From Du Fanchuan to Luo Ange, no matter how hard I participated in it, how hard I shouted and performed, I could only be a bystander.

I can't wake up someone who is pretending to be asleep, and I can't touch someone who doesn't love me.

Everyone was waiting for my answer, and Gai Nie suddenly pointed at my feet and shouted: "Third brother, look, the third sister-in-law is bleeding......"

I was the first to bow my head, and sure enough, there was a pool of blood.

Luo Ange hugged me and shouted my name, and Luo Lianci and my mother also shouted something.

I felt that there was a big hole in my body, I felt that the blood on my body was going to drain, I felt like I was going to die, I looked at Luo Ange: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry to disturb the happy life of your family of three." ”

He cried and shouted, "What nonsense are you talking about, what nonsense are you talking about? ”

I closed my eyes: "Don't worry, I will fulfill you now, and I will return you to them now." Luo Ange, do you know what I regret the most, which is to believe in you again and again. ”

His tears flowed down my face like a broken faucet, I felt that all my power was used up, I felt that all I met were absolute martial arts masters, I was not their opponent, so I was going to die.

I don't know how long I was unconscious, but when I gradually regained consciousness, I felt like I was lying in an ice hole, and my whole body was full of pain that pierced into my muscles and bones.

Child......

I sat up and stroked my stomach to hear a familiar voice.

"It's okay, wife, the child is fine."

I turned my back, not wanting to look at the face that made me love and hate, and just said lightly, "Let's get a divorce." ”

He turned me over, stared into my eyes, and said sharply, "Ishan, don't you know that you can't divorce during pregnancy and breastfeeding?" ”

"Is it interesting that you tie me up so much in a loveless marriage?"

He let go of me in exasperation and just looked at me. Every time he gets angry and doesn't speak, it's like this, a cannibalistic look.

But I'm not afraid, I'm not even afraid of divorce, what eyes are I afraid of?

We were in a stalemate, until a group of people poured in the ward.

Xia Qi cried when she saw me, saying that I was the most irresponsible mother in the world, and that I was going to die.

In fact, if the child is gone, at least you can reincarnate as soon as possible, even if it is a poor family, but there are parents who love each other, isn't this enough?

How can I be said to be the most irresponsible?

In fact, that day in a private hospital, after the doctor told me those words, he was ready to give me anesthesia.

But at the last second, I suddenly lost my courage, and I pushed her away and ran out.

I'm just going to die, what does it take courage, anyway, it's a painless abortion, just get some sleep.

My mother's eyes were swollen like walnuts, and she couldn't say a word, only crying. As soon as she cried, Xia Qi also cried, fortunately Xibao was not there, or three women in one play, it would be strange if the hospital did not become a sea of tears.

I still stood by my point and scared everyone, especially my mom.

She shook my shoulder and asked me why.

I pulled the dropper, but there was still only that sentence: "I want a divorce." ”

I was afraid that someone would still use a certain law to suppress me, so I said, "I can't get a divorce during pregnancy, I aborted the child, so it's okay." ”

My mom slapped me and hugged me and cried.

I held back my tears and comforted her: "It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, I can't die." ”

Luo Ange said coldly: "If you dare to touch my child, I will not let you go." ”

I still said the same thing, he lost his mind, and threatened me: "If anyone dares to operate on you, I will let him die without a place to be buried." ”

"I'm looking for Jiang Beiyi to ......"

When Gai Nie heard it, he hurriedly said: "Third brother, my wife doesn't know anything, she won't help the third sister-in-law, don't worry." ”

Luo Ange rushed to my side, leaned over to stare at me, and gritted his teeth: "You are the executioner, you are the devil." ”

Everyone hurriedly pulled him away, probably because they were afraid that he would hurt me in a moment. Seeing that I was coughing badly, Xia Qi handed me a tissue, and then she screamed.

"Ishan, you ......"

I always had a strange feeling that the last drop of blood in my body would one day be shed.

What I owe to others, one day, I will have to pay it back by example.

Someone was holding my hand all the time in the haze, and I couldn't wake up in a groggy state, and I always felt like someone was calling me.

"Don't worry, don't worry......"

Then came Bogart's voice: "I'm begging you, I'm begging, you can give Ange back to me, I can't live without him." ”

I would love to tell her that if I could, I wish I had never known him and had not fallen in love with him.

When I woke up again, the light rain was pouring down outside the window, and there was a peaceful tranquility in the courtyard at dusk, coupled with the strong smell of Chinese medicine all over the house, which made me feel inexplicably at ease.

There was no one in the room, but the men's coat on the couch told me that someone I didn't want to see, somewhere I couldn't see.

