I closed my eyes on Mr. Ji's shoulder groggily, I didn't drink much, only licked a few small sips, Mr. Ji refused to let me drink liquor, I explained to him that when I was a dealer lady, I was often poured wine, black and red all drunk, he still held my hand holding the cup, told me that it was just the past, all in the past.

My mind is very messy, he is really good to me, so good that even the details are considerate and protective of me, if I hadn't heard him say it with my own ears, I wouldn't believe it at all, people all over the world pointed their noses and scolded me and warned me, I would only laugh at them for talking nonsense and deceiving me.

He really succeeded, he made me lose my love, and I didn't know it.

The bodyguard didn't understand that I was still awake, he saw that I closed my eyes, thought I was asleep, drove the car very slowly, the body was not bumpy at all, it was very flat and drove very flat, after arriving at the manor, the bodyguard parked the car at the door and did not drive into the garage, because sliding into the garage requires a downhill slope, a slope of about three meters, he was afraid of disturbing me to wake up, it seemed that everyone could see that Mr. Ji cared about me very much, as long as it was about disturbing me, he would not take any risks, except for Gu Wennan and Huo Yanchen, who knew him very well, Everyone thinks that I am the most cherished new love of Mr. Ji, who has been single for many years, and it is the treasure in his palm that has broken the walls he has built for love, and all the embankments of his defense have collapsed like earth.

Mr. Ji still kept his original posture and sat motionless, the bodyguard extinguished the fire, turned on the headlights, and shone a little light, he waited for a long time and didn't see Mr. Ji move, so he turned around and asked him if he wanted to go somewhere else, Mr. Ji put a finger to his lips and asked the bodyguard not to speak, the bodyguard pushed the car door very softly, went around to Mr. Ji's side, opened the car door, and a very cold night breeze poured in, I was originally hot, so I shivered, Mr. Ji noticed that I was shaking, He stretched out his hand and pointed to the bodyguard's coat, the bodyguard immediately took it off, he handed the coat over, Mr. Ji covered my back with that free arm, wrapped me, he carefully twitched out of my left shoulder, he held my head with his right hand, helped me maintain balance, and when he completely withdrew, his arm reached under my armpit and picked me up, although this action from sitting to lying down, the ups and downs were very large, but he was too gentle, I only felt my body tremble slightly.

He held me in his arms, and the bodyguard used his body to block the wind, but there was still a breeze blowing, lifting my hair and covering my eyes, I narrowed a slit, Mr. Ji's thin lips were tightly pursed, and a large stubble grew on his chin, he carried me into the courtyard, he didn't look at me, just focused on looking at the road, bypassing the uneven steps, I didn't feel the slightest bump.

The bodyguard opened the door, and Mr. Ji carried me into the living room, and under the last firmament, I saw the silent sky, the moonlight was very bright, penetrating the clouds, and it seemed that I could touch the cold and soft it with my arms raised.

I don't know why I refuse to confess that I didn't sleep at all, I want to feel more of his care for me, or if I just feel so tired, so tired that I don't want to open my eyes, I don't want to talk, I don't want to face him.

The nanny didn't sleep, she glanced at me who was tilting her head and fell into Mr. Ji's arms, and asked if I needed to make some soup, Mr. Ji said no, she was just sleepy.

He carried me up to the second floor, put me on the master bed, turned on the lamp, and instead of leaving immediately, he turned to the nanny who followed him and said, "Go and rest." ”

"I'll take off my clothes and wipe it for Miss Feng."

Mr. Ji took off his suit, and he handed it to the nanny, "I'll come." ”

The nanny was stunned, she turned her head to look at me, nodded yes, and then went out of the guest room with her suit and closed the door.

Mr. Ji entered the inner bathroom, I heard the sound of water coming from inside, he brought a basin of water out, put it on the bedside table, soaked the towel and wrung it half-wet, he put it on the side of the basin, suddenly there was no sound, I was trying to prick up my ears to listen to what he was doing, suddenly there was a trace of dampness and warmth in his chest, his fingertips fell on my buttons, dexterously unfastened, and then took my arm out of the sleeve, directly from the crotch, I only wore underwear inside, although the warm air was on, but I still felt a little cold, my skin tightened, He took a towel and covered my chest, rubbed it gently, and then moved it to my legs, and when he parted my legs, I felt embarrassed, instinctively not obeying him, he suddenly stopped moving, "Awake?" ”

I didn't respond, he didn't continue to wipe me, but took out the dressing gown hanging in the closet and put it on for me, he stood by the bed, quietly looking down at me, I heard the clock ticking, and his long breathing, and he suddenly said to me in this stagnant silence, "What should I do with you." ”

After he said this, he was very helpless, bent down and kissed my hair, then tucked the corners of the thin quilt on my body, turned off the light and walked out.

