Once again, the room was calm again, and I walked towards the bedroom with a tired face, lying on the messy bed, looking up at the ceiling, left and right, fidgeting.

I don't know if a few of Hu Yueyue's words are true, at this time, I have completely lost my judgment, and the reason why I feel uneasy is that I am worried that something will happen to Li Shu.

Glancing at the handwriting on the note, I was once again in a panic.

It's okay, he's going to be fine. He can be so ruthless and tell me that he agrees to break up, he will have no problem if he can do anything.

Suddenly, the mobile phone at the bedside rang, and when I picked it up, it was actually my brother's phone.

As soon as the phone was connected, I heard Gao Zijian yelling: "Gao Ziran, don't make trouble, something happened." ”

"What's wrong?" I hurriedly sat up from the bed and asked nervously, "Is it Li Shu who ......?"

There were a few sighs on the other end of the line, which made me nervous even more. Thinking of Hu Yueyue's words, I coughed lightly and asked, "Gao Zijian, can you just say anything straight?" What is the sale? ”

When Gao Zijian heard me say this, he immediately spoke: "Gao Ziran, don't be nervous first, what I say next may be a certain irritating, but if you listen to my brother's words, you must hold on." ”

"Okay." I hurriedly responded, but the sheets had already been ripped by me.

"In order to find Li Shu, we almost turned the city over, but so far, Li Shu has no news at all, and I am worried that he will not be able to think about it. I met Wei Zheng in the morning, and he only learned that Li Shu was missing, and he told me that Li Shu had looked for him before he disappeared. ”

What did Li Shu do with Wei Zheng? Could it be that there is a clue?

"What did Wei Zheng say?"

"Ranran, I'm still looking for Li Shu everywhere, and I don't have time to explain so much to you, so I'll make a long story short, Wei Zheng told me that before Li Shu disappeared, I asked him to drink, and said that please Wei Zheng take care of you, Li Shu's stinky boy, actually said...... Say, I can't take care of you anymore. Gao Zijian sighed again and continued: "Ranran, this kid Li Shu has known us for many years, he can say this, do you know, why? ”

"Why?"

"Ranran, listen to my brother, don't make trouble, Li Shu said this, I don't want to live!" Gao Zijian opened his mouth anxiously and said again.

"Brother, I'm ......"

"Ranran, how could you say those words to Li Shu, if Wei Zheng hadn't told me this morning, I wouldn't know yet, I thought you were just joking, but Ranran, you know that the scar on your wrist will make Li Shu's life worse than death, why don't you be more sensible?" Gao Zijian said slowly, I didn't answer, because I didn't know how to answer, and I heard him say again: "Even if you are drunk, you can't ......"

"Brother, how do you talk, you just say half a sentence and leave half a sentence, you tell me, did you find something?"

"Gao Ziran, I suspect that Li Shu is too guilty because of your words and doesn't want to live anymore."

Gao Zijian finally got to the point, but he planted a landmine in my heart, I can't pretend, I don't want to pretend.

"Brother, where is Li Shu now?"

"He ......" Gao Zijian paused and said, "Gao Ziran, in fact, I don't dare to tell you." ”

"Come on," I said, taking a deep breath, "I'm ready." ”

"I just received a phone call saying that I had seen his car in front of a house in the suburbs, but I had not seen me, so I sent someone over and heard from the security guard that I had not seen anyone come out of the house for the past two days. So you...... Be prepared. ”

Didn't come out of the house in two days? Do you want me to be ready? What does that mean? Didn't go out of the room, where did it go?

"Ran ran ......"

"Brother, come and pick me up, I'm ...... I'll take a look. ”

"Don't go yet, just in case...... I mean, in case ......"

"Come pick me up." I said decisively, put on my slippers and walked out.

Gao Zijian's speed is very fast. There were two of us in the car, and I was in the passenger seat, staring out the window all the time, and my right eyelid jumped twice, which made me flustered.

