I am like a machine that has lost consciousness and thoughts, only the way and breathing are left, I followed Ji Rongke to the B ultrasound room to take a film, there are many family members waiting in the corridor at the door, some are mothers-in-law or mothers, and more are husbands, they have the joy of being a new father on their faces, and there is nervousness and anxiety about welcoming a new life, I clenched my fists tightly, stood in the corner, and didn't dare to come over, Ji Rongke hugged my waist, and he didn't urge me to do anything, just let me spend every minute and every second according to my thoughts.

The nurse came out of the ultrasound room, she blocked the door, and called my name, "Is Feng Jin there?" ”

Ji Rongke said that he hugged me over, took care of me very carefully, avoided the tiles sprinkled with water on the ground, and sent me to the door safely.

I looked at the nurse in front of me in a white coat and suddenly felt very nervous, sweating all over, I had never been to the maternity hospital, I and Jiang Huan's child, I used a pregnancy test stick to test the child, and then went to the small hospital at the door to check and confirm, the miscarriage was the fetal pill taken by the clinic, I never really felt it, just like now, suddenly held in the palm of my hand as a wife.

The nurse looked at me, smiled and asked if it was Feng Jin, I nodded, she asked me to go in with her, Ji Rongke didn't seem to have any experience, he wanted to follow, the nurse stretched out his arm to stop him, he had been fighting and killing for many years, instinctively regarded the obstruction of others as an attack, he immediately grabbed the nurse's wrist, but he himself reacted quickly, I patted him on the back to let him go, there was some noise and noise in the family group, and he was very surprised by such a sudden scene, Master He quickly apologized to the nurse, but the nurse didn't care, She touched her wrist that was pinched red, but her face was a little heavy, but she saw that Ji Rongke was dressed well and didn't look like an ordinary person, so she gave up, she said that the family was waiting outside, and the man inside stopped.

I walked in, and the nurse was about to close the door, Ji Rongke suddenly grabbed me, and he endured it for a long time and spit out a sentence, "If there is something, you call me." ”

I was stunned, and the nurse said next to me, "You don't have experience, how can something happen if you just make a film, the family can wait with peace of mind." ”

The nurse pulled my hand out of his palm, led me in and closed the door.

The whole process was very simple, I was so confused that I didn't even know what was going on, and when the nurse told me it was okay, I got dressed and went out of the B ultrasound room, Ji Rongke was standing at the door, he was holding a cigarette in his hand, because there was a warning sign prohibiting smoking, he didn't light it, he just put it under his nose and smelled the smell, he saw me come out, and immediately threw away the cigarette, he asked me how it was, I took the film and the slip and handed it to him, he looked through it, always frowned, and I also chuckled in my heart.

We went for a urine test again, and when the results came out, we went back to the clinic and handed everything to the director, who looked at it and said to me and Ji Rongke, "Congratulations, it's been more than four weeks." ”

He threw the film aside and didn't watch it, Ji Rongke asked him why nothing was written on the film, and the director helped the glasses on the bridge of his nose, "Because she doesn't need to shoot B ultrasound, the month is still too young, there is no meaning, it's just that Mr. Ji is so cautious, I went through this procedure out of order to give you peace of mind, and you can confirm that your wife is pregnant through the urine test results, and B ultrasound is not meaningless, she has no problems with her uterus as a whole, and the environment for the fetus to grow is better." ”

I breathed a sigh of relief, even though I didn't want the child myself, or simply thought that he didn't come at the right time and shouldn't have come.

At this time, I was in a very different mood from when I conceived a child for Jiang Huan, he was my boyfriend, I thought I was my future husband at the time, there was only me in his emotional world, we were each other's only, no matter how it fell apart later, during that period of time, he gave me a great sense of security. But I know what will happen to Ji Rongke, we won't be able to go that day anyway, Lina is in the middle, Uncle Nine is in the middle, and all the ethics and morality in this world are in the middle.

So what is the identity of this child who was born, I think I already anticipated.

Is that really good for him?

Is this really good for me?

I closed my eyes, Ji Rongke asked the director very carefully and meticulously about the precautions and diet in the early stages of pregnancy, he silently wrote it down in his heart, and then took me out of the consultation room and left the hospital building.

I felt that every step was very heavy, and the panic and helplessness that was so careful to make my sweaty pores stand up came back again, and it was menacing.

Ji Rongke held my hand, the palm was damp, so much sweat, passed from my fingertips, I vaguely rushed to a trembling, I lowered my eyes to see, this tremor did not come from him, but me, my whole arm was so stiff that I couldn't stop.

I quietly peeked at his face, he couldn't talk about how happy, nor sad, his initial surprise had completely faded into full calm, Hall Master He walked in front, he opened the car door, Ji Rongke helped me sit in, Hall Master He closed it and went around to the front to sit in the driver's seat, slowly started the car, and drove onto the street.

