That day, Wang Xiaofei came to me and wanted to talk to me about the incident I mentioned to him some time ago.

He has a friend at the publishing house, and he also does some private work part-time, giving people autobiographies or something.

This kind of book is generally not on sale, but only kept as a souvenir, and the price ranges from 30,000 to 50,000 yuan.

"Shu Lan, actually, I also think that you can write a book, it's just a memoir, are you sure you go through it word by word——"

I said that I was not hypocritical, and this idea has been around for a long time. But Ye Jinliang has just been gone for two years, I don't dare to think or say. Now that time has diluted impulsiveness and loss of control, at least the words can be said completely.

"Then you want to start talking about it when you were a child?"

I nodded, looked at the cup of clear green tea in front of me, and asked Wang Xiaofei to open the recorder.

Lin Yuqing's coffee house has been losing money for the Nth year in a row, and on such a sunny afternoon, green tea goes well with memories.

My name is Shu Lan, and my first husband and I got married ten years ago and divorced six years ago.

When I got married, I was two months older than him. In the year of the divorce, I was still two months older than him. But now, I'm five years and two months older than him.

Forgive me for telling you in such a way that he stopped forever at his thirty years old.

A man's best age is his most desperate abyss.

Speaking of my and Ye Jinliang's backgrounds, both of us are the second generation.

It's not a new term, is it? We all know what the second generation of X is, right, this second generation is not as lucky as the previous ones.

People's parents either keep money, power, or halo - as a result, when it comes to the two of us, Dad left an immortal factory. Hundreds of workers have one mouth per person, and a butt of foreign debts, and they can't even pull out bank loans.

This building materials factory was renovated when the state-owned enterprises were restructured.

My father, Shu Zhongshan, is more economic-minded, and when a state-owned enterprise went bankrupt, he borrowed some money to put it down. Ye Jinliang's father, Ye Zhenkuan, was small with him, so the two of them worked together.

The early years were very good, and anyway, everything I had the best material conditions from kindergarten to university.

At that time, there was no such thing as an explosive household, in short, as long as there were new things released in TV commercials, it is no exaggeration to say that as long as I mention it, no matter what I eat and drink, my dad can satisfy me.

And even if my dad is busy, Ye Jinliang can get it for me.

The two of us are childhood sweethearts. Because of the relationship between the two fathers, we have known each other since childhood. I don't know if it's a finger for marriage, maybe my parents have made this kind of joke together.

At that time, my mother and his mother were almost pregnant, and I was a Pisces and a Taurus, which was a sister and brother relationship.

People say that childhood sweethearts are unreliable, but we are quite exceptional. On the one hand, I think the reason may be that he is not crooked, but I am definitely from the Appearance Association. When I was a child, Ye Jinliang was good-looking, and her skin was whiter than mine, but unfortunately she was not as tall as me. Until the third year of junior high school at the age of fourteen, he reached 1.8 meters in the first half of the year, which was like pouring fertilizer.

In my memory, it was the first time I had a girlish heart for him.

Because when I was a child, he always called me Sister Lanlan. The girl's mind matures early, and I take him with him in everything.

At that time, I was pampered by my family again, and I was not as dignified and virtuous as the ladies who were really from famous families.

It's not intentionally self-defeating, but this may be the essential difference between the nouveau riche and the wealthy aristocracy.

Anyway, I'm no different from ordinary children, and I've done all kinds of pranks and bad things. However, I have a black belly when I was a child, I pretend to be a good child in front of my elders, and I instruct Ye Jin to do all the bad things. Then he got into trouble, and he was beaten.

It's just that no matter what kind of grandma he was beaten by his parents, he never said that I instructed him.

At first, I thought he might be mentally retarded, so I told my mom that I would definitely not be good with him in the future. Mom said okay, this kind of thing is not a one-shot deal, whether you can become a family depends on whether the three views are suitable when you grow up.

At that time, I didn't know what the three views were, the word was too profound. I think I need to understand what life and death mean first, and then I can explore the meaning of further elevation, right?

As a result, the following year, my mom died.

The car accident came very suddenly. But it's a normal weekend, my dad is working overtime in the factory, and my mom is a little nervous, so she said that she would go out and get her hair done.

I don't remember the rest of the story very clearly, it stands to reason that the seven or eight-year-old girl has long remembered. Maybe it's because my dad deliberately didn't let me see my mom, so I didn't have any visual impressions. It felt like my mom had gone on a long trip and never came back......

