head and smiled, and slowly moved his hands to put on the gear, leaving the prosperity of this life.