"Let's eat first, the food will be cold in a while. The rice cooked by Ah Song is good, and the taste of the army food, you can taste it. He let go of his wrapped hand and pulled me to sit down at the table, still with the same unfazed expression on his face.

I don't know how long he has been quietly precipitating this illness by himself before he becomes as seemingly indifferent as he is now. When I think of this, I can't help but feel a little pain in my heart again. Love someone, where can I bear to let him bear such a huge burden alone. I can't help but hate myself for not realizing it earlier, and not discovering all the emotional abnormalities he has had in the past six months.

Ah Song fried three simple dishes, one stir-fried kidney flower, one tomato scrambled egg, one tiger skin pepper, and made a bowl of seaweed egg drop soup. Plain and down-to-earth, it does resemble his style.

"Ah Song actually knows how to cook." I couldn't help but be surprised, although these home-cooked dishes were simple, they were quite decent.

"He can only cook stir-fry, and more complicated ones won't." Jin Yan echoed lightly, put a piece of kidney flower into my bowl, and said softly, "Eat it." ”

We were both hungry, so we stopped talking, and after we each quickly finished the rice in the bowl, I stood up and put away the dishes and chopsticks, but he quickly grabbed my hand and said, "Let Ah Song clean up, it's late, I'll ask Ajie to send you back." ”

"You're going to send me back now?" I immediately became angry and asked with a glaring eye.

He nodded solemnly, and when he saw that I was angry, he pretended to smile easily, pinched my face and said, "Why do you want to stay at my house?" ”

He knew what I was thinking, how anxious I was, and knew that I had made up my mind for him, but he still deliberately ridiculed and deliberately avoided the important like this...... I had no choice but to take his hand and say, "Yes, I want to stay at your house, I want to be with you." ”

I withdrew my hand from my hand, still with that gentle but distant smile on my face, no matter how I expressed my chest, he still had the same mocking tone: "I don't want to be with you, I think it's good to be single." ”

"Jin Yan!" I couldn't help but punch him again, and I bit my lip and almost cried and asked, "Just answer me, do you love me?" ”

"Love." He replied very quickly, in a firm tone, as if he didn't want to answer without thinking.

"Then we'll be together, shall we?" I was so happy again that I grabbed his hand.

"Nope." His tone was still as resolute.

"If you're not with me, who are you with?"

"I'll live alone all my life and watch you happy."

"You bastard!"

The more he pretended to be so relaxed and ridiculed, the more he seemed to be unexpected, the more my heart hurt so much that I couldn't breathe. I was about to be driven crazy by his tone and look, and I hugged him again without calmness, and the fear of losing made me feel at a loss. He's still standing here, he's so adamantly telling me he loves me, but he doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't want me anymore......

"Don't do this, don't make me feel so bad. I love you, I love you, Jin Yan. I don't want to leave you anymore, I want to lean into your arms like I do all the time. I'm not afraid that you are sick, I am not afraid of any wind and rain, I just want you to hold my hand, and we will never leave love. Jin Yan I don't want you like this, I like the domineering you in the past, I like your impulsiveness in the past, you don't need to think about it so much, as long as we love firmly, any difficulties can be overcome. Don't give up on me, don't give up on our love, okay? I sobbed and sobbed, tears smearing onto his expensive shirt.

My sadness infected him, I heard him snort sharply, and when he spoke again, his voice couldn't help choking, he held my face, his eyes were red and looked at me, he said: "Pan Rushu, I was young and ignorant in the past, thinking that I was the only best and most endearing in this world, but I now know that I was wrong." I'm just an ordinary person, I'm still sick, and I don't deserve you to do this to me. I have hurt you again and again, I have not given you the happiness that you should have in love, but I have given you so much pain. Pan Rushu, I don't deserve you to treat me like this, you deserve a better man. ”

"Jin Yan, do you know? From the night we met, there was a gap in my youth. You were the first man in my life, and you took all my firsts. If you leave me now, this gap will become an eternal gap, and I may not get the happiness I want in my life. Jin Yan, I know that our beginning was not so good, and I also know why you were with me in the first place. But it doesn't matter, we have come so many ways, we have experienced so many things, and now we can finally love each other smoothly without all obstacles, do we want to give up? No, I don't want to give up, I'm going to be with you. You don't confess to me, I confess to you now, Jin Yan I love you, I want to be with you for real, I want to be with you forever......" In my tearful eyes, I looked at the brightness in his eyes, and the feeling of love suddenly became more firm than ever.

