I was awake for the whole operation, and the cold instruments crawled through my body inside and out, like a baptism of whole-body salvation.

"It's already okay, it's best to stay in bed for three days, don't come into contact with raw cold."

The doctor's orders are all routine words, for each woman who has a miscarriage, either active or passive, without the slightest other emotion. But can they understand what kind of experience is behind the life that has been cut off?

After all, I still couldn't save this child for Jiang Zuoyi, and before he knew it...... "Take it out?" I drifted my gaze from the ceiling to the top of the doctor's mask. I said I wanted to see my kids.

Then the doctor went out and came a nurse with a tray of instruments.

She gave me a glass bottle. What was soaked in it didn't take shape at all, just a bloody mass of goo.

No hands, no feet, no nose, no eyes.

But all of a sudden, I cried like a fool—

"You're still young, this kid doesn't look very good, so it's just that fate hasn't arrived."

"Don't think so much about it, take care of your body, such a young child has not yet been formed, and the sadness will soon pass."

The medical staff persuaded them to do so, and the persuasion was just right. At first glance, it has been said N times, and it is more routine than the wedding emcee.

But who can understand the meaning of this child, not only the deepest bond between me and Jiang Zuoyi, but also the only bloodline inherited by that pathetic man. Judging from his intentions towards Xiao Zero, I know how much he loves children. And as long as he wants, there are countless women in this world who are willing to give birth to children for him. But he didn't.

He once said that he was not worthy of being a father, and he didn't want to take other women by his side in this way. I thought it was a posturing joke. It turned out that it was just his seemingly lofty spirit, the most real bit of inferiority.

In just a few months, the situation has changed.

While I was trying my best to dig into the truth of the matter, another track was slowly opening up on them. Ling Xue also knew, so she fought with death. Jiang Zuoyi also knew, so he used compromise to repay the debt. I also knew, but I fired the first shot of the sacrificial flag with the innocent life of my child. Holding the vial of blood bubbles that seemed to still carry body temperature, I couldn't wait to squash my stiff pulse, melt this little bone and blood, and send my child to sing a song for the soul.

Will it be male or female? Is it more like Jiang Zuoyi, or more like me? Lifting the quilt and jumping out of bed, I chewed the doctor's instructions as nonsense.

What bed rest, fuck it, what about my ex-husband?

I still remember when Ye Jinliang sent me to the hospital, half of my body was stained with blood. I don't even know if it's alive or dead at this time!

Running into the intensive care unit, Ye Jinliang was still awake. The first thing I said was, how is the child? I'm fucking like you're a kid!

My tears were like beads with broken threads, and I remembered that I hadn't cried so much in front of Ye Jinliang for a long time.

"Shu Lan ......" He gently stroked my head with the only arm he could move, and he rarely did such a pampering action. Because when we were two young, this was what I, Sister Lanlan, should do.

I don't allow him to pretend to be big in front of me, disdain his comfort and comfort. Dare to treat me as a cat, I will turn into a big tiger in minutes.

"We've been together for almost thirty years, and you haven't been able to bear a single child for me. But I still can't bear to make you so uncomfortable. ”

I said no, it's okay if it's gone. Without this child, Jiang Zuoyi and I may be able to examine this relationship better. After all, under the flood of intrigue and suspense, anything good will be stifled.

Children are both a hope and a burden. I didn't even know if my gun was going to be raised against the man after all, and how could I be sure I should be pregnant with this child.

"Shu Lan, give me a little time." Ye Jinliang touched my face and said, his eyes were weak but firm: "After the injury is healed, I will accompany you to fight." ”

I cried and said I didn't want to.

"Ye Jinliang, you're out. You've ...... You can't have any more accidents. I said I was cowardly, and I couldn't stand to lose anyone around me again. "I don't want to admit it, but I have to admit that when Jiang Zuoyi's shot landed on him, my breathing and heartbeat almost took away all vital signs.

The love that used to turn from despair to strangeness. But the friendship of the past will never be extinguished in this life. Your meaning to me has long been nothing to do with love, but I can't let you get into danger anymore.

"Shu Lan, my dad can't get out of it. Zhongshan Jianye is the two of us, if I don't get involved, can they let me go? "No, no one.

I understand what Ye Jinliang meant, although this knife and shot did not greet him directly. But all the traps that Ling Nan set for me, weren't they all me and Ye Jinliang who ended up? He used the most shameless and clever means to make the most solid marriage between the two of us be crushed into an anthill by his own hands.

Although Ye Jinliang's stupidity is very hateful, it is also even more pathetic.

