Chapter 234: The Meaning of Survival
Genius remembered for a second, "Love ♂ ÷ small? Say →', provide you with wonderful novels to read. Coldly hearing Wang Jiaci say such words again, I looked at her and froze.
At this moment, an indescribable feeling came out of my heart, why did I feel that Wang Jiaci was saying goodbye
It seems that he already knows that he will not have too long, so he told Lin Qiaoman about himself. said such things to me again, is it because Wang Jiaci has begun to give up from the bottom of his heart or is it some other reason?
Thinking of this, I looked at Wang Jiaci in front of me, her eyes were gloomy, and her expression was a little stiff.
Her appearance made my heart ache again, and I stared at her for a while, then quickly shook my head and said word by word
"There won't be that day, you won't die, and you won't be allowed to say anything about the word dead in the future."
My words made Wang Jiaci look at me again, she raised the corners of her mouth shallowly, and then muttered in a very weak voice
"How can it be, if it's a human being, it's going to die, in short, Xiao Xiaoming, you have to promise me, you won't cry when the time comes"
"Because, even if you cry at that time, I will feel sad, I don't like the person I like, because I cry. So Xiao Xiaoming, you must do it"
The more Wang Jiaci said this, the more I felt that feeling became a lot stronger, and I still shook my head and said a little unwillingly
"It won't be like that, there won't be a day when I don't promise you, I won't promise you" heiyaп The next chapter has been updated
may be a little resistant to Wang Jiaci in my heart, so I said such things to her.
Wang Jiaci also saw that my mood was a little abnormal, she moved her mouth again, and finally didn't say anything.
Maybe she and I both know very well that the two of us have been running away from something, but suddenly she has to take it seriously, and I still refuse to accept my fate.
Even if I know what Wang Jiaci's physical condition is, I still don't want to die.
Yes, how can I die, how can I go and believe so easily, Wang Jiaci will leave this world soon
Such a cruel and powerless reality. How can people easily accept it.
In this way, the two of us were silent, and the room was quiet, and the silence made people's hearts furious.
After a long while, I looked at Wang Jiaci again, her face was bloodless, and her mood was obviously a lot lower.
I rarely see her like this, and in my impression, Wang Jiaci will always be the little cute girl with a quirky smile on her face. There should be no pain or sadness on her face.
But at this moment, Wang Jiaci is completely different from usual, I saw her sad emotions in her eyes, and from her expression, I saw her sadness that she couldn't hide.
The way she looked made me suffocate a little, and I looked at her and couldn't say anything.
After a long while, Wang Jiaci raised his head. Squeezed out a smile and said
"Xiao Xiaoming, I'm very tired."
"I'm really tired after all these years."
As soon as she said this, Wang Jiaci's eyes turned red, she lowered her head, and her whole figure looked thin and helpless.
Her words made me stunned for an instant, and I looked at her, and my throat choked little by little.
Tired, Wang Jiaci said she was tired
At this moment, I suddenly realized something, the person who has endured the most pain over the years is actually none other than Wang Jiaci herself
I know my physical condition, and I have experienced the departure of my mother. [愛↑去△小↓說△網 Qu ] and saw all his father's powerlessness in his eyes, and the pressure brought by all this was borne silently by Wang Jiaci all along.
So now, she will say such a thing, maybe she is really tired, maybe she also clearly knows that with her current physical condition, she really can't hold on.
Thinking of this, I shivered and squeezed her hand, her hand was so cold, like a piece of ice that could not be melted.
After I pinched my hand, Wang Jiaci still looked so depressed, and I clearly felt the despair in her heart.
I panicked a little when I felt this, because I realized that I couldn't open my mouth, and I couldn't even say anything to comfort her.
At this moment, I really want to tell Wang Jiaci that no matter what happens, I am willing to help her share it, no matter in the future
No matter how difficult it was, I would always stand in front of her, but now, I can't even speak.
Because I know that these are just pale and feeble comforts, and when things really come to the last minute, I can't do anything.
I can't change her physical condition, there's nothing I can do.
This made me feel very sad, I could only squeeze her little hand hard, hoping to be able to transmit my inner thoughts to her heart through my hand, but Wang Jiaci didn't look at me, she lowered her head, not knowing what she was thinking.
After a long time, I suddenly took a deep breath and slowly crouched down.
After squatting down, I saw Wang Jiaci's red eyes, I reached out and touched her cheek with some distress, and then said in a trembling voice
"Xiaoci, I'll tell you something"
"I can promise you that I won't cry at that time, but you have to promise me one thing."
My words finally made Wang Jiaci more or less come back to her senses, she looked at me, her eyes were full of complexity.
From the moment I knew about her illness, I never compromised, never compromised in front of her, about this matter.
So now that I suddenly said that I was willing to agree to Wang Jiaci's request, it would inevitably surprise Wang Jiaci, because she gave up a little in her heart, and even I had the courage to face this problem.
In this way, Wang Jiaci stared at me for a while, and asked in a weak voice
"What's the matter?"
Hearing her ask this, I secretly took a deep breath again, and then said word by word
"You promise me to follow your father to go abroad to treat your own disease, our medical level here is definitely not as good as abroad, so I hope you can go abroad again to take care of your body"
Speaking of this, I paused, and my eyes avoided Wang Jiaci's eyes, and then spoke
"I know, the main reason why you came back was because I always wanted to be with you and always be by your side, but now it's different."
"Your physical condition is getting worse and worse now, and I can't change anything other than being by your side, so I still hope that you can go abroad, that side is much better for you than here, and you can't get better treatment here, and if you continue like this, the result will definitely be"
At this point, I stopped, because I couldn't say anything more.
When I said these words, I didn't dare to look at Wang Jiaci's eyes, so I said these words indiscriminately as if I was endorsing.
I don't know if these words are my true thoughts, or I don't have an answer to them, but I know that I have said them all and passed on the general meaning to Wang Jiaci.
But to my surprise, Wang Jiaci didn't react when she heard me say this, she looked very dazed, as if she hadn't heard my words.
But there was a slight change in her eyes, and she stared at me, and there was no telling whether she was moved or sad in her eyes.
After a moment, she lowered her eyes and muttered quietly
"That's it, Xiao Xiaoming, what you've always wanted to tell me is actually this."
As she spoke, she looked up at me and asked seriously
"Do you really think like that in your heart, do you really want me to leave your side again?"
Wang Jiaci's words stopped me, and I looked into her eyes, and my mind was in a mess.
It took half a minute before I gritted my teeth and spoke, my jaw trembling
"I don't want you to leave my side, I've never thought about it, but I can only do this, I want to be selfish and keep you by my side for the rest of my life, I really want to be able to watch you every day, coax you, take care of you, but I can't do this"
"For me, the most important thing is that you can live better, even if I have to go back to the days without you, as long as you can live well, it is enough"
After saying this, my nose was already sour, and I lowered my head, not wanting Wang Jiaci to see my sad expression.
However, after a while after I finished speaking, Wang Jiaci's hand suddenly lightly touched my cheek, and when I raised my head, I heard Wang Jiaci's voice slowly coming.
"That might be good for you, but what about me."
"For me, if I can't be with Xiao Xiaoming, what's the point of living longer?"
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