I raised my glass and lowered my eyelids, as I seemed to have made a very greedy wish: I hope he will always be so good to me.

"Hmm," he touched me with his arm.

"If you say it, it won't work." I whispered back, taking a sip of my wine.

"Why are you so red?" Zou Zichen's face suddenly approached.

I couldn't help but shrink behind me and said in a trembling voice, "Is there one?" ”

His face was closer, his breath was entangled, and I only felt my heart beating like thunder, and my body was even hotter. He took the wine glass from my hand, put it on the edge of the pool, and asked in a low and hoarse voice, "Are you comfortable?" ”

The tone was so ambiguous that I didn't know how to answer.

As soon as I lifted my face, the tip of my nose touched the tip of his, and I swallowed a mouthful of spit. His eyes were deep and misty, and the kiss fell, and the kiss was shallow, but the touch of lips was just lip-to-lip, but there was a feeling that made me intoxicated.

Wine is not intoxicating, people are drunk.

……

After that, everything was so natural and so beautiful.

It was one of the happiest I've had in 10 years, and one I'll never forget.

The next day, I woke up earlier than Zou Zichen, my face was close to his neck, leaning on his arms, smelling the unique smell of his body, I felt that such a morning was really wonderful.

The sunlight shining in from the window, the afterglow sprinkled at the end of the bed, like a dream.

I felt like I was dreaming...... Because Zou Zichen has been a little untrue to me in the past two days.

The mobile phone at the bedside suddenly rang sharply, and the warm and peaceful morning was shattered.

Zou Zichen was awakened, and before he opened his eyes, he turned sideways to touch the phone, then picked it up, turned around and habitually hugged me, and his chin rested on my head.

"Hey," he said, with a hoarse voice that had just woken up, lazy but indescribably good.

"I take an early flight, and I can get to Rongcheng in the morning."

Because his phone was right above my head, I could hear the voice in the microphone, a soft, soft female voice.

When Zou Zichen heard this, he seemed to wake up suddenly, the hand around my waist was withdrawn, he sat up from the bed, and his voice became cold, "Aren't you not coming?" ”

As soon as he sat up, I couldn't hear him.

"Aren't you tired?" His tone was a little impatient.

"Whatever you want."

"I'll have someone pick you up."

"Hmm." His voice softened again.

Is it Ouyang Xue? Or some other woman?

Oh, I don't even have the courage to ask.

One second I was still dreaming sweet dreams, and the next second I was back to reality.

The reality is so cruel. I'm just his "qingren", and it's the kind of "qingren" that I have made the most of my deals, and I have no right to question his private life.

Zou Zichen put away the thread, sat back, his hand lightly wiped out my hair, wrapped it around his fingers, and sighed softly.

I put my arms around his waist and lazily asked, "What time is it?" ”

"It's just half-past six...... Woke up on my phone? He squeezed my face lightly.

I sat up too, "No, I woke up early." With that, I got up and got out of bed and went into the bathroom.

When I came out of the bathroom, Zou Zichen was fully dressed.

After breakfast, we returned to the villa area, just entered the door Zou Zichen's mobile phone rang again, I went upstairs to the bedroom to change clothes, and sat on the sofa in a daze.

After a while, Zou Zichen also entered the bedroom, and saw me sitting on the sofa in a daze, frowning slightly, "The company is in a bit of a hurry, we may have to go first." You clean up, Xiao Liu will come to pick us up in a while. ”

"Oh," I replied, a little disappointed, and got up and went into the bathroom. Packing up the things he had brought and coming out of the bathroom, he was on the phone again.

"You play as planned, I'll go back first."

"Well, be sure to be safe."

"Okay, you can take care of it, and I'll see you tomorrow."

After saying that, he closed the line.

I've packed all my clothes in my bag.

"I'm done." I spread my hands at him, and I was done.

Zou Zichen looked straight at me, his eyes narrowed slightly, "Why are you listless?" ”

"Maybe it's a little early." I smiled disapplausively.

He walked up to me, raised his hand to brush the broken piece on my forehead, and said softly, "Is it really okay?" ”

I hung my head and threw myself into his arms, hugging him tightly. When I returned to Rongcheng, he was no longer there and belonged to me.

"Why, don't want to go back...... There will be opportunities in the future, next time I will take you to Inner Mongolia, you don't like to climb mountains, we will go to the prairie and ride horses and shoot arrows. He caressed my back and coaxed me softly.

