There is a monster living in my body, which could break through my body at any moment, take control of me, and turn me into a man like my father.

My mother's blood was the only weapon to remind me to stay awake, and she kept telling me in my dreams not to be your father.

Every time I wake up from a dream, I break out in a cold sweat.

I am my father's only son, and since my mother passed away, he has spent more time with me than ever before, and has less contact with outside affairs.

However, I understand that he is still him, and the business that has been curtailed by a moment of grief will one day be picked up again.

And I, as his only son, will surely train me to be his heir.

In order to escape this predetermined fate, I began to plan how to resist.

After moving to Shuiyunjian, I lived in the eyes of countless people, there were too many servants here, even if there were only two people in the family, my father and me, many servants were useless at all, but my father would never dismiss them.

Being nominally hostile to one's father is the most stupid thing to do, and it will only lead to more serious training.

And I found an easy way.

Not long after my mother left, I was already terrified, I woke up from nightmares several times, and almost killed a little girl, which made me even more sleepy and suddenly became ill.

I used to see Western medicine, and my body improved significantly after taking medicine. In order to avoid my father's training, I had to feign illness, but under the sophisticated instruments of Western medicine, pretending to be sick was not a foolproof solution. It can only deceive its father for a while, and sooner or later it will be discovered, and once it is discovered by him, I am afraid that the consequences will be even more serious.

I can't believe the other servants in the family, but Mama Feng has watched me grow up.

She resented my father because of my mother's death.

When I offered to see a Chinese medicine practitioner and asked her to do something in the Chinese medicine, Feng's mother was terrified, she thought there was something wrong with my brain.

Only I know, I'm sober and know what I'm doing.

I said to her, Mama Feng, I'm very uncomfortable, do you want to see me die suddenly one day like my mother?

Mama Feng looked at me with trembling eyes, and finally compromised.

The taste of the herb was so bitter that I wanted to spit it out countless times when the juice passed through the tip of my tongue.

Whenever I drank the medicine, Feng's mother cried on the side, she felt sorry for me, but she couldn't stop me.

Just like when my mom went to suicide, no one could stop her.

The plan went exceptionally well, because my father was devastated by my poor physical condition.

He didn't dare to force me to learn those nerve-wracking things, but instead took me to learn to draw, listen to music, teach me to relax, and teach me how to take care of gardening.

I was willing to learn all of this, and even because my physique was too poor, I had a lot of time to spend on these things.

My father comforted me and said, don't be afraid, your father will accompany you until you are old.

Every time I would nod obediently, but what I thought in my heart was that when you get old, the black blood flowing in the Feng family should also be broken.

If it had been going so well, there would have been many things that followed.

However, I didn't expect that I would run into Shen Youyi again.

Probably from the moment I saw her, my fate was rewritten.

It was one night, the sky was full of stars, and after I had eaten dinner, I felt sick to my stomach, so I went downstairs for a walk on the gravel road.

She stumbled into my sight.

I took a look at the location where she ran out, and it seemed to be the Song family.

The clothes were disheveled, barefoot, and he looked flustered, probably offending the people in the house.

I hadn't intended to meddle with it, but at a glance, I could see a vague sense of familiarity on her face, as if I had seen it somewhere before.

She fled in a panic, startling the security guards in the water and clouds, and there were constant voices around her, as if they were looking for her.

I barely had time to think about it, so I let her hide.

After leaving the security guard, I turned to look at her and saw her cowering in the bushes, her eyes full of horror.

At that moment, I suddenly remembered that there was once a little girl who was so frightened that she was about to cry when I was pushed into the water.

I remember her.

Uncle Shen's daughter, Shen Youyi.

She was more beautiful than before, and although her clothes were torn, she was dressed cleanly.

After the security guard left, I beckoned her to come out.

She didn't have shoes on her feet, and she thanked me awkwardly before leaving, politely like a stranger.

I know, she doesn't know me anymore.

I wanted to ask her if she remembered falling into the water when she was seven years old, but then she didn't ask.

I really don't want to bring it up again, lest she dislike me.

I stopped her and grabbed her by the ankles, and she resisted, but didn't push me away.

At that time, I knew that she was still as simple as when she was a child, and she was not wary of others.

I don't know why, I have a little joy in my heart, probably because I met my old friend, or maybe because after so many years, some people are still the same as back then, and they haven't changed.

I don't understand how she came here from the countryside, and I don't know how she got involved with the Song family.

Originally, I wanted to know a little more about the situation, but I didn't have a position to ask.

When they met again, she was still embarrassed, and she knew without asking, but she was afraid that she would offend the Song family again. Only the youngest in the Song family, Song Cheng, has the worst temper, and it is likely that he offended him.

It's easy to help her.

But I didn't expect that I would get sick at this time.

My body has always been very weak, but such a sudden onset of illness caught me off guard.

Originally, I said that I would find a new set of clothes for her, but in the end, I couldn't breathe, and was forcibly pressed on the bed by Feng's mother to rest, and had to send a bodyguard to send her out.

It was the first time, and I had a feeling of being overwhelmed.

There was something very important to do, but the body was crumbling.

I shirked the responsibility that my father wanted to impose on me, but I didn't expect that the price to pay would be so great.

The two sides I had seen in a hurry almost made me conclude that her life was not good now, but I didn't look into anything.

There are countless eyes in the house, and I am afraid that my reckless actions will attract the attention of others.

But I didn't expect that just asking the bodyguard to send her a set of clothes, and by the way, sending her outside the villa area, had actually attracted my father's attention.

At that time, I was painting a human portrait and was looking for a nude model, and I didn't have much contact with people outside and didn't know who to go to, and my father said he would arrange it.

I didn't expect it to be her.

It wasn't until I was halfway through the painting and realized that something was wrong with her that I realized that the maid had actually thrown dry ice under the stone in order to create a smoky effect, and she was shivering from the cold.

I hurriedly tried to help the person up, and then I saw who the person in front of me was.

At that time, a feeling of surprise surged in my chest, which can probably be called fate.

At that moment, I only thought it was a coincidence, and it wasn't until later that I realized that it was my father's deliberate doing. Originally, he had seen my little movements.

I took good care of her, I was very good to her, and I also understood that what she was doing was a bit difficult to talk about.

In order not to hurt her sensitive mind, I can only pretend that I don't understand anything, so that maybe she can feel more comfortable.

I can feel it, she is very relaxed and comfortable in front of me, probably because life is too tired, she is always very tight outside, and she is not happy to live.

I've seen ambiguous marks on her, and I've seen bruised scars, but I don't dare to mention them.

I could only watch her silently, hoping that she could smile more, and not have to work so hard.

Right and right are like a little hedgehog, they look very well-behaved, and they are actually not merciful when they stab people.

Gradually, more and more things about her reached my ears, and I realized that I had paid too much attention to her, and had attracted my father's attention.

I remember one time, my father asked me, do you like that girl?

I was stunned, with my broken body, am I qualified to like her?

Deep down, do I really like her? Or is it because of guilt, so you want to make up for her?

Before I could figure out the answer, something heart-wrenching happened.

Someone stabbed right and right, just across the road from me.

I watched her crawl out of the dark alley, looking hideous and terrifying. She looked in my direction from afar, tears in her eyes.

At that moment, it was as if my blood had been drained.