Jin Yan was also stunned, he didn't think that I would slap him. I didn't even think of it. After slapping it, my hands stiffened in mid-air, and Jin Yan covered his face and looked at me in surprise. The next second, I slapped myself hard. He squatted on the ground with angina, and suddenly he was desperate for human nature.

I don't love Zhao Qinhan, but I can't watch a person go to prison; I don't have too deep feelings for Zhao Qinhan's parents, but hearing the lamentations of the two twilight old men makes me extremely sad. What is the greatest good of human nature? What is evil? I couldn't tell the difference for a moment.

I didn't even know that when I slapped Jin Yan hard, it hurt his face or my heart. Why did I hit him? Do I hate him? What did he do wrong again? Why do I sympathize with Zhao Qinhan? Isn't Zhao Qinhan evil? What did he do right?

I spent my life trying to be a decent person, to fall in love with dignity, to marry and have children with dignity, to laugh with dignity at all the voices around me. But life has forced me to the point of nondescriptry, making me face everything full of holes, making me helpless and hesitant, anxious and uneasy.

I squatted on the ground, my face aching hotly, and I whispered, "I'm sorry." ”

Jin Yan grabbed my hand, pulled me up from the ground, took me into his arms desperately, and said an extremely tear-jerking sentence: "I'm sorry, it's all my fault that caused you to bear so much." ”

That kind of anxiety in my heart, that kind of feeling that I can't run like Forrest Gump for three years to vent, that kind of indescribable complex emotions...... For a while, like a flood suddenly pouring on the top of the mountain, it instantly submerged me, and it also made my heart sway like the pendulum of a clock.

Fate never seems to give a clear direction, telling you unequivocally whether you should go left or right; Fate never seems to stop striking at people, always letting you suffer the most fatal damage when you are happy, and giving you a huge sweetness when you are unlucky. We have learned a lot of truths and experienced a lot of ups and downs, but we still can't live this life well.

"Don't cry, I'm here, I'm always there for you." Jin Yan hugged me tightly, my face against his chest, listening to the familiar and long-lost heartbeat, feeling the heat from his body temperature.

"If you still feel uncomfortable in your heart, you can beat me, beat me hard, take out all the hatred you used to have and vent it on me, it doesn't matter." Jin Yan said as he carefully guarded my head, "I know that you have worked very hard in the past two years, I know that you have faced the verdict of conscience again and again, and I know that you have a sense of guilt towards everyone. I know, I understand. Xiaoshu, you're still too kind. ”

His words were like spring rain, like a warm current slowly flowing into my heart, my heart gradually had a trace of warmth, the feeling of colic gradually subsided, I felt that I was no longer suffocating, and suddenly I could breathe again.

I pushed him away, wiped away my tears, and asked him, "Where's the wine?" ”

He opened the trunk of the car, which contained two cans of beer, and said, "Today, let's have enough drinks and have a good chat about these fucking two years, shall we?" ”

"I don't want to say anything, I just want to drink." I say.

"Okay, then don't say anything, it's up to you." He said.

He let me into the car, carefully fastened my seatbelt, and he drove straight into the highway, and I asked him where he was going, and he said you'll know.

He drove down a fork in the highway and went around to a suburb, and after some drive on the suburban road, we came to a very quiet lake, and there was a simple pavilion on the edge of the lake, and he pointed to it and said, "Here we drink." ”

"Okay." I got out of the car with a blank face.

He moved two cases of beer and put them in the gazebo, took out two bottles, opened them, handed one to me, we touched it, and I drank the whole bottle directly.

I've never drunk like this, and I've never wanted to drink like this. I didn't say anything, Jin Yan looked at me and didn't say anything.

In fact, people don't want to talk when they are in the most tormented mood, they just want someone to accompany them quietly, even if he doesn't do anything, just quietly accompany you.

After I drank three bottles in a row, Jin Yan took my hand and said, "Little book, slow down." I've brought some snacks, you can eat some first. ”

I shook my head, I didn't want to eat anything, I just wanted to get drunk desperately, hoping that the alcohol would wash away all my complicated emotions like a heavy rain.

Later, I was really drunk after drinking, the sky was raining heavily, and I dimly remembered that Jin Yan carried me on his back and carried me to the back compartment, and he said many, many words in my ear, I seemed to hear it, but I didn't seem to hear it, and then later, after I lay on the window and vomited, I fell asleep on his lap......

Once love blurs the boundaries, it is impossible to distinguish whether it is sincere enough. Jin Yan didn't move, so he let me sleep on his lap until dawn. I don't know if a man is true love for a woman like this, I used to believe that this is love, but after all this, I began to slowly stop thinking so.

