04. Heartbeat
I always felt that something had changed between me and Li Shu, and when I asked the field for advice on math problems at the end of class, I would always unconsciously glance at his position, and at this time I also imagined that he would give me a reciprocal look, but Li Shu didn't know that I was looking at him, because he was sleeping on the table.
I think it's very unfair to God, some people sleep all day and can still do questions. But some people, who are tested all day long, still can't do it.
Just as Tian Ye was talking to me, I found that the squad leader walked past us, walked in front of Li Shu, secretly picked up his glass, and poured him a glass of water.
I've heard Lu Xiaoping talk about the matter between Yueyue and Li Shu for a long time, and I don't have much to say, just looking at the glass, I always feel that something is wrong.
When Yueyue put the glass away and turned around, she happened to collide with my gaze, and she grinned, sweet and lovely.
Adolescence is always sensitive and suspicious, and when I was in class, I shared this incident with Lu Xiaoping in my notebook, and Lu Xiaoping told me that I was not playing.
I said that I didn't want to have a show at all, who likes cold men, I'm not a fool.
Lu Xiaoping said that now the whole class is treating me with me; Li Shu looked at it as a couple, because yesterday, we kissed.
As soon as Lu Xiaoping reminded me of this, I thought of the kiss between me and Li Shu.
But Lu Xiaoping said again, Yueyue ** tops me two, I definitely have no play.
I giggled and didn't answer.
To my surprise, during the second period of self-study, someone actually passed me a small note. I'm sure most of the students have done the same thing as me.
It was handed to me by the field, so I didn't pay much attention to it when I went back to receive the note. As if some kind of psychology was at work, I glanced in the direction of Li Shu again.
He was drinking water, and Yueyue poured water for her.
Thinking of this, my heart suddenly felt a little unbalanced, and I quickly turned my face and opened the note, and I was stunned by the handwriting on it.
Sometimes we don't have that mind to care about many ordinary things, such as the canteen will give us an egg every day, such as the dormitory lights will be turned off on time at night, such as at this moment, on the snow-white paper, familiar handwriting.
Maybe it was Li Shu who helped me solve physics questions a few times before, so looking at this handwriting, I knew that it was him.
Li Shu doesn't like to sign a note.
But the words on the note made me a little sad.
He said: It's really sweet enough, and you know how to bring me water.
Hehe, he didn't know, the water he was drinking was not sent by me.
Sighing softly, I replied: I'm sorry to disappoint you, your water was not poured by me, it was Yueyue.
I didn't dare to imagine the expression on Li Shu's face at all, but I myself couldn't express the depression.
I was very anxious to know what Li Shu would give me, but Li Shu didn't reply to me until the end of class.
If you don't go back, you won't come back, I can't beg him?
Just as I was lying on the table looking at the electronic watch, Li Shu's voice came to me.
"Gao Ziran, I'm thirsty......"
What does it matter to me that he's thirsty? He can't find Yueyue when he's thirsty, what are you looking for me for?
I pretended not to hear and continued to lie on the table in a daze.
"Hey, Gao Ziran, I said I was thirsty......" Li Shu's voice was a little louder, the study room in the third year of high school was quiet, and he said in such a voice, I wanted to pretend that I didn't hear it, and I couldn't pretend anymore.
So, I pretended to be okay and got up from my seat, walked to Li Shu's seat, glanced at his water glass, and said with a smile, "What's wrong?" What do you want me to do? ”
Li Shu's eyes glanced at the glass in front of him and said, "I'm thirsty." ”
"I'm not your mother, what are you looking for me to do when you're thirsty?" I said dissatisfied.
Several male classmates around laughed, and were swept over by Li Shu's eyes, and suddenly quieted down again.
"Didn't we say yes? My arm is injured now, I can't take care of myself, if I don't look for you, who will I look for? Li Shu glared at me, and seemed a little annoyed.
I stood in front of his desk, looked at his flamboyant face, and said calmly: "Whoever helped you pour just now, you will find whom, you are injured, and it is not my fault, it is you who fell down by yourself......"
"Hey, Gao Ziran, you ......"
"What's wrong?" Yueyue's voice came to me, and her hair was fragrant, and it instantly reached my nose.
"Squad leader, Li Shu asked me to pour water for him, I don't want to pour it, he still has to lose his temper with me!" I don't know where the resentment comes from, I open my mouth to complain.
The squad leader looked at me with a smile on his face and said, "What's the matter, I'll come......"
As he spoke, he picked up the glass in front of Li Shu and walked towards the location of the water dispenser.
There was another sigh around me, and I looked at Li Shu, raised my head, and walked towards my seat.
