He was lying on the bed, dripping with one hand and holding the other tightly in my hand. Probably because of the fever, he did not sleep peacefully, his lips were pursed, his brow was furrowed, and he snored slightly from time to time. I held his hand and stood quietly in front of the bed, only to see that his eyes were closed, but his eyes suddenly moved in his eyelids, and his hands began to struggle wildly, and I hurriedly called: "Xiao Yan, Xiao Yan...... What's wrong? ”

He seemed to have dreamed something, and he struggled with his hands and feet several times, and fine beads of sweat oozed from his forehead, which were densely covered on his forehead, and then he opened his eyes.

When I saw that he was sweating, I immediately felt a lot more relieved, as long as I could sweat, the fever would easily go away. I was overjoyed, so I hurriedly took a towel to wipe his sweat, and asked softly, "Xiaoyan, are you awake?" ”

"You're still there." He spoke, and the first sentence was like this, with a look of astonishment.

"Have a nightmare?" I asked softly, picking up the warm water that had been set aside, helping him sit up and letting him drink.

He nodded, drank a full glass of warm water in one go, leaned weakly into my arms, and said, "I had a nightmare just now. ”

"Dream about what? I see you've struggled a lot. I couldn't help but ask.

"I dreamed that I had a fight with you, and I fought very badly, and smashed everything in the room, and finally you stabbed me with a knife, and I was covered in blood, and I wanted to speak, but I couldn't say a word, and then my heart was dug out by you, and it was bloody and red, but you cruelly threw it on the ground, and then left without looking back, and my heart hurt so much, it woke me up from the dream, only to find that everything was a dream." He had said so much in one breath, but he was still exhausted, and he motioned for me to let him go, so I carefully let him lie down.

I sat down again, held his hand, and said with a slight smile: "Dream and reality are opposites, which means that you may fail me in reality, but I will not fail you." It could be that my heart was thrown to the ground by you, not you. ”

"Xiaoshu, I always have a hunch that one day you will not be able to stand me anymore, and then you will leave." After Jin Yan finished speaking, he stretched out his hand, and I hurriedly grabbed his hand.

"No, it won't." I spat out two words lightly.

"You've changed, little book." When he saw that my reaction was so flat, a hint of disappointment crossed his eyes.

"Where has changed? I'm still me. You wait, I'll ask the nurse to take your temperature. I hurriedly stood up and prepared to walk outside.

His hand gripped me tightly, and as soon as I broke free, he let go in an instant, and I smiled at him and called the nurse. The nurse came in and took his temperature, told us that the fever had subsided, removed the needle from his arm, and then went out after a few words.

After the nurse left, Jin Yan was no longer sleepy. He should have been unwell since he called me last night, but at that time he heard me say that he was with his sister, so he probably felt that he was too hypocritical and didn't tell me about his illness, and he was stunned to stay at home until I came home the next day. Although the fever subsided, his body was still weak at this time. But looking at the way he looked, he seemed to want to talk to me about something.

I actually knew what he was trying to say, and after being together for so long, we already knew each other very well. As the eldest sister said, two people have been together for a long time, and they know each other more than themselves. Now, with one look and one movement, I know what he wants to say and do next. It's just that he is weak now, and I don't want to talk about it, I want him to have a good rest.

"Let's sleep again, I'm sleepy too, I'll sleep in a cot." With that, I turned and sat down on the cot, lying on my side with my face facing him.

Because his bed was high, so he couldn't see me in the bed, he sat up, saw the tiredness on my face, and looked at me with some unfinished eyes, then he turned off the light, and said lightly, "Okay, then let's sleep." ”

In fact, none of us fell asleep, and there was an inexplicable heaviness in our hearts, and that feeling was like the anxiety before the end came, and we were always afraid that a thunderclap would disturb all the sweet dreams in an instant. Late at night, the moonlight was cold, and I heard him sigh slightly.

He probably thought I was asleep, so he got out of bed, squatted beside me and looked at me for a while, kissed me deeply on the lips, and said softly, "You will never know how much I love you." ”

My heart "chuckled", and my eyes were closed, for fear that he would know that I was actually awake, and my calm heart rippled infinitely with this sentence. The past is like a dream.

