I'm an emotional coward, always have!

Because of my cowardice, I turned myself into a workaholic, so my career has always been smooth! But it was precisely because of my cowardice that I hurt many important people around me, first Yuhan and her, and then Rongrong you.

You are the people I don't want to hurt the most in my life, Yuhan is my own brother, this is natural, from childhood to adulthood, as long as it is something he likes, I will definitely try my best to get it for him.

I love her, and I've been waiting for her to grow up, longing to live in marriage with her. But my heart has been struggling, because the two most important people in my life have an inextricably linked relationship with me. Sometimes complains about the injustice of fate, why two brothers who are like siblings fall in love with a girl at the same time.

Later, I finally understood that as long as the boys who have been in contact with her will be invisibly attracted by her temperament and innocence, and she doesn't need to do anything at all, which is enough to charm the many boys around her.

When I saw that Yu Han was also obsessed with her, I was in pain, and then I didn't even have any hesitation, and resolutely cut off the love thread for her, although there was some sadness, but I never had a little jealousy of Yu Han.

For ten years, I have hidden the love for her in my heart, and I have never had too much intersection with her, because Yuhan is also the person I want to take care of all my life, and the important thing is that my mother and aunt are also optimistic about them.

I silently withdrew, paying attention from afar, and no one knew the pain in my heart.

For so many years, I had to hold back my thoughts about her and think about her all day long; When he saw her, he had to pretend to be indifferent and detached.

Love or not, fiery and indifferent, for me, it is a kind of torment.

Rong Rong, can you understand the unattainable pain when you love someone?

Love, there is a choice, there will be pain, whether you agree with it or not.

I know that no matter what I choose, I will hurt another person, and I chose you at first because I wanted to fulfill Yuhan, just like Yuhan stopped school and ran away from the Great Northwest in order to fulfill me, and sometimes, perfection is also a kind of alternative selfishness.

The development of things is always unexpected, when another girl appeared next to Yu Han, my heart suddenly felt like a river overturning, presumably Yu Han felt the same way when he saw Rong Rong you!

That night, Yu Han punched me several times in my room, this kid, when he grew up, he likes to use force to solve problems at every turn, but I don't know that if you want to use force, I am much stronger than him, but I can't do anything to him, our two brothers have the same idea, they both think that after there is someone around them, the other will have the opportunity to be with her, but we don't think about it from her standpoint.

When Yuhan asked me, 'What should she do?' I also thought, what should she do? What the hell is she going to do?

I think that the actions of our two brothers have already hurt her to the core, but such a weak girl who looks weak can still pretend to teach and practice the piano to the children as if nothing happened.

Eventually, even if I made up my mind to get engaged to Rong Rong, I was still obsessed with her, so 'Shen Yuan' often left my figure, but I came quietly and left quietly.

That time, when I saw her lying on her uncle's shoulder and crying, I hated to step forward to wipe away her tears, it turned out that she was not strong, her strength was pretended, her fragility would only be shown in front of her uncle who understood her, fortunately, she had a father who understood her and loved her since she was a child.

When my aunt said to me, 'If you feel your heart hurting, go ahead!' My steps were already faltering, and I almost stepped forward, but the next moment, I held back again. Because I'm afraid that after I step out, everything I've done before will be in vain.

So, I stopped in my tracks and turned away.

Rong Rong, it was indeed your two sentences that reminded me, after you left that night, I have been restless, your words are constantly recalled in my ears, I suddenly feel very remorse and panic, I can't bear to stay with the person I don't love for a lifetime, I can't bear to have children with people I don't love.

In the past three years, I have been observing etiquette, and I dare not have half a point of overstepping you, I am afraid that my heart is also a little repulsive to you! It's just that I didn't see it in time.

It's really a trick, Yuhan's fist didn't wake me up, my mother's agitation method didn't wake me up, and even her tears didn't melt my resolute heart, but Rong Rong's words woke me up, so I am grateful to you, and a word woke me up, a person who has been living in a dream.

I can't imagine if one day I will be able to watch her enter the palace of marriage, watch her have children for other men, watch her stay with someone else for the rest of her life, and I think I will go crazy when I think about it.

Since she was a child, there are countless boys who like her, although she has never paid attention to it, but as long as the boys who appear around her, they will quickly disappear in front of her eyes, I know that it must be the masterpiece of Yuhan's kid, that kid has grown up since he was a child, and the only one who did bad things was still thumbs up by me.

