When I had this idea, I thought I was crazy. Liangwen said that I chased the 'female' person too tepidly, and it was the last word to press it directly, but I didn't want to, and I was even more reluctant.

If one day, she really has feelings for me, and then press it again, it is very appropriate.

I want to use my care, tenderness, little by little to infiltrate her life, I think, this kind of care, far greater than the passion of the fire to die, the so-called love.

My 'wave' is a man, and I want to give it to her once in a while.

I think I must be insane, but I'm really, reluctantly, and strong. In front of her, I was the most comfortable and true version of myself, I know how difficult it is, but because of this, I need to take care of this beauty even more.

I saw the 'kiss' marks on her neck and imagined how difficult it was to pretend not to care, and I thought I was pretending to be fine, but it was also pretending.

I can no longer compare her to other 'women', because I regret it.

She seems to have carved the mark of another man on her body, what I want to know, I have gotten it, I have already understood, but she is the only one who can't let go.

I made an excuse to get close to her, Liangwen listened to me and already knew what I thought, I don't know why I would excuse myself to drink a few more glasses, I originally wanted to hold her hand in front of everyone, but I could see that she was avoiding me.

I can't do it, I know she won't push me away if I hold her hand to save face, but I really, can't.

I knew that she wouldn't refuse, and I knew that I could use such despicable means to get close to her, but I couldn't.

She was such a deceitful 'girl' child, and when I said a few random words and was dizzy, she immediately sent me home, worried that I would not be safe on the road.

Is she stupid? Maybe not, she just did what a friend should do.

That night, I can't forget, I talked about the first half of my life, my love history, and said a lot, but I didn't say that, I like you.

I asked myself why I suddenly wanted to say that I like you, but I couldn't answer.

I also confidently thought that she would choose me, but after such a decisive refusal, I would feel so painful.

My heart is small enough to accommodate one person.

What about me? Can there be room for one person in my heart?

I once read a poem hypocritically, the poet said that in this world, there are two things that belong to eternity, one is the stars in the sky, and the other is the secret love that will never be broken.

A person's YY is the most miserable, but also the happiest, I sighed, told myself, since they have all been retained, if you can't get it, give up.

I also thought I could give up easily, until Chen Luoluo came to Philadelphia.

I am not the last person to know this news, but I am vaguely uneasy, in the capital, everyone knows that this pungent 'female' person has been entangled with two disciples under Uncle De' 'door', it can be seen that his kung fu, we have also met and chatted, let me know more clearly, a young 'girl' child wants to play politics, which can be seen his ambition.

If she came to Philadelphia to find her former love, I don't believe it.

I'm worried about Lin Duoduo, her thinking will never diverge to the point of seeing Chen Luoluo as a rival in love, and that 'female' person knows how to hide it.

There are obvious 'kiss' marks on her neck, and the angle of the photo is particularly clear, and the more this happens, the more angry I feel in my heart.

What am I afraid of? None of this has anything to do with me.

But this year, I still indulged myself. The 'female' person who looked like her last time was pressed under me and fiercely **, I warned myself over and over again, Zhang Youze, you won't have love.

I hate Xia Haoyu a little, in my opinion, my love was ruined by him, whether it is in official business, or in the convenience of taking advantage of 'private' affairs, one thing I know very well, the hatred of taking his wife burns in the bottom of my heart.

I asked myself, is she your person? Why do you think of her as your person? Then I thought about it and didn't understand.

I just know, like, no reason.

At the seafood restaurant's kissing competition, I watched her shyly kiss with him. I can only persuade myself not to think too much about it, and the overall situation is important.

I avoided her picture and didn't want her name to be mentioned, so I woke up in the middle of the night and sat at the window with the last time she wiped my forehead for me. My fists were tightly clenched together, and I wanted to throw them away angrily, but I couldn't throw them away in the palm of my hand.

I begged her to look at me, and her eyes looked at me, and told me how noble I was, and how great I was, but how envious I was, she just saw me as an ordinary person, an ordinary friend.

The big picture counts.

We didn't have any contact for a few days, until my phone rang, and it wasn't until she put the bank card in my hand that I suddenly realized that she was going to dissociate herself from me.

But looking at her eyebrows, it was obvious to me that Zhang Youze, from now on, we should never contact each other again.

She's for the man, I understand.