When I woke up, his legs were numb, my stomach was upset, I opened the car door and ran out and threw up again, after which I didn't have the strength anymore. Later, Jin Yan sent me back to the farmhouse, my head was still dizzy, and I lay on the bed and slept for a long time. When I woke up, it was like a world away.

Half a month later, Zhao Qinhan was convicted of corruption and sentenced to ten years in prison. I went to the court on the day of the trial, sat in the last row, and watched Zhao Qinhan being brought to court in prison uniform and handcuffs. When the judge made the final decision, my heart skipped a beat. At that moment, Zhao Qinhan glanced at me deeply, then slowly turned around and disappeared from my sight with that image......

The direction of the wind in H City changed suddenly, and in just a few days, there were many people like Zhao Qinhan who were suddenly imprisoned. At the same time, countless private enterprises have been seized. For a while, everyone was panicked, and no one knew whose head the bad luck would become.

I prepared some clothes and letters for Zhao Qinhan and asked someone to send them in, but he never replied to me, I asked someone to inquire, and I heard that his mood after being imprisoned was quite calm, and there was not much turmoil, so I was relieved for a while.

After Zhao Qinhan was sentenced to prison, I went to his parents' house in S City again, this time I brought Qiuqiu, and at the request of my aunt, I stayed with Qiuqiu for two more days.

Their hearts were so heavy that I couldn't bear to tell them the true story of my children, so I promised them that I would often let Qiuqiu accompany them in the future.

I don't know if it's because people in the city like to go to the countryside to avoid the limelight or what, but the sound of farmhouses has been very popular recently. I was in a bad mood, so I called Xingfeng and asked him to help me see if I could find a suitable professional manager.

Unexpectedly, Xing Feng said to me on the phone: "Xiaoshu, my company has also been investigated recently. There were a few business deals with Qin Hanla before, but now it is very troublesome. ”

I couldn't help but sink my heart, no wonder the eldest sister and Xing Feng didn't show up recently, it turned out that they had also encountered something, I only cared about my own sadness, and every time they called, I didn't ask them what the situation was.

"Brother, is the situation bad? What could you expect? I hurriedly asked.

"It's hard to say now, the wind is too tight during this time, no one knows what will happen tomorrow, and the key is that there is no way to find someone now, you don't know if the person you are looking for will help you or harm you, so you can only actively cooperate and carry it through." Xingfeng said on the phone, and he immediately asked me, "How are you there?" What's been the case lately? ”

"Fortunately, business has been very good lately, and there is an endless stream of people every day. The tourist area is also very popular, and now that you are vigorously developing the tourism industry here, they probably won't treat you badly, right? I asked worriedly.

"Who knows, after Qin Han was locked in, I have been uncomfortable all the time, I can't eat or sleep all day, and your sister is also worried. In the past few days, we have time to meet with you, and we will meet in person. Xing Feng said on the phone.

I answered in one go, and after hanging up the phone, my father suddenly rushed in from outside the hospital and said to me, "Xiaoshu, something big has happened at home again!" ”

"What's wrong, Dad?" I asked hurriedly.

"Your second sister Ruqin also committed an accident, saying that she was the mistress of a big official, and now that the person has been taken away, the uncle's family is crazy! You hurry up and call Xiaohua to get her back! Let's all go to Uncle's house to have a look! Father said anxiously.

It seems that this news has just come, otherwise Xing Feng would have told me on the phone just now. So I hurriedly called Xiaohua, and then hurried to my uncle's house with my father.

As soon as I entered the uncle's house, there was a room of people around the uncle's house, and the aunt was already sitting on the ground crying, shouting "evil", and the uncle was holding a cigarette without saying a word.

I walked over and helped my aunt up to comfort a few words, the child born by the second sister has always been with my aunt, and now I am several years old, and when I saw my aunt crying, I also cried with Wow.

"Little book, what do you say this can do? Our family has never had such a thing, how could it suddenly be like this? My aunt cried and pulled me and said, "Qin Han also went in, and now Ruqin has also gone in, so don't let people live?" ”

I was pulled by my aunt, comforted weakly, and a room full of people chattered, and everyone could say anything but complain and comfort.

Not long after, Xiaohua rushed back with the eldest sister and Xingfeng. As soon as the small painting came in, everyone gathered around.

"Painting, you have the best relationship with now, this ...... What the hell is going on? Why didn't we know anything about it, and she was locked up? The aunt took the hand of the little painting and asked crying.

"Didn't the second sister get promoted a year ago? That's when ...... Only...... That person got it. Xiao Hua said hesitantly, and suddenly pointed at me and said, "It was Zhao Qinhan who introduced me to him, and you have to ask Xiaoshu about this." ”