Sun Yiqing still knows me, and he knows that I will worry about Gao Zijian, so he said, let me go to him.

As for me, I thought about it at the window for ten minutes, looked at the sleeping beans, and finally, made the last decision in my heart.

Life is short, instead of taking unhappiness as the main color, it is better to let go of your hands and feet and face it bravely. As for Douzi, I know that it is indeed a little difficult for him to accept Gao Zijian, but I think that their father and son will get along well.

I texted Gao Zijian, asked where he was at the moment, and told him that I was going to tell him a secret.

This secret is very simple, maybe Gao Zijian also doubted it, but the feeling of saying it in person will still feel a little different.

After much hesitation, I booked my ticket.

Douzi had woken up from bed, and Sun Yiqing and Tian Xin were preparing dinner in the living room.

Once the things that are suppressed in the bottom of my heart are released, all the problems are not so difficult, and a sentence I love you is actually the best explanation.

Sun Yiqing's hands and feet were inconvenient, Tian Xin sat on his right side, and Douzi and I sat opposite him. Douzi was very obedient, and used a spoon to serve Sun Yiqing rice, although his arms were a little shorter, he was really well-behaved.

Sun Yiqing also happily took the meal from Douzi's hand and said: "Douzi is really filial, Douzi's parents are the happiest." ”

Douzi smiled and said, "Then when will Daddy Sun marry Mom?" ”

The three adults were stunned by Douzi's question, Sun Yiqing's eyes immediately looked at me, but I didn't know how to answer Douzi, and heard Sun Yiqing say: "Douzi, Daddy Sun is Douzi's father, but you don't have to get married." ”

Douzi glanced at me and said, "But the parents of other children are all married." ”

Douzi's voice was full of incomprehension and grievance, and suddenly made me feel that I, a mother, were very incompetent.

"Douzi, do you want Dad Sun to marry Mommy?" Tian Xin opened a bottle of yogurt, put it in front of Douzi, and asked with a smile.

Douzi looked at me, then at Sun Yiqing, and said, "I want to." ”

I suddenly felt like a numb heart, looking at the beans smiling at the corners of my mouth, and my heart was restless.

"Douzi, Aunt Tian Xin wants to ask you, how about Uncle Gao, who we saw in the hospital today, let him be your father?" As soon as Tian Xin's words were finished, my chopsticks fell on the table, and I looked at Tian Xin with some surprise, but she was unmoved and continued to look at the beans.

Douzi pursed her lips and said with a smile, "Mom said that my eyes are the same as Uncle Gao's, but I prefer Dad Sun." ”

As soon as Douzi's words were finished, I suddenly felt disheartened, Douzi here, what should I do?

Sun Yiqing seemed to sense my loss, and said a few words to Douzi, after dinner, Sun Yiqing took Douzi to paint in the living room, Tian Xin was busy looking for a hotel, and I, while I hid in the kitchen to wash the dishes.

The night was very quiet, and looking through the window, it was pitch black, and I estimated that it might rain again.

He sighed softly, unable to express how he felt at the moment.

I know better than anyone the relationship between Douzi and Sun Yiqing, I haven't met Gao Zijian, and I have never stopped Sun Yiqing's love for Douzi, he helped me make up for Douzi's father's love, I am grateful.

But now, when Douzi has identified Sun Yiqing, should I tell him directly, who is his real father?

If Douzi knew that I would not marry Sun Yiqing in the end, he would definitely be sad and directly explain that it was too unfair to Douzi.

But don't say it, it's not fair to Gao Zijian.

No one told me how to do it, and I didn't know how to do it.

"Haven't cleaned it up yet?" A voice reached my ears, and when I turned my face to look, I saw Sun Yiqing sitting in a wheelchair, looking at me gently.

"Well, it'll be fine soon......" I nodded slightly, glanced out the door, and asked, "Where's the bean?" ”

"He's fine, he's painting in the living room." Sun Yiqing glanced at the living room with a smile, with doting in his eyes, and said, "The beans are so cute and obedient." ”

Douzi will also lose his temper and cause trouble like other children, but as long as Sun Yiqing is there, Douzi can be quiet and accomplish one thing.

I have to say, Sun Yiqing, he is better at educating children than me.

"Don't take the words of the beans to heart, after all, they are children, and their receptivity is smaller than that of adults, but it will always be fine," Sun Yiqing saw that I didn't speak, and continued: "Remember to pack your things later, and I'll ask Tian Xin to take you to the airport tomorrow morning." ”

"I ......"

After Sun Yiqing finished speaking, without waiting for my reply, he pushed his wheelchair and walked to the living room.

I looked up and just saw Tian Xin standing at the door, and her eyes told me that I was too cruel.

Later, when I was packing up in the bedroom, the door was suddenly pushed open, and when I turned my face to look, I saw Tian Xin holding a beer glass in his hand, looking at me calmly.

