Jin Yan took me by the hand and took me to the commissary to buy a few bottles of water and two buckets of instant noodles, probably because I was afraid that I wouldn't eat, so I bought my favorite grapes and sour plums, and then we entered the waiting room together.

There was still a while before the train left, and we sat side by side in this crowded waiting room filled with all kinds of smells, and Jin Yan said to me: "There is still a little time, you can either sleep on my shoulder for a while."

I shook my head at first, but then I couldn't support it anymore, and unconsciously leaned on his shoulder, I felt him gently flick my head and let me pill on his lap, I was in a daze and didn't know how long I slept, Jin Yan woke me up in a soft voice: "Xiaoshu, get up quickly, it's time to check the ticket."

I rubbed my eyes, got up from his thigh, he grabbed my hand vigorously, and pulled me to check in and enter the station, because this is a passing station, the train stops for a short time, we are all running all the way, Jin Yan grabbed my hand with a big bag on his back and ran wildly, and finally got on the train in the crowd.

He dragged me through the crowd, found a seat, asked me to sit down first, and then he unloaded the bag off his shoulder and sat next to me.

I didn't have many opportunities to take the train, and I had the impression that I had taken the train except for the time when I eloped with Jin Yan at the age of 18 that year, this was the second time, and it was with him.

The train was still as crowded as ever, the air in the carriage was not circulating, and the smell was stronger than the smell of the waiting room, I could see that Jin Yan was trying his best to endure this strong smell, he took out the chewing gum in his pocket and handed it to me, and said, "Chew one, close your eyes and listen to music." I'll ask if there's a sleeper ticket, and if so, we'll make up for it, and I'll be back soon. ”

At that moment, I couldn't tell why, and I grabbed his hand violently. Surprised and surprised, he turned around, gave me a quick kiss on the forehead, and whispered, "Good, I promise to come back."

At that moment, I suddenly realized that I had begun to rely on him a little psychologically, I had already endured the separation with Qiuqiu overnight, and I could no longer bear the sudden disappearance of Jin Yan in the sea of people.

I stared blankly at his back, watching him weave his way through the crowd and disappear into the carriage before disappearing. The moment I saw him disappear, I felt a sense of unease in my heart.

I kept looking at that entrance, five, ten, fifteen...... He still hadn't returned, and I could barely resist getting up and looking, and just when I couldn't help but stand up any longer, I saw him appear there with a box of lunches.

He looked so tall in the crowd, and the moment he appeared, my heart fell to the ground like a stone. I sat down in a hurry, pretending I wasn't standing up, but I felt ridiculous about my lame behavior.

He appeared in front of me with a box of fragrant lunches, sweating profusely, although it was already autumn but the weather was still very hot, he said to me, "The lunch box is almost sold out, I ran several cars to buy such a box." Little book, you eat a little bit. ”

"Okay." I knew that there was still a long way to go in the coming days, so I took it and moved the things on the table and opened the lunch box.

The boxed lunch on the train was not delicious, and Jin Yan sat next to me, watching me eat with gentle eyes. I ate it one bite at a time, and he began to gently stroke my hair with his hand, probably afraid that I would misunderstand, and he said, "The hair on the back of your head is a little messy, I know you love to be clean, I'll help you play with it."

I ate for a while, still not having much appetite, and I said, "I'm not going to eat it."

"Let's eat some more. You haven't eaten much these days. He advised me.

I shook my head, so he took the rest of my lunch box and ate it without even thinking about it. At that moment, I watched his movements, and I had an indescribable feeling in my heart, and I said, "This is what I have eaten, why did you eat it?"

"It's okay, I like to eat like this." He replied quickly, quickly eating all the rest of the lunch box, not even the fat I had left.

I was completely stunned, he quickly got up and walked through the carriage and threw away the lunch box, wrung the towel wet and took it to me and said, "You wipe your face, then go to the bathroom, and then you can sleep." I've spoken to the conductor and he said he'll let me know as soon as there is a sleeper. ”

I didn't expect him to treat me so meticulously now, looking at the panic and piety on his face, there was a slight crack in my originally cold heart, and there was a warm sunshine in that crack, I don't know if what awaits me after tearing this crack completely, whether it will be the warm sunshine like today or the storm that will come as suddenly as yesterday. But after all, at this moment, in such a crowded crowd, there is a person by my side who is willing to accompany me to find our common child.

