I fell in love with you at first sight, and even I felt that there was no more reasonable explanation than a ghost obsession.

You don't know how I've been laughing at myself since my first encounter with you. I really never thought that I would do something that only 18-year-olds would believe in the years when I was 38 years old, who was close to the age of confusion-

Love at first sight.

After learning the fact that you are married, I feel somewhat lost in my heart. But even so, I still sent you to hide you in the depths of my heart that no one knows except me.

So much so that after that, when I slept with other women, I always had a picture of you in my mind.

No matter how delicate and soft the woman under me is, as long as I think of you, I will instantly become a deflated ball. Even if I was so uninteresting, the woman still accompanied the smiling face and coaxed me to be happy.

Because of this, I suddenly felt like I... It's disgusting.

Duan Muqing, Duan Muqing, what are you doing?

I shook my head as hard as I could, sighed heavily, and got off the woman.

The woman was given a sum of money to let her go, and she was stunned at first, and then cried so much that she was heartbroken. She asked me if I was tired of it, because that's why I sent a woman to her.

I wanted to shake my head, but after thinking about it, I nodded anyway.

But it's not that I'm a natural liar, it's just that the truth is often too hurtful. While I never felt like a good person, I also didn't want to try to make myself a villain.

After she reluctantly left, I sat in the luxurious suite of the hotel alone, looking at the empty room, smoking the cigarette in my hand.

Yes, in the past, those women were let go because they were tired of it.

Only this time, I know better than anyone else, because ...... I was shamefully truly in love.

The reason why I say shameful is because at one point, I felt that I would never love anyone again.

The first time I had my heart in my life was in college.

That girl's name is Song Wei.

Thinking about it this way, she is somewhat similar to you. Bright eyes, gentle and delicate, looking forward to the city.

Like many of the boys in my class, she was the name I kept silently in my heart every night before I went to bed.

But at that time, I was almost the whole class, no! To be exact, he was probably the poorest student in the school. Such a label often makes me unable to raise my head. Not to mention things like confessions.

So, I watched her fall in love with someone else for four years, and I also had a crush on her for four years.

Until the day I graduated, I didn't say a word to her.

During the meal, I hugged her with most of the people to say goodbye, and during the toast, my hand rubbed her hand lightly. It was that intimate encounter, which now seems to be extremely pitiful, and at that time, I was so excited that I couldn't sleep all night.

The next day, we parted ways, and the woman I had had a crush on for four years was like that.

It wasn't until we met again eight years later that she was already a wife, and I was also a little successful.

It is said that the class reunion is to break up a couple is a couple, although the words are very rough, but they are really reasonable. At least for me, it does. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have gotten there.

When they meet again eight years later, she is still bright and moving, but there is no innocence in those eyes.

And I finally mustered up the courage to talk to her. Only she already has a little daughter, who is 3 years old this year and is very well-behaved.

But as soon as the topic touched on her husband, she immediately lowered her head with a sad face.

Her countenance, like a knife, stabbed hard at my heart.

At this time, Zhou Feng, who used to be in the same dormitory as me in college, said coldly: Song Wei, do you know, when you were studying, this kid Duan Muqing had a crush on you for four years!

Just one sentence made her face red.

I was stunned for a moment's time, but she smiled lightly and said softly: I know, I've been waiting for him to confess. Who knows that until graduation, this guy doesn't take the initiative.

She said, giving me a shy look.

This time, it was my turn to blush and my heart beat.

After that, it became natural. We walked together, embracing endless sweet words, entangled in endless ear and sideburns.

I knew in my heart that this was a sinful pleasure, but once we were entangled, I felt that even if it was hell, I would be willing to do it for her.

But gradually, between us, something changed.

She started to take some money out of me from time to time, and the amount was not small. I never took that seriously at first. I make money to spend on the people I love. But slowly, she was no longer satisfied with the money she took from me, and began to knock on the secrets of the company I worked for at the time.

My vigilance followed.

Thereupon......

I did something that I regret to this day.

I spied on her phone.

Actually, if she really took advantage of me, I wouldn't blame her. Because I love her, even if I am used, at least I can help her.