Growing up, I heard about it on and off, and things were simple. It was probably my mother who ran a yellow light when crossing the sidewalk, and as a result, a bus turned right in a blind spot, and was directly rolled into it and crushed. So my dad didn't let me see my mom, probably because he really didn't want me to watch it.....

But after all these years, I can't even watch horror movies. Once there is a particularly bloody scene, I will make up for the bridges that I can't stand. Really, I don't think there are some shadows that don't really need to appear in front of you, as long as they happen, they are already imprinted.

But in the days after the accident, I remember that I didn't seem to cry much. There was a lot of commotion in the house, and a lot of people came. Ye Jinliang and his mother Shen Xinpei have been with me, and Ye Jinliang is also there. I don't think he understands anything that I don't even understand.

Anyway, in my impression, he took a handkerchief, and paper towels didn't seem to be popular at that time. Keep wiping my eyes, I said I didn't cry what you wiped.

He said Sister Lan Lan, in the future, you will come to my house to be my mother's child, okay?

I said yes at the time, and then Ye Jinliang's mother went out. Ye Jinliang climbed on top of me, holding my neck with both hands.

Then he cried, and his snot and tears were rubbing into my collar.

I remember when we learned to swim together last year, he was too timid to go into the water. The coach asked us to pull a board and make a splash. Ye Jinliang also hugged my neck like this, crying like a fool.

Later, the coach was speechless, saying that you should let go of Shu Lan quickly, as if someone was going to rob your wife!

After thinking about it for so many years, Ye Jinliang seems to have cried in front of me twice, once for dependence and once for dependence.

It's just that after my mother died, Ye Jinliang didn't call me Sister Lan Lan anymore, and she didn't always listen to me like before. At that time, I misunderstood, thinking that he was not afraid of me before, but of my mother.

So very angry, very hated him.

I remember one time, I was not very impressed. Anyway, I asked him to do something, not a good thing.

He said he wasn't going, he was going to go myself.

I was on fire at the time, maybe it was because I didn't feel pain at first without my mother, but gradually, my life became less warm and lonely, and my personality became more awkward than before.

Ye Jinliang didn't listen to me, and I lost control all of a sudden. I took the doll on the sofa and smashed him, but there was a zipper on the doll's back, and it was cut along his forehead.

I don't know how I can be so sharp, maybe it's just inches. When I saw him bleeding, I was stupefied. So much so that when I saw blood at the beginning of menarche, I was not so afraid.

Later, I remembered the first time Ye Zi had a sick illness in kindergarten, and I realized that this child was not like Jiang Zuoyi at all, and the tyrannical little factor in his bones was like me at all.

After being beaten, Ye Jinliang said that if you don't want me to tell adults, you will listen to me in the future.

I didn't squeak, but I felt like Ye Jinliang had been a lot more distant since that time. Although the two of us are still in the same class, I spend most of my time with girls, and Ye Jinliang also has his own circle of friends.

I'm still relatively withdrawn, and I don't have many friends. With the exception of one or two sisters who are particularly iron, they are generally not very gregarious.

It stands to reason that staying away from the crowd is staying away from right and wrong. However, I developed very early, and my chest was bulging when I was 11 years old.

Some of the older boys were disgusted and even organized a group to come to the door of our class to see. said that Shu Lan, a little girl in a certain class, was like having given birth to a child.

At that time, I didn't think plumpness was a pleasant thing, and I felt particularly ashamed. I don't have a mother, and there is only a sister-in-law Lin who takes care of my daily life.

I couldn't help it, so I told Sister-in-law Lin to buy the kind of clothes that could hold my upper body. As a result, Sister-in-law Lin brought me a belly pocket and said that the girls in their village all use this.

I didn't understand it, so I took it with me. As a result, one day in physical education class, a bad boy came around me and pulled the red rope off my neck. It was summer, so I wore a white T-shirt uniform. As soon as my belly pocket opened, half of it was cut out of the placket of my clothes, and the bag tied around my waist was loosened.

At that time, I cried, crouched on the ground with my chest crossed, and said nothing. Then I saw Ye Jinliang rushing up, riding that bad boy and rolling into the sand pit to fight. Ye Jinliang is still very young, and he was originally overwhelmed by others. But I don't even want to die when I see him fighting, and I can't even pull the teacher away.