This is the so-called "shared suffering".

After I wiped my face, he dragged me to the toilet of the carriage, and when I entered, he waited patiently outside. He wouldn't have done that before, he was always used to me doing this to him. But today, when I was most tormented and in need of help, he resolutely held up for me.

After returning from the bathroom, I leaned on his shoulder, and the train rumbled towards a city that he and I had never been to, and the light went from bright to dark, and another night came.

I couldn't sleep at all, these days as soon as I closed my eyes I dreamed of Qiuqiu's crying, I always had the same dream over and over again, and every time I woke up from the dream I was sweating.

Jin Yan kept holding my hand tightly, and every time I woke him up, he quickly shook me awake: "What's wrong, are you having nightmares again?"

"Jin Yan, you said that there would be no accident with Qiuqiu, right? Why do I always dream that Qiuqiu is crying? I asked sadly.

"No, our son will be strong, he will be fine." Jin Yan held my hand tightly, and I felt his hand trembling slightly.

"I'm so scared." In the dark, the crowd in the carriage fell asleep, as if Jin Yan and I were the only ones in the world who were awake.

"Don't be afraid. I'm here. No matter what we face in the future, we must be optimistic and positive, don't think about whether the ball will suffer any accidents, before we find the ball, we must firmly believe that the ball will be good, it will be. Jin Yan said to me.

He patted me gently on the shoulder, and he said, "Sleep, don't think so much, we have to conserve our strength, the road is still long, for the sake of Qiuqiu, we must take care of ourselves."

I let out a soft "um" and pillowed on his lap, trying to put myself to sleep, and the train continued to rumble past one unknown station after another, and finally arrived at the final stop.

At the moment when I was about to get off the car, Jin Yan woke me up, when I stood up, his legs were so numb that he couldn't stand up, I hurriedly went to help him, he rubbed his knees, and then said, "It's okay, it's a little numb, it'll be fine soon."

"Did you sleep last night?" I looked at his bloodshot eyes and asked knowingly, and a trace of inexplicable guilt welled up in my heart. Baidu sister-in-law - drunk night and joy: a kiss entanglement

"I didn't dare to sleep, I can't lose you anymore, I must take care of you." He whispered, then tried to move two steps, took off the big bag that was on the luggage rack, unloaded the small bag I was carrying on my shoulder and hung it on himself, and then said to me, "There are too many people, let's wait for them to go down first, and then you can sit down for a while."

In this way, we came to Nanchang Station. After leaving the station, we went to get the bullet train tickets that the eldest sister had already booked for us, and got on the train to Sichuan non-stop.

The rush along the way makes us all very tired, the fact that we can't find the ball makes our hearts extremely heavy, I can see that Jin Yan's heart is heavier than mine, but he tried his best to show an indifferent look, along the way, in order to make me feel relieved, so he found countless parents on the mobile phone after many years of finally found their children's articles to show me, but the more I read, the more I feel heavy.

One bloody lesson after another is constantly being staged, every parent who has lost his child is running to the ends of the earth like we are like a desperate, and every little clue obtained is unwilling to give up, chasing all the way and wandering all the way, in order to find the lost child wasted all his life, a large number of children were forced to leave their parents and leave the warm home because they were abducted by criminals, and were sold to unknown places before they had time to feel the warmth of this world. Lucky children may still be treated well by their adoptive parents, but unlucky children can only be used to be tortured into disabilities and wander in this world painfully with a large number of beggars......

Some have been looking for a whole year or two to find their biological children, some have been looking for their children all their lives but do not know where they have gone, and some children have been adopted by welfare institutions because they have not been adopted by their parents, and they have not been able to see their parents for the rest of their lives...... If we don't step into this world, we don't know that there are more tragic things happening in this world than us, and it turns out that there are countless darkness in this world every day, which is as silent as the alternation of day and night.

Jin Yan and I looked head to head at the end, when the train arrived at the station, our feet were weak, we held each other's hands hard, looked at each other deeply, and suddenly neither of us had the courage to get off.

What if, there are no balls in this group of rescued children? …… My heart was pounding.