I'm not a carefree person, I grow so big, I can afford to put it down, I guess only chopsticks. When I came out of the hospital, my mind was full of scenes of two men fighting, which was also the scene I was most worried about.

I'm afraid to see Gao Zijian, this feeling, I can't describe it myself, many problems were not dealt with before, and there were problems in the later stage, he was not wrong, wrong, maybe because we were too young.

I feel that I have no conscience, and when Sun Yiqing criticized Gao Zijian, what I shouted in my heart was - no, it's not like this, it's not like this.

But I can't say it, after all, Sun Yiqing, he is the best person I have ever seen.

I texted Gao Zijian and told him that I was at the side door of the hospital, but for a long time, the mobile phone was quiet, to be honest, I was a little disappointed, I knew that Gao Zijian must be sad to hear those words, but comforting him, but he couldn't say it directly.

Bright sunlight shone through the gaps between the leaves, through the morning mist, and sprinkled the hospital in wisps. The morning sun shines its light on the surface of the lake, and the breeze rises, and the waves jump, stirring up the lake full of broken gold. I stood in the shade of a tree and texted Gao Zijian again.

A few minutes later, Gao Zijian gave me a reply, but this line of words made my heart sink suddenly-Chen Xiaojia, perhaps, I should reflect on it, and wait for me to solve those troubles, and then come to see you.

His heart was beating suddenly, and he looked up at the daylight above his head, and suddenly had a bad premonition, and turned around and walked towards the main entrance.

As soon as I walked a short distance, I met Tian Xin holding Douzi downstairs, and Douzi was smiling all over his face, and he seemed to be having a good time.

I took the beans in my hand, raised my eyes to look at the main entrance, and asked Tian Xin, "Have you seen Gao Zijian?" ”

Tian Xin shook his head and said, "No, aren't you all in the ward?" ”

I didn't speak, thinking about the meaning of Gao Zijian's words, my eyes stretched to the door, and there was no figure of Gao Zijian, on the one hand, I wanted to go to the hotel to find Gao Zijian, on the other hand, I was afraid of Sun Yiqing, who had inconvenient legs and feet in the ward, and after thinking about it, I looked at Tian Xin ashamedly and asked: "Tian Xin, I may go out with Douzi later, where is Sun Yiqing ......?"

"Oh, it's okay, sister-in-law, don't worry," Tian Xin shook his arm and said, "Senior, leave it to me, it's you and Douzi, there are a lot of cars going out, you have to be careful." ”

I looked at Tian Xin with a grateful face, hugged the beans, and walked towards the gate of the hospital.

Douzi looked at me with a puzzled look and asked, "Mom, where are we going?" ”

I stretched out my hand to take a taxi and said in a calm voice, "We're going to find Uncle Gao, he's in a bad mood right now, let's go comfort and comfort him." ”

"Mom, why is Uncle Gao in a bad mood? Did you quarrel with Daddy Sun? "The bean man is a big ghost, he must have noticed something.

I shook my head and said, "Of course not, don't think about it, I will see Uncle Gao later, I must make him happy, you know?" ”

Douzi nodded thoughtfully, the taxi arrived at this moment, I stopped the car and got in.

When I got in the car, I found out that I didn't know where Gao Zijian lived, and I called him, but no one answered, so I had no choice but to call Sun Yiqing and ask Tian Xin, and then I knew the address of the hotel.

During the rush hour at noon, there was a traffic jam on the road, and I looked anxiously out of the car window, feeling irritable.

What does Gao Zijian want to do? Will he do something stupid? His personality is somewhat extreme, in case ......

"Mom, what's wrong with you?" Beanzi sensed my irritability and asked me cautiously.

I calmed down a little, glanced at Douzi, and said, "Douzi, to be honest, do you like Uncle Sun a little more now, or do you like Uncle Gao a little more?" ”

Douzi's big black eyes stared at me carefully, pursed his lips, and said, "Mom, do you think Uncle Gao is better?" ”

I looked at Douzi in surprise and asked, "Douzi, who told you that?" ”

Douzi looked at me and said, "Aunt Tian Xin said, Mom likes Uncle Gao a little more, let me help Dad Sun more, Mom, do you really like Uncle Gao?" Aren't you afraid that he will be cruel to you? ”

Gao Zijian is too casual in everything, and he left a fierce impression on Douzi when they met for the first time, and he was furious in the ward this morning, and he was sad that Douzi would ask me this.