The car was very warm, turned on the heating, Ji Rongke rolled down the window, he wanted to smoke, but he had already felt it out and bitten it, but he took it away again, I whispered that it didn't matter, the smell of the window was not very strong, he didn't speak, and he still didn't light it again.

The car drove in the direction of the manor, I didn't notice it at first, because I only thought that I was pregnant, I was calculating which time, we only had one of the few two or three times, and no measures were taken, once in the room, once on the stone table in the courtyard, and the rest of my memory was a little vague, if I was not mistaken, it was probably the time on the stone table, that time was very intense, so crazy that I didn't even have the strength to scream at the end, he was resentful and angry at me, Because he guessed that I was the spy lurking beside him to send the news to Huo Yanchen, although he still won this counterplot, he couldn't accept that this spy was me. He hated me, he really hated me, and he used it as torture to vent that anger in his heart.

Later, when I finished the shower, I found a large bruise on my waist, and he pressed on me and pushed forward, and all my weight was on my waist, supporting the table and not turning over, and injuries were inevitable.

That time, because I was outside, it was evening, and the temperature of the air was low, which was a huge contrast with the hot skin, and I clearly felt the moment the heat rushed in, which made me shiver and dizzy, and I should have thought that maybe it would leave a bane, why did I forget to take my medicine.

I jumped out of this confusion of thoughts, and found that the road was familiar, it was to the manor, and I immediately patted the back of Hall Master Ho's chair, told him to drive back, and sent me to the hotel near Camenyan.

The car has been driving more than half of the way out, and it is getting farther and farther away from Camenyan, he can't make up his mind, and he may be able to turn a deaf ear before, but I'm pregnant now, and he is very worried that if I don't go along with my mind, it will affect my mood and endanger the unstable fetus, this is Ji Rongke's first child after all, and it can be seen from the quarrel between him and Lina that he cares about this child very much, he just isn't good at being happy.

Hall Master He hesitated and had to slow down the car, he glanced at the silent Ji Rongke from the rearview mirror, and asked him where to go, Ji Rongke did not indulge me unprincipledly, he said decisively Back to the manor, Hall Master He heard him so sure, and ignored me, so he resumed galloping. The car that suddenly accelerated ran over an uneven gravel road, my body instinctively bumped and swooped by the inertia, and planted it backwards, Ji Rongke's eyes were quick and steady to support me with his arm, and my body fell into his arms unscathed.

I broke free from his arms, tidied up my clothes, stared out the window with my cheeks back, we were silent for a while, and when I was about to drive into the community, Ji Rongke suddenly asked me next to me, "What are your plans for the future." ”

I didn't waste time thinking, because my heart didn't waver or change my plan, I told him directly that I would continue to work at the Carmenyan, and there was a sudden scorn in his voice, "I can't allow it." ”

I ignored him, and he added again, "It's not a question of accepting or not accepting, it's that I can't allow this to happen." ”

I asked him why, and his eyes fell on my still flat belly, "Do you want to drink and laugh with your child in the private room?" What kind of place is that, not every guest can maintain your dignity and respect your refusal, if there is a little physical altercation, have you thought about the consequences? ”

Oh, I laughed, it's not for the child, if I don't have this piece of meat in my stomach, he won't question my choice in such righteous words, I looked into his eyes, "You dislike my identity, and think it's very shameful and lowly to accompany wine and laugh in a private room, but it's not that a woman with this lowly status is pregnant with your child." Lina has a noble status, but this huge green hat on your head is also very dazzling. ”

Ji Rongke realized in my fierce reaction that although the person who said what he said just now was unintentional, it happened to poke at my heart, because I am the woman who has survived in such an environment until now, and it is because of this identity that I came into contact with him, if one of the links is not like this, we will not have a trace of intersection.

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, "Is this the only option, if you are to pay off the debt, I don't think there is any need now, will I deal with the woman who gave me the child that is nothing to me?" ”

I was silent, he stretched out his hand to hold my cold fingertips, he didn't expect that I was still cold in such a hot temperature, he grabbed it hard, and passed his body temperature to me, his voice was completely gentle, with a very helplessness, "What are you worried about." ”

He Tang Master parked the car outside the gate of the manor, he unbuckled his seat belt and went down, closed the door and leaned against the front of the car to smoke, he did not look inside, only stared at the fence in the courtyard and was stunned.

The carriage was silent, so quiet that I could only hear the heartbeats of me and him, and I said, "Can you raise this child?" ”

He said of course.

I lowered my eyes and watched him hold my hand, "But I can't give up my life's source for the sake of these ten months of fine clothes and food, Carmen Banquet can allow me to earn the capital of life." ”

Ji Rongke heard the deep meaning of my words, he suddenly laughed, he thought it was very interesting, he must have thought that a woman's thinking was very strange at this moment, it was incompatible with him.

His other hand stroked my long hair gently, "I can raise a child, but can't I raise a child's mother?" How heartless and unrighteous you see me? ”