Before this, Song Qingge never thought that she would have relatives alive, and that person had always been by her side like this.

It's just so sad, she hasn't had time to recognize that person, and she hasn't had time to call him "brother" properly, they are separated forever.

Song Qingge closed his eyes, trying to hold back his tears, but it was too difficult, it was really too difficult.

Thinking of Xue Yan's concern for her in the past, and what he said before he died, she felt that her whole person couldn't help but tremble, and her tears finally came out of her eyes, and she couldn't hold back anymore.

"Qingqing ......" Zhan Qi looked at her distressedly, reached out and hugged her into his arms, patted her back gently like comforting a child, and said in a dumb voice: "If you want to cry, cry out, crying will feel better." ”

For the man who was once regarded as his rival in love, when he learned that he was Song Qingge's own brother and his brother-in-law, Zhan Qi was also shocked and stunned. In addition, there was a strong sense of regret and guilt, if he had arrived in time at that time, maybe he would not have let Xue Yan die in front of them.

Song Qingge's face was buried in his arms, his hands grabbed his clothes, and finally he couldn't help crying.

Zhan Qi's eyes were also a little red, he raised his head and blinked vigorously, lowered his head and kissed her hair, and didn't say anything, just gently comforted her.

The people in the ward didn't speak, just looked at her quietly like this, everyone felt uncomfortable, especially Xin Tian, Feng Zhiyu and Zhan Shu, who cried quietly when they saw such a scene.

They all know the significance of their relatives to Song Qingge, especially Xue Yan not only donated his kidney to Zhizhi before he died, but also saved their lives, which is really too cruel for Song Qingge.

Probably afraid that too many people around her would affect her mood, Zhan Qi waved his hand and took the opportunity to send those people away, Xin Tian originally wanted to stay with her, but was also pulled away by Zhan Zheng.

It wasn't until there were finally only the two of them left in the ward that Song Qingge's crying became even more sad, and Zhan Qi hugged her without saying a word, except for hugs and gentle kisses, there seemed to be no better way to comfort her at this time.

I don't know how long it took for Song Qingge's voice to gradually become weaker, Zhan Qi looked down, but found that she was tired of crying and fell asleep.

couldn't help but sigh helplessly, Zhan Qi kissed her on the forehead, laid her flat on the bed again, and sat aside holding her hand tightly.

Song Qingge fell asleep again.

As before, she began to dream inexplicably again, this time the protagonist of her dream was still Xue Yan, but unlike before, she dreamed of what she and Xue Yan looked like when they first met.

They stood in Song Garden together, and she held his hand like an ordinary sister, enthusiastically introducing him to every plant and tree in Song Garden.

Obviously she is thirty years old, but she is still like a child, sitting on the swing and letting him push her, Xue Yan just smiled dotingly, didn't say anything, and gently pushed behind her back, the swing swung up, and then it swung higher and higher, and the garden was full of her smart laughter.

"A little taller, brother, a little taller......"

She shouted while laughing, and Xue Yan stood behind her with a gentle smile on her face.

That's the life she once dreamed of having, with a gentle and considerate brother who would stand up for her when she was bullied, coax her to be happy when she was unhappy, and secretly stuff her pocket money when she had no money to spend.

She used to be very envious of Xiao Qi, because she had six brothers above her who spoiled her, and Zhan Qi, the eldest brother, who protected her, everyone knew Miss Zhan Qi's status in Rongcheng, even if she walked sideways, everyone had to make way for her.

Once Song Qingge also hoped that her brother could live, at least she could have someone to rely on in her life, and someone who could stand up and say, "Don't be afraid, I'm here" when she was desperate.

But now, all is gone.

Probably because he was frightened, Song Qingge suddenly had a low-grade fever in the second half of the night, and the fever was very serious, and then the whole person began to talk nonsense.

She burned so badly that she called many people's names during the coma, and she knew his, Xue Yan, Xin Tian, Xiao Qi, Song Qingyu, her parents...... Like a lost child, she kept crying for help from the people around her, hoping that someone would come and save her.

Even in her sleep, she was so desperate and helpless.

Zhan Qi has been guarding her untied, as if he could get into her dream to comfort her.

Due to pregnancy, Song Qingge can't use many drugs, although he has a fever and inflammation, he can only use some of the simplest basic drugs to slowly reduce the fever.

Zhan Qi was anxious and didn't know what to do, so he could only hold her hand tightly and keep putting it to his lips and kissing it lightly.

Song Qingge was in a coma for a whole day and night, and it was not until dusk the next day that the low-grade fever slowly subsided, and she slowly woke up.