"Shu Lan, do you remember what you said in a physics class when you were in school?" Ye Jinliang propped himself up and sat up, blood loss and pain made his whole face more and more pale: "After the gap between molecules is broken, the physical form changes, which is the repulsion between molecules. The so-called broken mirror cannot be reunited. But once the two pieces are pressed tight enough to reach the distance of attraction between the molecules, they will really merge with each other. Then I'...... Will there still be a chance to put my heart close to you infinitely closer? Even if Jiang Zuoyi has already pierced a trace, I-"

"I can't." I wiped my eyes and gently spat out those three words. Ye Jin was stunned for a moment and said that he understood, because there was a ...... between me and Jiang Zuoyi Even if there is a human life, there is no betrayal. The poison of love cannot be solved by any means, nor can it be solved by any medicine. Some of them have to be obsessed even if they are covered in bruises, and some ...... Knocked to death with a single blow.

"Jin Liang, if you still can't let go of me in your heart, promise me to protect yourself." I stood up and said we didn't have the energy to hurt each other anymore. As long as we are no longer afraid of anything, no one can control our fate: "Jiang Zuoyi, where did he go?" ”

Ye Jinliang shook his head and said that when he took me to the hospital, Jiang Zuoyi took Ling Xue out of the car. just left, the picture looks like a Korean drama.

"You have a good rest, I'll go find him later."

"Ling Xue, did I tell you everything?" Ye Jinliang's expression was a little strange, and the moment I got up, he suddenly grabbed my wrist. If I asked, I was even more confused.

"Say...... What the? I asked.

"Say the leaves ......"

"What's wrong with the leaves?" I can't stand the extra stimulation anymore, and at this time, I just want my daughter to be safe in kindergarten. I think Ling Nan, even if she is perverted, she will not attack a four-year-old girl over and over again!

"Leaf's father."

Ye Jinliang closed his eyes, and it happened that a doctor came in at this time, saying that he wanted to help him change the medicine and ask me to leave.

"Wait a minute! Who is Yezi's father! "Before the needle could be pushed in by the anesthesia, I almost rushed to my senses. But Ye Jinliang said: "Shu Lan, if you are destined to be inseparable from the devil in this life, I will be by your side...... Be a Nakshatra. Tell Jiang Zuoyi that I admit defeat, but I don't admit my fate. If he still chooses not to protect you after all, I will fight myself. ”

"Ye Jinliang, you-"

"You go out first, don't delay the treatment. He lost so much blood, he shouldn't have agreed to visit! "The doctor unceremoniously blasted me out. Leaf...... Whose child is it?

I walked down the empty hallway like a ghost, every step hurting like the tip of a knife like a little mermaid princess who had just conjured her legs.

"Mom!" My daughter's voice was like a slap in the face to my heart. When I turned around, I saw that Ye Zi broke free of Li Dongye's hand, and a bird rushed towards me.

"Leaves!" I hugged her little head to my chest, tears breaking down again. Or does the winter night know me best, and at this time, who can comfort my empty heart but the leaves?

"Ye Zi misses her mother so much." Ye Zi grabbed my long hair with two fat little hands: "Mom, you haven't come to see Ye Zi for a long time, Aunt Winter Night said that you are going to give me a little brother, right?" ”

"I ......" I just cried, but I couldn't even say a complete sentence. In my daughter's back vision, which I couldn't see, I looked up at Li Dongye, whose eyes were red.

I shook my head and shook her tears of distress.

"Lan Lan, let's go back to bed and lie down first, your body is important. I'll help you carry the leaves—" She walked over and leaned over and patted the leaves' little shoulders: "Come over the leaves, will Auntie take you to play with the small medicine bottle?" Mom is tired and lets her rest for a while. ”

"Wait a minute!" I ran back to the ward in two steps, grabbed the small glass bottle on the table, and stuffed it into Li Dongye's hand. She was a doctor and had seen plasma tissue fluid. But at the same time, she is also a poor mother who has had a miscarriage, so at this moment, her expression is very electrocuted.

"What are you doing with this, Lan Lan I know you're uncomfortable, but-" I shook my head and said you can help me bring this primer over for a DNA test.

"What?" Li Dongye was obviously blinded by me: "What are you testing?" Isn't it Jiang Zuoyi's child? I tilted my head and my eyes fell on the leaf that was lying on the chair eating a lollipop.

I said winter night, help me take the leaves and draw blood again, and compare it with the miscarriage child. "You...... What exactly do you mean? ”

"Help me do it, okay? I want to know the results...... The sooner the better. With that, I fell asleep, almost forgetting that I hadn't closed my eyes well for a few nights.

