Xu Cheng shook his head, he said: No need to explain, I can understand, but I am still a little disappointed, to you, to Xiangwei.

At this moment, I was already half awake from drinking, and I recalled the scene I had done with Dai Xiangwei not long ago, and even myself was surprised by this in an instant. I know, I was wrong, very wrong. I indulged the imp in me, and I let it lead me, greedily enjoying the arms of another man who coveted me by the effect of alcohol.

For the first time, I was puzzled and confused by myself like this. I always thought that I was a woman with strong self-control, and I could freely send and receive in the social field to resist countless temptations......

I lowered my head and I said, "I'm sorry, I didn't control my heart." I always thought I was mature enough, but now I realize that sometimes I still can't fully control my emotions.

He touched my head with some pity, and he said, "Yes, as a young girl, although you are more mature and self-reliant than others, there are still many unstable factors in your personality, I can understand it. However, as my woman, I still can't accept that you are like other men. Do you know, if I had met you ten years earlier, you would have had the heart to kill you?

I...... I found myself speechless, and I knew I was wrong this time, so wrong that I couldn't even understand myself.

We were both silent, and he sat up after lying down for a while and began to get dressed. It was late at night, and I said, "Don't you want to stay here?"

He turned his head and smiled at me reluctantly, and said, "Give me some time to accept it, although I am more mature than in the past, I am not so open-minded yet." Well, you understand me.

I said lightly: he said that he was ready to fight against the family for me. So, I was moved. Because until now, I have never known what your parents think and have towards me, and even ...... I don't know if they know there's me.

His body was slightly stunned, he didn't look back, he sighed softly, and he said: You think I don't give you enough security, do you?

There was a hint of disappointment in his voice, and I said, "No, I'm just trying to explain why I made a mistake, even if it sounds far-fetched......

He said, "Well, let's all be quiet, reflect on ourselves, and give our love a little time to be tolerant, okay?"

Seeing that he wanted to leave, I felt an indescribable reluctance in my heart, but I didn't dare to pull him back, I knew that no matter how great a man was, he couldn't digest such a thing instantly......

I watched him get dressed slowly, he turned his head slowly after he finished, he didn't leave a gentle kiss on my forehead as usual, he just sat down and helped me gently tuck a corner of the quilt, he said: It's not too late, you sleep, I'm leaving.

I looked at him reluctantly, and he touched my head again, and then, as if I had made up my mind, quickly left the bedroom, and soon I heard him close the door. My emotions were in a mess, I found that even I couldn't understand myself, this feeling of not being awake made me extremely uncomfortable, I couldn't sleep all night, I got up early in the morning, I came to the office early with dark circles under my eyes, and I was so sleepy that I couldn't do it.

Xiao Cui also came very early, he has been promoted to vice president has been very good at work over the years, there are few things for me to worry about, gradually I also let go, a lot of things are in his hands, his style of doing things has always been appreciated by me, comprehensive and fast, is a slight character flaw, such as the extra importance of money and too sleek, but it is still flawed.

The few people I brought out back then, now all of them have made a home in this city, Xiaomi married Xiao Cui and got married and had children and became a full-time housewife, this may be the sacrifice that women make in their careers for the sake of their families, otherwise with Xiaomi's ability and qualifications, they have now become executives of the company.

I once discussed with Xiao Cui the issue of letting Xiaomi return to the workplace, but Xiao Cui's thinking is a bit machismo, he said that it is better for women to take care of their families, just take care of the family, and let men do it well.

Early this morning, when Xiao Cui brought the latest sales report to me to sign, I looked at him in high spirits and asked casually: Xiao Cui, how is Xiaomi now?

Probably surprised him a little by my question, and he said, "Huh? Why did you suddenly ask about her? Didn't you see her at the last annual meeting, it's okay, anyway, I stay at home every day, and I have gained a lot of weight.

I let out a thoughtful sigh, and I said, "Xiao Cui, are you busy?" If you're not busy, sit down and chat with me.

He nodded, sat down, and after so many years of getting along, we have not only become partners, but also friends in a relative sense. I said: Xiao Cui, do most men hope that their wives can be married and taught at home safely after marriage?

He thought about it seriously for a while, and he said: I don't dare to say 100 percent, 90 percent of men, right? When a man has a certain ability, he definitely doesn't want his woman to work hard outside and can't even eat a hot meal when he comes home.

I said, "Then a woman like me, are there few men who dare to marry?"

He laughed instantly, and he said: Where can you, you are a strong woman. It's not that men don't dare to marry, but they are afraid that they are not worthy.