I kissed Douzi lightly on the forehead and said, "Douzi, Uncle Gao and Douzi have different relationships. ”

"What does it mean that the relationship is different?" Beanzi tilted his head and looked at me with a puzzled expression.

I coughed lightly, I don't know how to explain the meaning of the word "dad" to Douzi, maybe Douzi knows the weight of these two words better than me, but for no reason, telling Douzi's father is Gao Zijian, can he accept it?

He was only three years old, and the word "daddy" was originally sensitive to beans, and I had to be more careful about it.

"Douzi, isn't Uncle Zijian special?" I looked at Douzi, pointed to my eyes, and said, "Douzi has a pair of cute peach blossom eyes, and Uncle Zijian also has a pair of cute peach blossom eyes, you all have peach blossom eyes, they must be different!" ”

Douzi, you didn't inherit your mother's big eyes, but inherited your Lao Tzu's peach blossom eyes, although I want to tell you so directly, but I'm worried that you won't be able to accept it, so, forgive me for telling you step by step.

"Does Daddy Sun have peach blossom eyes?" Douzi still thought of Sun Yiqing, his dark eyes rolled slightly, and asked me seriously.

I shook my head and said, "Douzi, only you and Uncle Gao have peach blossom eyes, which means that you have an unusual relationship with him, so when you see Uncle Gao later, you must not be rude, okay?" ”

Douzi thought for a while, scratched his little finger lightly on his head, and said, "Mom, Douzi is very well-behaved, Douzi listens to Mom." ”

It is said that the happiest thing about a woman is to be loved by three men at the same time. When I was a child, I always felt that the man who loved me the most, from my mother, when I was young, I met a man who loved me deeply and gave my heart to myself. Until now, the little man also loves me, and in this life, in fact, I don't have much regrets.

"Beans are good," I kissed the beans gently, handed the money to the taxi driver, and ran towards the hotel with my foot up.

It's a pity that Douzi and I are still a step late.

Twenty minutes ago, Gao Zijian checked out. He left in such a hurry that he didn't even leave me a word. Where the hell is he going? And why he left, I don't know anything.

I was a little lost, went into a restaurant next door to the hotel, put the beans away, and called Gao Zijian, but unfortunately, no one answered.

Gao Zijian didn't know much about the situation in the vicinity, plus he had an argument with Sun Yiqing in the ward in the morning, first, I was worried that his thoughts would go to extremes, and second, there were some things that I didn't dare to say, so I was worried that Gao Zijian would make a big fuss at home, in case she really did this, wouldn't it make things even more chaotic?

There are some people I don't want to see, such as Liu Shihan and Shi Lei. They're just going to complicate things, and that's what I'm worried about.

The blind voice on the phone made my worries even more intense, and I sighed softly, expressing some helplessness.

The phone rang suddenly, I happily took out my mobile phone, and after a glance, it was actually Sun Yiqing's phone, and after a glance at the beans, I pressed the answer button.

"Tian Xin said that you and Douzi went out alone, I'm a little worried, are you okay?" Sun Yiqing's voice was still calm.

I glanced at the beans playing next to me and said, "The beans and I are fine, but ...... As soon as it was clear, Gao Zijian was gone. ”

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and I heard Sun Yiqing say, "He is an adult, and nothing will happen." ”

Just a sentence of words, but it calmed my heart a little, and before I could speak, I heard Sun Yiqing say again: "I asked Tian Xin to pick you up, I guess, did Gao Zijian go back to Yunshui?" ”

I don't know where Gao Zijian went, but if Tian Xin came to see us off, it would mean that Sun Yiqing would stay in the hospital alone, and I was also very entangled in this.

"No need, Tian Xin should stay and take care of you, as for me and Douzi...... "Douzi and I have to go back to his father first, I can't say this."