The child is gone, and my heart feels like a big gap has been torn away. It hurts, but it's also relaxing.

When I opened my eyes again, there was only Li Dongye alone by the bed. She said that she begged the teacher of the laboratory department to give her a number, and asked me to help her repay this amount of personal debt in the future. I couldn't wait to roll over and snatch the report from her hand - "I don't understand!" What an indicator! "This is the gene strand matching ratio of the blood docking point, and the leaf and the child in your belly can basically be identified as nearly 70% similar."

"This ...... What does it mean? I wandered in front of the truth and began to dare not knock on the door: "Ye Zi is my daughter, this child is also mine, they are at least half-sibling, what does the seventy percent blood proximity mean?" ”

"Impossible. Half-sibling or half-sibling, the maximum match is 0-23. The same sex is higher, and if it is a half-sibling or half-sibling, it may even be completely dissimilar. Up to 70 percent, it not only shows that what is flowing out of your belly should be a female fetus, but also shows that she and the leaves are ...... It's the same father. ”

The same father? Well, the leaves are...... Is it Jiang Zuoyi's daughter? Lanlan, tell me what the hell is going on? What has happened to you in the past six months or so. ”

Li Dongye hugged my wooden shoulder, so anxious that he couldn't speak. I said that everything that happened to me has nothing to do with the past six months or so. But from the very beginning, he was injected with poison for a long incubation period, and now he is just sick, and he is miserable......

I think I finally figured out why the disfigured Ling Xue was resolutely unwilling to return to Jiang Zuoyi's side. Why did he suddenly obey Ling Nan and sneak into Zhongshan Jianye in a different way. Why did she run out of the Tang Dynasty hotel crying, and why did she look at me again and again when she faced the relationship between me and Jiang Zuoyi. Why did she go to see my leaves, and why did she 'accidentally' stick a pin into the child's head?

Has she ever struggled between crime and human nature, and has she ever felt distressed and annoyed after accidentally doing it? She...... I'll never be able to tell you the answer.

But I'd rather believe that she was unintentional, because it would be more gratifying to believe.

Jiang Zuoyi, our fate turned out to be many, much earlier than expected. Maybe the blood is really a wonderful thing, and the way he loves the leaves is as if he has the whole world in his eyes.

Yezi, Yezi, you are so lucky to have such a powerful father. Although he will also be tired, he will also need to renovate, and he will have to spend time to settle down and think about his position. But after all, he is still a man who is willing to take responsibility.

I lay flat on my hospital bed, tears streaming down my face to the ceiling. I said winter night, let the leaves come over, I thought...... Take a good look at her. The leaves didn't come, the smile came.

The moment I entered the ward, I saw a different light in the child's eyes. The small mood that was originally filled with restlessness and joy was half extinguished at once.

But I can think about it, just smile, laugh, such a precocious and black-bellied, maybe closer to Jiang Zuoyi's genes.

"Xiaoxiao, if your mother told you that you want to have a new father, would you tell Ye Zi, and you will have to listen to him in the future?" I stroked my daughter's little head, though I was still not used to facing her like this—

"Mom, do you have a new boyfriend?" "How so? This time, it's your biological father, and he will definitely love you well. ”

"Mom, are you serious?" The leaf spun back and put his arm around my neck. It's great that she can easily defeat the second personality now!

"Will he be as good as Dad used to be to me? Will you buy me chocolates, will you read me fairy tale books? Mom, I really want to have a complete home like other children. There's a dad, there's a mom, and there's a little zero...... Where did Little Zero go? I haven't seen him in a long, long time. ”

Where did Zero go, and how should I answer it? Ling Xue died, and my last impression of the boy was that he was so shocked by the gunfire that he hid in the arms of the part-time worker and cried. Has Jiang Zuoyi already given him back to Ling Nan? I think I'm a strong woman, but I can't give a decent answer to my daughter's simple series of questions.

"Ye Zi, mom will help you get dad back.

In a few days, our family will be reunited...... There are also small zeros...... Mom will let you see him. ”

I handed the leaves back to Li Dongye and begged her to help send the child back to kindergarten.

"What about you, your body hasn't recovered yet, where are you going to run?" I said I had to go to Jiang Zuoyi, and for whatever reason, I would see him immediately.

I called Andy and went to the Matlino Church, located on the edge of the Donghuang District.

Later, I learned that after becoming Lu Zhaoxin, Ling Xue was already a very devout Christian. But I don't know what kind of god can purify her soul from life to death, from death to life, with such original sin.