"I want to drink, do you want to join us?" Tian Xin looked at me and said seriously.

I nodded, threw my clothes aside, and followed Tian Xin to the second floor.

The night breeze was cold, just went up to the second floor, a gust of cold wind blew me goosebumps, Tian Xin directly pushed the table over, put the beer and side dishes in his hand on it, looked at me with a smile, and said, "Come, do it first." ”

My intuition tells me that this little girl must have something on her mind.

But I didn't say anything, I held the beer bottle and drank it.

In the past four years, I have hardly drunk a drop of alcohol, and occasionally drink a small half glass, or in the dead of night, when I am alone.

Suddenly, I felt that it was a pleasure to be able to find someone to drink indulgently.

After two bottles of beer, my brain was a little dizzy, and I turned my face to look at Tian Xin, a trace of sadness suddenly flashed on her face, I opened my mouth and said, "Tian Xin, homesick?" ”

Tian Xin looked at me and said, "No, I just feel distressed." ”

I sighed softly and said, "How old are you, little girl in your twenties, don't be sentimental, life is still very beautiful, unlike me, if you can't handle any problems well, it will always make people sad." ”

Tian Xin also sighed, turned her face to look at me, and said, "Sister-in-law, I really envy you." ”

My heart thumped, I sighed, and said, "But I'm not easy to handle on the bean's side." ”

"Sister-in-law, don't you really feel that the seniors care about you?" Tian Xin opened another bottle, and I was about to stretch out my hand to block it, but she didn't give me this opportunity, so I drank it directly, and after taking a sip, Tian Xin turned his face to look at me again, and said: "I met him in my sophomore year, on the day of the school anniversary, when the principal asked him to stay, but he refused, he left in a hurry, I heard from my classmates that he came to Yunshui."

At the time I just thought he was traveling, now I understand. I heard the news of him again, in the ears of a friend, I heard that he had a child, his wife had a difficult birth, and at eleven o'clock in the evening, the entire hospital team was mobilized to go to Yunshui Town. At that time, I thought he was married and had children.

Two years ago, I heard that he opened a café in Yunshui Town, found the most famous interior designer in Beijing, and looked around for ways to make coffee, and did not hesitate to go to a pastry class, but I never saw his wife and children standing next to him.

After graduating, I interviewed the senior's company directly, and I heard from my boss that he was still single. A week ago, he asked me to accompany him to the coffee machine and wrote down Yunshui's address. I was curious, so I followed me without hesitation.

Originally, when Beijing came here, I needed to rest for at least one day on the road, but the senior and I were just having a hurried meal at the hotel, and I wondered if if he hadn't been fatigued driving, would he not have had a car accident. At that time, I felt that it was not worth it, it was raining so heavily on the road, and when I finally saw my sister-in-law and beans, I felt that something was expected. ”

My nose was sour, and after listening to Tian Xin's words, my hand squeezed the bottle hard, lifted it, and drank it all.

I know that over the years, it was me and Douzi who owed Sun Yiqing, and at the beginning, it was because I was afraid of this result, so I kept my distance, but some things were not controlled at all.

"Sister-in-law, senior, he is a good man, and of course he will be a good father, of course I don't know what happened to you and Mr. Gao, but ...... If you can, I still hope that you can think about it again and consider the relationship between your seniors and you. Tian Xin looked at me, his face was flushed, as if he was drunk, but there was a kind of firmness in his voice.

Many things can be repaid, but only one love word, in this life, may not be repaid.

"Tian Xin, I envy you......" I looked at Tian Xin and said with a smile: "I envy your desperate following, envy your long-term companionship, in the words of me, a person who has come over, in fact, I want to tell you that there are some things that you need to fight for." ”

Tian Xin looked at me, with a hint of surprise on his face, and finally, buried a face in his knees.

I understand Tian Xin's hesitation, looking at other people's things more clearly than looking at myself, saying that other people's things are easy and easy, and it really comes to me, and it's not like that, but Sun Yiqing, I really, I can only say I'm sorry.

In fact, up to now, everything comes from the dishonesty in the heart, obviously loving him, but he has to force himself to pretend not to love, obviously everything has not been let go, but he has to force himself to let go, but if all people can control their feelings, how can there be so many grievances and hatreds in the world.

Chen Xiaojia, be brave. It's not a shame to love someone, even if you have been misunderstood, even if you have been criticized, but you just love him.

As for those who have kept you in hiding for so long and for so long, shouldn't they be punished a little?

Standing at the window, I took out my mobile phone, glanced at Gao Zijian's phone, I stubbornly pressed his number and dialed it directly.

The phone was not answered, and I flew a text message directly over - Gao Zijian, if you don't fucking come again, your son won't recognize you!