Unthorny together...... This sentence made my heart move inexplicably, as if the snow in spring was suddenly warmed by the sudden spring breeze, although there is no way for the two people to get along with each other back to the point of glue, but at least they are no longer as hard together as before.

My feet tossed and turned in Jin Yan's wide palm, he washed it very carefully, while washing, he rubbed the soles of my feet back and forth with his hands, the originally cold feet were gradually warmed by the hot water and his rubbing, at that moment, the extremely tired body suddenly seemed to breed a huge warm current from the soles of the feet to the heart, and I bathed in this warm current, there was an indescribable warmth in my heart.

"Okay, that's okay, you can bubble too." I said softly, softly and softly.

"No, you'll have to soak it for at least 20 minutes. Your hands and feet are always very cold, I'll ask the old Chinese medicine doctor another day to see how I can recuperate for you. Jin Yan said very naturally while rubbing it.

"After giving birth to Qiuqiu, I often got up at night to take care of him during the month, and now my hands and feet hurt when I get wind......" He mentioned the old Chinese medicine doctor, and I couldn't help but speak, but suddenly stopped, because he raised his head and looked at me with great guilt, but I didn't know how to continue.

Oh, yes...... I gritted my teeth during that time, and he didn't participate, so isn't it abrupt and sad to mention this now? I couldn't help but secretly feel annoyed.

"I'm sorry, I will never be absent at such an important moment again." Obviously it wasn't his fault, but he insisted on taking all the mistakes on himself, and he still humbly admits his mistakes so humbly.

My heart loosened a little again, and I said softly: "We won't mention the past in the future, let's look back, as long as Qiuqiu and you are safe, it will be fine."

"No, I know you still have a knot in your heart that hasn't been opened. We must face the past calmly in order to step into the future. If you keep getting stuck there, there's no way to go backwards. Jin Yan shook his head and said with a smile.

I handed him a clean white towel, he wiped his hands, and I said to him, "You put your feet in too, let's go clubbing."

"Really?" His gaze looked very surprised, and he looked eager to try.

"Hmm." I nodded solemnly.

He hurriedly ran to the bathroom and rinsed his feet again, dried them with a towel, and then moved a small stool and sat opposite me, put his feet in the footbath tremblingly, and then looked at me and smiled stupidly.

I didn't speak, I squatted down and as soon as my hand touched his foot, he quickly helped me up: "Don't move, I'll come by myself."

"I'll wash it for you, too." I whispered.

He shook his head, and he said, "No, I'll wash it myself." In the future, these things will only be done by me for you, and your task is to be responsible for enjoying the care I have for you. ”

Jin Yan ...... "Listening to these love words, I couldn't help but moisten my eyes.

"I'm here, don't call me Jin Yan, it looks so rusty, is it okay to call my husband? As before. He looked at me wistfully.

"Call you Xiaoyan, if you call your husband, it's not appropriate now." I said softly.

He was a little disappointed, but he quickly regained his happiness, and he deliberately crossed the soles of my feet with his feet in the footbath, and I couldn't help but laugh.

"I didn't dare to ask you a question, but now, I can finally ask." Jin Yan said suddenly.

"What's the problem?" I was a little surprised.

"I always wanted to ask you, what would have happened to us if we couldn't find the ball?" He asked weakly, and then said, "Actually, as soon as I asked, I already knew the answer in your heart." ”

"I didn't think about it because I never gave up on seeking the ball. If I can't find it, I think I'll spend the rest of my life looking for it. Didn't you think so at the time? I looked up at him, and I couldn't help but glance at the ball lying in the crib.

"Of course I wasn't going to give up, but I had a very bad idea at the time." After he finished speaking, he suddenly smiled slyly.

"What thoughts?"

It's been a long time since I've seen him smile like this, and when I saw him smile like this again, I felt as if we had never been separated, and the four long years in between seemed like a dream. When we woke up, we were still together.

"I think if we haven't found it after years of searching, and you're thinking too much, I'll secretly impregnate you and let you have another child, so maybe your pain will be lessened a little." After he finished speaking, he fumbled with my foot ambiguously.

It was late at night, and he said it in a serious tone, but the small movement of his feet betrayed him, and I couldn't help laughing.