In the first year together, there were countless turbulent plots between us, all kinds of dog blood can be comparable to Qiong Yao, and even suicide, cutting the vein and other dramas have happened in our world, we love each other to death, hate each other in the last second, and love him in the next second, that kind of fanaticism and passion are full of the first year of our real love, it is in that year that we have tasted all the flavors of love, and the two of them are like fools, tossing the good days into a bloody farce, staged countless times of separation and integration, and finally cried bitterly and hugged each other, and was reluctant to separate. The so-called crazy man and woman are used to describe the two of us, which is really appropriate;

In the second year together, I was very tired of such a passionate life, my mind became more and more mature in life, I struggled to mend my relationship with everyone around me, I spent my time writing one beautiful love story after another and then submitted it into a lead type, I participated in the school debate tournament and worked hard to exercise my eloquence, while my life blossomed in all aspects, my love became the most troublesome and troublesome thing for me. The man I once loved deeply, he became more and more dependent on me, his dependence turned into a strong possession, and his possessiveness became an obstacle to my life and studies, I was so annoyed by the obsession, all the enthusiasm was exhausted, I took the initiative to break up, he was caught off guard, I ignored him for half a month after I moved out of the apartment, he didn't inject insulin for half a month, resulting in diabetes complications and was admitted to the hospital, the doctor issued three critical illness orders within three days, and finally his father came to me in person, When I told me the situation, I was completely confused, and I rushed to the hospital non-stop, and only spent a day with him in front of the bed, and he miraculously got better and recovered quickly, but he lost more than a dozen pounds in a few days, and when he was discharged from the hospital, he became skinny and bone-ty, as if he had aged for ten years;

After being discharged from the hospital, he vowed to start a business, so his father allocated him a 500,000 entrepreneurial fund, he used the money to register an Internet company, I accompanied him to run a school together, but within half a year he was addicted to online games, and since then he has abandoned his work every day, and is addicted to games every day, the company has raised a large group of idlers, and I can't make ends meet every month, and I am busy with studies and internships, and I have no time to cook for him, we break each other's hearts in the quarrels day after day, and the cold war erupts endlessly between us, That feeling is still there, but it gradually can't feel the warmth of the past. We who originally had nothing to say gradually drifted apart in getting along day after day, and gradually reached a point where we had nothing to say......

The moonlight was cold, and he stood by the window in a hospital gown and looked out, not knowing what he was thinking. I was afraid that he would catch a cold, so I got up and grabbed his coat and walked behind him to put it on for him.

He turned around and hugged me violently, cold tears running down my neck, but there was only one sentence in his mouth: "I'm sorry." ”

Some people don't know that they are wrong, they take their mistakes for right, and they are persistent even if they are in the abyss; Some people change their mistakes when they know them, stop immediately when they know they are wrong, and take every step cautiously; Some people know that they are wrong, but they are never able to correct it, and in the end they torture themselves, and they also suffer the sins of those around them.

I am the second type of person, and Jin Yan is the third type of person. After being together, I found that his self-control was completely lacking, he was too quick to receive novelty, and his IQ was extremely high but his self-control was too low, so it was difficult for him to achieve something in one thing.

"Go back to bed, it's not good if you have a fever again." I whispered.

"I'm not going to sleep when you're here." He said bluntly.

"What then? I'm leaving? I asked tentatively.

"Okay."

He angrily spat out a word, then returned to the bed with a blank face, lay down directly, and covered his head with the quilt.

When I saw him like this, I sighed stupidly, so I went out and gently closed the door, and let Ah Song in to accompany him. When I saw that it was already past four o'clock in the morning, I might as well go home and sleep for a while, and then go to Xiaoxue's shop to stew chicken soup for him, and then bring it over.

After making up my mind, I explained a few words to Ah Song and left the hospital.

After being with Jin Yan, I disliked his orange supercar that was too dazzling and impractical, so he now changed to a more low-key white Mercedes-Benz SLK200, after I learned the driver's license, he directly threw the key to me, and since then his car has become my car, he doesn't go out at home every day, so I come and go, and the car is basically driven by me.

I drove home, lay in bed for two hours, and went straight to the vegetable market as soon as the alarm clock rang. Then, I took the chicken to Xiaoxue's shop.

Two years ago, Xiaoxue broke up with the wealthy Hong Kong businessman she used to be close to, and the wealthy businessman gave her a relatively generous breakup fee. After the breakup, Xiaoxue found out that she was pregnant, and Xiaoxue was very scared at that time, because she had no friends in H City, so she found me. Considering her age and her previous experience of having many abortions, Xiaoxue hesitated for a long time and made the decision to give birth to a child, so I helped her rent a store near our school, she became the proprietress of the bubble tea shop, and gave birth to a beautiful boy a year ago, and now she is almost a year old......

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