After struggling with Li Shu for so long, I believe in one thing in particular, especially after these two years, I believe in this even more. - Quarrels are always a mutual injury. The one who loves deeply will hurt deeply.

If I could, I'd like to retract last night's actions. If I could, I'd rather be myself, not drinking, not impulsive, not uncovering the scars on my hands, not saying that word of breakup.

Because, two days have passed since the night of drinking, and Li Shu has no news.

He's missing.

No one knows where he went, no one knew anything about him, text messages could not be sent, phone calls could not be reached, emails were refused, and even his house was given to me.

The plum tree disappeared cleanly, and there was no news.

Only, a note in front of the window gave me his final answer.

- Gao Ziran, I agree.

Maybe other people don't know what I said, but I know very well in my heart, he said that he agreed, and it was a matter of breaking up.

Li Shu's mother came over in the morning and said that the lawyer had given her an insurance policy and asked her to sign it, and she was very scared and didn't know what Li Shu meant by doing this.

Before he disappeared, he quietly transferred the company's shares to me, bought insurance for her mother, and handed over the car and house to a lawyer, ready to transfer them to my name.

I flatly refused.

I think Li Shu is more ruthless than anyone else, just leave, this is not much different from what I imagined, for the day of drunkenness, my memory is vague, but there is one thing I remember very clearly, I, the scar on my hand, exposed.

I can be sure that Li Shu saw my scar.

His reaction was similar to what I imagined, seeing the despair in his eyes, seeing the self-blame in his eyes, I laughed presumptuously.

I feel like this time, I've finally won once. But I don't understand why I won, and he chose to leave.

Moreover, he left after explaining everything, and after explaining everything, he actually gave me the house and car. I yelled angrily at the phone: Since they have all broken up, who is still rare, I don't want it, as long as it's his stuff, I don't want a penny!

But I've been in his house for two days.

The door was locked, and I was very hungry, but when I saw food, I had no appetite at all. I thought of that night, when Li Shu hugged me, lay on this bed, whispered in my ear with his gentlest words, and swept every inch of my skin with the gentlest kiss.

I thought we were going to reconcile, but I didn't expect that when I woke up, he was gone.

My mother also knew about this and persuaded me here for a long time, and finally, with a sigh, chose to go back. I heard my dad say, don't make trouble, we should be together, let's be together.

I wanted to tell my dad, and I agreed, but Li Shu, he left.

Li Shu's mother has called the police, but there is still no news from Li Shu.

We are all isolated from the world, but in such a hungry body, there is a voice that keeps shouting, Li Shu, I miss you, really.

I don't really remember what happened that night.

I can't remember clearly, so I can only wait as if nothing happened. But only I understand how desperate my heart is.

I hate Li Shu a little, this feeling is amazing, and I wonder if any couple who have been entangled for a long time if they don't end up together, do they hate each other.

But the silence of the room could not give me an answer, the wind of the window could not give me an answer, nor could the memory of that night.

Li Shu, you just consume it with me. Let's wait and see who bows first.

The doorbell rang again, and I guess it was another parent. I didn't want to open the door, they were just too noisy.

But the doorbell kept ringing over and over again, and I was so annoyed by the noise that I had to go open the door. What I didn't expect was that it was Hu Yueyue standing at the door.

I was surprised that she would come to me.

Today she didn't wear makeup, her face looked very pale, she glanced at me and walked straight in.

I knew she might have something to say to me, so I just sat on the couch and waited for her to speak.

She glared at me, with anger and disdain in her eyes, and her voice was very indifferent, and said, "Gao Ziran, Li Shu has been missing for two days, don't you care at all?" ”

I looked at her, not knowing how to answer.

"What do you mean by being silent? Are you demonstrating with me? Everyone has been robbed by you, what do you want? Hu Yueyue raised her chin, looked at me viciously, and said, "Do you know how much I hate you? Why, since you were a child in the compound, you don't look like a girl at all, but your parents like you a lot, I can't get used to you, my dad doesn't allow me to say a word, for fear that I won't be able to stay in the army, you have your father and mother's love, and my brother is spoiled, everything is the best, why do you want to fight with me for plum trees? ”

I glanced at Hu Yueyue mockingly and said, "If it's yours, can I fight for it?" ”

Hu Yueyue wanted to reply, but her eyes fell on my wrist, and finally sighed and said, "I admit it, Gao Ziran, don't toss anymore, this city is too sad, I will leave in the afternoon." ”

Leaving?