In the end, the kid's nose bridge was fractured and his eardrum was perforated, and Ye Jinliang's parents came to school to apologize for a long time. Because we are all in key schools with a lot of money, it is not shameless for people to beat their children.

Anyway, it took a long time for the aftermath of this incident to dissipate, but Ye Jinliang's mother never blamed me from beginning to end. He also took me to the mall and bought particularly beautiful underwear.

At that time, it was almost summer vacation, and my father went abroad to do errands, so I stayed at Ye Jinliang's house for a few days. His parents are very busy, and we are at home during the day.

When I was doing my homework, he would go out with a basketball in his arms. Then I wrote his homework for him, and when he came back, he would bring me popsicles.

But one day, something unexpected happened.

Ye Jinliang just left after lunch, and I took a shower when it was too hot by myself. After washing, I found that I only took underwear and not underwear. Thinking that his uncle and aunt were at work anyway, he wouldn't come back so soon, so he took a towel and hurriedly ran to the guest room.

I really didn't expect Ye Jinliang to come back suddenly.

How often did he not have to play for two hours?

I was going up the stairs with my back to him. She wore a small pink shorts on her lower body, and she protected her chest with a towel.

Originally, it was nothing, but there was a corner on the stairs! By the time I went around the corner, I was right in front of him!

He let go of the basketball in his hand and rolled straight to the coffee table in the living room. I remembered that there was a yellow joke in the book, which probably meant that there was only a question of whether a towel should cover the top or the bottom, and the correct answer would cover your face, and no one would know who you were.

Then I short-circuited my brain and put the towel over my face! The problem is that there is no one else in the family except me, is it useful to cover your face!

Later, I don't remember how I escaped back to the room, anyway, it took about ten minutes before Ye Jinliang came up and knocked on the door.

He said I'm sorry, the basketball court is full today, and people can't add people to the game. So...... Came back early.

I hadn't come back to my soul at the time, so I said it's okay, just don't say it.

Then he sat down, straddled a chair, and stroked my hair from behind.

I stiffened, afraid to move or look back. After a few minutes, he asked me, in a small voice, if he could let him touch it.

We weren't even twelve years old at the time, and we didn't know anything, I knew he was just curious, and I didn't think it would happen if I touched it.

After that, none of us talked about it, and two days later my dad came back from a business trip, and I went home. I thought that until the beginning of school, I would have no reason to meet Ye Jinliang.

Unexpectedly, my dad came back to tell me something this time, so I packed my bags and ran away from home that night.

In fact, I know that my mother died so early, and my father will have to find my stepmother sooner or later. I was mentally prepared, but I still felt that when this moment really came, it was still so difficult to accept.

I think most children resist stepmothers not because of how bad stepmothers are, but because you have a sense of uneasiness in your heart that you have been abandoned by the whole world.

Especially when my dad told me that he had actually gotten along with Aunt Mo a long time ago. The children are several years old, but they think I'm too young and I'm afraid that I won't be able to accept it, so I haven't married the two of them.

Now that I'm about to enter junior high school and sensible, I hope I can understand him.

I understand your grandmother's claws, how long has your mother been dead, and you have made other women's stomachs bigger!

But then I also realized that my father loved my mother sincerely. But when a person dies, he dies, and his life must go on. No one can really defend anyone for a lifetime.

But I can't accept that there is another woman in the family to take my mother's place, I said if you want to be nice to someone else, just follow it, but I don't recognize it. So I ran away from home and went to Ye Jinliang's house.

I don't have anywhere else to go!

Anyway, that night, I climbed up to Ye Jinliang's bedroom window from the backyard, and it was still raining and thundering that day.

When Ye Jinliang found me, a thunderbolt struck me, making my face look like a female ghost.

I thought he could be scared and open the window and push me down, but I didn't expect him to be afraid at all. After putting me in, he said, "Lan Lan, you have become a ghost, and I will be with you for the rest of my life." ”

At that time, I cried in his arms, and I have the impression that I rarely cried like this in front of him.

I said that my dad was going to marry my stepmom and didn't want me anymore.

He said he wanted me, and he kissed me.

I still remember that first kiss, and I just don't know how to describe it. He doesn't know either, and I don't understand it. It's probably that the two lips are stuck together, and the tongue is not extended.

Then we fell asleep in his little cot, nothing happened, nonsense, what happened at the age of twelve.

But the next morning, the dish was bad, and the two of us were directly 'caught' by his parents and my father in bed!

