There was no moonlight on the ground, there were shadows of the trees that were entwined, and there was the appearance of my long hair flying.

The hand holding the doorknob trembled so much that I put my left hand on my right hand and forced it to stop, but it stubbornly took my whole body and trembled together.

Cold, as if I suddenly had a fever and became sick, overflowing from my bones with a feeling of more and more numbness and coldness.

Gu Wennan seemed to put down his chopsticks, and he laughed out loud and said, "Rong Ke, I can't believe it." ”

Mr. Ji was still pouring wine, he didn't know how much he had drunk this night, he seemed to have opened the floodgates, and he couldn't stop.

"Don't believe anything."

Gu Wennan suddenly slapped the table hard, the cups and wine bottles fell around, smashed on the ground, and shattered after the explosion, and the noisy sound stopped abruptly, Gu Wennan shouted, "Twenty years ago, Ji Rongke, had no connections and no power, and the money on his body only added up to a dozen yuan, but he valued love and righteousness, and he would give alms to poor people on the side of the road, and he would understand brotherhood." Fifteen years ago, Ji Rongke suddenly became cold-blooded and ruthless, he became a lifeless killer in the Kowloon Society, desperate for every order of Uncle Jiu, stained with blood donations, you went from the bottom of the street gangster, to the hall master of the Kowloon Society, the largest gang in the entire mainland, and now, you are rising step by step, but what have you lost? Humanity, feelings, happiness. Can all that money pile up the sunshine in your life? ”

A gust of wind blew in from the window at the end of the corridor at this time, the door flickered and tore a gap, very narrow, I saw the last surviving cup in Mr. Ji's hand, under the dazzling refraction of the forty-five-degree light, emitting a ripple of wine, and the corners of his lips hooked a mocking smile, "Do you encourage the patient to persevere, not to die on the operating table, just like the one just now?" The sunshine of life. ”

He repeated the last six words and immediately burst out laughing, "Is there sunshine in the world of the poor?" ”

"Why not? Money is not the supreme thing in this world, can money buy life? ”

"Can't afford to save your life?"

Gu Wennan was stunned, his straight body bent, "I don't think you should hurt Feng Jin." ”

Mr. Ji's knuckles tapped on the table, "Why, for the sake of a woman, you want to turn against me." ”

"What do you say?"

Gu Wennan's voice was a little high, and Mr. Ji raised his eyes and looked at him, "I didn't hurt her in the first place." ”

"But your plan is later. I hope you can terminate this plan. Rong Ke, when a person can't meet a true love in the rest of his life, if he doesn't cherish it, is there still fun in living. ”

"I don't have a whole life."

Mr. Ji spilled the wine on the ground, and he reopened a bottle, "I only have half a life left." ”

All Gu Wennan's arrogance to persuade him suddenly couldn't make a sound because of Mr. Ji's sentimental words, Gu Wennan looked at him fixedly and fell into deep silence.

The vast expanse in front of my eyes blurred, and through the layers of hazy tears, I could barely see his outline and face.

All languages are pale to shame, shameful to death.

I had lost my strength, and the last light was so dilapidated at this time that even a blink of an eyelid or a finger seemed overwhelming.

I'd rather I hadn't come back, I wouldn't have heard such cruel words, why should I come back so soon.

Resentment is unwilling to be ashamed and indignant, and it stabbed my heart naked and bloody.

He said it so nicely, a woman's stupidity is the best weapon, used to move the enemy, used to protect herself, and used to stab others.

But what about Ji Rongke, the man I know! He's not like that.

Such a gentle voice, such affectionate eyes, how could it be fake.

All my obsessive greedy smiles and pampering, how can it be fake!

I have always believed that a man's eyes do not deceive, that is the only place where you can lead to the heart, is the heart all fake, how can there be such a person.

But I was wrong, there are men in this world who can even deceive with their eyes.

Or maybe I've deceived myself.

