It's been a long time, but today I finally feel like I want to write. Today is 2 o'clock in the morning on March 10, 2017, and I learned the baby's contact information from Houcai two days ago, but Houcai insisted on telling the baby that I learned the baby's phone number. I heard that the baby works at the gas station in Jiuquan, fortunately, this is good, it is the best for her to be by her parents' side, at least for her is the most reliable person, the person who loves her the most, she always has to have a backrest, although she has not found the strongest backrest, I always thought I was her strongest backrest, and then it turned out that I was not. Speaking of backrests, it's actually mutual, the backrest bears your back, and your back also clings to the backrest, isn't it? When you don't want to stand on the back, the backrest will naturally not stick to your back. It's good to have a contact information, at least the child can talk about it, or when he mentions his mother, he can talk on the phone, or video, he can contact the mother and son, and the two of us can be like family, at least friends. I asked Hou Cai, and Hou Cai said that the baby knew and I knew her phone number. I also heard that I seemed to have come to Jingning some time ago, saying that I was applying for an ID card, and I wondered, since I came, why didn't I come to see the child? I communicated with my child on the night of March 8 and asked her to say happy holidays to her mother, and the child climbed up to me and waited for me to call her mother, but as soon as I called, the phone was turned off. It's been shut down for a few days in a row. I don't know the reason, just let it be, and don't mean it, maybe the baby doesn't want to hear the child's voice, and he doesn't want to hear my voice. Continued from the previous chapter.

Another three years of high school are over, and in my current opinion, if I look at my studies, it was a complete mistake, wasting three years of time and not being admitted to an ideal university; But in terms of life, the past three years have been fruitful, first let me know the baby, and then become my wife, and the two of us have the crystallization of love - a lovely son. At that time, if I hadn't had these three years, my life path would have been completely different, and if I had been tutoring for a year like other classmates, maybe I wouldn't have known Baobao, there would be no tragedy in our marriage, and there would be no son now。。。。。。 Of course, there are no ifs, so life goes its course with a clear conscience. In the three years of Huayuan, I wrote a lot of things for the baby, and then I have kept it, I haven't read it again, I have always wanted to wait until I am old to read it with the baby, read it together, it must be very happy. It's a pity, when she ran away from home in May last year, I went to the hotel to look for her, and I found her at the Hu Family Hotel, and she burned it! There are two of them.

That year, I didn't apply for the exam, so I went directly to a private school in Xi'an to learn computer programming. My pony and I live near Daming Palace, and the school is in the South Second Ring Road. After going for about a few months, I didn't know why, I broke up with Baby, who was tutoring in No. 1 Middle School at the time. After the breakup, I dated a girl from Xianyang, and I met about a few times, but I never felt that way, and I didn't call, so I naturally had less contact. Later, I went to the School of Biology, met a girl, contacted for a while, chatted with her and always felt that she was particularly pretentious, but this view has changed now, she is like that, and this character makes her full of confidence, during her time in Xi'an, once her face was swollen for no reason, I went to Cuihua Mountain with Wang Xun, Xiaonan, Xiao Mao, National Geopark, Qinling Mountains, there are cliffs, waterfalls, dammed lakes, stone caves, lush forests, I left her behind, that time hurt her heart, the two of us can't talk about love, I asked her later, she once liked me, I also like her a little, but the relationship and the baby are different, maybe we have not been together for a long time, and there is no emotional foundation, it is the love over time, the relationship is not an overnight thing, and the dilution of the relationship is not overnight, so it takes a long time to talk about it after the divorce, especially for people like me. Otherwise, there will be no reunion between me and the baby in the future. Later, when Dongcai came to Xi'an, we went to the Big Wild Goose Pagoda, Qujiang, Jiaotong University, and Xingqing Park for a few days, and we were very happy at that time.