Because my dad must be anxious when he finds out that I lost it, the first thing I think is whether I ran to Ye Jinliang's house. But because I came through the window, Ye Jinliang's mother didn't know.

Then listening to my dad say this, they guessed whether I would be able to run away with Ye Jinliang. So I hurriedly went to my son's bedroom to look for it, and I saw such a scene-

My dad's face was green.

I thought Ye Jinliang could be frightened, but he jumped up, took my hand and said to my father: "Uncle, it's your business who you want to marry, anyway, Lan Lan will definitely be my wife in the future." I'm going to ask you for her now. ”

At that time, the whole room was stupid, and I was stupid. Because Ye Jinliang at this time is still not as tall as me!

Later, I had a tug-of-war with my dad for a year. I went to junior high school, boarding school. Ye Jinliang is also with me.

In fact, this idea was come up with Ye Jinliang's mother, she was super good to me, and at this time she also persuaded me that after all, you have grown up, so think about it for your father.

That Aunt Mo has been out with her little daughter for several years, and in the future, you and Ye Jin will be fine, and it will be impossible for our two adults to treat you badly.

So I also compromised, mainly because I saw my dad wiping my mother's portrait in the living room that night, and my heart was also very sad.

Love is one thing, life is another.

The youngest daughters brought by Aunt Mo are almost five years old, and they are my half-sister, named Xiao Yan.

Seriously, she looks weird, and I don't hate her either. Aunt Mo has no culture, she is very beautiful, she used to sell beer, in my father's words, she was also depressed after her mother left, so she went to the club with her friends a few times.

He said that Aunt Mo was different from ordinary women, because her family was poor and she was dragging a young brother, so she dropped out of school to work halfway. When you talk to her, people will be more relaxed.

I think it's difficult to recite scriptures in every family, and good people and bad people don't rely on their positions to distinguish between them. So I said to Aunt Mo, just treat my dad well, I have my own way out, and I won't come to embarrass you.

Since I entered the family, I also treat Xiao Yan as my sister.

Later, I went to boarding school in junior high school and high school, and I came back once a month. The atmosphere at home is not very harmonious, but it is not bad.

What's more, as I mature with age, the relationship between me and Ye Jinliang has changed qualitatively.

In anyone's eyes, we are a platinum duo that can never be separated. Although there are also some self-conscious juniors and juniors who want to come over and pry the seams, whether it is a man's sports car or a woman's love letter, we have joined forces to fight back.

After graduating from high school, the two of us went to the same business school. The parents of both parties considered that the factory at home would have to be handed over to us sooner or later, so they wanted us to learn management.

Originally, Ye Jinliang said, let me learn financial management with peace of mind, just manage the accounts. But I don't like to be a little woman by nature. Why do you have to be a leader, and I have to be a small finance?

Ye Jinliang didn't force me, just said that he was also for my good. You must know that a self-made man like our father is not as good as the big chaebol of a wealthy family.

Doing business is very hard, the top has to be dotted, the bottom has to be appeased, I really think that people are glamorous in front of this and that? How many grandchildren do you have to put behind your back?

Ye Jinliang said that he didn't want me to show up, but I said that I just want to fight side by side with you.

What's more, you're worried about wool, our dad is not old, and he can last for several years.

It's a pity that my crow's mouth just can't talk much, Ye Jinliang's father died of a sudden cerebral congestion in his sophomore year. At that time, Ye Jinliang was very strong, but I felt like the sky had fallen.

Because I realized that our parents were no longer young, and human life was as fragile as a feather.

When my mom went out to get her hair done, she didn't get her head intact back.

Now Ye Jinliang's father also said that we would go to Southeast Asia for a vacation together for two days, but we didn't come out again after being sent to the operating room.

At that time, I really let go of my dad marrying Aunt Mo for the first time, and I knew that my dad would also be old, and one day, he might also die.

As a daughter, she was arrogant and naughty for a childhood, and it was difficult for her to be a teenager when she was rebellious. When I finally grew up and became sensible, I realized that the whiteness of my father's sideburns could no longer be washed away.

I said Dad, don't worry, when Ye Jinliang and I graduate, we will get married, we will take care of the company, and you can retire and enjoy Qingfu.

But life is like this, you always think that when everything is on the smoothest track, there will be all kinds of disasters to come.

After graduating from university, Ye Jinliang and I went abroad to study as a graduate student, and after returning to China, we directly joined our own company. In the first half of the year, we are familiar with the operation and management, and in the second half of the year, we are preparing for the wedding

I thought we had been together for 20 years, and there was no reason to destroy our togetherness, but just three days before I went to get the certificate, something happened at home.

