Chen Tu's eyes, under the light, flickered and dimmed for a while, he looked at the ceiling, his voice sank suddenly, without a trace of temperature, with a deep sadness and indignation in the desolation: "If I think I am her son, I will be sorry for my mother." ”

The coolness was covered, and it seemed that the whole atmosphere was frozen by Chen Tu's words, and I froze in place, as if my heart had been poked hard, and an inexplicable feeling of discomfort spread throughout my body.

"I'm also sorry for you, I'm sorry for the children who were brutally murdered by her before we had time to see this world!"

I was in a sluggish state, Chen Tu's words were like a sharp knife, neatly cutting my tight nerves, and I was almost bounced on my back: "Chen Tu, what are you talking about?" ”

Turning his face, Chen Tu looked at me, his dark eyes turned into a pool of crystal lake water, as if it was stirred by something, the lake was rushing, but it was firmly imprisoned in Chen Tu's eye sockets, so that his eyes turned red, and suddenly moved over, Chen Tu completely embraced my whole person into his arms, and used great force to circle me fiercely, his chin rested on my shoulder, I could feel him trembling one after another, and then, I heard a desperate sob.

It was like a pebble, constantly beating, and I finally couldn't hold back and nudged Chen Tu: "Are you okay?" ”

Chen Tu's sobbing voice did not slow down the rhythm because of this, but became more and more intense, his body trembled greatly, as if he was completely immersed in his world, and his voice was intermittent: "Wu Yi, Liang Jianfang, this scumbag, kill my mother!" She's not enough, she's going to hurt you, she's going to kill our children! ”

"I'm not just a neurotic, I'm a contradiction. Before we fell in love, I said I didn't want children, but God knows how much I like them. After being with you, the things I can often think about are that one day we will have a lovely child, preferably a girl, she should look like you, be as beautiful as you, and be as smart and independent as you, we can go to the park together to fly kites, I take lots and lots of pictures of you, cook and play games together at night, and before going to bed, a soft child will call me dad and call you mom, I can get a complete family and make up for my previous lack and expectation of this kind of relationship. ”

"But on the other hand, I have a deep fear, I have a very strong fear, I am afraid that my child, he will follow my old path, he will become the next Chen Tu, or Chen Jing, he will have a childhood full of missing sins and calculations like me and Chen Jing, I am afraid that I will not be able to give him the sunshine and health that I have so earnestly desired, I feel like a pathetic screenwriter, living in a fantasy that I weave, I think I am strategizing, I think I am winning, I think I am overturned, I am conceited, I am arrogant, I thought I saw through everything and controlled everything, I thought that even if I had a weakness, I could protect those I wanted to protect well, and not let her be contaminated with the ugliness of my complicated world, I thought I thought I thought, I always thought that my self-righteousness not only completely destroyed your life, but I also indirectly caused you to lose our common child. ”

"When I was younger, I couldn't protect my mother, I thought I would be able to protect everything that belonged to me when I grew up, but I still couldn't do anything. I'm still a waste with no way to protect my loved ones! ”

Chen Tu's voice changed from low to passionate at the beginning, and then from passionate to murmuring, but those faint despairs always ran through, spread, and then spread to my eardrums, which had become sharp thorns, which made me extremely uneasy, so I had to pat Chen Tu's back with my hand, and asked weakly again: "Chen Tu, are you okay?" ”

Completely trapped in his own world and stumbling, Chen Tu's tears fell on my shoulder one by one, and he whispered in a deep voice: "Do you remember what I told you about Xiaoyu? ”

I felt a sigh in my heart, as if I understood something, when I thought that Chen Zheng had told me that Xiaoyu died in front of Chen Tu in front of Chen Tu when Chen Tu was 5 years old, the overwhelming unbearable tremor overwhelmed me, my lips and teeth trembled, and I struggled to spit out two words: "Remember." ”

"Xiaoyu is my mother. Wu Yi, Xiaoyu is my mother. If she dies in front of me, she will be killed in front of me! I don't even know where she's buried! I will definitely cut a beast like Liang Jianfang with a thousand cuts! ”

It's like inside my head, there was originally a bombshell, but now Chen Tu lit the fuse with his own hands, boom, all the calm was wiped out, I was extremely frightened, and I subconsciously pushed Chen Tu away, put his hands on his shoulders, and said in a trembling voice: "Chen Tu, calm down." ”

It seems that the twilight of the whole world is shrouded in Chen Tu's face, his outline is blurred, I can't see his expression clearly, he grinned, as if trying to faint, but it only lasted for a few seconds, his eyes continued to burst into tears, he was as fragile as a child.

This is the first time I've seen such a gaffe that I can't help myself.

He was fragile in front of me, crying, out of control, all the emotions that ordinary people could have, he released them completely, regardless of them.

He eventually fell asleep anyway.

Such a tall person, curled up in the sofa, even in his sleep, his brows are still wrinkled and piled up, hiding his heart that can't be dissolved.