I want a reliance too much, I want a port too much, I anesthetize myself, I keep brainwashing, I fantasize about such a hypocritical and cruel thing as beautiful and real, I have always been deceiving myself, I have always been too obsessed.

I think it's very funny at this time, this is a dream, a complete daydream, I always say that others refuse to wake up in their dreams, in fact, they are already living in reality, only I am still greedy for the scene in the dream.

Who can play Mr. Ji, everyone in the world is stupid in his eyes.

He calculates quietly, and he is good at using emotions to surrender to control other people's hearts and bones. Which moment is true and which moment is false, I'm so stupid, how can I guess.

I lowered my head and laughed out loud, laughing until my eyes were damp and blurry, laughing until I felt that the sky and the earth were full of rain and wind, it was white mist, and the silent rain fell on my face, I wiped it hard, and more came out, as if I couldn't stop.

I took one last look at Ji Rongke, who was sitting at the dining table drinking silently, his smile was so dazzling, he began to be silent, he was waiting for a stupid woman to come back and continue his superb play.

I gritted my teeth, the teapot held in the palm of my hand was already very hot, the boiling tea passed through the body of the pot to transmit the hot temperature, I pushed the door open with one foot, and poured the teapot into the other hand, Mr. Ji saw my pale face, he immediately got up and took the teapot from my hand, his fingertips were also burned, he put it down and frowned and blamed me, "Why don't you let the waiter send it in, is it hot?" ”

He grabbed my hand, put it to his lips, and blew lightly on my red palms and fingers, the cool breeze swept through the burned skin, and the pain was reduced a lot, but my heart was suddenly scalded even harder, the taste seemed to be fried on a hot boiling oil pan, turning over and over until the outside was scorched and the inside was tender, I never had such a violent desire to find a shoulder and cry, not saying anything, just crying hysterically, I felt that I was waiting for the end of the world of my own.

The most tragic apocalypse.

Gu Wennan didn't speak again, he was bored and ate vegetables, Mr. Ji drank glass after glass, during which I wanted to drink with him, he pushed my hand away and said that white wine should not be drunk, I said that there was a bottle of red bar, he stared at me for a moment, "Go back and drink, there is no best wine here." ”

I smiled and rested my chin on his shoulder, "You're going to feed me the wine you treasured?" ”

He mumbled, "yes, feed the hungry cat." ”

My heart was like a pinprick, the edge pierced the flesh, and a drop of blood oozed out, not painful enough, but it hurt overwhelmingly.

Gu Wennan lost interest, and soon proposed to leave, Mr. Ji picked up the suit and put it on his body, he looked at Gu Wennan, who was also a little drunk, and asked me to stay and take care of him, and he personally went downstairs to settle the bill and asked Master He to drive over to pick him up, and the three of us walked out of the private room together, Gu Wennan joked that he was going to have a treat but didn't end up eating it for nothing, Mr. Ji glanced at his coat without pockets, "I didn't expect you to have a treat." ”

"You think I didn't bring any money?"

Gu Wennan was really a little drunk, he rummaged over and over for a long time and didn't find his wallet, he definitely thought about it, and then laughed, "It seems to have fallen in the hospital." ”

Mr. Ji walked down the stairs to the front desk to pay the bill, I helped Gu Wennan to the staircase, let him lean against the wall, I shook my sour arm, and my chest was breathing unsteadily and a little out of breath.

Gu Wennan is very tall, although he is thin only because he has no fat, but he has a wide skeleton and weight, if he doesn't rely on the wall to borrow strength, I can't support him at all, the drunkenness in his eyes faded a little after Mr. Ji left, he suddenly grabbed my hand when I was defenseless and expected, and said to me in a deep voice, "Feng Jin, I have something to tell you." ”

After he said this, his eyes were completely clear, and he couldn't tell that he had drunk at all, and I knew that he was just pretending to be drunk to fool Mr. Ji. Usually Gu Wennan is the same on the outside and inside, unlike ordinary men who have twists and turns, he is very sincere and honest, and he has never lied, he is as warm as the cold sun, which is very down-to-earth. Therefore, Mr. Ji did not suspect him at all, and was very relieved to let me take care of this drunk and leave alone, and Gu Wennan also caught Mr. Ji's trust in him.

