When I was growing up, my father always regarded me as the pearl of his palm, but I had a cold war with him for a long time, and now that I think about it, I am really a little unfilial.

Because when I was very young, my grandmother inadvertently revealed that my father had an unshirkable responsibility for my mother's death, so I have always treated my father's enthusiasm with indifference.

Later, my grandmother told me intermittently that in my mother's short life, she had always been invisibly entangled and intertwined with the woman in my father's heart, so that my mother became depressed and died with regret after giving birth.

It's just that my grandmother has refused to tell me who that woman is, and over time, I will no longer ask.

And I, because it was not worth it for my mother, stayed abroad for so many years and refused to return to China, just to avenge my father's ruthlessness to my mother back then.

I have always felt that my mother's love is too humble, so humble that even if she leaves, it still does not make my father wake up, and still does not make my father stop his infatuation with that woman because of guilt.

It's that he has been obsessed with that woman for more than twenty years, a woman who doesn't even know life and death.

Sometimes I feel that even if my father calls me a stepmother again after my mother dies, I can accept it, after all, when my mother died, he was still young, but he would rather live a widower's life alone than remarry, what kind of unforgettable heart does that woman have for her father?

However, at this moment, I finally understand my father's feelings, and if I fall in love with someone, I will not hesitate even if I am in ashes.

The moment the plane landed, my heart became nervous from the initial expectation, I didn't know if it was right to do this, the man who had been in my heart for more than a year, the man who made my heart lose his armor at the first sight of him, was waiting for me at the exit at this moment.

The heart is full at the moment, more than a year of hard work is nothing, I don't know who said it, the genes of the Shen family are destined to be infatuated, needless to say, a talented woman like my aunt who can be called the husband of the middle woman, but she is willing to give up all her ideals for her uncle, and she has been guarding a 'Shen Yuan' for decades.

As if to confirm that sentence, now when it is my turn, it will also fall completely......

The passage out of the gate was so long, and my heart had flown to his; The passage was so short that I was so afraid to see him, afraid that after seeing his deep eyes, I would fall even more.

Dad, when you fell in love with that woman, were you so sad? Can you tell me what's going on? Shouldn't falling in love with someone be sweet? But how could her daughter be so hesitant and uneasy?

At this moment, I will be able to see him immediately, although he will never know that for more than a year, I have been like a spinning top, studying hard, giving up the opportunity to continue my studies, ending my studies early, and returning to China without hesitation for him.

But it doesn't matter anymore, because I can see him again, stay by his side every day, I am already very satisfied, the loneliness makes me want to take out my heart to care, the man I love to the bone marrow, and keep a distance from me at that moment, I will definitely let you see and heart all of me, I silently swore in my heart......

That night, he called me out of the blue and said, 'Rongrong, let's have a relationship!' I was excited all night, but because my Chinese was unfamiliar, I couldn't find a sentence to describe my mood at the moment.

At that moment, I thought that I had finally waited for the spring of love to bloom, without thinking about what he suddenly said about the purpose of our relationship together, and blindly immersed in joy.

But after a short relationship, I realized that everything was too early for me to rejoice.

Because I have been educated in Western countries since I was a child, I am naturally more open to thinking than girls in China, but in the past three years, we have almost no intimate contact between lovers and kisses between lovers. He has always been polite in front of me, and he has never even had an affectionate hug, but I still don't mind, I firmly believe that he can see my true feelings and forbearance.

He eloped with her, leaving me with only a few words, and then disappeared from my sight, no matter how my world turned from joy to sorrow.

I suddenly found that I had known him for several years, but I still didn't know him.

A steady and reserved man, three days before the engagement, took another girl to play and disappeared, I can't believe it, I can't believe it, but I can't help but believe it.

Suddenly I felt that the world of feelings collapsed, this is not the Lin Yuhao I know, that girl, from the first time I saw her in 'Shen Yuan', I understood from his eyes, the person he had always pretended to be in his heart was her Undoubtedly, but why did he look at her with such a complicated look, distressed, pity, indifference and alienation.

Yes, it's alienation, listening to Virgin, they grew up together, shouldn't they be more intimate?

