I don't know why he was so moved, but he held my face and kissed me hard with mixed feelings, and then grabbed me by the waist and strode into the villa when I was caught off guard. [← 8 [← 8 [← read [← book, .2↘

The villa was still as magnificent as before, and he carefully placed me on the sofa and asked me softly, "Are you hungry?" I'll let Ah Song cook, don't worry. ”

With that, he quickly told Ah Song to go to the kitchen to prepare the food, and then asked Applejack to go to the bathroom to prepare warm water, and then he crouched down and made a surprise gesture that surprised me.

He insisted on helping me take off my shoes, and then carefully placed my feet on the sofa, and then sat down and hugged me gently, and asked me, "Why are you waiting for me so stupidly?" ”

"You tell me why you've become so evasive now? Is there something going on at home? I asked worriedly.

He shook his head, playfully fiddled with my hair with one hand, wrapped my long hair around my index finger a few times, and then turned it away again, and teased it over and over again, saying nonchalantly, "It's nothing at home, it's me." ”

"Got a blow to your pride?" I asked tentatively, but I didn't dare to ask too much, for fear that a certain sentence would irritate him.

He smiled and looked out the window with a distracted look, but it was pitch black outside the window, and there was nothing.

"I don't think you're that kind of person, you won't be defeated so easily, will you?" I was in a hurry, and the feeling of inner anxiety came back to me again.

"Hehe," he smiled wryly, but deliberately avoided the topic, as if reluctant to bring it up. After a while, he said, "You should choose him, choose someone like me, there is really no future." ”

"Jin Yan!" My tone involuntarily became harsh, I didn't expect his pride to be so bad, my heart was as anxious as a prairie fire, I hated to lock him up and torture him to ask him what was going on, to make him say such depressing words.

"What the hell is going on! If you don't say it! I'm always living here! "I was so anxious that I was about to cry, but there was nothing I could do about him. In fact, we are very similar in a certain aspect, and if you don't want to say something, others won't ask about it. The more I understand his stubbornness, the more I can't help but feel anxious.

"Don't make a fuss, after eating and taking a shower in a while, I'll ask Applejack to send you back." He didn't say anything, just reached out and stroked my head, there was a lot of reluctance in his eyes, but there was an unprecedented determination in his tone.

"Do your studies well, don't be like me who went to college for four years and didn't learn anything. After I am no longer in school, you are free to participate in the activities you want to participate in, and you don't have to worry about me anymore. Zhao Qinhan is actually quite good, more atmospheric than me, more mature than me, and he is also very kind to you, you should cherish it. In his words, there was a feeling of explaining what was going on, which made my heart even more suspenseful for a while.

This really made me cry, I stood up involuntarily, I looked him in the eyes, and asked word by word: "Jin Yan, who is the person I love in my heart, don't you know?" Do you say these things to chill my heart? I don't understand why you say that, how upset me when you say that, you know? If I say to you now, Shen Ziyan is very good, you go to her, you cherish it, what would you think? I don't want to hear that, it's too uncomfortable. ”

He hurriedly pulled the napkin, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes for me, and said softly: "Don't cry, don't cry." ”

"Jin Yan, then tell me what happened, why did you suddenly become like this?" I couldn't help but ask again, tugging at his sleeve like a child.

He sighed heavily, as if he had made up his mind, but just as he was about to speak, he stopped. Because at this moment, Ah Song shouted, "It's time to eat."

He stood up and was about to pull me in the direction of the restaurant, and I almost cried again, hating him to death. I was stunned and didn't get up, I had to let him tell me, he was helpless, so he sat down, held my shoulder seriously, and said with a solemn expression: "I had a physical examination at the beginning of the year, and I found out that I was sick. ”

My heart was suddenly shocked, and I asked nervously, "Sick?" What disease? ”

"A disease that can't be cured in a lifetime." His expression was still very solemn, and when I thought of what he had just said, countless associations surged in my head.

"Heart disease? Gastric cancer? Hepatitis B? Epilepsy? …… What the hell, you say, don't torture me! "I kept guessing that he denied it, and I was going crazy for a while.

His brows furrowed tightly, and he suddenly collapsed on the sofa next to me as if he was having a convulsion, his whole body twitched several times, and then he crooked his neck and grinned and stuck out his tongue, and fell on the sofa with his feet facing the sky, which immediately scared me into a god, and I quickly screamed loudly for Asong Ajie to come over quickly.

