I looked at the message sent by Angel blankly, my eyes gradually blurred, and there was a feeling of warmth in the corners of my eyes, I wanted to cry, crazy, am I crazy?

"Miss her...... Go for her if you want to! "That's what I just said to myself.

What is stopping me from wanting to run away, sanity? More than sanity........ In the end, what stopped me from running away was my bad life, and I seemed to finally understand why I couldn't have a good relationship!!

I have 3 loves because: I am poor, I am short-minded, and I am lost, and now I am not short-minded, but I am even poorer........ Every woman around me is so good, I can't be with them calmly, so I've been pretending, always detouring, and always trembling!!

After going through so much, I Zhang Yixi can tell everyone with my own experience that without a material foundation, any love or marriage is unreliable, and with a material foundation, love or marriage is only possible and reliable.

The two live together too complicated, full of many visible or invisible contradictions, so in the era we live in today's high, there is such a high divorce rate, are these divorced people have never loved each other?

I'm pessimistic about love, I'm really pessimistic....... I can't even guarantee the most basic materials, how can I pursue a love that will never be abandoned, life and death?

I'm different from the prince, it's really different, Shen Man is with him, at least he lives an upper-class life, and Wang Mengmeng follows me? It's just a reminder of the little life of fear, trembling, she loves me so much, how can I repay her with this kind of life? And besides, she has more good options besides me.......

What about Angel? If I am with Anqi, I will live a life of hugging my thighs, I will always live under Anqi's halo, when others mention me, no one will say Zhang Yixi, only say: Anqi, that useless man........ This is not an exaggeration, or that I am on the tip of the horns, but it is the reality!

Even if I endure the humiliation and accept this kind of thigh-hugging life, is Anqi's family willing to let Anqi find such a person who hugs her thighs to lose her family's face? Will her family accept me from humble beginnings?

Once time passes, will Angel be able to maintain the original impulse and maintain our relationship? One day she'll be tired, and so will I.......

Regarding love, I have experienced too much about life, I have seen everything too thoroughly, Zhang Yixi, who has no career, does not deserve love....... The center of my life should be rationally returned to the career, a strong career is the guarantee of love, this is right, really true, this world is not a world rich in fairy tales, tragedy we have seen too much........ At least I, Zhang Yixi, have seen too much.

I let out a heavy breath, swiped the phone, and clicked the words out of the screen one by one: "I'm sorry, I don't love you enough!" ”

Tears slipped down my face, this is the sorrow given to me by this era, I have no material security, I have completely lost the right to enjoy and dominate love.

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I slapped my face heavily, my teeth gritted "gurgling", and I slapped away the aggrieved and cowardly tears on my face, and I kept telling myself: "Zhang Yixi, fight hard....... Let's fight hard........ Fight hard, your life is too short now, you have to run with your head down on this endless road, if you dare to covet the scenery along the way, you will eventually die on this road....... And at the end of the road, there is another life! (Seeing this, you should understand, why the first volume is called "life is too short", I dare to say that there is no book in the online literature industry that is more realistic than the best girlfriend in terms of perception, the reality is like this, those who understand my book will naturally gain something, and those who don't understand it will only be read as a love letter, hehe)

The phone rang again, I didn't look, I didn't listen, I turned off directly, tired, really tired! I want to rest quietly for a night, and tomorrow I don't want my life to be so short, I want a bright life!

I swallowed 3 sleeping pills at once, lay down on the bed, and finally fell asleep groggily.

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The next day, the sun was so bright, it seemed that I had not been so bright in the decades I lived, I was not sad or happy, according to the set program, I took out the eggs from the refrigerator, took some green vegetables, cooked myself a bowl of green vegetable noodles, and after breakfast, I followed the procedure and prepared to go to the store to start the day's work!

I went downstairs to the garage and pushed out the dusty "presidential car", and I lived a desolate life, but also a kind of life, which I had been doing for more than 20 years.

The tires were out of gas, I rummaged through the cabinets, found the gas pump in a bag that had been weathered, helped the car to fill up, wiped it with a cloth, and the car seemed to have changed its spirit, I looked at the car and giggled, I thought it looked very stupid, stupid car, with stupid people, very good, very good........

I pushed the car to the fast charging point outside the community, after throwing 2 coins, lit a cigarette and squatted on the ground waiting for the car to charge, after a cigarette was smoked, I seemed to be bored, so I greeted the bright sunshine, looked around at the beautiful girls on the road, if I met a girl who responded to my eyes, I would also whistle at them, and suddenly exchanged for a dozen big eyes, but I was happy, I was originally a person who was mixed in the market.

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A red Ancora stopped in front of me, and a cute but beautiful girl walked out of the car, many people call such a high-quality girl a goddess, and I call her Mengmeng.

Squatting on the ground, I raised my head to look at her, Wang Mengmeng and I looked at each other, and then looked at the charging car that looked stupid........ She suddenly cried: "Xixi~~~!" ”

I was still squatting on the ground and said impatiently, "What are you crying about, what are you crying about?" The weather is so good, you are going to cry it rain, be careful that the people of Nantong complain about you and despise you .......! ”

"I don't want to see you have a bad ........," Wang Mengmeng said with a whimper.

I slapped my hand on the ground, slapped it several times, and jumped up from the ground: "What's wrong with me?" Seeing that the car is charging, I call it the presidential car, panoramic sunroof, seven-speed shifting, green environmental protection, when can you drive such a car? ”

Wang Mengmeng was amused by my words, slapped me, and said, "Xixi, you are really annoying!" ”

I glanced at Wang Mengmeng, took out 10 yuan from my wallet and handed it to Wang Mengmeng, and said, "Mengmeng, you see that you are so fat, you have to exercise in the morning, so let's do it, I'll give you a chance to exercise, and you help me buy a pack of cigarettes on the other side." ”

"Oh." Wang Mengmeng took the money from my hand and turned around and walked to the opposite side.

"Wait......."

"What's wrong, Sissy?" Wang Mengmeng turned to look at me.

"Don't spend all 10 yuan, buy me that 7 yuan a pack of hanging silk cigarettes!"

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Wang Mengmeng's figure has been flooded by vehicles coming and going, I shook my head, my heart twitched, later, how should I tell her my decision?? I, Zhang Yixi, really can't be so selfish and delay one woman after another........ I really don't deserve her to treat me like this, I'm just a man who is still struggling with a low life!

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(I'll do two more today, I don't know what these two chapters are written myself....... ）