Lin Chao smiled, still flipping through her phone to show me a photo, she said as she flipped through it: "Tang Ying, even now, I still think that among all my men, Jiang Ciyun is the best one." Through him, I saw the whole world. Before, I went from a small village to a big city, and now I go from a big city to a small village. The location and mood are different, but it's amazing to be a teacher again. My current husband is an honest man, and I am especially important to him. Living with him is also the most suitable and comfortable for me. ”

I stared at the photographs, which seemed to go back in time. From recent to a few years ago, Lin Chao's changes are vividly reflected in a photo. She has become simple, especially her eyes, which are many, much less complex.

"Where's your adopted daughter?"

"I'm married, I'm married to a very Sven young man, and my children are more than a year old."

"That's good." I couldn't help but whisper.

Lin Chao put away her phone, she smiled relievedly, and asked me how I was doing.

I never thought that I would tell this woman all the things I had been holding back for so long.

I was deeply disgusted with the intrigues she used against me, but in three and a half years, I was shocked to realize that the grievances with Lin Chao had turned into a joke after dinner.

She was stunned for a long time and smiled: "Impossible." Ciyun won't want you and the child because of this, there must be some reason. ”

I glanced at her and smiled faintly: "He thinks too deeply. Moreover, he disappeared from my life. Taking a deep breath, I stood up: "If I have another chance in the future, I will come and see you." ”

"Do you have a cell phone number? Leave one for me. ”

I shook my head and smiled and said, "No phone." ”

Lin Chao looked at me and seemed a little regretful, after all, even I didn't expect that a man who loved me so much would suddenly withdraw in the end, so fast that I was caught off guard.

I left there and came to Yunnan, stopping at the door of the house where Jiang Ciyun and I had stayed before we parted.

The boss is still the same boss, and the bridesmaid is still very welcoming, maybe there are too many people coming and going, and they don't remember me, they just think I'm a guest who wants to stay in the hotel.

I asked for a room and stayed there for two days.

The Dahenggang bicycle that Jiang Ciyun rode is no longer available, and it may have been thrown into the tricycle that shouted for scrap one day, and its owner abandoned it, so he probably won't remember it in particular.

Before leaving Yunnan, I also went to the small village where Shen Yin lived. The door was open, except that the old woman who had been sitting on the wicker chair had been replaced by a middle-aged woman, and there was a wheelchair next to her, and in it sat a sick man. The children who Xu Mushen gave money are also much taller. Looking at the door, there was a posthumous photo hanging in the dining room opposite, grandma was gone, and the young people who left home back had returned.

I didn't go in and ask them about their stories, they didn't recognize me, they looked at me a few times at the door, and even thought I was an abnormal person, and the child quietly closed the door, and suddenly I couldn't see anything, and then I couldn't help but laugh again.

Within a month, I was back at the place where Shang Lin lived.

He opened the door for me, I brought gifts for him and the child, he was happy, and Xiaoyan was happy to see me too.

Shang Lin cooked for me, and Xiaoyan couldn't put it down while playing with the toys I bought, and she was so happy with herself that she didn't even pay attention to calling her to eat.

At the small dinner table, I asked Shang Lin, "Do you plan to live like this in the future?" Over here? ”

Shang Lin's action of picking up vegetables stopped, he raised his head, and said slowly: "A person with a time limit can't fall in love, and he has no hope. ”

He has actually said such desperate words many times, but I always feel that he still has regrets and hopes.

"You're obviously in good health now, why don't you go out and have a look like me?" I said as I ate.

Shang Lin didn't answer me, he said that it had been raining in the past few days, and his back hurt a lotion, and he wanted me to give him some potion after eating it in a while.

I said, "Okay." ”

After the meal, Shang Lin lay on his bed and took off his shirt. I rubbed the foul-smelling but effective potion on his back. Shang Lin's back didn't have an inch of good meat, it was full of old wounds, and the wounds were different. He explained to me the origin of every scar, from being whipped with a leather whip to being scalded directly by red-hot tongs, and so on.

I remember the first time I saw it, I was so scared that I couldn't speak for a long time, but now I'm used to seeing it.

"That's what hurts the most." Shang Lin snorted.