"Originally, I couldn't get used to you, fuck, why, Li Shu was so insulted by your mother, I took care of the car accident, I paid wholeheartedly for the past two years, and in the end I still didn't win you, to be honest, I was very unconvinced in my heart, but what can I do if I am not convinced. He likes you, and no one can replace him. ”

"Huh," I chuckled, and said, "Don't cry a mouse, okay?" You're in the hospital, I've seen it all. ”

Moreover, that night, when I questioned Li Shu's child, he also acquiesced.

Although I was drunk, I still remember this question very clearly.

"Gao Ziran, are you really stupid, or fake stupid," Hu Yueyue glared at me, and said angrily: "Li Shu and I have never been, although I have tried to seduce, but I have not succeeded." ”

There was a small shock in my heart, but I still restrained the look on my face, for fear that I would show it too obviously.

"I'm leaving anyway, so I'll just tell you, Li Shu thought the child was his, because a month ago, we used to stay in the same room, but he was drunk, shouting your name in his mouth, and I couldn't use it."

One night and a month ago, I can't remember anything.

"Two days ago, he came to me, I know you quarreled, you were going to burn love letters in front of him, he was very drunk, crying very much......" Hu Yueyue lowered her eyebrows when she spoke, not knowing what she was thinking, "At six o'clock in the morning, he came to me drunk, saying that he stood downstairs in your house all night, called your name, was taken away by the guards, and ran out again, and you didn't pay attention to him at all." Gao Ziran, you are really ruthless! ”

Which night? Downstairs in my house? I don't know?

"I was drunk, he told me a lot, saying that he didn't want you to be stressed, so he decided to go to the hospital to visit your mother first, Gao Ziran, Li Shu knew when you went home, so he deliberately avoided you and knelt in front of your mother's hospital bed all night, don't you know?"

"Li Shu, have you been to the hospital?" This time, I couldn't pretend to be calm.

Could it be that my mother's upgrade to the VIP ward is also handled by Li Shu?

"Gao Ziran, what are you thinking? Honestly, why do you blame Li Shu? You always say that he doesn't love you enough and doesn't understand you enough, but have you ever thought about it, he is a man, a man who will finish his credits and work in order to give you a future college two years, why don't you know how to cherish it? Hu Yueyue glared at me, spitting and continuing: "Also, your brother spends in Night City, most of them are Li Shu's treats, one year or two years, and how much money is accumulated, do you know?" ”

I looked at Hu Yueyue, and suddenly I couldn't say a word.

Hu Yueyue also looked at me, and said again: "You two are really funny, one locks himself in the house without eating or drinking, and the other is busy disappearing and breaking up?" Fuck, I don't believe in love in the first place, you don't want a man like Li Shu, I can't fucking believe in love anymore! ”

My nose is sore, I can't speak,

"I'll tell you so much, I'm going to dare to plane, I'm leaving......" Seeing that I didn't speak, Hu Yueyue shook her head, sighed, stood up, and walked towards the door.

I also stood up, followed in two steps, and asked, "I heard that Li Shu took you to Tokyo, what are you playing?" ”

Hu Yueyue's face was shocked, and she said, "Aren't you also eye-catching with that kid Wei Zheng?" Forget it, I'm gone, I don't believe in love anymore......"

Hu Yueyue just left, and I could only lean against the door in a daze, at a loss.

"Gao Ziran, I finally advise you, Li Shu hides himself like this, maybe, he doesn't want to live anymore."

The mind is in turmoil.

I lowered my head, looked at the scar on my wrist, and vaguely remembered that night, I arrogantly put my wrist in front of Li Shu and said a lot of words.

I can only vaguely remember the aftermath of the wine, but I don't seem to remember the important content.

Why did Li Shu say that he left the sentence I am willing, he said he was willing, is it a matter of breaking up? What exactly did I do? What the hell did I say? Why did he leave quietly?

I remember saying that I hated the plum tree. He treated me when I was eighteen, and I still hate him.

But, Li Shu, I hate you so much, just because, in my most youthful years, I can't forget you.

You are really this scar, engraved in your body, you can't fade, you can't hide it, you can't hide it.

My hands trembled so much, just because Hu Yueyue said "I don't want to live anymore", I walked towards the phone tremblingly, and before my fingers pressed the number, my tears flowed out.

Li Shu, what did I tell you that night? If you choose to leave this world, will you really give up on me?

(Tianjin)