I looked at Gu Wennan with some surprise, "What are you going to say." ”

"Let's talk about Rong Ke."

I didn't move, "Say him?" ”

He nodded, "He's a man with a lot of past, his past isn't as tragic and complicated as everyone speculates, he has so many things he doesn't want to be known." I know him, I know very well how bad he was when he was at his worst, Bai Jasmine had many opportunities to return to him, and he didn't care too much about what happened between her and Uncle Jiu, but she finally chose to leave him, which is a good proof of the hardship of Rong Ke, who was once desperate at the bottom. But I also kept it to the point and said that he had changed a lot, his situation had changed, his status had changed, everything about the whole person had changed. ”

"Doctor Gu."

I interrupted Gu Wennan's words, he was going to continue, after I called him, his lips had to be closed, I smiled and stretched out my hand to him, he stared at my thin fingertips and was stunned, only a little unclear so he held it with me, his palm was warm, not hot or cold, there was a trace of the fragrance of hand sanitizer, I said, "You are a good person, a very good person." ”

He didn't understand how I could judge him like this all of a sudden, and he frowned, "I'm not done yet. ”

"But I don't want to listen to it, Dr. Gu has the right to speak, and I also have the right to refuse not to listen, right?"

He pursed his lips and took a deep breath, "Sure, but you'll regret it." ”

I closed my eyes and smiled and shook my head, "I've done a lot of things that I regret, and there's one more." ”

After I finished speaking, I walked down the stairs, and I looked back at him halfway through, "Can Dr. Gu walk by himself?" ”

He raised his eyes and looked at Mr. Ji who was making a phone call at the gate, he was turning around and looking inside at this time, Gu Wennan said, "It's better for you to help me." ”

I held his arm and walked down the floor to push open the door, Hall Master He just drove the car over and parked at the bottom of the steps, he was followed by a car, a bodyguard transferred from the hospital, Mr. Ji asked Hall Master He to personally send Gu Wennan back to the residence, and he pulled me to the second car.

After Gu Wennan sat in the car, he looked back at me through the glass, the front lights were on, I instinctively closed my eyes, and blocked the beam of light with my fingers, I looked at him with four eyes, his face was full of complexity and worry.

At that moment, I suddenly felt that this man was really good, even if I had been deceived and abandoned so many times, I still believed that good people would be rewarded, and Gu Wennan would definitely have good rewards. Because he is very kind, one of the few kinds that exists in this world.

I thanked him with my lips, and the two cars gradually distanced themselves, until at last neither of us could see each other's faces, the streets were pitch black, and the flashing neon lights could not hide the deep darkness of the night, and they became so fragile and powerless.

Mr. Ji asked me softly if I was sleepy, I yawned, nodded a little embarrassed with tears, he smiled and touched the top of my head, put his shoulder to my face, motioned for me to lean on it and sleep for a while, I hugged one of his arms and gently pillowed it, until my face was not visible in the rearview mirror, and the smile at the corner of my lips became frozen and stiff.

It's still South China, it's still autumn.

Familiar breath and temperature, familiar eyes and voices, but where has changed, become unrecognizable.

This man named Ji Rongke was deeply ingrained in my heart, and I struggled several times to give everything and everything, even if he didn't save me, even if he was indifferent to my life or death, at least I didn't have to indulge in his kindness to me, but I hated myself for betraying him.

But when I found out that the best person in the world to me had been wearing a mask to hide his most ruthless face, I just felt that the sky had fallen.

In the vast crowded streets, who else can I trust.