As I said before, our factory was first jointly acquired by Ye Jinliang's father and my father, and it has become bigger and bigger over the years. If you think that the scale has been formed, you can follow the established pattern. It's a pity, hehe, an enterprise is a business, you look at Nokia, it disappeared like a dream overnight, not to mention a small building materials company like us.

I haven't figured out the specific things until now, in short, it was just an inconspicuous order, and Ye Jinliang personally talked about it after accepting the management.

After all, we have little experience, probably because the supplier calculated that a few of the unqualified ones in the batch of disassembled safety detonators sold to us were unqualified. As a result, there was an accident during the blasting of the project, and people were injured.

It is said that between the rich and the poor, there is only one hospital or one complaint.

Ordinary people work hard to start from scratch, and they can't afford to get sick, let alone fight lawsuits.

Suffice it to say, overnight, our house was like a frosted eggplant. My father, as the factory director, is mainly responsible, after all, Ye Jinliang's contract is also authorized by my father.

At that time, we sold all the villas in the suburbs in order to hire a lawyer to fight this lawsuit. In the end, I paid a lot of compensation, and my dad also sentenced me to a few years.

But because of this incident, the relationship between me and Ye Jinliang has become deeper.

He always felt that he was also responsible for the accident, so when my father pronounced the sentence, he cried and knelt in front of him, saying that he would not bear me in this life and this life.

Later, we got married, and all the extravagant wedding banquets we had booked were all gone. We don't care about other people's fingers, because life is full of ups and downs.

I think it doesn't matter if the factory collapses, as long as Ye Jinliang and I are together, we can always survive all the winds and waves.

On the wedding night, we were in the wedding room of Ye Jinliang's house. I took a shower and waited for him to come over, and he was still on the phone with clients.

I know he's busy and tired, and even if he takes all the pressure on himself, he doesn't want me to worry about it.

At that moment, I began to recall the submissive little boy when I was a child, is he really my Ye Jinliang?

Unconsciously, it has grown into my heaven and my earth, which can shelter me from the wind and rain and never abandon me.

It's just that the people who have always been by my side will make me ignore those real things that have long been melted into the bone marrow.

In fact, the two of us have been together since we were eighteen years old, and we chose his birthday as a coming-of-age ceremony.

So the wedding night was not so mysterious, but it brought me a very sacred enjoyment and experience.

In the end, he told me that in this life, he would be my brother, husband, knight, or anything, and he only wanted me to be loyal forever.

I'm talking nonsense, I've been all yours since the day I was grown, and I never thought that I would be touched by other men in this life!

I think Ye Jinliang and I should be like this, relying on each other for a lifetime.

I thought that life would always start from the worst and slowly get better. We have known and loved each other for so long, and we love each other as much as we love our own bodies.

What betrayal and change of heart, that is all played in the TV series.

But if there is no bloody material for life, how can art be tear-jerking?

I thought that the man who would never leave me in this life finally came to the end of my marriage with me.

He said that he only begged me to be loyal in this life, but I couldn't keep it.

I said I only wanted his trust and respect, but he just couldn't believe me.

In the end, we did not lose to time, but to fate. I can't imagine how many intricacies and intrigues there are behind my narrative of a time as youthful and simple as my peers.

It turns out that the so-called years are quiet, but someone has borne the suffering and sorrow for you.

We walked and walked, and finally came to the fork in the road where the paper could not contain the fire.

I think the ending between me and Ye Jinliang would be good if there was no ending.

But why did he die?

When Wang Xiaofei pressed the pause button of the voice recorder, I still couldn't cry.

A cloud flashed in the sky, and Ye Zi and Jiang Ling were combing the pigtails of Gu Mu.

They are good, just like me and Ye Jinliang at the beginning. But I didn't dare to tell them my story, because in life, you have to come out of it yourself.

I had to wait in front of me with the medicine kit, and it didn't matter if they were crawling or rolling all the way.

It's not too early, I'll tell you the next story, Xiaofei, you are also involved. You can discuss it with that friend yourself, and I'll just wait to see the finished product.

And only me and Ye Jinliang used to belong only to me.

Pushing open the door and going out, I saw Jiang Zuoyi leaning in front of the car across the road waiting for me. His posture is relaxed and languid, and his eyes are ..... and gentle.