I want to move forward unswervingly, no one can stop me, God blocks and kills God, Buddha blocks and kills Buddha.

It's a voice from within me.

This is my goal all along, and I have never forgotten it, and I dare not forget it.

At this moment, this determination turned away the woman I loved, and I really don't know whether to say that it was providence or that I did it myself.

I lay down slowly, and didn't mention Duan Qinghu again, because I didn't want everyone to worry about me anymore, I also wanted to calm down and think about it, to see how my path should go, whether I really needed to give up on her, or if we were separated was already an inevitable end, should I really need to say goodbye to her, or just quietly accept the fact that she left and not send her away.

In the next two days, it was rainy, but the white plum blossoms on the windowsill were full of vitality, and the vitality made people sigh to themselves. On this day, Shen Nuoyan came to the ward accompanied by Wang Mengru, I just finished taking the medicine and was about to get out of bed to move my legs and feet, when I saw them coming, I smiled and said, "Why are you here?" Didn't I tell you that I wanted you to recuperate in the hospital? ”

Shen Nuoyan looked at me with great concern, and Wang Mengru said at this time: "I'll go out first, you can talk." ”

After she left the room, Shen Nuoyan came to my side and said, "I must have felt very uncomfortable in the past two days, right?" ”

I didn't speak, and I didn't know what to say.

Under the weather? That's a certainty, it's just that it's not scary to be uncomfortable, and the feeling of being able to lose two beloved women at the same time is even scarier. Song Jiayin has never appeared since she said those words to me that day, I thought she was just angry at first, after all, the two of us have gone through so many ups and downs, even if there was such a deep misunderstanding before, even if I had hurt and misunderstood her so much, she still didn't give up on me, this time, just because I was a little indecisive, how could she not give me a chance again?

It's just that now I suddenly realize that she is serious and that she wants to re-distance the two of us. Song Jiayin, once she gets serious, she becomes very terrible, because she is so stubborn, so stubborn that you can't change her decision at all.

So, if one day, she says, "Chen Ming, maybe we are not the one we want each other the most." Well, maybe I'll never be able to get into her heart again.

Song Jiayin said that she has seen any man in her life, and the only one who has ever moved her heart is me, she is rare to open her heart, rare to be attracted to me, rare to be willing to waste a lot of time and energy, willing to turn her back on the sustenance and expectations of the entire family, and when I am strong, how deeply she is dedicated to me, this time, how deeply I hurt her.

Shen Nuoyan sighed, and he said: "You are like this, we all feel uncomfortable, let me tell you the truth, recently, everyone has been sitting together, and the most we have discussed is not how to catch the person of the killer organization, how to avenge you, because this matter is left to Song Jiayin to do, and each of us is very relieved." What we discussed the most was whether we should drive Duan Qinghu away, if we really left her, it would make you feel better, and it would make you smile on your face, we are willing to compromise, we just hope you can protect yourself carefully, because you are not only your own, but also all of us. ”

Hearing Shen Nuoyan's words, I felt even more uncomfortable and guilty, and I think this is the reason why Song Jiayin didn't want me to be so depressed and hesitant. She knew very well that if I really suffered from the loss of Duan Qinghu, Shen promised that they would compromise.

But once I really keep Duan Qinghu by my side, it means that I am betting on my future and the efforts of my brothers, so that I really won't let them down, am I really qualified to be their boss?

I sighed deeply, the original hesitation and hesitation things suddenly disappeared, I remembered the conversation with Sun Nanbei before the accident, and remembered that I had made up my mind at that time, even if I lost Duan Qinghu, I could not betray and abandon my brothers, such a determination, but I was almost paralyzed by the impact of this incident.

Thinking of this, I closed my eyes, and when I opened them again, I felt that my heart didn't seem to hurt so much. I looked at Shen Nuoyan and said, "Don't say this kind of thing anymore, I'm a man, I know how I should choose, and I will definitely not embarrass my brothers." ”

Shen Nuoyan said in a deep voice: "Have you really decided? If you're not happy, you don't have to hold on like that. ”

I said, "I'm really fine, yes, good news...... Has she seen you in the past two days? ”

Shen Nuoyan shook his head and said, "No, I heard that she didn't come to the hospital either, are you two still angry because of Duan Qinghu's matter?" ”

I nodded and said, "I didn't care about her emotions." ”

"I can't blame you, whoever it is, it's inevitable to be sad when you encounter this kind of thing, I think Miss Song is too anxious, she wants you to be what she wants, so when I see you know what decision to make, but you are still hesitant, you will be so disappointed." Shen Nuoyan comforted me, "What's more, she must be a little jealous in her heart, after all, no woman will not care about the man she likes has someone else living in her heart, even if she says she doesn't care, she must mind in her heart." ”

In fact, I have always understood this truth, but because of the greed in my heart, I automatically blocked the dissatisfaction in their hearts, thinking that they were really willing, even if they were unwilling, they would not force me to give up who and who to choose, until now I dare to admit my scum, and their helplessness.