It wasn't until the moment they disappeared that I dared to admit that behind their eyes was the love of the stormy waves, because that day in 'Shen Yuan', after she hastily exited the living room, his eyes were clearly painful and depressed, but why was he ruthless to her at the beginning, but today he fled with her desperately and desperately?

Is it because of me? When I said to him tonight, 'You are the one who wants to live with me for the rest of my life, and you are also the father of my future child', I clearly felt the stiffness of his body.

Hate, I should have hate, but, I don't know why, after the tears, I can still go to work, get off work, and eat like a person who has nothing to do, ignoring the private gossip of the people around me, pretending not to see my father getting older.

'Dad, it's useless for my daughter, it's been more than three years, and I still can't warm his cold heart. ’

'It seems that I have also followed in your footsteps, perhaps, our two fathers and daughters, are destined to fall in love with those two mothers and sons in this life, and hurt their lives for those two mothers and sons. ’

'Daddy, we're really sick and sick......

When you came to the house, I locked myself in my room and didn't come out until he left.

From the day I canceled my engagement, I locked myself in my room like this the rest of the time except for work.

I don't know what you and Dad were talking about in the study, but I vaguely heard the sound of a roar in the study, followed by the sound of a broken cup, and after a long time, I heard the sound of your footsteps opening the door of the study, and your footsteps came from far and near, until the door of my room stopped again.

I sobbed silently with tears in my eyes, and my love was so humble.

'Yu Hao, if you can knock on this door at this time, even if it gives me a false explanation, I think I will pounce on you like a bird, no matter what gossip he has, it doesn't matter what reason, Yu Hao, as long as you can move a little bit in your heart, even if it is the size of a fingertip, I am content." ’

But I stood behind the door for a long time, and there was still no sound outside this door, I know that you didn't leave, are you feeling guilty and repentant? I don't need to, all I want is for you to open this door and say to me, 'Rongrong, I'm sorry!' That's it, as everyone knows, this is also a kind of obsession and luxury for me.

After a long wait, there was a sigh, and then the sound of heavy footsteps faded away......

At this moment, I regret it a little, if you don't knock on this door, I can also open this door, my love has been humble for more than three years, why bother to be humble?

In fact, I had really opened the door, and I rushed out of it to catch up with you who had walked out of the hallway, but I was held tightly by a figure, and I knew it was my father, who must not bear to let me go any longer, so she stopped me.

"Rongrong, humble love, we don't want to--" Dad held me tightly in his arms and wouldn't let me break free.

"But Daddy, I can't afford to lose him, I don't want to lose him--" My heart-rending voice echoed through every corner of the living room, hoping you would come back to see me.

I don't care what its image is, I just know that if I let you go today, my life will be like my father's, and there will only be regrets.

But my father tightened me so tightly that I almost suffocated, and my father comforted me vigorously.

So I stopped, because I was tired of struggling, and I didn't want to struggle anymore, because I heard the familiar sound of the car starting, and then the sound of the car leaving.

Then I lay so softly in my father's arms, not crying or making a fuss.

When the love is strong, it has already become a wound!

In your life, I'm finally leaving, and in my life, you're finally leaving.

Although there is reluctance, but I have to give up, although I am unwilling, I have to bear it.

In the world of feelings, I, like my father, am destined to be a loser.

I once stubbornly thought that time can change everything, I believe that my love can move you, transfer your love for her to me, even a little, let me occupy a small position in your heart, can accompany you through all the hardships of life, I will be like a moth to a fire, even if I hurt myself to the body, thousands of holes, but also willingly, but ......

But I found out that I was wrong, and I was deceiving myself.

I used to think that love was great, selfish, and even vigorous. As everyone knows, love is sometimes just a dream, and when the dream wakes up, the person who is deeply involved in it should leave.

Yu Hao, my exit is because I don't want to put pressure on you anymore, I know, Dad has looked for you and Auntie, pity the hearts of parents all over the world, in fact, Dad doesn't know, I hate him like this, he does this, it will make my love more humble.

When did I, who was so proud, come to beg for charity even for love?

I'm gone, this sad place that once filled me with hope.

Over the years, I hope each of them will cherish it!

(The characters who quit the scene are all extra!) )