Zhan Qi was still by her side, probably because he was too tired, and he finally couldn't support it, so he fell asleep on the side of the hospital bed holding her hand.

Song Qingge opened her heavy eyes, first stared at the ceiling above her head for a long time, and then turned her head to look to the side and found Zhan Qi who was holding her hand and fell asleep. She wanted to smile, but the corners of her mouth seemed to be filled with lead, and she couldn't pull it up, so she tried several times, but finally gave up.

He looked very tired, Song Qingge couldn't bear to disturb him, and carefully withdrew his hand, but he didn't expect that just after moving, Zhan Qi immediately woke up, and shouted reflexively, "Qingqing!" ”

Song Qingge immediately said: "I'm here, don't be nervous." ”

Zhan Qi looked at her at this time, he was probably really anxious, his eyes were frightened and flustered at that moment, and when he saw that she was still lying on the hospital bed unharmed, he breathed a sigh of relief, pursed his lips, held her hand hard, and said in a dumb voice: "You are awake." ”

"Hmm." Song Qingge nodded, raised his hand and stroked his face gently, and said with some distress: "Your face is so bad, why are you so haggard?" Isn't it a good rest? ”

He did have a bad face, after the accident, she was in a coma for three days, and after waking up, she cried for so long, and then fell asleep again, all the time she fell asleep and woke up, the whole person was in a confused, muddy state, he had been staying by her side every inch, and he didn't even dare to blink her eyes more, just like she would disappear again in the blink of an eye.

The past few days of nursing have made him have a heavy green shadow under his eyes, his beard has not been shaved, and he looks decadent and haggard, as if he is several years old.

Zhan Qi was afraid that she would be worried, so he just shook his head and smiled, "I'm fine, it's just that the quality of sleep is not too high, you don't have to worry about me." ”

Song Qingge looked at him apologetically, "I'm sorry for making you worry about me." ”

"Silly woman, what do you apologize to me, it's the greatest comfort to me that you're okay." Zhan Qi raised his hand to brush away the broken hair on her forehead for her, and looked at her lovingly.

"Zhan Qi." She called him suddenly.

"Huh?"

"You know what, I dreamed of him." Song Qingge looked at him, only said a word, and the tears fell again, she raised her hand and wanted to wipe it, but the tears flowed so fast that she didn't have time to wipe them.

"I dreamed of him, in the dream we were in Song Garden, and he was pushing the swing for me. He talked to me a lot, and told me about him when he was a child. He said that he was naughty when he was a child, and he was not good at studying, and he was beaten by his adoptive parents because of this. As she spoke, she suddenly held his hand and said with some surprise: "Do you know, he also served in the army, and it was about the same time as you joined the army, do you know which military region he is?" Maybe he's still a recruit from you. ”

As if she was caught in a memory, she was stunned, and kept saying: "And I also dreamed that he went to school with me, when I was in school, there was a boy who always disliked me, and I dreamed that my brother stood up for me and taught him a hard lesson. I also dreamed that I was scolded by my father, and my brother took all the responsibility on him, saying that he did it, and I was scolded by my father so fiercely. ”

"I also dreamed of my mom and dad, my mom didn't pass away, she was still there, always there. They also baked us fragrant croissants, which are my favorite ones. My brother also tutored me in my homework, but strangely, I never dreamed of the sound of whispering in my dreams......"

"Oh yes, you know what, my brother said that he used to feed koi in the pond when he was a kid, and he fed the biggest one, and he told me to go back and see if the fish was still there, and let me feed it well......"

She kept talking, talking, and then finally closed her eyes and wept silently.

"You know, that dream is so happy, I want to stay in that dream all the time and never wake up. But in the end I woke up and found that there was nothing. She opened her eyes, turned her head to look at him, and asked for the hundredth and first time, "Zhan Qi, is my brother really dead?" Are you lying to me? Don't make a fuss, okay......"

"Qingqing!" Zhan Qi roared with red eyes, "It's okay for you to be sober, Xue Yan is already dead, he has been dead for four days!" ”

She looked at him in a daze, and finally lowered her head, and said sneeringly, like a child who had done something wrong, "Is it...... Has he been gone for four days? ”

Zhan Qi sighed, raised his hand and gently wiped away her tears, "I know you're sad, but you can't come back from death, you still have a child in your belly, for the sake of the child, and for yourself, be stronger, okay?" ”

She looked at him and wanted to cry, but in the end she held back her tears and nodded, choking up, "Okay, I'll be strong." ”

"Good." Zhan Qi hugged her and patted her on the back gently.

