He just disappeared in front of me, and I typed out word after word on the screen like crazy, but the second time I sent it, I was told that I had been banned. %∷8%∷8%∷Read%∷Book,.≮.※Soon, the screen lit up again, and this time it was a yellow-haired non-mainstream girl.

My heart shattered like glass into slag, I stared at the screen in a daze, Xiaoxue patted me on the shoulder comfortingly, and put the phone to my ear again: "If you want to find him, I can help you find it." I think if you want to find someone, there must be a way. ”

"I don't need you to help me, thank you for your kindness, but please don't have to do this in the future." I coldly refused, and hung up.

The world is so big, if a person doesn't want to appear in front of you, it doesn't make sense for you to look for it. Seeing that I was so depressed, Xiaoxue sighed heavily, shook her head and said, "I always thought you were a smart girl, but now I find that you are even more stupid than ordinary girls." It's clear that people just don't want to see you, and you're still looking for you all over the world like you've lost your soul, as for it? ”

I smiled, I knew that there were some feelings that others would not understand, and that I could not describe them. Some people don't know what's good, but no one can replace them. I just love him, no matter what kind of person he becomes, no matter whether he avoids me or not, no matter what kind of relationship we have, it can't change the fact that I love him.

When I got home, tossing and turning and couldn't sleep, I called Xing Feng and said, "Brother, I saw him in a video on the Internet. ”

Xing Feng seemed to be in the downtown area, there was a murmur on the phone, and he spoke loudly: "I can't hear what you say." Your eldest sister and I are having a barbecue at the night market, do you want to come over? ”

And my eldest sister? I was stunned for a moment and blurted out, "Why are you all together?" ”

"I can't hear clearly, or you come here! Take a taxi! The taxi fare will be reimbursed to you! Xing Feng shouted into the phone.

After hanging up the phone, I hesitated for two minutes, thinking that I couldn't sleep anyway, so I changed my clothes and really took a taxi as Xingfeng said. Half an hour later, at the barbecue stall where we used to eat supper, I actually saw the eldest sister and Xing Feng sitting together talking and laughing.

The weather was very cold, and the barbecue stall set up a tent, and there was a heater in the tent, so I didn't feel cold when I went in. It's just that the eldest sister's personality has always had a habit of cleanliness, and she can clearly tell how many toxic substances are contained in the barbecue, but she is actually sitting here, and she is chewing slowly with a skewer in her hand, which is really eye-opening for me!

"Brother, what kind of trick are you doing, you can actually let my eldest sister come to eat barbecue?!" As soon as I sat down, I couldn't help but be amazed.

The eldest sister is still plain-faced, staying in the laboratory all year round, her face is whiter than snow, and she is still picturesque without makeup. She wore a white cape-style tweed jacket and a pair of light blue jeans, and she looked a little more energetic than me. Xing Feng was wearing a black medium-length trench coat and a plaid scarf, and he sat there tall and tall, his upper body was a lot taller than the others, and he looked very eye-catching.

This is the first time I have carefully looked at the eldest sister and Xingfeng, watching their eating movements, the amplitude of the corners of their mouths when they laugh, and the soft and slow words when they speak, and I suddenly realized that the two of them seem to be very similar.

I looked at them in amazement, and when Xingfeng saw that I couldn't stop looking at them, he smiled and asked me, "What's wrong with you?" What have you been watching me do with your eldest sister? What did you just say on the phone? It's so noisy that I can't hear it too clearly. ”

"I saw Jin Yan on a video website, he sang there, and as soon as I spoke, he disappeared, I don't know if he saw me talking or not." I was so busy paying attention to him and my eldest sister that I forgot about this stubble. He reminded me of what I was here for.

"Singing? Video sites? What is this kid doing? "Xingfeng is a post-70s generation, so he is naturally confused.

"You can make money by singing well, he ...... now," I smiled wryly, and I couldn't go on halfway through my words, "He can tell us directly, why did he go so far to the United States?" Why didn't he just tell us he was going to do it? ”

When Xing Feng heard me say this, he suddenly sighed leisurely: "He also needs to slow down, breathe a sigh of relief, and welcome the new life." He was determined to get through the most difficult days on his own, to prevent his temper of life from taking his anger on others. That's good, at least it's starting to mature. If a person is willing to face the trough of life, there is no hurdle that cannot be overcome. Don't worry, I'm sure he'll be back. ”

The eldest sister listened quietly on the side, and listened to what Xingfeng said, so she also echoed: "Yes, there are many roads in life that can only be overcome by yourself, and others can't help." He always had his own reasons for choosing this way. You live your life well, don't worry too much. ”

"You two......" I was surprised to see them breathe out of one nostril.

"What's wrong?" They asked me in unison.