I deliberately increased the force and pressed down on the painful place, and he rolled over: "You did it on purpose." Uh-"

I laughed out loud and casually said, "Yes, it was on purpose." If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be here now. ”

Shang Lin frowned, he didn't speak for a long time, he took the potion from my hand, casually wiped a few handfuls on his back, closed the lid, and leaned on the bed to look at me.

I raised my hand and shook it in front of his eyes, scolding, "Look at the." ”

"Do you hate me?" Shang Lin asked very seriously.

I said, "How can a person who has no love have hate?" ”

Thinking back to that day more than three years ago, I saw the words on the text message with my own eyes, and it was really like being hit by an electric current through my heart, and my whole body was numb.

"I know where he is." Shang Lin said suddenly.

My heart trembled uncontrollably, but I soon said calmly, "Oh." ”

"Don't really want to know?" Shang Lin took a cup beside the bed and took a sip of water.

I asked him, "What happens if you know?" ”

Jiang Ciyun is the one who said that he would love me to death. How many words spoken in this world end up being jokes? I'm not a special case, and no one else is going to be a special case.

I didn't want to continue the topic, so I turned the conversation to him: "Shang Lin, if you didn't get that kind of disease, what would you do?" ”

Shang Lin thought for a while and said, "If I wasn't sick, I would really go after Boss Shen." ”

I was stunned.

"Ahh Didn't you want Yan Jin and Jiang Ciyun to break up before deliberately being good to Shen Yin? My eyes widened as I looked at this man who was as thoughtful as Jiang Ciyun.

Shang Lin sneered: "Don't you think Boss Shen is very energetic?" She's the type I like, but I'm a person who can't touch women, what are I talking about? ”

I secretly lowered my eyes and whispered, "I don't know how Shen Yin is now." ”

When I first disappeared, Shang Lin said that Shen Yin had come to me like crazy, and I didn't want to hear a word of comfort, and the comfort would make me collapse instantly. Besides, Shen Yin is also unlucky to know me, I often think that her experience is more or less related to me, a friend who always brings her misfortune, she should not be restrained anymore.

"I don't know." Shang Lin said: "Go open the window, I want to smoke." ”

I stood up, opened the window and shivered in a cold wind, then closed it again and said, "Don't smoke it." ”

In order to smoke, Shang Lin got up from the bed and took the cigarette case and said that he was going to squat, I gave him a blank look, and he said, "I'll tell you something." ”

I didn't care, picked up Xiaoyan and said, "Do you miss your mother?" ”

Xiao Yan didn't look at me, he was still fiddling with the toy in his hand, but he replied crisply: "I don't want to." ”

I suddenly cried and laughed: "Why not? ”

"Mom always sat alone at the window and ignored me, I like my uncle, and he will play with me." Xiaoyan's answer made me ashamed.

For a long time, I was like a corpse that had lost my soul, as Xiaoyan said, I used to sit at the window, sitting all day, thinking about everything that happened to me, from heartache to calm, and from calm to introspection.

Shang Lin is different from me, he has a lot of experience with children, very patient, sometimes I can't tell whether Shang Lin is using children as toys, or whether he knows that he is a person who does not have much time, in fact, he wants to have a child of his own.

He wouldn't really tell me that, and I didn't have any point in speculating on it myself.

Shang Lin came back after smoking, and he stood in front of me and said, "Go find him." ”

I looked at it, and I wondered why he suddenly said such a thing.

Shang Lin bent down, took the child from my hand and said, "At that time, I really wanted to force him to have a breakout, to see his despair, his pain, and let him understand how I felt when I lost everything. But I didn't expect him to break out, after all these years, I feel bored, very boring, and I also think you and the child are pitiful. ”

After he finished speaking, I was stunned for a moment and then laughed and said, "Shang Lin, you know what Jiang Ciyun's text message is about. He was so calm that he said, oh, I really ruined me. Okay, you cow, then you have a good time with her, if the woman you slept with Lao Tzu didn't feel disgusting, then you continued to sleep. The moment the words fell, my tears rushed out, and even I didn't expect that if this sentence was mentioned again, there would be something in my eyes. What's more, Shang Lin is always in and out, Jiang Ciyun wants to find me, it's too easy, but he doesn't look for it at all.