Chapter 170: Vigilance
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How he is truly loving himself and cannot leave his words. No matter how hard he is, he will not leave his own. Once unfaithful, a hundred times will not be tolerated, he can't tolerate a man betraying him again and again, no matter how much hardship he can't.
can't be sure if Li Yilan is sincere this time, Xu Yaran can't give herself another chance to get hurt. She used to be alone, but now that she has a baby, she can't be as stupid as she used to be.
"I ......" Li Yilan's throat moved, but she didn't know how to answer Xu Yaran's question.
He didn't want to lie to Xu Yaran again this time, he still didn't take down the autonomy of his marriage, which means that she had no way to make decisions about her own marriage. He didn't want to disappoint Xu Yaran again, this is the biggest sorrow of a rich man.
If she hadn't met Xu Yaran this time, if her parents hadn't chosen Ren Jingchu for her, maybe he would have obediently listened to her parents. Accept the marriage partner arranged by his parents, maybe he will be like her parents, and live this life with his wife lovingly, and his life can be regarded as complete.
But there will never be ifs in this world, hasn't he met Xu Yaran? He met, so he and other women were destined not to be consummated, and there would be no love. There is only one copy of his love, which has been completely taken by Xu Yaran, and he can't tell the second one.
There is no if in this world, isn't the person arranged by his parents Ren Jingchu? Yes, the person his parents asked him to marry was Ren Jingchu, so he was destined not to listen to his parents' arrangements to marry Ren Jingchu, he needed to find a wife with a better background than Ren Jingchu and a better future than the Ren family. in order to dispel his parents' idea of letting him marry Ren Jingchu.
He has a crush on Nangong Meining, and Nangong Meining meets all the conditions of his ideal wife, so he chose Nangong Meining.
He is not strong enough, strong enough to ignore all pressure, strong enough to do whatever he wants, so he can only passively accept it. You can't be with the woman you love the most, you can't protect her, give her a firm commitment, give her a generous shoulder.
"I know, you don't have to worry, I'll take good care of the child. Please don't come to me again, I won't come to you. Xu Yaran smiled, there were tears in her eyes, she and Li Yilan were really finished.
Li Yilan may have a hard time, but so what? He has a hard time and can't be with himself in the end. Can he still be with Li Yilan without caring about his fame and doing anything, and be his underground mistress? Let the baby in the womb become a veritable wild seed?
Xu Yaran admitted that she loved Li Yilan, but she was not as humble as love, and she did nothing for Li Yilan.
In the end, Xu Yaran chose to let go, let go of herself, and let go of Li Yilan.
In the future, the two of them will really be passers-by, just strangers who nod their heads, which is what Li Yilan originally hoped.
Li Yilan's eyes were slightly red and looked at Xu Yaran, her eyes full of begging. He looked at Xu Yaran begging, as if begging Xu Yaran not to leave him.
Xu Yaran's heart turned her head slightly unbearably and didn't look at Li Yilan.
Xu Yaran faced Li Yilan, her steps were a little messy. He was face to face with Li Yilan, and she slowly stepped back. watched Li Yilan in front of him get farther and farther away from him little by little, farther and farther away. Her heart ached slightly, but it was slowly becoming lighter.
It seems that it is not bad to have such a happy ending with Li Yilan.
A good ending is not necessarily a happy reunion, but the result you want most and the best result for yourself. Her best result is to completely separate from Li Yilan, and she will have nothing to do with it in the future. Li Yilan is not the man who is worthy of himself and leaves a night light for him.
The tears in her eyes all gathered in her eyes, Xu Yaran looked at Li Yilan without blinking, stubbornly refusing to let the tears fall. Li Yilan's face became more and more ambiguous in front of her, but it became more and more familiar in her mind, and those eyes full of begging were engraved in Xu Yaran's mind and lingered.
Xu Yaran took two steps back, turned around, turned his back to Li Yilan, and ran forward vigorously. Running towards the place where there was light, she needed sunlight to dispel the lingering gloom in her heart.
Li Yilan looked at the direction in which Xu Yaran disappeared and lowered her hands decadently. He just looked at the woman he loved, and faded out of his sight little by little. He is not a timid person, but he doesn't have the courage to chase Xu Yaran's figure at the moment, chase him out of the parking lot, and let Xu Yaran get farther and farther away from him.
He felt that he still had a lot to say to Xu Yaran, how could he let Xu Yaran leave like this?
The place where he was kicked by Nangong Yuhan is now a little steady. Li Yilan clutched her chest, took two steps back, and pressed one hand against the car behind her.
Although there was some pain in my chest, it was not as painful as in my heart.