I asked again, and I said: Xiao Cui, do women have to return to the family in the end?

He has always thought about every question of mine as seriously as he treats work, and finally he said: I have to say that whether in China or abroad, it is a woman's mission to teach her husband and children. Although you see that feminist ideas are becoming more and more intense now, in the final analysis, the division of labor between men and women still determines the fate of women's lives. Of course, a detached woman like Dayi may not be burdened by marriage.

I sighed slightly, and I said: No matter how strong a woman is, her heart still longs for marriage. As you said, getting married and having children is a fate that women can't escape, it's just a matter of time.

He snickered, he said: Ouch, it's rare to see you have this kind of thought, it seems that there is indeed a certain reason for the female college to get married.

I also laughed, I said: I'm old, I'm almost thirty in a blink of an eye, and age makes women not calm.

He laughed, he said: I'll just say, you, in the final analysis, you still have a little bit of a little woman's personality in your bones, or you want to have a family, you didn't believe it before, and you can't say that you are not married, and if you really meet the true destiny, your mind will naturally change.

I smiled and said, "Come on, don't dissect me." I see everyone is coming, let's hurry up and get ready, let's have a morning meeting.

He said mischievously: Order.

Then shouted loudly outside: Friends, prepare to prepare, Mr. Yi will go to the morning court in a while!

I burst out laughing instantly, this guy must have sensed that I was a little unhappy, so he deliberately shouted it to make me laugh.

There was no news from Xu Cheng for a day, and no matter how busy he used to be, he would say good morning to me on MSN, but today until he got off work, he didn't send any news. I saw that his MSN was all out of shape, and I reassured myself that maybe he was too busy.

I didn't call him, I knew that at this point, calm reflection was the only way out of our relationship. I don't dare to easily break this calm, it is very likely that any word I say will affect the direction of our relationship, his vicious venting last night is already an extremely broken and extremely controlled rhythm, I can only be silent, quietly waiting for him to pronounce the verdict on me.

This feeling of waiting makes me feel like I'm on pins and needles, and whenever I feel confused and can't see myself clearly, I will choose to go home. I told the fairy what happened, and the fairy glared at me fiercely, and she said how could I have a daughter like you, I have to look at Shu, and a mountain looks at a mountain high.

But then she changed her words again, she said: I'll go to the future son-in-law to communicate and see, judging from the situation you described, he should not not forgive you, but from now on your relationship will be a little flawed. Remember, draw a clear line with Dai Xiangwei in the future, no matter how good he is, he doesn't belong to you, take good care of your happiness, this kind of ambiguous approach is too undesirable, lose the watermelon and pick up the sesame seeds, don't deviate in the future.

I nodded earnestly, and I said that I knew I was wrong, and I was just so confused about why I did that, and I didn't even understand myself.

The fairy took me in her arms, and the fairy said, "People, all have seven emotions and six desires, and it is impossible to be sober forever, not to mention that you have drunk." I also know you, you actually stubbornly say that you can live without marriage, but as women get older, their desire for marriage will become bigger and bigger, and there are too few women who can really do it without marriage. Actually, I never knew what my future son-in-law was hesitating about, since the two of you love each other so much, is it so difficult to have a marriage contract, and my daughter doesn't need him to raise her, hey......

Yes, this is also where I am extremely confused, Xu Cheng never mentioned marriage, and never said that he would take me to meet his parents. What is he hesitating about?

In the past few years, I have participated in too many weddings, seen too many sensational scenes at weddings, and the principles that I once adhered to in my heart have loosened a little. Xu Cheng gave me necklaces, bracelets, brooches, and earrings, but never gave me rings.

When the fairy saw that I was silent for a while, she said, "Sleep, yes." Don't think too much, a man like Xu Cheng is most afraid of being forced to marry, you should be calm. You can't hold your heart in this way, you will only push him further......

I smiled and I said: There is still a psychological gap between a man who has thought about marrying me and a man who doesn't mention marrying me at all.

She slapped me directly on the head, and she said: Tell you to stabilize your heart, why are you so disobedient! If you continue to be like this, you will be careful and make mistakes! Xu Cheng just doesn't marry you, Dai Xiangwei has thought about marrying you, he is already engaged to another woman! Of course, I've always thought you're sane enough and much better than when I was younger. But you are obviously flustered in this paragraph, where is your previous calmness?

I said leisurely: You know, I recently looked in the mirror and saw crow's feet in the corners of my eyes...... I panicked, for the first time I felt that I was about to grow old, and for the first time I felt that youth was so insufficient......