To be honest, I thought several times that I could swagger past Li Shu, but I didn't have the courage. Until this moment, I finally turned over and sang, but my heart was full of bitterness.
I told myself that it was a delusion.
In the last evening self-study, Tian Ye fell on my arm again, and I stubbornly did not look back from the left, because I didn't want to see someone.
Tian Ye wrote me a note and asked me if I was upset.
How could I not be happy, I was happy to die.
Although this is the case, I know that in the bottom of my heart, it is not so good.
Lu Xiaoping seemed to know my thoughts, and gave me her favorite ballpoint pen as a sign of comfort.
I think what Lu Xiaoping said is quite reasonable, after all, the squad leader's convex and backward curls, fragrant hair, sweet smile, and excellent grades. As for me, forget it, I'd better stay honest.
I originally thought that I was so angry with Li Shu, and the relationship between the two of us should be over, but what I didn't expect was that after the evening self-study, he actually walked to my seat.
I wasn't ready to pay attention to him, and I took Lu Xiaoping's hand and was about to walk out. But the number of roads moved quickly, directly in front of the two of us.
I raised my head to confront him, and for fear that other classmates would see it, I asked in a low voice, "What is the matter, where did I offend you?" ”
Li Shu looked at me, then at Lu Xiaoping, and said, "You go back first, leave a door for the dormitory, and she will go back later." ”
Lu Xiaoping's face was stunned, but she still nodded and let go of my hand.
I had no choice but to follow the large group downstairs, and when I reached the bottom of the building, Li Shu suddenly fell behind me and pushed me towards the place where I thought about the dormitory.
The hallway was dimly lit, and the two of us walked along the hallway. A cool breeze soothed my red cheeks, and I thought to myself, fortunately it was night, and if it was daytime, the plum tree would definitely be able to see it clearly.
Finally, when he walked to the camera in the corridor, Li Shu did not stop, but walked towards the back of the classroom.
I gritted my teeth and followed.
At that time, I didn't know why I followed, but I was worried and panicked. On the one hand, I was worried that my teachers and classmates would see it, and on the other hand, I was worried that Li Shu would bully me.
Finally, we came to a stop in a hidden corner, and I didn't dare to look at the person next to me, so I could only glance away.
Feeling the other party's body slowly approaching, I suddenly raised my right hand and said, "Li Shu, if you dare to bully me, I'll tell Gao Zijian!" ”
Li Shu laughed out loud and said, "Gao Ziran, you think too much, right?" Just you, I'm still bullying you? ”
This sounds like a mockery to me. Of course, the word "bullying" in Li Shu's mouth at that time, I think, has a special meaning, right?
"Then what are you looking for me? Speak up! My tone was a little short, and my palms were sweaty.
"Gao Ziran, why don't you pour me water?"
Look, how natural the demon's tone is, I don't understand, and I don't owe him money, so why should I pour water for him?
"Didn't Yueyue help you? Why do you have to pour water? "Although I think so from the bottom of my heart, what I say is clearly different from what I think from the bottom of my heart.
"Isn't it always you who pour water? I'm not used to substitutions. Li Shu said justifiably, and his tone was also very domineering.
"I'm sorry, I'm a person, I've never done loss-making business, you don't copy my homework for me, and you want to ask me to help pour water, no way!" I pouted my face and whispered to him.
"Okay, Gao Ziran, now you have learned to bargain with me, not bad!" Li Shu smiled and continued: "It's okay if you don't pour water for me, for the sake of me breaking my arm because of you, you have to promise me one thing......"
I knew that this guy had eaten for a year longer than me, and that careful thinking was different.
"Tell me, I can think about it......" I glanced at a few figures not far away, suddenly becoming more nervous.
"If you don't understand the topic in the future, ask me, don't ask others!"
Also? What is this concept? I turned my face curiously, and happened to meet Li Shu's eyes, which were pitch black, translucent, and seemed to have a kind of paranoia.
"Why?" I looked at Li Shu curiously and asked.
"Why can there be, isn't it just that your brother calls me every day and asks me to give you more tutoring!" Li Shu said in a calm voice.
Unable to describe what he felt, he sighed softly and said, "You asked me to come here just to tell me this?" ”
"Or else?"
"Oh......" I nodded and said, "Well, I know, it's not too early...... Let's go back! ”
"Okay."
Simple and clear words, without the slightest specialty.
I shook my head lightly and walked forward.
When I followed Lu Xiaoping down to buy snacks during recess before, I would always see pairs of boys and girls running towards this small corner, Lu Xiaoping smiled at me, and I smiled at her, at that time, I thought that two people had reached this point, there should be something there, right?
But tonight I realized that there could be nothing.
I think I'm a nymphomaniac. I had to divert my attention.
(Tianjin)