A long time ago, I heard people say that time is a good medicine that can heal wounds.

I wondered, what exactly is this good medicine for? Is it to heal the wounds of the soul or to heal the wounds of memory?

My memories are forever vicissitudes, those unforgettable, long engraved in my heart like swallowing, so profound that I thought I had forgotten it long ago, thinking that I would never remember it again in this life.

But when I suddenly remembered it, I found that it still hurt my heart; It will still be like a lingering nightmare, attacking every nerve; I found that all the pain will still be clearly fixed in my mind,-- like a shadow!

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Knowing Sister Xiaoxuan is the greatest luck in my life.

Calculate the time, it has been five or six years since I first met her in Wuyang! At that time, she had not remarried Teacher Jiang, and I knew that he had a short marriage with Teacher Jiang, because Sister Xiaoxuan's father strongly opposed it, and they got married in a hurry and divorced in a hurry.

In the next five years of my career in Rome, I knew very well how much pressure and pain Sister Xiaoxuan had to endure with Teacher Jiang, because in the past five years, I had never met Sister Xiaoxuan's father, even when Sister Xiaoxuan gave birth to Xiao Muxue. So for so many years, I have never touched the pain of Sister Xiaoxuan. Fortunately, Teacher Jiang has been treating her like a little girl for so many years, and she has been pampered and loved as much as Xiao Muxue.

Sister Xiaoxuan is different from Teacher Jiang's kind of care for me, no matter how much Teacher Jiang cares about me, it is only out of the teacher's appreciation and pity for his disciples, and it is always a little inconvenient for male and female teachers and students to get along, so Teacher Jiang deliberately and prudently handed me over to Sister Xiaoxuan before returning to China, whether it was entrusted by Teacher Jiang or out of her own concern, she took meticulous care of me, so that for a long time after I found a job and moved out of Jiang's house, she would take Xiao Muxue with her because she was afraid that I would be lonely. I went back and forth with the Jiang family in my small single apartment.

When I first came to Rome, I had been living in Mr. Jiang and Sister Xiaoxuan's home in Italy, and after a month or so, I continued to adapt to the Italian climate, and under the recommendation of Mr. Jiang and Mr. Wei (my off-campus instructor at the Wuyang Conservatory of Music, Italian Chinese), I found a good job as a temporary performer in a very famous opera house in Rome.

But despite this, I am still very satisfied, in fact, I know in my heart, my current state is very bad, and it took a lot of effort to recommend me to Mr. Jiang and Mr. Wei.

In fact, I was able to go in, and it was also stained with the light of Mr. Wei and Mr. Jiang, because my resume was not very attractive, and it was the name Ye Ning, but because they strongly recommended me, and also let me play a few difficult pieces of Chinese folk music at that time, so the opera house hired me on the spot, but because my large-scale performance experience was blank, so I was only given the identity of a temporary performer for the time being.

Because the Jiang family is some distance away from the opera house, in the little Xuan sister's best to stay, I still moved to the opera house, in fact, Xiao Xuan sister is also quite contradictory, she is usually quite lonely at home alone, finally have someone to be a companion, it will not take long to move out, she is very reluctant, on the one hand, she is worried that it is not safe for me to run between the Jiang family and the opera house every day, and I am worried that it is not safe for me to live outside alone, so the result of our negotiation is that the Jiang family keeps my room, if there is no performance the next day, She sent a driver to pick me up and take me back to Jiang's house, and I stayed in my apartment when I had a performance.

Mr. Jiang's home in Italy is not very big, but it is very warm, connected to the two-story villa with a total area of about 300 square meters in the front and back gardens, the front and back yards are very large, and Sister Xiaoxuan rarely goes out, and Mr. Jiang does not let her work outside, and she likes to get some flowers and plants at home, so the huge family only hires a driver and handyman, plus a helper.

Mr. Jiang will come back from China every one or two months to accompany Sister Xiaoxuan for a week, usually when Mr. Jiang comes back, I try not to go back to Jiang's house, Mr. Jiang and Sister Xiaoxuan have gone through so many hardships, and finally come together, and now they have to live a life of gathering less and leaving more, I always can't bear to disturb them.

In fact, there is another reason, every time Mr. Jiang comes back, he will always talk about some people or things related to me without a trace, and he knows that I must be eager to know everyone on the other side of the ocean, who is inextricably linked with me, and wants to know how they are doing. But I am stubborn, but every time I mention it briefly after Mr. Jiang, I talk about it left and right.

In order to avoid this embarrassment, I simply did not return to Jiang's house as much as possible after Mr. Jiang came back, but only the day before Mr. Jiang's vacation was over, and the day before he returned to China, I would go back to Jiang's house, firstly, to report on my work and progress, and secondly, what he wanted to say was actually what I wanted to hear very much, so over time, Mr. Jiang also got used to it, and during the day I went back, he mostly asked me about my performance in the opera house, and would take time to give me more in-depth guidance in the piano room. Others are only mentioned slightly and without leaving a trace.

In the environment of the opera house, I never dared to slack off, because those who are qualified to perform here and listen to the performance have a certain identity and status, and in the first half of the month, because of nervousness, it is difficult for me to integrate with the orchestra, often in the middle of the rehearsal, the conductor will shout to stop halfway, and then stare at me in the surprise of everyone, using a bunch of not very proficient English, mixed with a lot of Italian in the middle.

Fortunately, most of the music played by Guzheng is Chinese Chinese music and symphonies, and most of them are Oriental faces, and some kind companions next to me will repeat it for me in pure English, otherwise, I think I may not be able to integrate into such a team at all. Sometimes, when I encountered some ungraspable performance methods and techniques during rehearsals, I would make a special trip to talk to Wei Lao on the phone, of course, he was tireless in guiding me, and after staying in the opera house for nearly four months, he solemnly invited me to join the opera house as a regular staff, and the contract was for 3 years, with a good salary, but I could not participate in any performances outside the opera house within 3 years, and after the expiration of the 3-year contract, I could choose to stay.

On the day of the signing, Sister Xiaoxuan accompanied me to the opera house, and she negotiated the details of the contract for me, I have no talent in language, so I have been in Rome for half a year, but I have only learned a little bit of Italian, and most of the time I communicate in English. I'm always glad for this when I communicate with people, but fortunately, when I was in China, my English foundation was pretty good.