Jiang Zuoyi brought her here for a funeral, perhaps just hoping that she could be closer to her faith.

This was a funeral without condolences, because no one knew who Ling Xue was, and not many people cared who Lu Zhaoxin was.

The gray-haired priest stood under Jesus with a Bible in his arms.

Reciting prayers I didn't understand.

The woman in a pure white wedding dress lies in a coffin with ink, just like a sleeping beauty, and death cannot take away the traces of beauty.

Jiang Zuoyi turned his back to me and leaned over beside her. Dressed in a dark slim-fitting suit, as if he had just taken over from the Grim Reaper.

I saw him sprinkle white rose petals next to her body with one hand clasped around his ten fingers, and everything was silent.

I finally understood what Ye Jinliang's mouth refers to, a sense of picture like a Korean drama, hehe.

I wanted to go forward because I knew I should. I don't want to persuade him to him, I just want to accompany him quietly, break this cocoon, and no matter who whose wings are, they can become butterflies.

Until a slender cane unwittingly blocked my brave way!

"Why are you showing up?" Ling Nan asked me.

I smiled and said I'm here to find a daddy for my child.

"Are you sure you want to tell him?"

I said why not? You asked Jiang Zuoyi to raise your son for three or five years, but you deliberately caused him to be separated from his daughter for so long.

"Shu Lan, you're so strange, don't you blame Jiang Zuoyi for destroying your marriage that should be peaceful and happy?

If it weren't for the birth of the leaves, everything would be different today. Are you so willing? ”

Ling Nan pushed me out and stood at a distance that Jiang Zuoyi couldn't hear at all, in fact, even if he could hear it, what if he could-

I know that his heart and his body are all closed, and I give him time to hibernate before starting a new battle cycle.

"You, like Ah Xue, are sluts who can fall in love with rapists." Ling Nan was really a smiling Yama, even if he said such a shameless slander, he still spoke in a calm tone, like coaxing a child.

I said Jiang Zuoyi is not a rapist! He was never a wicked man. Even if he has such an unbearable past and an undecidable background, he is still a man who can take responsibility and love each other.

"What are you going to play with Ecstasy now?" I sneered: "It was you who threw the unconscious Jiang Zuoyi onto my bed, so that Ling Xue, who had just suffered disfigurement, could see this scene with his own eyes!"

You made her completely lose her trust and illusion in Jiang Zuoyi, and made her think that this man was just a ruthless and unrighteous debaucher.

You just cut off the two of them in this way, and in the misunderstanding of drunken dreams and death, you will never be able to walk the same road. ”

I said this is your most ruthless move? Three years of chess.

When the time is ripe, I will bury Ye Jinliang and my marriage with Ye Zi's bloodline. Ling Nan, don't you really have nightmares?

"Ah Xue is dead, and before he died, he didn't even have a word he wanted to say to you.

And what you can consume, what you can use, is never love.

It's Jiang Zuoyi's last little bit of friendship with you, what tricks do you have to play! ”

"So, you've made up your mind to bring your man back to the clan? Bringing your daughter back to life? Shu Lan, look at Jiang Zuoyi's current appearance!

When he knew that Ah Xue was dead, he lived like a dog in the water for half a year.

You overestimate yourself too much, and you underestimate his love for Ah Xue.

Do you want to tell him that the reason why Ah Xue, who was so heartbroken, chose to leave because he saw him in your bed?

How do you want him to face you, and how do you want him to face your daughter? ”

"Ling Nan, you!"

I was still checkmated to death by him, and every word was like a soldering iron on my heart.

I said Ling Nan, you are a devil!

Through the colorful window of the church, I looked at Jiang Zuoyi's back beside Ling Xue.

When I knew him, he was such a confident, charming, elegant gentleman.

How glad I am that we didn't meet too soon.

I didn't get a chance to see him look so desperate and heartbroken, helpless and decadent.

But today, he just sat beside Ling Xue like this, as if his whole body would be shattered if he touched it.

How do I get close to him and hug him?

"Ling Nan, you can win every time, aren't you tired?" I swallowed tears and blurted out the truth: "Where did you take Xiao Zero?" ”

"You're asking me about Zero's whereabouts?

Shu Lan, you figure it out, he is my son. ”

"You're not qualified to be a father!"

Just then, the door of the church was suddenly opened. Jiang Zuoyi's figure stood against the light.

"You're here?" He asked me.

Yes, Shu Lan is here, she... Seems to have something to say to you. Ling Nan said.