If he hadn't had such thoughts before Qiuqiu had found him, I might never have bothered with him again for the rest of my life; But listening to him say this at this moment, I suddenly felt that his former cute side was still there, and he was still the same Jin Yan as he was at the beginning.

When he saw that I was smiling, he was not angry, so he spoke a little more boldly, and he said, "Don't just laugh, if I do this, will you be angry?"

"I don't know, I just know that before Qiuqiu was not recovered, there was no self in my life, and there was no you, only one thought and one breath. If I can't get it back, maybe I won't be alive anymore, because it's too painful to live like that. I said.

My words made Jin Yan's eyes widen in surprise, he looked at me, suddenly reached over and touched my face, he said: "Look at how haggard you have been in the past few years, every time I think of all these hardships you have suffered, and I feel very guilty when I think of you struggling to hold on alone for so long."

"Don't talk about this, didn't you say it's okay, isn't it sad?" I smiled and gently toddled his foot.

"Well, at that time, every time I saw your sad face, my heart ached. When you see it once, your heart hurts once. Do you remember the night we were at the Goddess Mountain? That night, did you know how much I wanted to tell you that I didn't have amnesia the moment you took the initiative to kiss me? At that time, I even thought, forget it, let's live with the python on the goddess for the rest of our lives, stop paying attention to those grievances and grievances, and stop bearing those things that shouldn't be borne by us. Jin Yan said leisurely, rubbing his hand back and forth on my face, "Look at you, I've been crying a lot these days, my eyes are crying badly, and now there are slight fine lines at the corners of my eyes." ”

"If I had known you weren't amnesia, I wouldn't have kissed you. I should have slapped you hard. I said with a smile.

"Do you think it's okay for me to see you and Zhao Qinhan together every time? Especially when I wasn't sure that Qiuqiu was my child, you didn't know how complicated I felt every time I saw Qiuqiu. Especially when you deliberately got angry with me in the end, you told me that Qiuqiu was not mine, I was so angry that I vomited blood, I really vomited blood, you know? At that time, I felt that I didn't want to live anymore, and there was no point in living, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt that something was wrong, the more I watched the ball, the more I looked like my son, how could the child born by Zhao Qinhan be so white......" Jin Yan also said with a calm smile.

"At that time, why did Tao Mengran invest in a farmhouse next to me? Was it your idea? I've always wondered why she was investing in this. I couldn't help but ask.

"It's my idea, I see that your farmhouse business is getting better and better, and the place is not big enough, but I know that you have always been cautious and not adventurous, and you will not expand rashly, so I persuaded Tao Mengran to invest next to you, and put her liquidity there, her capital turnover is not strong, and I can carry out my plan well...... I know you don't like to hear about it, and I don't want to say more. But at the beginning, she and Zhao Qinhan worked together to design to separate us, and I can't help but avenge this revenge. Jin Yan said slowly.

"I didn't expect the two of them to end up like this, I really never thought about it." Speaking of these, I can't help but feel a little heavier in my heart.

"Little book, don't be too womanly. If it weren't for them, why should we endure such a separation? I think the two of them deserve it. You don't know the despair in my heart when I came out of it and Tao Mengran told me that you had lived with Zhao Qinhan. I swore at the time that I would work hard to avenge my wife's death. At that time, Zhao Qinhan was still a big mountain in my heart, and I knew how tough he was in the background, but then I gradually discovered that no matter how solid the relationship looks on the outside, as long as you work hard, you can still find a breakthrough. Xiaoshu, I know that I have spent some energy on Tao Mengran, but I have never used a little affection for her, nor have I moved a little heart. You've always loved you, you know? Jin Yan said with a solemn expression.

"But haven't you been together for two years? Do you know how heartbroken I was when you appeared in front of me with her? Although I knew the meaning of his words in my heart, women are always cautious when facing these things, and they can't capsize in the wind and waves, but they are easy to be insurmountable because of these little gutters.

Women are jealous by nature, and the man they love is a little contaminated by others, and they feel that it is a huge pollution. Even if he understands that he has no choice but to do so in this process, his heart still feels like a layer of dust.

"I know, and I don't try to explain or make excuses for those things. In short, I will make up for this lack in the remaining years. Jin Yan replied cautiously.

"Jin Yan, seriously, we have loved each other for so many years, don't you feel tired?" In the dim light, I asked leisurely.