188 Helpless
"Why don't you like it very much?" Maybe I don't think my mood is high enough, Su Xiaoyi asked.
"What's the matter, I like this short-sleeved shirt very much, it's really affected by things at home, alas!" I hurriedly flickered, in order to keep Su Xiaoyi from thinking about it, I quickly took off the clothes I was wearing now, and replaced them with the ones she bought for me in front of her, anyway, I tried my best to show that I was very happy, I liked this dress very much, Su Xiaoyi was also happy when she saw me like this, and scolded me for being a hooligan, saying that if I let others see it, I would be alone and widowed in the garden undressing, I don't know what to think.
As for this dress, it feels very good and comfortable to wear, Su Xiaoyi said that it is very expensive, it cost hundreds, it is all pocket money that she has saved for a long time, she said that when she was good with Wang Yang and Fu Hao before, she never bought clothes for them, this is the first time to buy clothes for boys.
Listening to Su Xiaoyi's words, I was a little moved, but at the same time, I blamed myself more, the more I blamed myself, the more I felt, whether it was responsible for Tang Bingbing or the relationship between me and Su Xiaoyi, I felt that this matter must be resolved, and it can't be so vague, otherwise I don't deserve to have Su Xiaoyi.
Then I chatted with Su Xiaoyi and asked her a lot of questions, such as how much she likes me, and whether she plans to marry me in the future, the purpose of my asking these questions is actually to see how much Su Xiaoyi loves me, if she lives without me, then I will be ready to break up first.
Su Xiaoyi's answer was very realistic, she said that she didn't know, anyway, she felt very happy when she was with me now, as for getting married in the future, she didn't think about it so much, she could get married to that step, but if she fell in love with someone else when she turned around, she might marry someone else.
When she said this, the pressure in my heart was also slightly reduced, thinking about it, if I really broke up with Su Xiaoyi, I guess she wouldn't be too sad, and she would adapt soon, right? She's not the kind of person who dies and lives for feelings, and I still see this very clearly.
At the end of the conversation, when I was going to go back to my own house, Su Xiaoyi still hugged me and kissed me, this time my hand was very honest, just hugged her waist and didn't move, but Su Xiaoyi took the initiative to be dishonest, and then she asked me: "What's wrong, you have no interest in me now?" I don't see you reacting! ”
I smiled and jokingly said, maybe it's the past few days when she's not there, I've solved myself too often, and now I'm a little sluggish, she said that's not good, she hasn't tried it yet, I can't do it, she told me to control it in the future, I can't solve it, I really can't think about it, just let her come.
Saying that, she deliberately hit me with her hand, and then giggled, if Su Xiaoyi said this before, I would definitely ask her to give me a shot immediately, but now, I am not interested at all.
After I kissed for a while, seeing that I didn't make any moves, I probably thought that I was too disappointed, Su Xiaoyi didn't want to stay with me any longer, and after sighing and reprimanding me, I went back early, and after I got home, I sent a text message directly to Tang Bingbing, asking her if it was convenient to chat.
Soon Tang Bingbing texted me back, she said: "Don't talk about it, I've figured it out, that incident, just treat it as if nothing happened, don't talk to me about it in the future, you and Su Xiaoyi, do whatever you want, don't think about me, that's it!" ”
Although at present, the best ending is like this, but Tang Bingbing took the initiative to tell me this, I feel even more sorry in my heart, and even if she forgives me and doesn't care about this matter with me, can I forgive myself in my own heart?
I said I know you are very uncomfortable, you see what I can do, I can compensate for your things, so I can compensate for it, Tang Bingbing replied to me: "I actually don't have anything uncomfortable, I was slandered by the previous object before, so it's uncomfortable, this time is nothing compared to that time, and this time it can be regarded as proving my previous innocence, in fact, I am quite happy in my heart, besides, we both drank too much that day, you are responsible, I am also responsible, and I can't blame you all, so don't be too stressed in your heart, Just do what you want, I'm fine, that's it, no need to reply to my text messages! ”
Seeing Tang Bingbing's text message, the feeling in my heart was even more uncomfortable, in fact, if she scolded me and beat me, I felt okay, but she forgave me so easily, I was at a loss, and I didn't have the face to get along with Su Xiaoyi.
She texted, I didn't reply to her, but then she sent me another one, she said: "You really don't have too much pressure, didn't I like you before, I liked it for so long, and I didn't catch it in the end, I can give it to you this time, it can be regarded as satisfying one of my previous regrets, I really don't feel so uncomfortable in my heart, don't blame yourself, that's it, let's meet in the future, just treat it as if it's okay, or friends!" ”
Tang Bingbing said this, I feel a little more comfortable, I hope she can really want to open it, but she wants to open it is she who wants to open it, I should be responsible, and I can't escape it, this night, I have insomnia, and I think a lot.
The next day, it was the day we started school, after going to school, I was listless all day, and I didn't have the heart to listen to the class, as for Su Xiaoyi, I either went to the martial arts hall after school, or went home directly to paint, anyway, I rarely went to her, because of this, Su Xiaoyi also lost her temper with me several times, and kept asking me if I didn't like her anymore, I liked other girls, and she also took the initiative to come to school to find me and quarreled with me a few times.
Once when she quarreled with me at the school gate, Brother Jiang just came out, I don't know if I was too angry with me, or she thought that I became like this and had something to do with Brother Jiang, so she went over and pointed at Brother Jiang and scolded, and asked Brother Jiang if he hooked up with me now, if I hadn't stopped me, the two were afraid that they would have started fighting, and after the quarrel with Su Xiaoyi this time, she was very angry, and directly told me to break up, and then left without looking back.
And this time, I didn't stop her, I even had a little expectation in my heart: I hope Su Xiaoyi's attitude can be resolute this time, even if she doesn't really break up with me, it's best to make the cold war longer, because let me take the initiative to make up my mind to leave her, I don't think it's a little impossible, if she wants to leave me, I can't do anything.
Anyway, I'm quite conflicted, on the one hand, I hope to take this opportunity to break up, on the other hand, I can't bear her, I really like her too much, I've liked her for so long, and I finally caught up, so far I feel like I'm still dreaming, how can I be willing to leave her.
Of course, if I break up this time, will I like her again in the future, and will I ever be with her again?
The answer is yes, even if I break up, I like her very much, and if I have the opportunity to be together in the future, I will definitely be together, if she likes someone else and is with someone else, then I will accept my fate.
With this kind of thought, after Su Xiaoyi left, I also endured it and didn't go to her, maybe she told Zhang Qimei this, Zhang Qimei also looked for me once later, and asked me what's the matter, why don't you care about Su Xiaoyi now, is it that you have been with it for a long time, the freshness has passed, and it is boring?
I said that it was because of the quarrel during this time that I was upset, and I wanted to be quiet, Zhang Qimei also asked me if I didn't like others, right? I said no.
She also told me a lot later, anyway, it means, from when I liked Su Xiaoyi, to chasing others, to being together, so many things have happened in between, and now we are finally together, but you must cherish it, she said Su Xiaoyi, she knows her too well, once she feels that I don't like her anymore, she will soon be able to let go of me, and after I let go of me, if other men approach, I will be in danger, she asked me not to do it, after all, it is a man, I have to take the initiative to coax others.
I said I knew, and at the same time I was more confused, I didn't know what to do, Tang Bingbing also sent me a text message that day, asking me if it was because of her that I had a quarrel with Su Xiaoyi.
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