I was crying this time, and my heart was completely surprised, and I crouched down next to him and started crying, completely unaware of what I was supposed to do. Who knew that just when I was helpless, one of his closed eyes suddenly opened, and then the other eye also opened, and then his whole body jumped up like a fish, and gloated: "What I got is ...... Lovesickness, just after the attack. ”

He was still in the mood to joke at this time! I can't describe how I felt! I rushed over and pounded him in the chest, crying and laughing excitedly, "You scoundrel! You're scaring me to death! How are you like that! You know how worried I am! And play such a joke with me! ……”

He looked at me with a smile on his face, let me beat his chest, and after a while when I gradually calmed down, he grabbed my hand, and then hooked the bridge of my nose, and said with a smile: "I didn't lie to you, I am really sick." ”

"Here you go again!" I'm really angry, and I can't wait to hammer him again to relieve my anger.

This time, his expression became very serious, he looked me in the eye and said, "Do you know why I broke up with Shen Ziyan for so long and never confessed to you?" ”

I froze, this is the question I always wanted to ask him, but I didn't expect him to say it himself, I shook my head blankly, looking forward to his answer.

He then added, "Because I had a physical examination at the beginning of the year...... I have diabetes. ”

I looked at him with my mouth wide open in surprise, his expression this time not like a joke, his expression was very serious. Seeing that I was so surprised, he immediately let go of my hand, pretended to be indifferent and said, "Let's eat first, and then we'll talk slowly after eating." ”

At this time, I didn't have much concept of diabetes, and what I had heard before was just general propaganda, because it was too far away from life, so I didn't pay attention to it, I didn't know how serious this disease was, but I understood that once I suffered from diabetes, it was lifelong, and there was no way to cure it well...... I looked at his back in a daze, and my heart was extremely complicated for a moment.

He's still so young, he's only in his twenties, and if he really didn't lie to me this time, then I think I can suddenly understand what the reason for his imminent departure for the past six months. Thinking of this, I can't help but feel sad. Why didn't he tell me sooner? Did he think I would dislike him?

By this time he had already walked to the table, and when he saw that I was still standing there, he waved at me and tried to smile at me. Seeing him like this, I was even more sad, and I couldn't help but rush forward and throw myself into his arms.

"Now you know it...... You can leave me with confidence. This disease will be with me for the rest of my life, and I don't want to bother you. He gently patted me on the shoulder and said softly.

Jin Yan ...... Do you take me so lightly? I asked sadly.

"It's not that I look down on you, it's that I don't want you to be implicated. We're all so young, and you have more options. I've hurt you again and again, and I don't want you to take a ride for me for the rest of my life. With that, he pressed me down in his chair. He then pulled out a syringe that looked like a fountain pen from his pocket, removed the lid to reveal the needle, lifted the corner of his shirt in front of me, disinfected it with an alcohol swab somewhere around his belly button, and gently pushed insulin into his body.

I felt uncomfortable for a while, but I didn't expect him to really suffer from this disease. But he calmly put away the pen and said to me, "I didn't lie to you, this is an insulin injection. Little book, this disease will accompany me for the rest of my life. ”

I looked at him in a daze, I couldn't help but stand up again and wrap my arms around his waist tightly, I couldn't help but ask distressedly, "Does it hurt to get an injection like this?" ”

"It doesn't hurt. It's just that if I didn't have this thing in the future, I probably wouldn't be able to live. He said softly, then let out a wry smile.

"If you have enough insulin, just like a normal person, right?" I asked.

"If it's well controlled, it's like that, but if it's not well controlled, it can cause a lot of complications." He said.

I couldn't help but hug him tighter, and I said, "In the future, I will take good care of you by your side, accompany you, and I will be the insulin you can't do without for the rest of your life, okay?" ”

He laughed at my words, and he gently pushed me away from his arms, and said, "But I don't want to bother you, I hope you can have a better man by your side." Like me, it's no different from being crippled. ”

"I won't leave you again, Jin Yan. No matter what you say, I won't leave you again. If you don't want me, I'll haunt you, haunt you like a snake, and I'll follow you wherever you go. I reluctantly wrapped my arms around his waist and swore a solemn oath.

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