After thinking about it, I said, "If you have the chance, you can help me call her over." ”

"I think it's better for you to call her yourself." Shen Promise said truthfully.

I reluctantly said, "Then she has to be willing to answer my call." ”

Shen Nuoyan rubbed his temples helplessly and said, "It turns out that Miss Song will also do such a thing as not answering the phone in anger. ”

I thought of Song Jiayin, who was always serious, and said lightly: "Any woman who meets love has just become ordinary." ”

It's just that it's so ordinary, but it has a fatal temptation.

I changed the subject and said, "By the way, how has Nanjin been going lately?" ”

Shen Nuoyan said: "Su Guofu reported what happened here to the capital in 1510, but according to your meaning, the part about the Yan family was erased, only said that it was the embroidered spring knife organization of Shanghai that dealt with him and you, and now the upper part of the embroidered spring knife has launched an investigation, not only that, but the upper is also determined to change a group of people from the Nanjin Bureau, I think Su Guofu's ability is really not to be underestimated, if I am not mistaken, I think he came to Nanjin, no one wants to dye the upper echelons of Tianjin, from now on, the world is peaceful." ”

I was not surprised by this incident, and said lightly: "If Su Guofu didn't have two brushes, how could he be selected to become the leader of Nanjin at this time?" ”

Shen Nuoyan was puzzled: "It's just that I don't understand, why do you want to protect the Yan family?" If the above knew that the Yan family was involved in this kind of thing, I think the Yan family would definitely be hit hard, isn't this exactly what you want? ”

I said, "Since I have agreed to cooperate with Chen Tian, I will definitely make him the head of the Yan family, and I will also want him to become the head of the four major families." Although it is said that the use of Su Guofu can bring heavy damage to the Yan family, in that case, the strength of the Yan family will be greatly reduced, and what is the use of a weakened family? Only by getting a complete, or even stronger, Yan family will help me. ”

Shen Nuoyan said: "I understand your plan, I'm just worried that Chen Tian will be dishonest." ”

I smiled and said, "Don't worry, someone will keep an eye on him for me." ”

Looking at the time, I said, "You've been sitting here for too long, hurry up and let Mengru help you go back to rest, by the way, you can call me later to help the third master, so that he has time to come over, my phone doesn't know where to go." ”

"Something?" Shen Nuoyan asked.

I nodded and said, "Did Nanbei and He mention to you about him and Sister Sang?" ”

Shen Nuoyan shook his head and said, "In the past two days, the war has been chaotic, and people are panicking, who is in the mood to care about other things, but listening to what you mean, can it be said that the two of them have become a success?" ”

Thinking that they had been worrying about me for the past few days, I felt very guilty, and I said, "Not only is it done, but according to the original plan, the two of them plan to get married as soon as possible." ”

Shen Nuoyan asked with some surprise, "What?" That's too fast, right? ”

I said lightly: "I don't think it's fast, everyone's relationship progress is different, maybe that's the rhythm that belongs to them." ”

"So you called the third master to come over, did you want the third master to discuss their marriage with you?" Shen Nuoyan frowned and asked.

I nodded and asked him if he couldn't do it. His expression didn't seem to agree.

Shen Nuoyan shook his head and said helplessly: "It's not that it can't be done, but I don't want you to work too hard, the most important thing you have to do now is to take care of your body, and other things shouldn't be considered by you." ”

I smiled and said, "Don't worry about me, I'm fine, except for my weakness." ”

Shen Nuoyan said: "Don't lie to me, Uncle Er said, you are always injured, and your physical condition is not as strong as it seems on the surface, especially this time, although this knife deviates from the heart, it pierces deeply, plus the two gunshot wounds on your shoulder that are not completely healed, you must not be sloppy anymore, otherwise you will become old, weak, sick and disabled in the future, see who wants you!" ”

I said helplessly: "Okay, okay, I'll take care of it, okay?" But it's always okay for me to lie here and move my mouth, right? After all, I also want to do my part for Nanbei and Sister Sang. ”

Shen Nuoyan knew that he couldn't resist me, and said, "Okay, but you have to promise me that you must not do weight exercises before Uncle Er does not allow you to do weight exercises." ”

I said helplessly: "You know, why do you talk so much like Uncle Er?" If Mengru knows that you can say so, be careful that she doesn't want you. ”

Shen Nuoyan glared at me angrily and said, "I still don't care about you?" It's really a dog biting Lu Dongbin, and he doesn't know the hearts of good people. ”

"Grass, who are you scolding?" I asked angrily.