How I want to hold her hand and kiss her hard, I won't tell her that I have dreamed of her in my dreams for the past few days, but she looked at me and told me, Zhang Youze, you are a good person.

It's not that she's driving me crazy, it's that I'm going crazy, indeed, I'm going crazy.

It was jealousy that burned my reason, and it was also jealousy that made me see the truest heart. It made me know myself.

But it was also jealousy, which made me know that the psychology of being truly willing to sacrifice everything for the sake of my lover still exists.

It's just that I'm not the lucky one.

I wasn't lucky enough to catch you.

All the plans are in progress, after the Sanding Bureau, no matter how great Xia Haoyu's power is, there is no way to escape, thinking of this, I suddenly feel a little sad, if she knew that I did all this for this bureau, would she forgive me?

Seeing Xia Haoyu being arrested, will she hate me?

I wasn't sure that she would fall in love with me, and what scared me even more was whether she would increase her hatred for me after she knew the truth.

I don't know why the situation of the Sanding Bureau will develop like that in the end, but one thing I know very well is that I can't be happy at all when I see Xia Haoyu leaving her alone.

I finally have the feeling I had when I was in love again, and I feel unhappy when I see that the person I like is unhappy. This kind of behavior, which seemed childish and disdainful to me, made me feel deeply uncomfortable about it.

The stomach hurt badly, but seeing that she insisted on going to the hospital to find that person, there was an indescribable feeling in my heart, stop, how could I bear it?

That's why I'm willing to accompany her to the past.

I thought that as long as Xia Haoyu let her go, she would be stubborn and leave willingly, but I saw it, she didn't, she cared about Han Wenhao and Xia Haoyu.

I know what Chen Luoluo's father is, but it doesn't affect my behavior, and I can't stand another 'woman' yelling at her, to be precise, anyone.

I also wanted to meanly 'intensify' this conflict, but looking at her under the cold rain, I had an indescribable feeling in my heart.

Thinking of the information sent by Yunshui Town, an impulse ignited in my heart again, if I gave her the information, what would she choose?

Love makes people lose their minds, and at the same time makes people despicable, I want to be an ordinary friend with her like this, and I also understand that if Xia Haoyu does not appear, we will definitely be able to become lovers.

I am willing to be in the rain with her, bask in the sun together, and live an ordinary life together.

But I couldn't say it. There's no way I'm going to be that despicable.

Now, I'm glad I was able to do it, because her choice was mine. I don't think Lin Duoduo made a mistake in her choice, at least, at some point, she still cares about me.

I didn't expect that the gold chain would attack Han Wenhao, and I didn't think that this 'female' who wanted to blame Lin Duoduo was actually Chen Luoluo.

Xia Haoyu is not stupid, Han Wenhao is not stupid, I will not say anything easily if they are unwilling to say it.

Chen Luoluo did not keep his promises first, and was the first to 'expose' the gold chain, once the gold chain was exposed, all the problems that were 'handed over' to me above would not be completed. Chen Luoluo did this, and obviously wanted to gain Xia Haoyu's trust, and also wanted to separate Lin Duoduo and Xia Haoyu.

I indirectly told Chen Luoluo about my guess, but I didn't expect that she was not otherwise, she asked me, since we all have the same purpose, how about joining forces?

Chen Luoluo said, I will not stop everything you have in Philadelphia, and I will treat it as if I don't know anything, and when I get to the capital, I will also recommend me, with only one purpose, to get Lin Duoduo.

For me, this is all good and harmless, and the only thing that can hurt is Lin Duoduo.

I said consider, but I also knew that I wouldn't. If there is really a way to get her heart, I hope that it is my love that will make her turn back.

I know that the gold chain can't be kept, and I can choose many ways for her to witness the cruelty of the man she loves so much, but every time, I find that the most distressing is myself.

Indeed, I feel sorry for everything about her, everything I feel sorry for her, I feel sorry for her for him, but I can't say it anymore, that sentence, let's be together.

Anyway, since we can't be together and can't love, let her remember me, so when the knife was 'inserted', I almost didn't hesitate.

What she owes me, she will definitely never forget me in this life.

You see, I'm despicable again, but so what, I'm happy, so I'm willing.

Some people can't let go of this life, watching her get married, watching her get pregnant, watching her become someone else's wife and becoming the mother of a child, isn't it a kind of happiness?

Just keep it in the deepest part of your heart, alone, and taste it slowly.