Song Qingge hugged him with his backhand, snuggled in his arms and said, "Zhan Qi, I want to go and see him, after he had an accident, I haven't taken a good look at him." ”

Zhan Qi's heart tightened, and he asked with some hesitation: "Are you sure, are you going to see him?" ”

Frankly speaking, Xue Yan's death when she was dying was very, very miserable, she is now a pregnant woman, he is really afraid that she will not be able to accept that scene, and he is even more afraid that it will leave her a psychological shadow.

But Song Qingge still nodded insistently, "Well, I'm going to see him." ”

Zhan Qi saw her resolute attitude, knowing that what he was saying was superfluous, so he gritted his teeth and agreed, "Okay, you eat something first, he is still in the hospital morgue, I'll take you to see him early tomorrow morning, okay?" ”

She hadn't eaten well in the past few days, and it was really bad for the child in her belly, so she nodded obediently, "Okay." ”

The meal has been prepared for a long time, and Aunt Qin will cook her favorite dishes every day, although she is in a half-asleep coma, Aunt Qin still changes her way to cook what she likes, hoping that she can eat her favorite meals as soon as she opens her eyes.

Zhan Qi opened the lunch box, took out chicken and chicken soup, and fed her carefully little by little.

Song Qingge was very well-behaved from beginning to end, and obediently finished all the meals without saying a word, Zhan Qi asked her if she wanted to eat some more fruit, she just shook her head slightly, "I'm already very full, I don't want to eat anything." ”

Zhan Qi sat next to her, hesitated for a moment, and finally couldn't help asking, "Qingqing, do you hate me?" ”

Song Qingge raised his head and looked at him puzzled.

Zhan Qi pursed his lips and said in a low voice: "I was ...... If I stopped you and didn't let you save him, would you be angry with me? I think I hurt him. ”

She just looked at him quietly, and then pulled the corners of her mouth and smiled bitterly, "Why do you think that?" I'm not an unreasonable person, what was the situation at that time, I knew very well, if you didn't pull me, it would be the three of us who would die at that time, and it might even affect the child in my belly, I know that you are for my good. ”

Zhan Qi breathed a sigh of relief, "It's good that you can think so." ”

She just looked down at her fingers and said in a daze: "I'm just resenting myself, why can he think of us as brother and sister in the first place, but I never recognize him." Since they are brother and sister, there should be telepathy in the dark, but I never thought of this layer. If I had recognized him, there wouldn't have been such a thing. ”

"It's not your fault, don't blame yourself." Zhan Qi said distressedly: "Xue Yan has a vague memory of the past, that's why he thinks of this layer, when you were born, he was no longer there, how do you know that he is your brother Song Changning, to you, he is just a stranger." ”

"But I still feel guilty." She finally burst into tears again, "Do you know, in the end, he was still thinking about me, he gave me all the real estate in his name, and even gave me his kidney, but I didn't give him anything, and I didn't even call him a brother......"

Zhan Qi immediately hugged her, "I know, I know, don't be sad." ”

She knew that she shouldn't be emotional now, let alone cry often, but she couldn't help it, she really couldn't help it.

Zhan Qi hugged her and coaxed her for a long time, but in the end she was tired of crying, and finally lay down in his arms and fell asleep quietly.

*

Early the next morning, Song Qingge changed into the black dress that Zhan Qi had already prepared for her, and was led by him to the morgue of the hospital.

For this place, Song Qingge is really not unfamiliar.

Here, she had seen her mother and father with her own eyes, and now, it was her own brother, and all her relatives had been lying here, and none of them could stay for her.

Before seeing Xue Yan's corpse, in order to make Song Qingge mentally prepared, Zhan Qi held her hand again and gave her psychological construction again, "Qingqing, listen well, the people here...... It may not be quite the same as Xue Yan in your memory, just take a look at it and confirm it, just take a look at it, don't remember it in your heart, understand? ”

Song Qingge still nodded obediently, "I know." ”

The doctor who was in charge of the morgue had already been waiting there, and when he saw them coming, he first asked Zhan Qi for instructions, and when he saw that he nodded in agreement, he went up and opened one of the freezers and pulled out the corpses inside.

After all, it is a person who has experienced explosions and fires, even if the remains are good, how good can they be?

But despite being mentally prepared, the moment the doctor lifted the white cloth and saw Xue Yan's body, Song Qingge almost fainted.

How to describe it?

In fact, it can't be called a corpse at all, to be precise, it can even be called coke.

