Xiaoxue saw the loss of my mood, and after shopping, she first sent the small painting to the school, and then took me to the villa where the rich merchant lived for her.

The villa is decorated in a classic European style, looking very luxurious, and the light reflected by the crystal lamps makes the whole hall look like a royal palace, which is very splendid. This look is the nouveau riche style of drama.

As soon as she entered the door, Xiaoxue threw away all the shopping bags in her hand and kicked off her high heels, although she lived in such a house, she still couldn't change her sloppy and casual personality. Bread crumbs can be seen everywhere on the luxurious sofa, paper towels are wrapped around the trash cans, fruit is scattered on the coffee table, and the kitchen is a mess, and even the instant noodles that have been eaten have not had time to throw away, forming a layer of orange oil stains, making the delicate-looking blue and white porcelain bowl look much cheaper.

"The aunt I just invited is not clean hands and feet, I just quit yesterday, and I'll go to the market tomorrow to find one, let's do it today, it looks a little messy, you will do it first." Xiaoxue knew that I always liked to be clean, and when she saw that I frowned, she hurriedly said.

"Why do you live in a villa and still can't change your old personality?" I couldn't laugh or cry, I couldn't stand it, so I started to help her clean up.

"Hey, it's not your own house after all, how can there be so much tossing. I just want to enjoy life every day now, and I don't want to interfere with the work of these servants. After Xiaoxue finished speaking, she sat on the sofa and turned on the TV with the remote control, not minding that the clothes she just bought were stained by the stains on the sofa.

I cleaned up briefly, and saw that there was a lot of foreign wine in her wine cabinet, so I asked her if she could drink it, and she said of course she could, and then took out a bottle of Hennessy from the wine cabinet, opened it, poured it into the wine glass, and we sat down on the sofa together and drank it.

I felt bitter in my heart, so I gulped down the sullen wine, and after a while two glasses of wine were in my stomach. Xiaoxue poured me another glass, and then said to me, "Xiaoshu, we sisters haven't talked for a long time, you can tell me about your things." I don't want you to take everything to heart and carry it yourself, I want to share some of it for you. ”

Maybe it's drunk and spitting out the truth! I inadvertently opened the chatterbox, recalled a series of processes between me and Jin Yan, and told her the real relationship between me and Xing Feng by the way, but did not say that we recognized each other as brother and sister.

"So Jin Yan loves you deeply, do you have to die and break up with him?" After listening quietly, Xiaoxue asked me with a frown.

"I don't know if I'm doing it, I have too much confusion and confusion in my heart, but I don't know how to solve it. I read a lot and found that the love in the book is too different from the real love. I don't know if my decision is right or not, but the truth in the book tells me that women must not be humble in love, and they must not allow themselves to become a third party. Whether Jin Yan loves Shen Ziyan or not, as long as he and Shen Ziyan are engaged, it is impossible for me to be with him. Instead of meeting in hiding like this, is it better to break up? But Xiaoxue, I'm very painful, I miss him so much, I can't help but think of those clips when we were together, I think he was really good to me, he really loved me, but the reality is like this, so I don't know what to do. Seeing him so ruthless today, I feel even more uncomfortable. Maybe I'm just cheap, I treated him like that when he loved me, but he really left, and I regretted it in my heart. Maybe from now on, I will never meet such a good man again, what do you say? "With the strength of the wine, I expressed a series of confusions in my heart and many thoughts that I had suppressed in my heart.

At this moment, I really longed for Xiaoxue to give me guidance and give me an outlet to confide in. I think she is from the past, she has experienced a lot of feelings, and she may have a different view of love.

But what I didn't expect was that my mantra was exchanged for a sneer from Xiaoxue, Xiaoxue said: "I tell you, the standard for measuring whether a man loves you or not is to see how much he is willing to pay for you." Let me ask you, Jin Yan's family is so rich, what material help did he give you? What has he done for you? ”

I shook my head and I said, "No, I don't want him if he gives it to me." I talked about feelings with him, not about those things. ”

"Feelings? Hehe......" She smiled, took a big sip of wine, and said: "The most unreliable thing in the world is feelings, and women who live for feelings are too stupid and stupid." Let me tell you, when I owned this villa, this car, and this endless amount of money, I realized that feelings are a p. The only thing I regret now is that I didn't understand it a few years ago. If I understood at your age and made a lot of money early, I would have been blessed a long time ago, so why should I have to live so hard? Little book, let me tell you, if a woman wants to figure it out, she must believe in her fate. ”

She has been carried away by this extravagant material, which is already the best gift of life for her, and the short life of a "noblewoman" has made her completely lose herself, and she feels that this is the meaning of life.