I didn't collapse for a moment, and immediately laughed. Only then did they realize how consistent their caliber was, the eldest sister's face turned red, and she immediately lowered her head, and Xing Feng also picked up the beer and took a sip of it very unnaturally, only to realize that she had taken the wrong cup when she drank it, and drank the boiling water that had just been poured in, and her mouth was almost hot and foaming.

After discovering this little secret, I finally felt an inexplicable relief in my heavy heart. I had never associated my eldest sister with Xingfeng before, but now that they were sitting together in such harmony, I suddenly realized that they were a perfect match. Moreover, it seems that they both seem to have a crush on each other.

Love has never had a set pattern, and it is enough for two people to love each other. Perhaps, this is precisely the most touching thing about love. Therefore, in this world, there is always incredible love. But why is my love so lost? Jin Yan, where are you? Did you see my message? Do you know I'm looking for you? Are you afraid that you will be laughed at by me for singing?

I was uncomfortable, and when I got home, I turned on the computer screen in despair, the computer was always on, my QQ was automatically logged in, and an email flashed by, I thought it was spam, but I vaguely saw the words "baby" in the title.

I hurriedly opened the email, and my whole body was stunned as if I had been electrocuted. The email was sent by Jin Yan, much shorter than the last time, but it poked at my heart word by word:

Baby: I know you must be worried about me, I'm fine, I've got a good meal, I've got a good house, I've had a lot of jobs. It felt great to work hard and wasn't as lonely as I thought it would be. In the future, if you miss me, just send me an email, I may not be able to reply to you in time, but I will reply to you on time every week. I'll try to get to you a little faster, and hopefully you'll be snatched away by the time I show up. Don't say much, please cherish it for me. - Your forever little Rippy

What a bastard-like man, why are the words so provocative to my heart? Why do you want me to love me but avoid me? Why don't you want to face it with me? Why choose to go alone and go alone? I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't control my thoughts about him, and I couldn't stop the tears in my eyes.

In the three years we have been together, I haven't forced him to learn to use words to communicate with me in a way that says, but now he takes the initiative to communicate with me in this way, I understand that he is also missing me, I understand that he thinks this is the best way to control his thoughts, I understand that he may be having a hard time now but he is learning to be strong, I understand that he may be as strong as I was in the year in S City, and he didn't tell me what conditions he had to meet to return to me again, He didn't give me a specific deadline, he didn't ask me to wait for him, but I was willing to wait for him.

It's really painful to miss someone, it's really painful to walk in a city without him, this city where we once held hands and gone to countless places is now cold, and there is no place where I can feel warm, because there is no place where he can still be found. Couples walking side by side on the street, single movie tickets, the loneliness of tossing and turning alone at night, and the loneliness of pushing the door open to the empty building...... All kinds of situations poke people's tears, and thoughts hit again and again, and they can't be prevented.

I visited his father once a week in the nursing home, and every time I went, Aunt Xu was there, and this woman who seemed to be weak and could not help but not leave her husband never left her. Jin Yan's two younger brothers went to a high-cost boarding school, so Aunt Xu quit her job as a nurse and lived in a nursing home every day to accompany her husband.

When I went this time, Aunt Xu said to me when she was leaving: "Jin Yan sent 100,000 yuan back, and the money came to my account from abroad, and he called me to ask about his father's situation." This kid suddenly became a lot more sensible. ”

"Auntie, when did you call? What number did he call you from? Can you tell me the number? When I heard this, my nose couldn't help but be sore.

Aunt Xu took my hand, looked at me tenderly and said, "I called him a few days ago, and I told him that you will often come over to accompany me, and he said that I will tell you that I have worked hard." Let's all not worry about him and say he's fine now. The number is not displayed, I don't know why, maybe he doesn't want us to contact him. ”

"Auntie......" My eyes turned red again, and I took Aunt Xu's hand, not knowing what to do.

"Silly boy, don't think too much, his voice sounds the same as before, don't worry. He's an adult and knows how to take care of himself. Seeing me like this, Aunt Xu couldn't help but hug me and comforted me softly.

Aunt Xu told me that in order to save money, she plans to take him home to take care of herself, and now she is learning nursing knowledge from the nurses in the hospital, and when she can get started alone, she will take him home.

I am very pleased that she and Jin Yan have accepted the downfall of the family so quickly, and I am very pleased that Aunt Xu is still sticking to Jin Yan's father's side at this time, maybe there are only the bonds of firewood, rice, oil and salt in the ordinary and trivial time, only in the face of sudden disasters or changes, we can feel a person's sincerity.

My Jin Yan, he is finally no longer the gentleman he used to be, he finally began to carry the burden of the family on his own shoulders, when I heard Aunt Xu say that he sent money, his sense of responsibility to the family made my heart follow him more unswervingly.

Aunt Xu finally said to me: "Jin Yan said to me before leaving, let me rest assured, he will definitely find out who suddenly collapsed the True Color Group, and he also said that he will definitely take back the True Color Mansion before his father wakes up." This kid has great ambitions, but it's so easy to succeed......"

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