Falling, falling all the time......

Where is this? Is this architecture, this style, American?

I saw a shriveled girl in ragged clothes, squatting pitifully beside the garbage can on the corner of the street, rummaging through the ropes.

This is the seventh time Xiao Muxi has seen the Asian-looking girl here this month, and her friends at the academy told her that the girl is a "homeless child" with a very eccentric personality, and no one will try to get close to her.

Xiao Mu is not a nosy person, in China, there will be people like this on the street corner of almost every city, Xiao Mu can't even take care of himself, where is there any other mind to care about others.

So I just took one more look and was about to walk towards the conservatory not far away, but when I turned around, I saw the Chinese face that the little girl happened to raise...... They looked at each other.

……

Xiao Mu continued to walk forward, leaving the throbbing of that moment behind, but when he passed by a bakery, the eyes of the girl just now suddenly flashed in his mind, which were a pair of lonely, longing for happiness eyes, Xiao Mu could see himself in those eyes.

Xiao Mu couldn't take a step anymore, looked at the bakery in front of him motionlessly, hesitated for a while, pushed open the door of the store, and walked in.

Back to the street corner just now, sure enough, the girl was still there, but she changed a trash can and continued to squat.

"Hello, are you Chinese?" Xiao Mu walked to a distance of about three meters from the girl and stopped, and gently accosted her in Chinese.

The girl seemed to be afraid of Xiao Mu, who was approaching, and stared at her with a wary expression.

Xiao Mu saw that the girl was just on guard, and did not show any other reaction, gently put the bread he had just bought in his hand at his feet, and explained in English again: "This, I put it here, if you need it, come and get it"

The girl finally reacted, looking at the bread on the ground with longing eyes, but still staring at Xiao Mu not far away with a wary gaze, and did not take further action. Seeing that the girl finally had a reaction, Xiao Mu smiled gently, took a few steps back, and set off again towards the academy.

After school, Xiao Mu gently turned a corner with his acoustic guitar on his back, and after a while, he saw a ragged girl rushing out of the road she had just walked, but stopped at the fork in the road a little ahead and looked left and right.

Xiao Mu gently walked out of the corner and walked directly behind the girl: "Why do you keep following me?"

The girl seemed to be frightened by Xiao Mu's sudden appearance, and it took a long time to explain in English with an obvious southern accent: "I... I don't have anywhere to go..."

"You're not a local?"

"No... No, I used to live in New Orleans."

New Orleans is a full 3,000 kilometers away from Boston, and Xiao Mu looked at the skinny little girl in front of him and couldn't imagine what she had experienced.

"It's okay, then... Just follow me."

……

"Why are you hiding here?"

Xiao Mu looked at the girl who had shrunk into a ball and hid in her cabinet, and asked puzzledly.

"I... I thought you were gone."

Xiao Mu looked at the girl's obviously insecure defensive posture, her heart throbbed slightly, and after a slight adjustment, she smiled and said to the girl: "This is my room, where can I go?" Actually, I'm just going to buy you clothes, come, try it, see if the size fits."

The girl looked at the new colorful clothes and whispered in disbelief: "This... All bought for me? ”

"yes, I don't know what you like, so I bought more"

"Why?"

"What, why?"

The girl turned her head and looked at Xiao Mu seriously, and her tone was serious: "Why are you so good to me?" Because I look like a Chinese? ”

"Poof! There are so many Chinese, if I were so good to every Chinese, then I wouldn't be bankrupt? ”

The girl blushed slightly at Xiao Mu's straightforward words: "Then why are you ......?"

"Because you're like me"

"Am I like you?"

"Yes, it's not the looks, it's the eyes. You are like me, we both want to be happy, so we have to work together and work hard for our happiness."

"We? Happy together? ”

"Yes!"

……

"Happy ...... Together"

"Xiao Mu, Xiao Mu!"

Xiao Mu? Who is Xiao Mu?

Is it me?

Who is it, who is calling me?

"Xiao Mu, are you awake?!"

"Brother Xu?"

"Well, it's me, you're awake, how's that? Is there anything wrong with it? ”

"No, I'm fine, this is..."Xiao Mu looked around, "... Hospital?"

"Well, you scared me to death, and suddenly fainted on the roof."

Roof? Muzi?

It wasn't a dream, I really, really lost Muzi forever......

Xu Geyang felt the sudden sluggish mood of the girl on the hospital bed, hesitated for a while, and still said, "Do you want to read Muzi's last article on Weibo?" …… It's her last words. ”

"Last words?"

"Yes, she wrote it in advance, and she also set a scheduled release"

Xiao Mu raised his hand weakly and said softly, "Show it to me"

Xu Geyang turned on his phone, adjusted the screen to the interface of Muzi's suicide note, and gently handed it to Xiao Mu.

Xiao Mu took the phone with a slight tremor and began to read word by word.

For all:

My name is Lin Muzi, and this name was chosen for me by Sister Xiao Mu.

I am the heroine of the "sexual assault case by my adoptive father when I was a child", not Sister Xiao Mu.

Before I was eight years old, my name was Linda, and I was an orphan; After I was nine years old, my name was Cherry, and I was named by the American family who adopted me, and I knew by the name that he was a damn pedophile; After the age of twelve, I ran away from that perverted family and became a street child with no name; It wasn't until I was eighteen years old that I met Sister Xiao Mu, and she gave her this name, Lin Muzi, like a tree, full of hope to live.

Before I met Sister Xiao Mu, I didn't know Chinese, but it was Sister Xiao Mu who taught me how to write the three words of Lin Muzi; I don't know what happiness is, it was Sister Xiao Mu who taught me how to smile, I don't know what happiness is, it was Sister Xiao Mu who taught me what happiness is.

The best person in the world told me that I would go to happiness with her, and that I would never be alone again. In those two years, I thought I had the whole world, and I took it for granted that I was already a normal person, so I fell in love with a man, a man who I thought would make me happier...... However, not all love will develop the way you expect, at least, my love is not.

Sister Xiao Mu, I'm sorry that because of my naivety and patience, I let irrelevant people bring you trouble and hurt, I'm really sorry, I don't think I'm qualified to call you sister anymore.

I have had no family since I can remember, I didn't have happiness in my childhood, I didn't have food and clothing in adolescence, and I even lost my love yesterday, and now, I'm going to lose you again, Sister Xiao Mu, I really don't have anything......

I know that Sister Xiao Mu is a very planned person, and I also believe that you can be a good actor as you said, but... I'm sorry, I can't be your good assistant anymore.

I think it's time for me to leave this world that doesn't belong to me, but I know that my sudden departure may make you fall into even worse public opinion, I don't want you to be misunderstood by everyone so good, I don't want you to be hurt by people who don't know you, so I want to write myself down and let everyone know how good you are and how worthy of everyone to like. Only in this way, even if I am gone, there will be more people to love you for me.

Sister Xiao Mu, I'm leaving, don't feel sorry for me, I think that although there is no other sister like you in the world over there, it also has no hunger, no violence, and no betrayal...... I think I should be able to live well over there, so ah, Sister Xiao Mu, you have to be happy for me ^O^!

Sister Xiao Mu, you once said that the sea is the kindest existence, no matter what you throw at him, he can accept it all.

Then I want to ask you one last thing, after I die, please help me scatter my ashes in the Yongding River, so that I can follow the river to that good place......

Sister Xiao Mu, you must be happy.

I don't want to, but I have to say it to you.

Goodbye, the best Sister Xiao Mu in the world.

Lin Muzi