After he left, I opened my sleepless eyes and lay straight on the bed, I was soaking wet, I don't know when so much sweat broke out, I stared at the ceiling and couldn't sleep all night.

The next morning I walked out of the room with a splitting headache, I paid special attention to the two doors of the study and the guest room, the door of the study was wide open, there was no one inside, the door of the guest room where I lived before was closed, I hesitated and walked over, stood at the door and turned the doorknob, there was no anti-lock inside, it opened with a bang, I was a little overwhelmed now, I just wanted to make sure that Mr. Ji was not there, I didn't plan to go in and disturb him to rest, I panicked and wanted to close him again, but I was just about to do this, I heard a cough coming from inside, Mr. Ji seemed to be awake, There was no dull timbre in his voice, he must have known that it was me, if it was a nanny or bodyguard, he would definitely knock on the door, and only I would screw the lock when I came up. I couldn't get down on a tiger, so I had to push the door open.

Mr. Ji sat on the edge of the bed, he was dressed very neatly and cleanly, his hair was waxed, it seemed that he had woken up a long time ago, he was holding a photo in his hand, he was looking at it intently, he didn't look up when he heard me go in, I was wondering what he was looking at, and when I got closer, I found out that it was a photo of me and Jiang Huan at the beach the year before last, I immediately snatched it from his hand, his fingers fell into the air, but he kept the posture he just held and did not move, "I still keep these." ”

I suddenly felt a little panicked, "I forgot to throw it away." ”

I really forgot to throw it away, I haven't taken a few photos with Jiang Huan, he doesn't like to look at the camera, this is probably the best group photo in the few digits, he at least has a smile on his face, not a straight face like I forced him.

After I lived in the manor, I once entrusted Xi Qing to my apartment with Jiang Huan, to clean up some things that I was reluctant to throw away, although Jiang Huan had a bad temper, but for Xi Qing, the pillar of the casino, there would be no special conflict, if I went to get it, it was very likely to quarrel with him, but Xi Qing went, he was reluctant with a cold face at most, but no war broke out.

Xi Qing didn't have time to carefully select, so he moved a few of my boxes, all of which were some exquisite gadgets, not a lot of valuables, and there were not many valuables, among which I hid this photo, but I didn't expect it to be turned out by Mr. Ji.

I was a little upset and said, "How can you turn over my stuff." ”

He looked at me, "First of all, this is my estate, and every inch belongs to me. Secondly, you also turned over mine, didn't you. ”

I said let's get even.

He glanced at the photo I was holding in my hand, my thumb covered my face, but the face of Jiang Huan was exposed, and he looked at it for a while, "You were very happy then." ”

I know he misunderstood, I can't let go of the misunderstanding, but he can't let go of Bai Jasmine, but whether he lets it go or not, only the person himself knows, I can't guess him, no matter how smart and wise he is, he can't guess me.

"I didn't give up. I just..."

"You don't have to explain so much."

He got up from the bed and interrupted me, raised his legs and walked towards the door, I called him from behind, and when he stopped, I immediately held the photo in my hand above my head and tore it up, and then threw it on the ground, more than a dozen pieces fell in a row, scattered under the bed and in every corner behind the mirror, Mr. Ji turned around at this time, he saw the shredded photo, and a smile bloomed on the corner of his lips, "It is very difficult for the nanny to clean." ”

"I can sweep it myself."

He straightened the cuffs of his shirt and said, "Forget a person from the heart, not from the deed." ”

I took a step forward after him, and I almost blurted out a direct question to him, but I finally swallowed it back and said in the most tactful way, "Can you deceive a person from words to deeds, even with their eyes?" ”

Mr. Ji's leg raised again paused, he stood with his back to me, his tall body seemed to stiffen suddenly, at this time the sun was shining outside the window, I felt that the whole world was jumping, and the light that was unwilling to be lonely was projected onto the corridor, melting into the floor silhouettes.

"Maybe, but it depends on whether the person is willing to deceive."

My throat suddenly choked uncontrollably, "Then are you willing to do it?" ”

He tilted his head slightly to look ahead, and in the light of the skylight in the corridor, fine dust was flying, and he and I looked at the dust at the same time, as if we were looking at the unpredictable multitude of beings.

He said, "Are you listening to who says what?" ”

My clenched fists were soaked with sweat, my palms were sticky, my nails were scratched, my dilated pupils shrunk, and the courage I mustered up was gone.

I didn't want to ask, I lowered my head and said no, but I suddenly felt very uneasy.

He didn't have anything, and he walked out of the room without looking back.

After he left, I stood in the corridor, in the circle of light that seemed to be able to move people to another time and space, and I was reincarnating in front of my eyes from the time I met Mr. Ji to the present, and his face was like an old black and white disc, playing an old movie that was heartbreaking.

This heart, I haven't had time to get lost.