I stood up and tried to go to the bedroom to get him a thin blanket, but as soon as I stepped through the bedroom door, my eyes were completely fixed.

The whole bedroom, full of my pictures.

There are the way I meditate on the computer, the way I drink soup with a bowl, the way I sit on the sofa and play with my phone, there are many, many of them, and I have not been paid much attention to.

I leaned in and looked at it, and there was a small line of print underneath.

"You look so stupid. I look silly at the way you look. ”

My nose instantly ached, and I looked at them one by one as if I had discovered a new continent.

Finally, I stood in front of the picture at the very end.

The lines here are written in smaller sizes, and my face is almost stuck to the wall to see it clearly.

"Well, it's been 369 days, and that's a good number. But I still haven't touched you. Just this once, I'll go out again, and if I can't meet again, then I'll accept my fate. Loneliness is a good thing to get used to. ”

One was unsteady, because of inertia I pressed my whole face against the wall, so these lines of words, which were neatly written by the pen one by one, completely fell into my tears and became blurred.

When I wiped away my tears and carried the blanket back to the hall, Chen Tu, curled up on the sofa, still frowning, clasped his hands on his chest, and fell asleep in a defensive posture.

I covered him with a blanket and sat down next to him, my thoughts racing, and finally I couldn't resist the sleepiness, and my eyes were completely blind.

In my deep sleep, I felt someone constantly pulling something, I forced myself to open my eyes, and suddenly I saw Chen Tu pulling the blanket, gesturing to cover my body.

By the faint glow of the floor, I quickly sat up and brushed my hair.

After holding each other in silence for a while, Chen Tu put the blanket on my lap, and his voice was a little hoarse: "If you don't want to go to the bedroom to sleep, why don't you go to another guest room to lie down for a while?" ”

I clasped my hands on my knees and buried my head: "No." ”

After a pause, I said again, "Chen Tu, are you okay?" ”

The voice rustled, and Chen Tu was very fast: "I lost my temper and failed to control myself." ”

I felt sad when I heard it, and I couldn't help but lower my voice: "You've been very lonely, all along." ”

Turning over and sitting side by side on the sofa with me, Chen Tu slowly spoke, infinitely amazed: "Life will definitely get better slowly." It's just that those who were forced to leave will never return. Xiaoyu, our children, will not come back. ”

I hesitated for a while, then slowly groped with my hand and grabbed Chen Tu's hand.

It seemed that he was overwhelmed by my sudden touch, Chen Tu's hand stiffened slightly, he froze there, as if he couldn't believe it, and his voice was a little unsteady: "Can I?" ”

I hummed heavily, squeezed Chen Tu's hand hard, and said slowly, "I want a chapter of the law." ”

As if resurrected with full blood, Chen Tu hurriedly shook my hand back, and he nodded his head like a chicken pecking rice: "About a hundred chapters are fine!" ”

At the end of Chen Tu's words, I said slowly: "I want to be your partner, what you are doing is also what I want to do." I love to see the devil go back to hell. ”

Chen Tu's hand loosened slightly, he was silent for more than ten seconds, and suddenly reached over and stroked my hair: "Wu Yi, there is a difference between knowing and implementing. I want you to be informed, and I want you to be more vigilant. And implementing a series of things, always with risks, I won't..."

Furrowing my eyebrows, I then stared at Chen Tu in a faint light: "I won't hold you back." ”

With his brows furrowed, Chen Tu looked at the bridge of my nose for a while, and said extremely seriously: "It's my honor to be held back by you." ”

As if I suddenly remembered something, I lowered my voice and asked jumpingly, "Will you cause you any trouble if you help Song Xiaoxi with this?" ”

Shrugging his shoulders, Chen Tu responded lightly: "It's okay." ”

I immediately understood, "Well, I mean, this will break some of your plans?" ”

Wrapping my whole hand in my palm and holding it steadily, Chen Tu's gaze was gloomy: "I saw your appearance at that time, you really wanted to help Song Xiaoxi." I just happened to be able to do it, and it wasn't a big deal, so I did it. ”

After a pause, Chen Tu continued: "Don't worry. Although Wan Song's incident this time was originally outside my plan, I have calculated that with Wan Song's current situation, although it is different from the past, at least the foundation is there, I will take it and sort it out, and there is still a chance to come back to life. What's more, after this experience, Song Xiaoxi should be reborn and can be used by me. Song Xiaoxi's family has been engaged in tourism for a long time, and there is no shortage of foundation and resources, and these things cannot be obtained by throwing money at them. ”

Even if Chen Tu said something serious, I am not stupid, I know that this has caused him more or less trouble, my heart is wrinkled, and I don't want to dwell on this matter anymore.

After a long silence, a stirring spirit suddenly appeared in my mind, and Chen Zheng's face suddenly appeared.

In the end, I was afraid that mentioning Xiaoyu would stimulate Chen Tu's emotional change, so I weaved words in my mind and asked cautiously: "Chen Tu, Xiaoyu's matter, Chen Zheng him..."