His face was completely ruined, his lips were gone, his face was so black that he couldn't see his true face, and his hair was completely burned, and only a round and pale scalp could be seen. The right leg is gone, the left hand has three fingers broken, and the whole body is black, if she hadn't been told that this "person" is Xue Yan, she really can't associate the black charcoal-like thing in front of her with that handsome man.

Song Qingge only glanced at it and immediately covered his mouth, and cried out mournfully, "Brother......"

Afraid that she wouldn't be able to bear it, Zhan Qi felt very uncomfortable, and immediately waved to the doctor: "Cover it." ”

However, just as the doctor was about to cover the white cloth again, a heart-rending shout suddenly came from outside-

"Xue Yan!"

Zhan Qi and Song Qingge were both startled, and before they could come back to their senses, a figure flashed in front of them, and then someone rushed towards Xue Yan's corpse.

It turned out to be Wei Lai.

She had just returned from a business trip to Milan, and the day before she left, she called Xue Yan and asked him to call her "Lailai", but he rejected her on the grounds that he was in a meeting and was busy.

But she didn't give up, and called again, only to find that he had turned off the phone.

After that, a flight attendant came to remind her that the plane was about to take off and asked her to turn it off. At that time, she was still angry and thought, she must hear this "Lailai", even if she can't hear it now, she must hear it when she returns to China in a few days, even if she pesters him to say, she must definitely let him call her well.

But she never thought that she would never hear this "Lailai" again in her life.

Wei Lai fell to his knees on the floor, holding his hand, which could no longer be called a hand, with tears in his eyes.

"Xue Yan, Xue Yan...... How can you do this to me. You haven't even called me Lai yet, you're ...... You haven't even said if you want to accept me, how can you do this to me......"

As she spoke, she finally couldn't help but lie on his corpse and burst into tears.

Zhan Qi and Song Qingge stood beside her and couldn't bear to look at her, Wei Lai cried for a long time, until his crying voice was hoarse, and then he finally raised his head and stared at his face that couldn't see his face at all.

Although his facial features were no longer distinguishable, Wei Lai was still not afraid at all, his fingers gently stroked his face, and he said to himself: "Xue Yan, you are teasing me, right?" Just like what you said in anger before, you just can't stand me pestering, that's why you're like this. Do you wake up well, as long as you wake up, I promise that I won't pester you anymore in the future. I promise you, marry someone else, and stay away from you in the future, okay? ”

"Lailai ......" Song Qingge was a little unbearable, and stepped forward to comfort her, but was pulled by Zhan Qi.

Wei Lai's current appearance is obviously on the verge of an emotional breakdown, and there is no persuasion, so it is better to let her just finish what she wants to say.

Wei Lai held his hand, looked at his face with a dull gaze, tears rolled out in large gulps, and said indifferently: "Xue Yan, do you know, I am pregnant, I have your child, it has been more than two months. You're right, I'm really a brain-dead, I don't even know that I'm a mother. Can you wake up, you haven't named it yet, you haven't decided if you want to be with me or not, you haven't promised me a chance......"

Song Qingge, who was on the side, listened to her words, his eyes widened in surprise, and he couldn't say a word.

She never thought that Wei Lai was pregnant, counting the days, probably the result of that one-night indulgence as she said.

I really didn't expect that the first and only time for the two of them, Xue Yan left a small life in her belly. Could it be that this is also the ending that God has already set for them?

Wei Lai babbled a lot of things beside him, and in the end, even she didn't know what she was talking about, so she raised her head, looked at Song Qingge with empty eyes, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Before he died...... Did you leave me with any words? Or...... It's okay to hear my name, have you ever heard it? ”

Although the truth was indeed cruel to her, Song Qingge bit her lip, lowered her head, and finally shook her head unbearably.

Wei Lai pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled, as if he didn't give up, and asked again, "Didn't you?" Not once? Not a word? Even if my name is mentioned, is it really not? ”

Song Qingge has never wanted to nod her head for such a moment, for the first time in her life, she felt that her head was so heavy, really heavy.

But in any case, she finally had to nod her head lightly, confirming Wei Lai's words.

Wei Lai looked at her, and suddenly smiled, laughing sadly but also desperately, with tears on his face, he nodded lightly, and said to himself: "It's quite like him, it's indeed his style of doing things." ”

It's really heartless, she was not mentioned in the end, not even a word.

"Lailai......" Song Qingge looked at her worriedly, but Wei Lai just got up from the ground and walked out indifferently.

Wei Lai's eyes straightened out, Song Qingge kept staring at her back, and the moment Wei Lai walked out of the morgue door, his body suddenly softened, and the whole person fell straight to the floor.