But I didn't think so, and I felt that confiding in her, instead of solving my inner confusion, had taken my mind to the other extreme. I strongly rejected this kind of money values, I wanted to try to suppress my inner emotions, but after drinking, it was difficult to control, and I finally said the words that had been hidden in my heart for a long time: "Xiaoxue, don't deceive yourself, no matter how luxurious the villa is, no matter how good the sports car is, no matter how much money on the credit card is, it is not yours." You still have nothing, except for a nice outer packaging, the inside is still exactly the same as before. I don't like you living like this, and I don't like your old work, I hope that my friends around me can work their own, instead of always being parasites in this society! ”

My words scared me out of myself, and I kept telling myself in my heart that no matter how dissatisfied you are with your friend's life, you must understand and respect her way of life and not be blamed. But what's wrong with me today? How do I say such a thing to Xiaoxue? This dissatisfaction comes from the bottom of my heart, maybe it was buried from the beginning of my acquaintance with her, or maybe it was because she took her current depravity as a blessing to make me feel uncomfortable?

Xiaoxue looked at me in shock, and I could imagine how sad she was. She had always regarded me as her best friend, and valued me more than small paintings, but she never knew that I thought of her and thought of her in my heart. I looked at her at a loss, like a turtle that had managed to get its head out and then immediately shrunk its head, and if it weren't for the effects of alcohol, I wouldn't have criticized her so harshly.

After a long time, Xiaoxue muttered, "Xiaoshu, you are too high. I used to think that you were cold and didn't like to talk, but now I understand that you don't like to talk to me. You don't even think of me in your heart, do you? ”

"......No," I instinctively wanted to say no, but I swallowed it back when it came to my lips. She was right, I was tall, I was at the bottom, but I always had an instinctive contempt for other people's unearned gains, and perhaps this is why I have always been close to her.

She saw that I bowed my head and did not respond, and then let out a long series of laughs, and she said, "It seems that I am being amorous...... Xiaoshu, from the day I first fought for you, I treated you as my little sister as my friend. I appreciate your tenacity, I appreciate your attitude towards your family, I appreciate that you are in that environment and still read books every day, I think you don't earn as much as me, but you have more backbone than me. I've always regarded you as a bosom sister, and I'm more anxious about your affairs than myself, but I just learned today, in fact, you have always looked down on me in your heart, and now I don't understand. Why didn't you tell us anything when I asked you and Xiaohua, it turned out that you were too high-spirited, and you thought that we were not worthy of being your friends. You've told me more than once that your eldest sister should be in your heart, and only people like your eldest sister deserve to be your friends, right? ”

"I'm sorry......," I muttered, "I don't think I don't treat you as a friend, it's just that I always feel that people can't live too spinelessly, can't do things that go against their hearts, can't get something for nothing, but I don't think I'm qualified to judge anything, I'm not a good person myself, I don't have the position and qualification to say these things." But Xiaoxue, I really don't want you to be like this, I hope you find an honest man and live the rest of your life steadily. Now this kind of life looks glorious, but it can't last long. You may feel happy now, but after a while you should be bored. ”

"Find an honest man, work in the fields and give birth to a bunch of children, endure the abuse of others every day, and live in obscurity in the village for the rest of his life? Pull it down, my reputation in our village has become stinky, and no one wants to marry me. A man with a little bit of talent won't want me, and I don't like a man with no talent. You say I'm not doing this now, how can I live? She smiled sadly, then looked at me, and said, "Little book, you don't look down on me, do you?" Okay, then I'll watch in H City, I'll see what Qinggao's little book can be mixed up in the end, and I'll see what kind of life you can live in ten years. ”

"I don't know what kind of life I'm going to live in the future, but I won't let my life be what you are now, that's my bottom line." There was a fire in his heart, and he was provoked by Xiaoxue's words, so he simply burned even more.

"Then I'll see how many years your ambition can last, and I'll see if you still have to succumb to the arrangement of fate in the end? Little book, I won't force you to be friends with me in the future, but we'll see. I tell you, I used to have the ambition you have now. Who hasn't had a youth? But dreams and reality are not the same thing at all, I think it's time for you to wake up! Xiaoxue's temper also came up, and we, who had never blushed, were noisy in her splendid "home".

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