For this reason, he has always been happy to drive away her admirers, and I don't bother to accuse him.

Auntie has been wondering, how such an excellent daughter graduated from college, until she worked, and never heard of a boy pursuing her, every time I saw my aunt and uncle nagging about this, Yuhan and I both tacitly looked at each other and smiled, if you let your aunt know that this is the masterpiece of our two brothers, it would be strange if you didn't chase us around the Han River three times.

When the love is strong, it has already become a wound!

Rong Rong, I'm sorry! Originally, I wanted to come with you, but at this moment, I still think of her in my heart.

I've been standing outside your door for a long time, and I want to knock on this door and say sorry to you in person, but I can't hold back.

Rong Rong, I remember every bit of getting along with you in the past few years, you are an excellent and outstanding girl, no, it should be said that there is no one in your Shen family who is not outstanding.

And you, give up the opportunity to study abroad, resolutely choose to return to China, from the beginning I know the reason, I Lin Yuhao has nothing, to get your love is the greatest luck in this life, on the one hand is kindness, on the other hand is feelings, I think, I finally tend to feelings, I must also respect my feelings, all your pain is caused by me, for which I apologize!

In this life, I can only walk with her so that I will not leave regrets, and everything can only be turned into a sigh......

Rong Rong, take good care of yourself, I don't want to see you haggard because of me, and I don't want to see you affect your work for me, the Shen family only has one daughter, you are all the hope of Shen Dong, and the hope of the future of the entire 'Genesis', you can only hope to hold up.

I, Lin Yuhao, don't ask for your forgiveness in this life, if there is an afterlife, if there is an afterlife, I will definitely not be so cowardly, and I will definitely not deal with my feelings in a mess, at least, if I love someone, I will not hesitate, I will not be so indecisive as in this life, not only hurt the people who love me, but also the people I want to protect in my life.

Rong Rong, I guess you hate me now, you left in a hurry that night, without taking into account your feelings, nor considering her feelings, so you took her away so forcefully, and let her cry on the road into tears, I think, I am really not a good man, even the way I love her is so vulgar, I actually use elopement to announce the world.

Rong Rong, I'm sorry! If I don't love you, but marry you, I can't imagine how it will hurt you, you must not tolerate the person who will sleep next to you in the future, even shouting the name of another woman in his sleep, right?

No, even if you can tolerate it, I can't be such a jerk, but fortunately I woke up in time, and fortunately you are still young.

And I, I feel old, old to the point of physical and mental exhaustion, but I still have to work hard for my love, love is a long way, I don't want to get your understanding and blessing, but I hope you can gradually forget me, this person who has brought you infinite pain.

I left the huge living room of the Shen family with heavy steps, and as soon as I walked out of the entrance, I heard the sound of the door lock, and then the messy footsteps came from far and near, no need to guess, it must be Rong Rong's footsteps, so I hesitated, and slowed down, but you have been stopped by Shen Dong in the living room, the one who roared at me in the study and slapped me, but I not only did not hate him, but was grateful.

Your father will always be a sane person, so rational that I can't reach it, I think the slap he gave me also hopes that I will no longer feel so much guilt towards you and the Shen family! The love of the Shen family, our Lin family owes two generations, and I think we can't repay it in this life and the next life.

I am gone, maybe after stepping out of this hall, my relationship with you is from the relationship between the young owner and the staff, I thank you for giving me great affection in front of the media, not letting me be ruined, and thank Shen Dong for his broad mind and still letting me stay in the 'Genesis' work.

In order to avoid the embarrassment of meeting you in the future, I could have taken this opportunity to leave the 'Genesis', but the only thing that can make up for my debt to the Shen family is to stay in the 'Genesis' and continue to shine for it." I won't leave unless Rong Rong asks me to leave. I am also always waiting for this day to come, because the day I leave means that my guilt towards the Shen family has been minimized.

I listened to your heart-rending cry in the living room, and I felt that my eyes were also sour, Rong Rong, your crying was as heartbreaking as hers, but when she cried, the scene was more spectacular and distressed to me.

I didn't dare to turn around, I didn't dare to look back, and I couldn't look back, not because I was afraid that my heart would be melted by your cry, but because I really couldn't bear to give you hope again, and then let you down again.

So, in the midst of your desperate cries, I moved my steps with difficulty, got into the car, started the car, and walked away......