Yes, I just love him, I just love this man in front of me. I don't want to think about anything now, I only know one thing, I can't live without him. No woman's reserve, any so-called future, can match him being with me. It dawned on me that without love, everything is meaningless. Jin Yan, he is the greatest meaning of my life.

He finally hugged me tightly, his tears rubbing against my collar, and he also wept and said, "But I have hurt you again and again, how can I hurt you for the rest of my life?" Pan Rushu, are you stupid or not, you know that I am sick, you know that I am not a person who can be trusted for life, why do you still want to be with me? You've obviously become very good now, Pan Rushu, can you not be stupid? ”

His last words were shouted so hard that I couldn't breathe. He let go of me and turned to face the wall, I knew he didn't want me to see his fragile appearance, and he still stood proudly, holding his head high, trying not to let the tears fall.

But at this moment, I just want to see him so vulnerable, I don't want him to be alone and struggle, I want him to vent and tell me all the thoughts in his heart. I took the initiative to hug him from behind again, I hugged him very tightly, and I didn't want to let go anymore, I said, "I'm not stupid, loving you is the bravest thing I've ever done in my life." Jin Yan, don't try to drive me away, I won't leave you again. No matter what happens in the future, no matter how many hardships and hardships we have to go through, I will not leave, I will stay with you. Don't you want to get rid of me! ”

I also shouted out the last sentence, using all my strength. At that moment, the firmness in my heart told me that I just loved him, and I would not leave again, and I finally understood that the emptiness in my heart in these long years was because of him. Now, he fills my whole heart, I don't have no distractions, the person I have always loved and waited for, it is him.

He vigorously broke my hand, I thought he was going to give up on me again, I couldn't help crying sadly, unexpectedly, he quickly turned around, held my face hard, kissed my mouth fiercely, the huge sense of happiness made me almost dizzy, I collapsed in his arms for a moment, he hugged tightly, I responded to his kiss with great enthusiasm, our tears mixed together, our saliva continued to alternate, I felt that the small universe in my heart ignited instantly, the fire burst out in all directions, I don't want to desperately endure that feelingI didn't want to miss this man I loved anymore, and I told him with my extremely enthusiastic response that I love him, that is, love, and there is no why......

God knows how beautiful it is to be when this feeling burns! God knows how intense the kiss feels like when it's dark! God knows how long we endured for each other to get this moment of release! At that moment, everything was no longer important, he surrounded me, I surrounded him, we removed all obstacles and persistently merged into one, all tears were worth it......

When it was over, he kissed my earlobe, his thick arms wrapped around me strongly, and we were all silent, unable to believe that it was all true, and that it would all come back. I almost thought I was going to lose, but I didn't expect that the next second we were lying together like this!

I haven't experienced such a thrilling moment in person, where can I deeply understand that some people can't be separated at all when they are together!

"I actually possessed you again!" His tone sounded agitated and remorseful.

"This time we can't be irresponsible!" I stuck to his arms like a kraft candy, and I hated to get into his body and become a part of his body so that he could carry it with him.

"No, don't worry, baby." He lowered his head and gave me a deep kiss on the forehead, "I'm just afraid that I won't be able to give you the happiest life." ”

"You are by my side, and I am the happiest." I hugged him hard and said coquettishly: "Don't do that to me again, I'm very afraid, especially afraid of losing you, especially afraid of the way you look." ”

"Well," he replied, and then suddenly burst out laughing, "I'm sick, but how am I fighting?" Is it still the same as before? ”

I was speechless, and couldn't help but gently hammer his chest again, but he grabbed my hand at once, interlocked his fingers with mine, and then urged: "Tell me quickly, isn't it the same?" ”

"It's more fierce than before......" I was so ashamed that I slipped into the bed like a loach, but he scooped it up, kissed me on the lips again, and unbridled to vent our long-standing forbearance and longing......

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