It was he who pushed Xu Yaran away with his own hands, do you still want to watch Xu Yaran slowly walk out of his world?
Li Yilan leaned on the car, with a faint pain in her chest, but no matter how painful her chest was at the moment, it couldn't match the pain in her heart. It was as if it hurt to the deepest part of my soul. It turns out that when love is sweet, it can make people forget all their troubles, but when it hurts, it really makes people feel painful.
Li Yilan never knew that love could be so painful.
No, he couldn't just let Xu Yaran leave his life like this. If Xu Yaran leaves today, even if he doesn't say that he broke up, the fate between the two of them will be broken. He can't let Xu Yaran leave his side, he still has a chance, doesn't he?
He still has two and a half years to wait for Ren Jingchu to graduate, and the matter is not over yet, he still has a chance. Before there is no result, he and Xu Yaran can't give up, and the fate between them can't be so shallow. He Li Yilan has lived for so many years, and the only woman who truly loves him shouldn't just leave him.
No matter what the outcome of him and Xu Yaran is in the future, at least for now, he can't let Xu Yaran leave like this, right? At least he and Xu Yaran don't have to be separated now.
After Li Yilan figured it out, he endured the discomfort of his body, and staggered in the direction where Xu Yaran left.
Xu Yaran ran out of the parking lot, standing in the sun, she felt that the decision she had just made was the right one. Fortunately, the baby in her belly reminded her, otherwise, if she believed Li Yilan's nonsense as soon as she had a convulsion, she didn't know what fate would be waiting for her in the future.
Xu Yaran touched her belly and whispered to the child in her belly: "Baby, you are really still standing by Mommy's side, right?" You feel sorry for Mommy, Mommy didn't hurt you in vain. In the future, it will be our mother and son, and we will depend on each other. ”
If it weren't for Li Yilan touching her belly, maybe she would still be confused, and the child in her belly reminded Xu Yaran. She is no longer alone, and she doesn't want to play any love games with Li Yilan anymore. She is no longer young, and love is more suitable for young people.
She is old, and what she longs for most is a stable and peaceful life.
She breathed a long sigh of relief, and although this decision was not necessarily the best, it was what she wanted the most.
Xu Yaran stood in the sun, and suddenly felt that something was missing, maybe she should ......
Xu Yaran felt a little unwilling, so she thought about it, stomped her feet, and walked back in the direction of the parking lot.
As soon as he walked to the exit, he heard a burst of footsteps, Xu Yaran took a closer look, and was stunned. It's actually Li Yilan, Li Yilan is unspeakably embarrassed now, but it is undeniable that even in this case, Li Yilan is still handsome.
Li Yilan also saw Xu Yaran, Xu Yaran came back again, and Li Yilan was immediately ecstatic. Xu Yaran actually couldn't let go of him, they still had a chance.
The eyes of the two men met in the air, but their thoughts were completely different.
"Yaran, let's start over." Li Yilan looked at Xu Yaran expectantly, and said to Xu Yaran with a very cheerful smile. He thought that Xu Yaran came back for him, so he was happy. This sentence, which has always been in his heart, was also said by him.
Let's start again, even if he can't return to heaven this time, he has to protect Xu Yaran and the child thoroughly, and give Xu Yaran and the child the best everything.
"Li Yilan, let's break up." Xu Yaran Xie said what she wanted to say in her heart, although this sentence was a little late, but it could be regarded as making up for it. She has always felt that the biggest regret of the relationship between him and Li Yilan is not that the two of them can't be together, but that they have one less sentence to break up and end with a breakup.
Neither of them would let the other speak first, and as a result, both of them spoke at the same time.
"Yaran, let's start over."
"Li Yilan, let's break up."
The two sentences overlapped each other, indescribably harmonious.
The female voice is crisp and loud, and the male voice is loud. The two voices were still loud in the empty parking lot.
Xu Yaran's face was a little embarrassed, and she withdrew her gaze, not daring to look at Li Yilan's face.
Li Yilan's face was ugly, he saw Xu Yaran come out, and thought that Xu Yaran was reluctant to him. thought that Xu Yaran had figured it out, and the future would be faced by the two of them together. He didn't expect that Xu Yaran was here to make up for the breakup he couldn't say before.
Although there are only two words to break up, the weight in my heart is enough to crush Li Yilan, who is full of hope at this time.
How did he think about it, how did he think about it, the sentence of breaking up would actually be Xu Yaran coming out of Xu Yaran's mouth when he was trying to get back together with Xu Yaran. Li Yilan, who has never been afraid of the cold, now feels very cold.
It turned out that cold was this feeling, and he could finally understand what it meant to be cold.