Li Shu's location is the most remote place in the city, sparsely populated, and the security is unstable, what will he do if he doesn't go out for two days and two nights?

I didn't dare to think any further, closed my eyes, carefully recalled everything that had happened that day, and thought of the downstairs in Night City, I pulled my bracer apart and roared at Li Shu. The more I thought about it, the more uneasy I became.

And then? Li Shu hugged me and cried. He cried and said sorry, he cried and said, forgive me.

I let him hold me, and it seemed very decisive, very decisive that I chose to leave. But the wine was too strong for me to leave.

Li Shu helped me into the car, and in the car, he coaxed me to drive, and sang songs at the very end.

I asked Li Shu where to take me, Li Shu said to go home, I asked him where home is, and he said that where there is me, it is home.

I didn't want to go back, so I got out of the car noisily on the way, looked at Li Shu with a smile, stretched out my arm, and said, "Li Shu, haven't you always been curious about what secrets are hidden under my wrist guard?" Got it now? We broke up. I'm telling you, I'm going to break up with you. ”

Li Shu was unwilling, and pulled me forward, but I didn't go, sitting on the side of the road and crying, crying and nagging, crying and saying to break up. The dead duck has a hard mouth and still doesn't want to admit it.

admit that you can't let go, admit that you still like it.

Now, we don't need to prove it to each other.

"It's ......" Gao Zijian's voice reached my ears, I rushed out of the car without hesitation, only to find that I was standing in front of a compound, although the yard was very shabby, but fortunately it was clean and tidy, standing here, I had an indescribable sense of familiarity.

Turning to look at my brother, he was standing in front of the car looking at me, making me a look of encouragement and signaling that I could walk in.

I took a deep breath, lifted my foot, and slowly walked inside from outside the gate. Passing by the iron gate, a thought suddenly flashed through my mind, this is not another place, but my first home with Gao Zijian.

The outside of the compound was overgrown with grass, and it was already in decay, but as soon as I walked to the door, I could still recognize it at first sight.

How many years has it been? For more than 20 years, new buildings have been erected in the city every day, and new things have been produced every time, and after so many years, the old house and big yard I used to live in have remained the same.

Plum tree, is it here?

I should have thought of it, I should have imagined that if one day, I leave this city, leave him, and this is what I care about the most.

Li Shu and I loved each other and hurt each other, he was self-abused, he used wine to drown his sorrows, but he couldn't give up on me.

I finally thought of what I said that night, I said Li Shu, we can't go back, we can't go back, even if there is no Hu Yueyue, without my parents, time will not take us back. So, let's break up.

So, Li Shu came here.

I sighed and walked forward step by step, the well in the door, where we children often played, the small steps in front of me was the place where Aunt Huang dried the goods, five steps away, was the home where Gao Zijian and I lived. Diagonally opposite, is Li Shu's house.

In that small square, Li Shu was wearing a small pants and was taken off by the big brother. I stood in front of him and tried to pluck the bird.

And at the mouth of the alley in front, Li Shu was taken back angrily by his mother, and looked back at me, with a pair of black and innocent little eyes, looking at me pitifully.

These are the memories that time has given us.

Stretched out his hand, stroked the rusty wall, and sighed softly, Li Shu, he is hiding here, is he trying to leave with that memory?

Thinking of this, I am annoyed and feel unfair, why? Why stay and leave, it's all Li Shu's words?

With a push of the hand, the door opened.

"Li Shu!!" I walked in angrily and looked at the empty room, without a trace of it. After taking two steps, he walked towards the room where Xiao Li Shu lived, "Li Shu, you get out of here!" ”

I used to call him like that.

stepped forward and kicked open the dilapidated door of the bedroom, and a foul smell came from his face, and the whole room was littered with wine bottles.

In the center of the bottle lay a man, his clothes dirty, like a dead body.

As Gao Zijian said, he was really lying here. I suddenly felt a nest of fire, walked over in three steps and two steps, went up and kicked him directly.