"Well," I said, pulling out of his arms and looking at him with a smile, "you said it yourself, don't forget." ”

He bowed his head and kissed me on the forehead, muttering, "I won't forget." ”

After getting in the car, Zou Zichen kept looking out the window thoughtfully, his eyes indifferent.

In just a few minutes, he seemed to have changed back into the deep and ungraspable Zou Zichen, with a cold face with a faint detachment, and he didn't smile, which made people feel cowardly.

It was as if the person two days ago was not him at all, but an elf possessed within him.

I leaned back in the back seat and slowly closed my eyes.

At 12 o'clock in the afternoon, we returned to Rongcheng and had lunch directly, Zou Zichen sent me back to the apartment, and he went to the company.

I went back to the apartment and packed my luggage, changed into a black dress, took my bag and car keys and left the apartment, drove to the suburban cemetery, and after forty minutes of driving, I arrived at the foot of the cemetery hill, the parking lot was very empty, I casually found a place to park the car, put on sunglasses and got out of the car, bought a bouquet of lilies at the flower shop next to the parking lot, and went up the mountain in the hot sun.

It's been twelve years since my mother died, and I've only been here once, when she was buried. I've been resentful of her for so many years, and she's desperate to leave me behind, in such a horrible way, regardless of my feelings...... Away from me, I developed a hatred for her, and for the first two years, I would go out and play crazy to numb myself.

If it weren't for Zou Zichen's sudden birthday yesterday, I wouldn't have remembered that yesterday was her death day and my birthday, and at the same time reminded me of how guilty and reluctant my mother looked at me when she left, maybe she was very miserable at that time, so she relieved herself in that way.

Why did I find out so late?

For so many years, I didn't dare to think deeply about this question, as long as I thought of that picture, I couldn't calm down, so I pretended to be crazy and stupid and let myself go, and escaped that day.

When I walked to my mother's tombstone, I saw that the tomb was swept clean, and there were two bunches of white chrysanthemums on it, and the flowers were still blooming, so someone should have been here yesterday.

Is it the father?

Who else will there be.

I put the flowers on the tombstone, sat down directly regardless of the heat on the ground, leaned on the tombstone, raised my hand and gently stroked my mother's photo, and shouted softly, "Mom," my eyes couldn't help but be hot, "I'm here, I haven't come to see you for so many years, you must be very angry with me." ”

"I was wrong, Mom, I'm sorry, I was so selfish, I only blamed you for leaving me ruthlessly for so many years, but I never thought about how painful you were at that time."

"I don't know what happened to you and Dad, but I know that you love Dad, and Dada used to ...... He must love you, after you left, he fell seriously ill and became more than ten years old, so I think he loves you. ”

……

I leaned against the tombstone, just like when I was a child, leaning on my mother's arms, and I was reluctant to leave for a long time.

Coming down from the cemetery, the sun had set in the west.

My head was starting to sink a little again, and the sun that I spent two hours in front of the grave made me a little star-stricken.

After getting in the car, I drank half a bottle of water and felt better.

Back at the apartment, it was getting dark.

For dinner, I casually made some noodle soup to pass the time, and then lay on the sofa and watched American dramas. At about ten o'clock in the evening, Zou Zichen called and said that he would not come back at night and would stay in the hotel.

When I was sleeping, I suddenly lost a hug around me, and I lost sleep, and I got up again in the middle of the night to look, and I didn't fall asleep until the second half of the night.

The next day, I slept until noon and woke up, and just after washing, I received a call from Su Qing, asking me to have dinner together at noon, saying that she had seen Guo Yanyan.

When I heard the name, my heart sank.

After changing my clothes and leaving the bedroom, Sister Chen was about to prepare lunch for me, and I asked her not to do it, because I had to go out to pay the contract, and at the same time let her not use it to cook in the future, or as before, she could clean up the house three times a week. Because she also has children to take care of, she can't take care of the children who go to school when she runs to the apartment every day.

The sun in Banyan City is still scorching, but today my head is a little heavy and I don't want to drive, so I can only be sunburned by it.

Fortunately, I stopped the car as soon as I got out of the community.

When I arrived at the restaurant I had agreed with Su Qing, I arrived a few minutes earlier than the agreed time, found an empty seat to sit down, and asked for a cold drink to heat up, and at the same time to get rid of my heart.