I came home from school during the winter vacation, once I went to the ICBC opposite a middle school to withdraw money, I happened to meet the baby after I came out, she was making up the class, she hugged me and cried the same as the tearful person, I took her to where she lived, she didn't let me go, she cried all night that day, my heart softened, originally my heart has always been a baby, I have always loved her, it was so easy to get back together, and continue to be together by feeling, and she contacted again, and later, when I went to school in Xi'an, she could come once or twice a month, On Friday or Saturday night, I took the night bus to the rehabilitation road station, I lived on Kunming Road, far away, around 2 o'clock in the middle of the night, I took a taxi to pick her up, and I went to stay for a day or two. After half a year, she graduated, came to the notice, is Yinchuan, junior college, she gave up in order to go to Xi'an with me, we were in Xi'an, she enrolled in accounting, she went to study, we lived together for half a year, lived in Yuhua Village, the two of us often go to buy vegetables and cook together, of course, she did much more, she also washed my clothes. It's the life of a small couple. A holiday, we didn't go home, we looked for a job, I didn't know the specific situation at that time, so I went, said that it was to promote products, after someone took us, we went to Shangluo City, southern Shaanxi, after going, on the first morning, I followed a young man from Henan, to a school in Shangluo City, came to a teacher's office, he opened the suitcase, which was shoe polish, and he began to introduce the characteristics and benefits of various shoe polishes to a female teacher, etc., and then said that he would shine shoes for the female teacher to show the quality of shoe polish, After he finished polishing one shoe, he asked me to demonstrate the second shoe, I dragged the leather boots on the female teacher's feet with one hand, and wiped the leather boots with a shoeshine cloth with the other hand. I still did it, and I didn't ask the baby how she did it when I went back that day, she must be tougher than me, her character is already very tough. The two of us insisted on doing it for more than a month, the counties and cities in southern Shaanxi basically ran all over, and also made some money, after coming back, I was with a Hunan young man who polished shoes, his name is Jiang Liang, I can still remember his name, he worked while traveling all over the country, and then I knew that he basically finished visiting China, and then I also met a Hunan girl, she is also such a goal, and basically turned China by half, which few people in the northwest do, I admire them. A few of us went to Lingtong to travel together, and went to Lishan, which is the production area of Lantian jade, and also the site of the Xi'an Incident, and the place where Yang Guifei bathed ---- Huaqing Pond at the bottom of the mountain. There are a lot of treasures in the Lingtong Museum, where we saw the real relics for the first time, went to the pyramids of China, and ate a bowl of biangbiang noodles for 98 yuan after coming out. The last stop is, of course, the Terracotta Warriors, which are too magnificent and magnificent. At that time, I saw her happy and happy, and now I am very relieved when I think about it.

Look, what's the use of love, reminiscing and remembering, it's okay to write, how many people and I are a pair made in heaven, a couple with many husband and wife, how many people have envied, jealous and hated, but in the end? Left, why? Actually, I don't understand, she often doesn't come home for a long time, disappears, and never tells me where she went when she comes back? Sudden commotion, maybe she's afraid of me, maybe she's really out there, maybe she can't stand the dullness of married life, maybe because of suspicion, maybe it's suspicion, maybe it's 。。。。。。 Maybe...... She wants to sue for divorce, and if she wants to leave three times, I will push the boat. None of this is important, the important thing is to live, as long as everyone is alive and not dying, they have to work hard to live well, for their own ideals, for the dream in their hearts! Live your life in your own way, less compare the lives of others, you only see the bright side of others, you don't see the sad side of others, if you envy a person very much, then you have a deep understanding of him, I dare to say 100%, when you understand him, you feel that you don't envy him, because you will know that he has a lot of sorrows that are different from yours. Of course, don't always look down on someone's shortcomings, or you don't like someone, everyone has weaknesses and strengths, sometimes his weaknesses are his strengths, and sometimes his strengths are weaknesses. Anything is considered in two. Be broad-minded, be calm, have less material desires, and have less desires, and more joy and happiness! Over time, cultivate everyone's spirit, and wealth and happiness will naturally come with you.

Looking back on these times, in fact, the two of us enjoyed the joy of life in the hard time, and we lost a lot, we enjoyed love, and our studies were abandoned halfway, I did not learn the software, did not get the graduation certificate, at that time I began to climb the wall, look at the Chinese media on the Internet, Taiwan's media, the voice of the United States (here because the American characters are typed, these four words are forbidden words, many people have heard it during the Wen Revolution and before, it is too good, too true, so it is forbidden in the Celestial Empire, A few days ago, I saw the news headline of North Korea: Without Kim Jong-un and North Korea, there would be no earth, only hehe), Asia-Pacific news, in fact, these have a profound impact on me, which has made me learn a lot of truth, a lot of history, and the real outside world and life. I think that the gains and losses in life in the world are balanced, and this also follows the law of conservation of gains and losses, there are gains and losses is Tai Chi, Tai Chi itself is balance, everything is always balanced, so there is nothing to regret, there is nothing to complain about, I have never regretted anything, because after I learned "Zhou Yi", I can communicate with everything, I can see it, because all the sources of all things are always balanced.

Just like in my memories, in addition to the things that are very tangled and worrying, it is a very happy and happy thing, which is also a balance, God can't always make me entangled in pain, God also gave me a lot of happy past, God is natural, this is what God means to everyone is very fair.

The two of us basically stayed together in Xi'an for half a year, that is, shortly after returning from shoe shine, I received a phone call, which was from my sworn brother. The next chapter is about to start writing in detail about the days of MLM, the causes and consequences, why do so many people enter MLM? Slowly reveal it to your friends!