Shen Nuoyan said with a smile: "I didn't name it, you can scold whoever you want me to scold." ”

I pretended to be angry and said, "Wait, wait until I recover, and see that I don't beat you all over the ground to find your teeth." ”

Shen Nuoyan smiled and said, "Chen Ming, do you want me to remind you of one thing." ”

I immediately raised my hand and said, "I don't want to listen." ”

Shen Nuoyan still told me the truth 'cruelly', he said: "You can't beat me even if you're good, hahaha." ”

I knew he was going to say this!

Wang Mengru came in at this time, she came over to support Shen Nuoyan, I couldn't help but laugh evilly: "What if I can't beat you?" Now that you're hurt, I can let the north and south beat you. ”

"Damn, you're ruthless!" Shen Nuoyan scolded angrily.

I looked at his back and laughed.

After Shen Nuoyan left, I raised my hand and wiped my eyes, only to realize that I was laughing out of tears. I lay there, looking at the ceiling dejectedly, and at least I had a decision in my heart anyway, didn't I?

Just as I was thinking about it, there was a knock on the door outside, and I said lightly, "Come in." ”

Looking at the door, I saw a girl wearing a white beanie carefully opened the door a crack in the door, and when she saw me, she opened the door and walked in, with a guilty face, her eyes were red, and she said crampedly: "Brother Chen, I'm sorry." ”

The person who came was none other than the white lily.

Bai Lily looked at me with a guilty face at this time, with red eyes, like a wronged rabbit. Every aspect of her resembles my sister, so much so that when I see her like this, my heart completely softens.

I laughed and said, "Say I'm sorry?" It's okay for me to get hurt. ”

"Don't lie to me, I know if it weren't for me, you wouldn't have provoked that fake name, and you wouldn't have been hurt." Bai Lily said, put down the fruit basket, put a delicate Japanese food box in front of me, and said with a smile: "I made you some snacks, do you want to try them?" ”

I nodded, impressed by her gentleness and kindness. At the end of the day, she was just a normal girl, so she didn't know what happened that night, and she didn't know the real reason for my injury, so she thought I was injured because of her, and I asked her how she knew I was injured.

Bai Lily bit her lip and said with a red face, "I asked my sister to help me inquire." ”

After speaking, she quickly explained to me: "Don't get me wrong, I'm ...... I'm just worried about what happened to you that night, why did you suddenly not believe it, that fake brother is gone, and the club has been sealed, I'm very worried, I'm afraid that something will happen to you, after all, this matter started because of me, I just want to inquire about your news. ”

At this point, she said in a weak voice, "I really have no other intentions. ”

I smiled and comforted her, "Don't be nervous, I won't think about it." ”

Bai Lily nodded, opened the food box, I saw several food boxes with all kinds of beautiful snacks, I was curious: "These are all made by you?" ”

White Lily nodded, I took one and threw it in my mouth, tasted it, gave her a thumbs up, and said, "It's delicious." ”

When she heard me compliment her, she immediately laughed happily and said, "If you like it, I will often make it for you in the future and send it to you." ”

I shook my head and said, "No, your studies are important, not to mention that you have to work part-time, where do you have so much time?" And I'm not hurt because of you, you really don't need to do it, you don't need to feel guilty, you know? ”

Bai Lily didn't speak, looking even more aggrieved.

I said, "Okay, don't be sad, I didn't lie to you, and I have good news for you, which is that there will never be any more eyeless guys harassing you, and I've sent those bastards to the bureau." ”

Bai Lily said with some joy: "Really? ”

I nodded and said, "Of course it's true, I'm not lying." ”

Bai Lily suddenly smiled like a flower, her eyes fell on the white plum on the windowsill, and asked curiously: "This white plum is so beautiful, who picked it?" ”

I looked at Bai Mei, my heart hurt a little, and said, "It's my girlfriend, no, maybe now I'm not qualified to call her my girlfriend." ”

Bai Lily asked with some surprise, "You...... Did you break up with your girlfriend? ”

I didn't speak, which was kind of acquiescence. Unexpectedly, Bai Lily suddenly stood up, with a nervous and annoyed face, I asked her what was wrong, and she said with a crying voice: "It must be me, it must be because of me." ”

I smiled and said, "Silly girl, it's really not because of you, it's a problem between the two of us." ”

Bai Lily asked with teary eyes, "Really?" ”

I nodded and said, "It's none of anyone's business, it's that I don't deserve her, and I've done things that disappoint her." A person like me is not worthy of anyone. ”

At this time, Bai Lily suddenly said excitedly: "Who said that?" You're a good guy. ”

I smiled, knowing that she was convinced that I was a good person because of the fact that I saved her, and was about to say thank you to her, but she suddenly said seriously: "Or, I'll be your girlfriend." ”