The owner of the flower shop bandaged the last bouquet of chrysanthemums and handed it to me, remembering something: "Just now Luo Gongzi came to buy white plums and went over there." ”

I nodded, paid and walked out to get a taxi on the side of the road.

The way up the mountain is a bit muddy, but the air is excellent and the scenery is good, perfect for thinking about things.

There was a half-dried bouquet of chrysanthemums in front of my grandmother's grave, and I threw my umbrella aside and crouched down to look at her picture, as if I could see the wrinkles between my brows.

I didn't dare to speak, for fear that she would know what was on her mind and what was not good, and I didn't want her to worry about me.

I just put my face on her picture and silently shed tears.

The rain gradually stopped, and I walked slowly down the mountain, and saw Luo Ange standing at the foot of the mountain, still holding Baimei in his arms.

He didn't hold an umbrella, and there was a white mist on the tips of his hair, as if he had crossed the ocean.

I pretended not to see it, and continued to walk, but he followed me all the time, and did not speak.

I felt like we were walking on the riverbed of time, on both sparkling banks, full of him and Bogart.

They are inseparable, leaving me alone, empty to the years of aging.

Back at the hospital, I went into the room barefoot, took off some damp clothes, and found another dress.

A familiar voice came from behind him: "Let's drink the medicine." ”

I turned around and put the skirt on my body, not wanting him to see me wearing only a wide tank top.

But I don't know if it's because I've gained weight, my skirt is stuck on my shoulders, and I can't pull it down.

He put the bowl down and came over to help me.

His strong heartbeat irritated me inexplicably, so I pushed him away and sat on the bed. He came after him, insisting on helping me, shouting as always, "Raise your hand...... Shrewd...... Don't move......"

Feeling inexplicably depressed and sweating, I pushed him away as he helped me zip up, took the bowl and drank it down, and then placed it heavily on the table.

Those unpalatable Chinese medicines, all the way down my throat, through the internal organs, drowned my whole body in a sea of blood.

He pulled up the quilt and lay down with me, holding me from behind.

I was so resistant to this posture that I moved inside. He came after him, and I tried to push him, but he held me.

"Don't move, it's not good to hurt the child."

What are the unspoken words?

I only care about children, not you.

If I had a knife in my hand, I would have wanted to pierce this hypocrisy.

I suddenly felt powerless because I couldn't do anything with my opponent.

"Wife, I can do without children, but I can't live without you."

It's okay not to say this, but when I say it, I get angry, what do you mean, when I'm a fool, blind and deaf? What you see with your own eyes, is it sleepwalking?

Isn't that an insult to my IQ?

"Don't be angry, don't be angry......"

He hugged me tightly and bit my lip when he saw that I was still struggling. I lifted my knees and was pinned down by him.

The only weapon I had left was my mouth, so I bit him on the arm mercilessly, biting blood.

He still didn't move, trying to discourage me in this way. But he obviously overestimated me, and I have no right to be angry.

After a stalemate for a long time, I finally lost my strength and was defeated. But I didn't want to talk to him, even if I looked at him, I felt redundant, so I had to close my eyes and sleep.

Seeing that I was not struggling, he covered my stomach and rubbed it slowly.

I don't know when I fell asleep, I just remember waking up in the middle of the night and seeing him sleeping next to me with his hands still on my stomach.

I think he still has four words written on his face: Lang's heart is like iron.

After a slight movement, he tightened his arms, and his breath rang in my ears: "Don't move, I'm holding you and the baby." ”

Even if you are angry, you can only obediently stay still.

He squeezed my hand and said gently, "When you're better, let's go take wedding photos." ”

I broke free and looked out the window at the night scene without speaking.

I would love to tell him that what I am rare is not a marriage certificate, not a real estate certificate with my name on it, not a wedding photo pretending to be happy, or even a sweet talk on my lips. All I want, is a man who loves me and won't cheat on me, that's all.

But isn't it love, why is it so difficult?

I looked at him coldly: "There are no outsiders here, why are you so pretending, who is it for?" ”

He looked up at me, and I took the opportunity to retract my hand and look at him as well.

After a long time, he asked me, "In your heart, all my kindness to you is false, isn't it?" ”

"Yes, you've been lying to me all along."

"I've told you countless times, I have nothing to do with Bogart, neither before, nor now, nor in the future."

I sneered: "Luo Ange, do you need me to help you get the mirror and take a look at your hypocritical face." You don't have a relationship? Who said that you are a family, who told the child that you love him and his mother the most, do you think I am a fool? ”

When it comes to this, there is no need to continue, just like what a teacher said before: When a student is caught cheating in an exam, what he thinks is not that he will not cheat in the future, but that he thinks that his cheating methods need to be strengthened, and he will not be arrested next time if he is cautious. When a man is caught cheating, how much of it is from the bottom of his heart to repent? Most of them are more clever and cautious in the future.