I suddenly felt the feeling of suffocation after my heart was shattered, I was once again abandoned, and it was the person I cared about the most, I couldn't put it into words, let alone explain it.

Shen Man turned to leave, and before getting into the car, she glanced at me as if she was saying goodbye, and never looked back.

At this moment, I wanted to hug her and cry bitterly, telling her that I was sorry to quit and that I should not give up on me, but I couldn't do it. I gritted my teeth and lit a cigarette for myself, and stood still, bearing is something that men must learn to grow up, and what I need at this moment is to bear not vent.

Shen Man's car gradually disappeared from my sight, I had a kind of pain that I wanted to grasp, but I couldn't grasp, and my face was a little painful when the wind blew! But I couldn't cry.

Brother Luo found a bamboo pole from somewhere to help me salvage the scarves and hats floating on the river nearby. I endured the severe pain, and also found a bamboo pole and hooked the goods that I could see on the dark river.

After an hour of hard work, Brother Luo and I finally rescued some goods, I put the salvaged goods into a sack, and sat on his tricycle with Brother Luo smoking cigarettes.

"Xiao Zhang, is that girl your girlfriend just now?"

"It's not." I replied simply, I don't want to say too much at the moment, I just want to finish smoking this cigarette quietly, maybe Shen Man is much more important than my girlfriend in my heart, and when Lin Xi left me, I wasn't so heartbroken.

"Oh." Brother Luo nodded, although he was still confused, he could also see that I was not in a good mood at this time. He stopped talking.

After smoking, I patted Brother Luo on the shoulder and signaled that I was going back.

Brother Luo nodded and asked, "Xiao Zhang, will you come back tomorrow?" ”

"Hmm." I nodded, and let out another heavy breath, I had no choice but to set up a stall until I found a job.

Shen Man's departure made me fully appreciate the taste of a person's life, a few days ago when Shen Man didn't know about my resignation, he would make a phone call or text message every night to care about my life, and now ..... Now it can only exist in fantasy. I took out all the scarves and gloves from the sack and threw them into the washing machine.

The washing machine "boomed", I sat on the sofa in a daze, and suddenly took out the note that Mo Han left me from my pocket, if we were together at this time, I would definitely say to her: "Don't be sad, I Zhang Yixi is much more depressed than you." "Thinking, thinking about it, I shook my head helplessly and smiled, this is life, it always hurts you so pervasively, I once again feel the suffocation before the collapse.

The "boom" sound of the washing machine suddenly stopped, I also woke up suddenly, looked blankly, the extremely quiet environment made me unable to adapt, I turned on the washing machine again, continued to listen to the "boom" sound, and finally sat on the sofa and fell asleep.

The next day my cold worsened, and I dragged my tired body, dried up the goods, and went to the wholesale market to buy another batch of goods.

I suddenly felt that I had grown up, and I was no longer as lazy as I used to be, because I knew that being lazy would make it impossible to survive in this city, and that is how people are forced out by the environment.

During the day, I interviewed for several jobs, even the first level of sales, but I still didn't get anything, some of the jobs are so, I might as well set up a stall.

I continued to set up a stall with Brother Luo for a week, and I could earn a living allowance every day, but I didn't have any spare money to go to the bar except for friends to entertain, I lived a completely different life from before, I don't know if this life was happy or fulfilling, but I finally lived like a walking corpse.

It was another night, and it was even colder, so I wrapped myself in my coat, only my head was exposed, and I yelled when there was someone, and chatted with Brother Luo next to me when there was no one.

A red Cadillac SRX pulled up in front of me.

Lin Xi walked out of the car wearing a valuable fur-collared coat and a leather bag in her hand, and her shoulder-length curly hair was really beautiful.

She looked at me incredulously, and I looked at her, and after a few seconds of looking at each other, I avoided her gaze, and I didn't know how to deal with the situation.

Brother Luo looked at me again with an unknown gaze, and then at Lin Xi.

"Brother Luo, I'll go to the toilet, you help me look at the stall." After I finished speaking, I wanted to escape by urinating, but I instinctively didn't want Lin Xi to see my down-and-out appearance.

"Zhang Yixi, you stop for me." Lin Xi shouted behind me.

I pretended not to hear and kept running.

Lin Xi ran behind me on her high heels, and I heard her scream, as if she had twisted her foot.

I hurriedly turned around and asked, "Are you alright?" ”

Lin Xi covered her ankles with her hands, and when she saw me approaching, she immediately got up and grabbed me, and she once again used my concern for her to calculate me.

"Yixi, why are you setting up a stall here?" Lin Xi's tone was a little concerned, which was not false at all, but he didn't call me Xixi like before.

"Wouldn't it be nice to experience life and earn some pocket money?" I said.

Lin Xi smiled and said, "Then what about your work, doesn't it affect your work?" ”

"You don't care, my life, I choose for myself."

Lin Xi nodded and said, "Are you having difficulties in life?" ”

"I don't have time to gossip with you, I'm going to the toilet, and I'm going to continue to set up a stall later, don't affect my work." After I finished speaking, I took Lin Xi and grabbed my hand and walked forward alone.

Lin Xi followed me again, and she took out a bank card from her bag: "Yixi, I don't want to see you having a bad time, you take it, I will send the password of the card to your mobile phone later." ”

I turned my head sharply and glared at her fiercely: "How ugly do you want me to say, so that you don't pester me, I'm already depressed enough, what do you want, sympathy, pity?" Thank you, I don't need it. ”

Lin Xi's hand holding the bank card hung in the air, looking at me a little overwhelmed, we have been together for a few years, I treat her as my own treasure, and I have never spoken to her with this attitude.

"I Zhang Yixi has hands, I have the ability to work, what kind of life I live is my own choice, we have long been strangers, so, goodbye." I didn't look back.

My life is like this with the appearance of Shen Man and Lin Xi, I hate this feeling, I would rather be alone, quietly set up a stall, I don't want to be disturbed anymore, I'm tired, tired.

After going to the toilet, I returned to my stall, but Brother Luo handed me a bank card and a note, I looked at it in surprise, and suddenly understood that it must have been left by Lin Xi.