What really broke my heart was that she only used me, and didn't have even the slightest love for me at all.

When I listened to her and her husband talk about how to steal trade secrets, sell them for a high price, and then blastituously blame me, my whole body stiffened.

Including the heart that once stretched for her.

I will do what I want, and I will put them together. Her husband was imprisoned for this, and she was also facing bankruptcy and the destruction of her family.

She came to me that night and begged me to help her and her husband.

I wanted to help.

But she damn said a word: In fact, in my heart, I have always had you.

I smiled coldly.

For me, this is like charity. No matter how poor I am, it's not uncommon to be a beggar in love.

After my verbal refusal, I finally broke with her completely. She scolded a lot of ugly words regardless of it, and I watched quietly and heartbreakingly, and there was nothing else.

When she said, in fact, I am just like this, on the surface I love her, but in fact, I am just thinking about how to sleep with her with a bad stomach, just like all stinky men. So, I don't have to pretend to be high, bullshit mountain alliances and sea vows, but it's all sex in the name of love. A cold and ruthless man like me doesn't understand and doesn't need love.

This sentence stabbed me hard.

But at the same time, it also touched me deeply. I admit, to a large extent, that it is.

Since then, there has been no love in my world, only sex.

If you can't get everything you have, why bother so much? Anyway, the end result is just for the pleasure of that moment in bed.

In this way, in the name of seeing through, I carried out debauchery fornication.

Occasionally, when I see a very beautiful, but unfamiliar face lying next to me, I still sigh.

But after thinking about it, those are all things I don't need, and the reason why I yearn for them is just because I am unwilling.

I lived like this to myself, until I met you, and I rekindled my love that had long been like a backwater.

That night, after I sent the woman away, I looked at the traffic outside the window, and suddenly thought that I had never loved well in my life.

What is it like to love a woman seriously, with all kinds of pampering and care?

I really want to know.

After that, I started to pay close attention to your every move.

Every time you push open the door, it's natural to see if there's anyone behind you.

Every time you have fries for lunch, you'll always ask for an extra one for the doorman. Later, I learned that my uncle had a child who loved to eat this.

Every time you have a meeting, you're always the first to get the tables and chairs straight. After the meeting is over, you will also be the last to leave, and do the same thing again.

You'll always have the simplest skirt on you, and your hairstyle will always hang down naturally. Whenever a female colleague is holding a LV to show off, you are always looking down at your parenting guide or professional certificate assessment materials.

You never gossip, you love to be quiet, and you like to drink warm water soaked in a chrysanthemum or two and lemon.

Whenever you get off work, you always take the bus or sometimes take a taxi to pick up the kids.

And your kid is just as sensible and cute as you.

I watched from afar, envious of the man who could have it all.

At that time, I thought about pulling you to me recklessly, and I also have that ability, but I suddenly thought of the lesson of the last relationship.

I want you to be happy more than to get.

Until one day, when I came back from a business trip, I could no longer find your familiar figure, and when I inquired, I learned that you had been fired by your manager.

Hehe, maybe you will never know that before I changed jobs, I deliberately transferred that bastard manager to a remote prefecture and city to live a hard life.

He must have lived to death and didn't understand how he offended me.

When you finally got divorced, I should have felt wronged for you, but at that moment, I was really unspeakably happy!

Just as I was pondering how to fit naturally into your life, a banquet I didn't want to attend provided me with such an opportunity.

When I saw you, my eyes really lit up.

Dressed in an elegant and calm white dress, with beautiful and bright short hair, bright eyes and bright teeth, Chu Chu is moving.

I can't take my eyes off you for a moment.

It's a pity that you've never looked at me, until that friend of yours looks at me and smirks. It wasn't until she came to me later and asked me for a business card that I realized that it was simply a deliberate planting of flowers that did not bloom, and unintentionally planted willows and willows.

But in order to get closer to you, I didn't care so much, and I wrote down your friend's number.

I didn't expect that on the first night, I would find an opportunity to spend time with you, and the moment I draped my clothes over your shoulders, I was so excited that my heart was about to jump out.

When you look back at me, there is only strangeness in your eyes.

But you're all too familiar to me...... Lover.

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