At first, there was no reaction from the people on the ground. I lowered my head in some panic, and then Li Shu suddenly turned over and faced me.

The whole person looked very decadent, his beard was sloppy, his face was famine, he blinked, and then closed it again.

He ignored me, and I felt a little disappointed.

In the next second, Li Shu suddenly got up from the ground and looked at me with wide eyes.

"Gao Ziran!"

I glared at Li Shu and roared, "Who are you showing like this now?" The beard is sloppy, and it makes a fire when you look at it......"

As soon as I finished speaking, I raised my feet and walked straight out the door. Li Shu quickly climbed over and pulled my legs.

To be honest, I don't know what I'm supposed to say at this point. There is no right or wrong, but some things, after all, have developed to that point, and I am not sure if we can go back to the past.

Li Shu is running away, and I, too, want to avoid it.

"Don't go......" After a while, Li Shu chirped and said two words.

Seeing him like this, I was also sad, and said, "Who did you make yourself like this to show you, do you think you can torture me like this?" I'll tell you about the plum tree, I'm ...... I'm not here to care about you, you get me up right away, go home and change clothes, your mother is in a hurry, don't worry everyone......"

I said to speak, what am I crying for, Li Shu is hiding here, I am still hiding in his house, he is not crying, what am I crying about, really.

Don't cry, don't cry.

"Ran Ran ......" Li Shu hugged my leg inch by inch, "Ran Ran ......"

He couldn't say anything but my name. The room was dimly lit, there was no bed, there was no equipment, and Li Shu was lying on the ground with my name in his mouth.

"Don't call me, what do you call me for? It is written in the notebook that you are willing, what are you willing to? Break up with me? I bit my lip slightly, controlled myself not to look back, and continued: "You are all willing, what are you pulling my leg for?" Loosen! ”

"Ran ran ......"

"Don't call me ......"

"Ran ran ......"

"Don't call me by ...... name"

"Ran Ran ......" the last voice, heartbreaking, "Can I beg you?" I beg you to be okay...... Let's be in this together......"

“……”

Isn't this transformation too fast?

......Li Shu hugged my legs, leaned on my legs with a face, and said in an aggrieved voice: "I have liked you since I was eight years old, at that time I thought I couldn't get used to you, but after so many years, I really understood that I didn't like you, I couldn't live without you, I was selfish, I was domineering, I forbearing, I was inferior, but Ranran, I liked you, I ...... cough cough ...... I can't live without you......"

"Ran ran ......"

"Let go of my ...... first," I said with a soft sigh.

Li Shu raised his head and looked at me, staring at me with a pair of eyes like stray dogs, and said, "Don't ...... I don't want you to leave......"

I glanced at Li Shu, slowed down my voice and said, "I'm not leaving, I'm just asking my brother to come over ......"

"Nope." Li Shu shook his head stubbornly, "Unless, you promise to play a game with me." ”

I looked at Li Shu in surprise when I saw him take out a coin from his pocket and said, "If I win, you have to promise me one condition, and if you win, I will also promise me one condition." ”

"Okay."

Li Shu gently let go of my leg and said, "Don't leave until the game is over." ”

I nodded, looking at the spinning coin in his hand.

I don't know why Li Shu is playing this game with me, perhaps, it is not what I care about, watching the coin dangling on the ground, and then his finger is covered, and asks, "Heads or tails?" ”

"Positive."

Li Shu shook his head and said, "Opposite." ”

I really don't know how he looks like a beggar now, how he still has the leisure to play coins, we have played this game before, I often use this way to trick Li Shu's snacks to eat, and every time I must win, watching his hand move slowly, watching the front and back of the coin gradually revealed, I have absolute confidence in myself.

As it turned out, Li Shu won and I lost.

Li Shu raised his head and looked at me, his eyes flashed, and said, "Now, Gao Ziran, you have to promise me......"

"What?"

"You know ......"

(Tianjin)