"I can understand," Sun Yiqing let out a long sigh on the other end of the phone, and said: "Xiao Jia, Gao Zijian is not mature, you will definitely suffer some more if you are with him, before you get married, I think, if I can do my best to make him realize how to be a mature and responsible man, even if it is the end...... I'll be reassured, too. ”

Sun Yiqing's voice is low and magnetic, in this busy afternoon, at the most irritable moment in my heart, it is like a cup of fragrant milk tea, the aroma is pervasive, through the throat, the whole person, at this moment, instant tranquility.

I'm a selfish person after all, and I still want to find Gao Zijian.

Biting my lip gently, I said into the phone: "Sun Yiqing, I owe you, in this life, I'm afraid it won't be over." ”

There was a chuckle on the other end of the phone, and I heard Sun Yiqing half-jokingly say: "No, who knows if I will counterattack at the last moment, all of this is uncertain!" ”

Sun Yiqing said this, I had nothing to answer, and after a few simple words, I hung up the phone, picked up the beans, and turned around and threw myself into the traffic.

Along the way, my mind was full of Gao Zijian's angry appearance in the morning, thinking that his luggage and other items were still in my place, and I returned to Yunshui. I understand the grievances in his heart, and there are some things that don't need to be said at all, because I understand, so I feel distressed.

Looking at the rows of neat trees flashing outside the car window, looking at the sleeping mountains and the blue sky in the distance, I suddenly realized that my stubbornness had made me miss too much, and this time, I wanted to have a good time with Gao Zijian.

An hour later, the car finally stopped at the door, and I hugged the sleepy beans and ran straight home.

The moment I pushed the door open, my heart skipped a beat, and an ominous feeling suddenly swept through my body, and I carried the beans to the bedroom, covered the quilt, and hurried upstairs, when my right foot landed on the last flight of stairs, I raised my head without hesitation, but no.

Nothing.

Gao Zijian's luggage was left behind, and there was nothing left at the neat bedside.

He came in a hurry, went in a hurry, and left nothing.

I forgot how to forget, the house is his, the key is his, he wants to come back, he wants to leave, isn't it all, it's a no-brainer?

Spread out the phone, glanced at the line of words on the phone screen again, and my heart was full of loss, and I couldn't put it into words.

Just three simple words – I miss you.

If you choose to leave because of my stubbornness, my cowardice, my hesitation, then at this moment, in this silent evening, I have clearly understood a little, Gao Zijian, I miss you.

I am willing to face the difficulties encountered four years ago, the setbacks I experienced four years ago, I am willing to bear with you, and the continuation of love between us, Xiaodouzi.

An hour has passed, and the phone is still silent, I don't know what Gao Zijian's silence at the moment represents, but my heart can't help but be anxious.

Douzi was still asleep peacefully in the bedroom, I sat at the door, spread out the diary, the tenth page, is the third month since I left Gao Zijian, full of his name.

Suddenly, there was a noise at the door, I stood up in surprise, took two steps forward, and looked out of the door, it was not Gao Zijian, but Sun Yiqing.

I looked at him with some consternation, he was in a wheelchair, Tian Xin followed behind him, the sky had sunk, but I could still see the faint smile on his face, until he slowly approached, I suddenly woke up and said, "Why did you come back suddenly?" ”

"Sister-in-law, the senior is too worried about you and the child, I and the doctor have persuaded N times, there is no way, he has to come back." Tian Xin didn't wait for Sun Yiqing to speak, and walked in with a wheelchair.

I hurried over, closed the journal, and said, "I'll make you something to eat." ”

"No," Sun Yiqing opened his mouth and said, "Tian Xin, go buy some food nearby and come back, with your mobile phone." ”

Tian Xin glanced at me, then at Sun Yiqing, and said, "Okay, then I'll go first......"

There were only me and Sun Yiqing left in the room, and he looked at me and said, "He's gone?" ”

I nodded lightly and said, "The phone didn't get through, and the text message didn't go back." ”

"Maybe I'm talking too much...... Sun Yiqing sighed softly and said, "I haven't returned here, I guess I've left Yunshui." ”

I looked at Sun Yiqing in surprise and asked, "You mean, he went back?" ”

Sun Yiqing looked at me, nodded, and said, "Xiao Jia, if you really can't let go, go find him." ”

"Go to him?"

"Well, I understand the panic in your heart, but there are some things that can't be solved by escaping, although I ...... However, I also want to see you happy, so go find him......"